A STORM.
"I have a plan," said Julia, a week or two later. "Can you guess it? No,
I think not; yet you _might_! O, how lovely the light falls on your
hair: it is perfect satin!"
She had one hand on his shoulder, and ran the fingers of the other
lightly through his brown locks. Her face, sparkling all over with a
witching fondness, was lifted towards his. It was the climax of an
amiable mood which had lasted three days.
What young man can resist a playful, appealing face, a soft, caressing
touch? Joseph smiled as he asked,—
"Is it that I shall wear my hair upon my shoulders, or that we shall sow
plaster on the clover-field, as old Bishop advised you the other day?"
"Now you are making fun of my interest in farming; but wait another
year! I am trying earnestly to understand it, but only so that
ornament—beauty—what was the word in those lines you read last
night?—may grow out of use. That's it—Beauty out of Use! I know I've
bored you a little sometimes——just a little, now, confess it!—with all
my questions; but this is something different. Can't you think of
anything that would make our home, O so much more beautiful?"
"A grove of palm-trees at the top of the garden? Or a lake in front,
with marble steps leading down to the water?"
"You perverse Joseph! No: something possible, something practicable,
something handsome, something profitable! Or, are you so old-fashioned
that you think we must drudge for thirty years, and only take our
pleasure after we grow rheumatic?"
Joseph looked at her with a puzzled, yet cheerful face.
"You don't understand me yet!" she exclaimed. "And indeed, indeed, I
dread to tell you, for one reason: you have such a tender regard for old
associations,—not that I'd have it otherwise, if I could. I like it: I
trust I have the same feeling; yet a little sentiment sometimes
interferes practically with the improvement of our lives."
Joseph's curiosity was aroused. "What do you mean, Julia?" he asked.
"No!" she cried; "I will not tell you until I have read part of pa's
letter, which came this afternoon. Take the arm-chair, and don't
interrupt me."
She seated herself on the window-sill and opened the letter. "I saw,"
she said, "how uneasy you felt when the call came for the fourth
instalment of ten per cent. on the Amaranth shares, especially after I
had so much difficulty in persuading you not to sell the half. It
surprised _me_, although I knew that, where pa is concerned, there's a
good reason for everything. So I wrote to him the other day, and this is
what he says,—you remember, Kanuck is the company's agent on the spot:—
"'Tell Joseph that in matters of finance there's often a wheel within a
wheel. Blenkinsop, of the Chowder Company, managed to get a good grab of
our shares through a third party, of whom we had not the slightest
suspicion. I name no name at present, from motives of prudence. We only
discovered the circumstance after the third party left for Europe.
Looking upon the Chowder as a rival, it is our desire, of course, to
extract this entering wedge before it has been thrust into our vitals,
and we can only accomplish the end by still keeping secret the discovery
of the torpedoes (an additional expense, I might remark), and calling
for fresh instalments from _all_ the stockholders. Blenkinsop, not being
within the inside ring,—and no possibility of _his_ getting in!—will
naturally see only the blue of disappointment where we see the rose of
realized expectations. Already, so Kanuck writes to me, negotiations are
on foot which will relieve our Amaranth of this parasitic growth, and a
few weeks—days—hours, in fact, may enable us to explode and triumph! I
was offered, yesterday, by one of our shrewdest operators, who has been
silently watching us, ten shares of the Sinnemahoning Hematite for eight
of ours. Think of that,—the Sinnemahoning Hematite! No better stock in
the market, if you remember the quotations! Explain the significance of
the figures to your husband, and let him see that he has—but no, I will
restrain myself and make no estimate. I will only mention, under the
seal of the profoundest secrecy, that the number of shafts now sinking
(or being sunk) will give an enormous flowing capacity when the electric
spark fires the mine, and I should not wonder if our shares then soared
high over the pinnacles of all previous speculation!'
"No, nor I!" Julia exclaimed, as she refolded the letter; "it is
certain,—positively certain! I have never known the Sinnemahoning
Hematite to be less than 147. What do you say, Joseph?"
"I hope it may be true," he answered. "I can't feel so certain, while an
accident—the discovery of the torpedo-plan, for instance—might change
the prospects of the Amaranth. It will be a great relief when the time
comes to 'realize,' as your father says."
"You only feel so because it is your first experience; but for your sake
I will consent that it shall be the last. We shall scarcely need any
more than this will bring us; for, as pa says, a mere competence in the
city is a splendid fortune in the country. You need leisure for books
and travel and society, and you shall have it. Now, let us make a place
for both!"
Thereupon she showed him how the parlor and rear bed-room might be
thrown into one; where there were alcoves for bookcases and space for a
piano; how a new veranda might be added to the western end of the house;
how the plastering might be renewed, a showy cornice supplied, and an
air of elegant luxury given to the new apartment. Joseph saw and
listened, conscious at once of a pang at changing the ancient order of
things, and a temptation to behold a more refined comfort in its place.
