VII

Choice of a sanatorium by people of limited means is, unfortunately,

very restricted. Though my relatives believed the one in which I was

placed was at least fairly well conducted, events proved otherwise.

From a modest beginning made not many years previously, it had enjoyed

a mushroom growth. About two hundred and fifty patients were harbored

in a dozen or more small frame buildings, suggestive of a mill

settlement. Outside the limits of a city and in a state where there was

lax official supervision, owing in part to faulty laws, the owner of

this little settlement of woe had erected a nest of veritable

fire-traps in which helpless sick people were forced to risk their

lives. This was a necessary procedure if the owner was to grind out an

exorbitant income on his investment.

The same spirit of economy and commercialism pervaded the entire

institution. Its worst manifestation was in the employment of the

meanest type of attendant--men willing to work for the paltry wage of

eighteen dollars a month. Very seldom did competent attendants consent

to work there, and then usually because of a scarcity of profitable

employment elsewhere. Providentially for me, such an attendant came

upon the scene. This young man, so long as he remained in the good

graces of the owner-superintendent, was admittedly one of the best

attendants he had ever had. Yet aside from a five-dollar bill which a

relative had sent me at Christmas and which I had refused to accept

because of my belief that it, like my relatives, was counterfeit--aside

from that bill, which was turned over to the attendant by my brother,

he received no additional pecuniary rewards. His chief reward lay in

his consciousness of the fact that he was protecting me against

injustices which surely would have been visited upon me had he quitted

his position and left me to the mercies of the owner and his ignorant

assistants. To-day, with deep appreciation, I contrast the treatment I

received at his hands with that which I suffered during the three weeks

preceding his appearance on the scene. During that period, no fewer

than seven attendants contributed to my misery. Though some of them

were perhaps decent enough fellows outside a sickroom, not one had the

right to minister to a patient in my condition.

The two who were first put in charge of me did not strike me with their

fists or even threaten to do so; but their unconscious lack of

consideration for my comfort and peace of mind was torture. They were

typical eighteen-dollar-a-month attendants. Another of the same sort,

on one occasion, cursed me with a degree of brutality which I prefer

not to recall, much less record. And a few days later the climax was

appropriately capped when still another attendant perpetrated an

outrage which a sane man would have resented to the point of homicide.

He was a man of the coarsest type. His hands would have done credit to

a longshoreman--fingers knotted and nearly twice the normal size.

Because I refused to obey a peremptory command, and this at a time when

I habitually refused even on pain of imagined torture to obey or to

speak, this brute not only cursed me with abandon, he deliberately spat

upon me. I was a mental incompetent, but like many others in a similar

position I was both by antecedents and by training a gentleman. Vitriol

could not have seared my flesh more deeply than the venom of this human

viper stung my soul! Yet, as I was rendered speechless by delusions, I

could offer not so much as a word of protest. I trust that it is not

now too late, however, to protest in behalf of the thousands of

outraged patients in private and state hospitals whose mute submission

to such indignities has never been recorded.

Of the readiness of an unscrupulous owner to employ inferior

attendants, I shall offer a striking illustration. The capable

attendant who acted as my protector at this sanatorium has given me an

affidavit embodying certain facts which, of course, I could not have

known at the time of their occurrence. The gist of this sworn statement

is as follows: One day a man--seemingly a tramp--approached the main

building of the sanatorium and inquired for the owner. He soon found

him, talked with him a few minutes, and an hour or so later he was

sitting at the bedside of an old and infirm man. This aged patient had

recently been committed to the institution by relatives who had labored

under the common delusion that the payment of a considerable sum of

money each week would insure kindly treatment. When this

tramp-attendant first appeared, all his visible worldly possessions

were contained in a small bundle which he carried under his arm. So

filthy were his person and his clothes that he received a compulsory

bath and another suit before being assigned to duty. He then began to

earn his four dollars and fifty cents a week by sitting several hours a

day in the room with the aged man, sick unto death. My informant soon

engaged him in conversation. What did he learn? First, that the uncouth

stranger had never before so much as crossed the threshold of a

hospital. His last job had been as a member of a section-gang on a

railroad. From the roadbed of a railway to the bedside of a man about

to die was indeed a change which might have taxed the adaptability of a

more versatile being. But coarse as he was, this unkempt novice did not

abuse his charge--except in so far as his inability to interpret or

anticipate wants contributed to the sick man's distress. My own

attendant, realizing that the patient was suffering for the want of

skilled attention, spent a part of his time in this unhappy room, which

was but across the hall from my own. The end soon came.

My attendant, who had had training as a nurse, detected the

unmistakable signs of impending death. He forthwith informed the owner

of the sanatorium that the patient was in a dying condition, and urged

him (a doctor) to go at once to the bedside. The doctor refused to

comply with the request on the plea that he was at the time "too busy."

When at last he did visit the room, the patient was dead. Then came the

supervisor, who took charge of the body. As it was being carried from

the room the supervisor, the "handy man" of the owner, said: "There

goes the best paying patient the institution had; the doctor" (meaning

the owner) "was getting eighty-five dollars a week out of him." Of this

sum not more than twenty dollars at most, at the time this happened,

could be considered as "cost of maintenance." The remaining sixty-five

dollars went into the pocket of the owner. Had the man lived for one

year, the owner might have pocketed (so far as this one case was

concerned) the neat but wicked profit of thirty-three hundred and

eighty dollars. And what would the patient have received? The same

privilege of living in neglect and dying neglected.

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