CHAPTER XIX.

There are two classes that are specially liable to disease,--those who

live grossly, and whose lives are spent in scenes of excitement, and

those who are finely organized, so delicately constituted, that their

nerves vibrate to every jar, not only of the physical but of the moral

atmosphere.

There are persons whose routine of daily life is seldom if ever

disturbed; whose minds are at ease on material questions. Having enough,

and to spare, they seek their pleasure from day to day, with scarcely an

interruption of their established course. Such may well be free from

the ills of the flesh, and being so, they complacently attack the less

fortunate, those whose lives are tumultuous and heavily-laden with their

own and other's needs; applying to them such remarks as, “They might

live more regular.” “They work too much.” “They do not work enough.”

“They go about too much.” “They do do not go about enough;” and having

delivered their opinions, these self-satisfied mortals settle themselves

down in their comforts, thanking God they are not as other men.

There are lives that are shaken with convulsions; circumstances over

which no mortal has control, surge their wild, tempest-waves over them,

and all their wishes are of no avail; they must take what is borne to

them. Raying out life every moment; pressed on every side, with every

faculty strained to its greatest tension, is it a matter of wonder that

they become weak, that they sicken and suffer?

Sickness is not a sin, neither is its presence derogatory to our

nature. It implies a susceptibility to the inharmonies of life, and is

complimentary than otherwise to our organization. They are not to be

envied who have never known an hour of pain and languor, for they

come not under the discipline and instruction of one of life's great

teachers. They are apt to be harsh, and cold, and unfeeling towards

their fellows; apt to be boastful of their own strength, and regardless

of the delicate sensibilities of others. While we should studiously

endeavor to live in harmony with the laws of our being, it is

nevertheless true that with all the caution we may exercise, we cannot

avoid, if we are spiritually true, the jarring of the inharmonies of

this world, and from this as much if not more than from any other cause,

come the ills and pains of our earthly life.

These disturbances of the spirit produce to those of fine natures a

similar disturbance of their physical condition; then disease follows

and makes sad havoc with the temple of the soul.

On a subject so intricate as the cause of disease, only a few hints can

here be given.

People become sickly from living too long together; from pursuing

continuously one branch of study or labor; from meeting too often with

one class of minds; from living on one kind of food, or on food cooked

by one person; besides, there are countless other causes; agitations of

mind, overtasked and irregular lives are constantly generating impure

magnetisms, with which the whole atmosphere is tainted, and which those

who are susceptible are forced to absorb.

As there are many causes of disease, there must be many ways of cure. No

one system can regulate the disturbances of the complex machinery of the

human frame.

Dr. Franklin subjected himself to what was denominated the air bath,

as a remedial agent. Others believed in the direct action of the sun,

placing themselves beneath glass cupolas to receive it; while still

later we have the water-cure, which is thought by many to heal all

diseases. These are right in combination, but no one will cure alone.

Does the strong man, with steady nerves, compact muscle, and perfect

arterial circulation, need the same remedy when ill, as a less

vigorous person, one whose hourly suffering is from a diseased nervous

organization?

One member of a family argues that because he can bathe in ice water,

another, with more feeble circulation, can do the same, and realize the

same results. One man will take no medicine, another swallow scarcely

anything else, and thus we find extremes following each other.

One ideaism in this direction is as much to be avoided as in any other.

The man of good sense says, “I will take whatever is required to restore

the balance of my system.”

Of mental disorders we know little. Asylums for their treatment have

multiplied in our midst, but few of the thousands of educated physicians

are qualified to minister to a mind diseased. Past modes will not do for

to-day. Our conditions are not the same. Our lives are faster, our needs

greater. Our grand-parents lived in the age of muscle; we exist in the

nerve period, and have new demands, both in our mental and physical

structure.

And new light will come in answer to the demand. The eye of clairvoyance

is already penetrating beyond science, and traversing the world of

causes.

Eagerly Florence broke the seal of her first letter from Hugh. He had

arrived safely, and wafted over the sea his own and Dawn's love and

remembrance.

“Dawn desires to go to Germany, first,” he wrote, “and as I have

business with parties in Berlin, I shall gratify her wish. I thought,

all along, how much I wished you were with us, but since writing I

feel different. I need you at home to express myself to, when I am

overflowing with thought. If you were at my side, when I am seeing all

these things, we should both have the feast together, and be done. Now,

in rehearsing it to you, I enjoy it over again. Very much we shall have

to talk about, when we meet again. How I would like to transmit to your

mind the vivid impressions of my own, when I first put my foot on the

soil of England; but such things are not possible, and sometime I hope

you will be here yourself, and feel the thrill of the old world under

your feet.”

This portion of the long and interesting letter so refreshed her, that

Miss Evans, when she came in after tea, guessed at once the cause of the

sparkling eye that greeted her.

“Letters are wonderful tonics,” said Mr. Temple, laughingly, as he

glanced toward Florence.

“That depends from whom they come,” she answered, and repented of it as

soon as said. She looked up after a while, but there was no shadow on

his face. She saw that he was sharing her joy, and then she knew that

not a ripple of doubt would ever disturb their smoothly flowing life.

Miss Evans left at an early hour, and reaching her home, wrote till

nearly midnight. Her nature was one that was most elastic at night; her

brilliancy seemed to come with the stars.