He only asked to postpone the work; but Julia pressed him so closely,
with such a multitude of unanswerable reasons, that he finally consented
to let a mechanic look at the house, and make an estimate of the
expense.
In such cases, the man who deliberates is lost.
His consent once reluctantly exacted, Julia insisting that she would
take the whole charge of directing the work, a beginning was made
without delay, and in a few days the ruin was so complete that the
restoration became a matter of necessity.
Julia kept her word only too faithfully. With a lively, playful manner
in the presence of the workmen, but with a cold, inflexible obstinacy
when they were alone, she departed from the original plan, adding showy
and expensive features, every one of which, Joseph presently saw, was
devised to surpass the changes made by the Hopetons in their new
residence. His remonstrances produced no effect, and he was precluded
from a practical interference by the fear of the workmen guessing his
domestic trouble. Thus the days dragged on, and the breach widened
without an effort on either side to heal it.
The secret of her temporary fondness gave him a sense of positive
disgust when it arose in his memory. He now suspected a selfish purpose
in her caresses, and sought to give her no chance of repeating them, but
in the company of others he was forced to endure a tenderness which, he
was surprised to find, still half deceived him, as it wholly deceived
his neighbors. He saw, too,—and felt himself powerless to change the
impression,—that Julia's popularity increased with her knowledge of the
people, while their manner towards him was a shade less frank and
cordial than formerly. He knew that the changes in his home were so much
needless extravagance, to them; and that Julia's oft-repeated phrase
(always accompanied with a loving look), "Joseph is making the old place
so beautiful for me!" increased their mistrust, while seeming to exalt
him as a devoted husband.
It is not likely that she specially intended this result; while, on the
other hand, he somewhat exaggerated its character. Her object was simply
to retain her growing ascendency: within the limits where her peculiar
faculties had been exercised she was nearly perfect; but she was
indifferent to tracing the consequences of her actions beyond those
limits. When she ascertained Mr. Chaffinch's want of faith in Joseph's
entire piety, she became more regular in her attendance at his church,
not so much to prejudice her husband by the contrast, as to avoid the
suspicion which he had incurred. To Joseph, however, in the bitterness
of his deception, these actions seemed either hostile or heartless; he
was repelled from the clearer knowledge of a nature so foreign to his
own. So utterly foreign: yet how near beyond all others it had once
seemed!
It was not a jealousy of the authority she assumed which turned his
heart from her: it was the revelation of a shallowness and selfishness
not at all rare in the class from which she came, but which his pure,
guarded youth had never permitted him to suspect in any human being. A
man familiar with men and women, if he had been caught in such toils,
would have soon discovered some manner of controlling her nature, for
the very shrewdest and falsest have their vulnerable side. It gave
Joseph, however, so much keen spiritual pain to encounter her in her
true character, that such a course was simply impossible.
Meanwhile the days went by; the expense of labor and material had
already doubled the estimates made by the mechanics; bills were
presented for payment, and nothing was heard from the Amaranth. Money
was a necessity, and there was no alternative but to obtain a temporary
loan at a county town, the centre of transactions for all the debtors
and creditors of the neighboring country. It was a new and disagreeable
experience for Joseph to appear in the character of a borrower, and he
adopted it most reluctantly; yet the reality was a greater trial than he
had suspected. He found that the most preposterous stories of his
extravagance were afloat. He was transforming his house into a castle:
he had made, lost, and made again a large fortune in petroleum; he had
married a wealthy wife and squandered her money; he drove out in a
carriage with six white horses; he was becoming irregular in his habits
and heretical in his religious views; in short, such marvellous powers
of invention had been exercised that the Arab story-tellers were
surpassed by the members of that quiet, sluggish community.
It required all his self-control to meet the suspicions of the
money-agents, and convince them of the true state of his circumstances.
The loan was obtained, but after such a wear and tear of flesh and
spirit as made it seem a double burden.
When he reached home, in the afternoon, Julia instantly saw, by his
face, that all had not gone right. A slight effort, however, enabled her
to say carelessly and cheerfully,—
"Have you brought me my supplies, dear?"
"Yes," he answered curtly.
"Here is a letter from pa," she then said. "I opened it, because I knew
what the subject must be. But if you're tired, pray don't read it now,
for then you may be impatient. There's a little more delay."
"Then I'll not delay to know it," he said, taking the letter from her
hand. A printed slip, calling upon the stockholders of the Amaranth to
pay a _fifth_ instalment, fell out of the envelope. Accompanying it
there was a hasty note from B. Blessing: "Don't be alarmed, my dear
son-in-law! Probably a mere form. Blenkinsop still holds on, but we
think this will bring him at once. If it don't, we shall very likely
have to go on _with_ him, even if it obliges us to unite the Amaranth
and the Chowder. In any case, we shall ford or bridge this little
Rubicon within a fortnight. Have the money ready, if convenient, but do
not forward unless I give the word. We hear, through third parties, that
Clementina (who is now at Long Branch) receives much attention from Mr.
Spelter, a man of immense wealth, but, I regret to say, no refinement."
Joseph smiled grimly when he finished the note. "Is there never to be an
end of humbug?" he exclaimed.
"There, now!" cried Julia; "I knew you'd be impatient. You are so
unaccustomed to great operations. Why, the Muchacho Land Grant—I
remember it, because pa sold out just at the wrong time—hung on for
seven years!"
"D——curse the Muchacho Land Grant, and the Amaranth too!"
"Aren't you ashamed!" exclaimed Julia, taking on a playful air of
offence; "but you're tired and hungry, poor fellow!" Therewith she put
her hands on his shoulders, and raised herself on tiptoe to kiss him.
Joseph, unable to control his sudden instinct, swiftly turned away his
head.
"O you wicked husband, you deserve to be punished!" she cried, giving
him what was meant to be a light tap on the cheek.
It was a light tap, certainly; but perhaps a little of the annoyance
which she banished from her face had lodged, unconsciously, in her
fingers. They left just sting enough to rouse Joseph's heated blood. He
started back a step, and looked at her with flaming eyes.
"No more of that, Julia! I know, _now_, how much your arts are worth. I
am getting a vile name in the neighborhood,—losing my property,—losing
my own self-respect,—because I have allowed you to lead me! Will you be
content with what you have done, or must you go on until my ruin is
complete?"
Before he had finished speaking she had taken rapid counsel with
herself, and decided. "Oh, oh! such words to me!" she groaned, hiding
her face between her hands. "I never thought _you_ could be so cruel! I
had _such_ pleasure in seeing you rich and free, in trying to make your
home beautiful; and now this little delay, which no business man would
think anything of, seems to change your very nature! But I will not
think it's your true self: something has worried you to-day,—you have
heard some foolish story—"
"It is not the worry of to-day," he interrupted, in haste to state his
whole grievance, before his weak heart had time to soften again,—"it is
the worry of months past! It is because I thought you true and
kind-hearted, and I find you selfish and hypocritical! It is very well
to lead me into serious expenses, while so much is at stake, and now
likely to be lost,—it is very well to make my home beautiful, especially
when you can outshine Mrs. Hopeton! It is easy to adapt yourself to the
neighbors, and keep on the right side of them, no matter how much your
husband's character may suffer in the process!"
"That will do!" said Julia, suddenly becoming rigid. She lifted her
head, and apparently wiped the tears from her eyes. "A little more and
it would be too much for even _me_! What do I care for 'the neighbors'?
persons whose ideas and tastes and habits of life are so different from
mine? I have endeavored to be friendly with them for _your_ sake: I have
taken special pains to accommodate myself to their notions, just because
I intended they should justify _you_ in choosing me! I believed—for you
told me so—that there was no calculation in love, that money was dross
in comparison; and how could I imagine that you would so soon put up a
balance and begin to weigh the two? Am I your wife or your slave? Have I
an equal share in what is yours, or am I here merely to increase it? If
there is to be a question of dollars and cents between us, pray have my
allowance fixed, so that I may not overstep it, and may save myself from
such reproaches! I knew you would be disappointed in pa's letter: I have
been anxious and uneasy since it came, through my sympathy with you, and
was ready to make any sacrifice that might relieve your mind; and now
you seem to be full of unkindness and injustice! What shall I do, O what
shall I do?
She threw herself upon a sofa, weeping hysterically.
"Julia!" he cried, both shocked and startled by her words, "you
purposely misunderstand me. Think how constantly I have yielded to you,
against my own better judgment! When have you considered my wishes?"
"When?" she repeated: then, addressing the cushion with a hopeless,
melancholy air, "he asks, when! How could I misunderstand you? your
words were as plain as daggers. If you were not aware how sharp they
were, call them back to your mind when these mad, unjust suspicions have
left you! I trusted you so perfectly, I was looking forward to such a
happy future, and now—now, all seems so dark! It is like a flash of
lightning: I am weak and giddy: leave me,—I can bear no more!"
She covered her face, and sobbed wretchedly.
"I am satisfied that you are not as ignorant as you profess to be," was
all Joseph could say, as he obeyed her command, and left the room. He
was vanquished, he knew, and a little confused by his wife's unexpected
way of taking his charges in flank instead of meeting them in front, as
a man would have done. _Could_ she be sincere? he asked himself. Was she
really so ignorant of herself, as to believe all that she had uttered?
There seemed to be not the shadow of hypocrisy in her grief and
indignation. Her tears were real: then why not her smiles and caresses?
Either she was horribly, incredibly false,—worse than he dared dream her
to be,—or so fatally unconscious of her nature that nothing short of a
miracle could ever enlighten her. One thing only was certain: there was
now no confidence between them, and there might never be again.
He walked slowly forth from the house, seeing nothing, and unconscious
whither his feet were leading him.
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