Page after page fell from her desk to the floor; thought followed

thought, till the mortal light seemed to give place to the divine. At

length the theme grew so mighty, and words seemed so feeble to portray

it, that she laid down the pen and wept,--wept not tears of exhaustion,

but of joy at the soul's prospective. Sublime was the scene before her

vision; enrapturing the prospect opening before earth's pilgrims, and

she felt truly thankful that she was privileged to point out the way to

those whose faith was weak, and who walked tremblingly along the road.

She gathered her pages, laid them in order, and then wrote the following

in her journal:

“Night, beautiful night; dark below but brilliant above. I am not alone.

These stars, some of them marking my destiny, know well my joys and my

griefs. They are shining on me now. The waters are darkest nearest the

shore, and perchance I am near some haven of rest. I have been tossed

for many a year, yet, cease my heart to mourn, for my joys have been

great. The world looks on me, and calls me strong. Heaven knows how

weak I am, for this heart has had its sorrows, and these eyes have

wept bitter tears. The warm current of my love has not departed; it has

turned to crystals around my heart, cold, but pure and sparkling. There

is a voice that can melt them, as the sun dissolves the frost.-I turn a

leaf. This shall not record so much of self, or be so tinged with my own

heart's pulsations,--this page now fair and spotless.

“I thought, a month ago, this feeling would never come again. I hold my

secret safe; why will my nerves keep trembling so, when down, far down

in my soul, I feel so strong?

“To-night I must put around my heart a girdle of strong purpose, and

bid these useless thoughts be gone. I must not pulsate so intensely with

feeling. My fate is to stand still and weave my thoughts into garlands

for others. I must lay a heavy mantle on my breast, and wrap fold after

fold upon my heart, that its beating may not be heard. Why have we

hearts? Heads are better, and guide us to safer ports.

“'T is past the midnight hour. What scratches of the pen I have put upon

this virgin page. So does time mark us o'er and o'er. We must carry the

marks of his hand to the shore of the great hereafter. Beyond, we shall

drink from whatever fount will best suffice us. Here, we must take the

cup as 't is passed to us, bitter or sweet-'t is not ours to choose.

These boundaries of self are good. Where should we roam if left to our

inclinations? Let me trust and wait God's own time and way.”

“Dear Florence,” wrote Dawn, some months after they had been away, “I

have seen gay, smiling France, and beautiful Italy with its wealth of

sunlight, and its treasures of art. I have seen classic Greece,--of

which we have talked so many hours,--and its fairy islands nestling in

the blue Archipelago,--isles where Sappho sang. I have been among the

Alps, and have seen the sunset touch with its last gleam, the eternal

waste of snow; but more than all, I love dear Germany, the land of music

and flowers, scholarship and mystic legends.

“Now, my good friend and teacher, how shall I describe to you my state

amid all this new life? At first I felt as though my former existence

had been one long sleep, or as I suppose the mineral kingdom might feel

in passing to the vegetable order, as some one has expressed it.

“It was an awakening that thrilled my being with intensest delight; a

fullness which left nothing to hope for. A new revelation of life

has arisen within me, as sudden and grand as the appearing of those

mysterious isles which are upheaved in a single night from the depths of

the ocean.

“A deeper pulsation than I have ever known, now stirs my blood. I feel

the claims of humanity calling me to labor. My purpose is strong; I

shall return with this thrill in my heart, and become one of God's

willing instruments. That He will own me, I feel in every heart-beat. My

mission is to erring women, and you, my friend, will smile, I know, on

my purpose.

“The other night I dreamed that a beautiful being stood by my side,

while a light, such as I have never seen on earth, shone about her.

“'Tell me,' I said, 'why this heavenly halo is around you? and if I,

too, may become like you?'

“'Listen.' She answered. 'Years ago, I lived on earth and passed through

much suffering. I seemed to be placed in a close, high building, into

which all the light that could enter came from above. I could only look

up, with no power to turn to the right or left. After being years in

this state, the rays coming thus directly from above, cleansed my soul,

whitened my garment, and made it spotless. This light became a part

of myself; it followed me to the other world, and now, when I approach

earth, it enables me to see all the errors and virtues of humanity.

Wouldst thou be willing to become a light by which pilgrims can see the

way to Heaven?'

“'I would. My only desire is to do good,' I replied.

“'It is easy to desire this,' she remarked, sadly.

“'But wouldst thou be willing to be almost annihilated, were it by that

only you might become a lamp to the pilgrim's feet?'

“I looked into my heart, and think I spoke truthfully, when I answered

that I would.

“'Then thou art accepted,' the angel said. 'It shall not be literal

annihilation, although akin to it, for all your earthly desires must be

swept away; all ambition, fame, learning, friends, must be sacrificed

upon this altar. The light you will bear is fed alone from heavenly

sources. Think again, child, if all these things can be as naught.'

“I searched my soul once more. One answer, one word broke from my

lips,--'Amen.'

“'T is well,' the angel visitant said; 'thy being shall be turned to

light.'

“I awoke. The morning sun shone in my windows, and laid in golden bars

upon my bed. I thought long of the vision of the night, and then sat

down to pen it to you. To me it is significant. Write and tell me if it

seems but a dream to you. I should like to be permitted to glorify my

name, and be the 'Dawn' of light to some of earth's weary pilgrims.”

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