Miss Madeline's Proposal

"Auntie, I have something to tell you," said Lina, with a blush that

made her look more than ever like one of the climbing roses that

nodded about the windows of the "old Churchill place," as it was

always called in Lower Wentworth.

Miss Madeline, sitting in the low rocker by the parlour window, seemed

like the presiding genius of the place. Everything about her matched

her sweet old-fashionedness, from the crown of her soft brown hair,

dressed in the style of her long ago girlhood, to the toes of her

daintily slippered feet. Outside of the old Churchill place, in the

busy streets of the up-to-date little town, Miss Madeline might have

seemed out of harmony with her surroundings. But here, in this dim

room, faintly scented with whiffs from the rose garden outside, she

was like a note in some sweet, perfect melody of old time.

Lina, sitting on a little stool at Miss Madeline's feet with her curly

head in her aunt's lap, was as pretty as Miss Madeline herself had

once been. She was also very happy, and her happiness seemed to

envelop her as in an atmosphere and lend her a new radiance and charm.

Miss Madeline loved her pretty niece very dearly and patted the curly

head tenderly with her slender white hands.

"What is it, my dear?"

"I'm--I'm engaged," whispered Lina, hiding her face in Miss Madeline's

flowered muslin lap.

"Engaged!" Miss Madeline's tone was one of surprise and awe. She

blushed as she said the word as deeply as Lina had done. Then she went

on, with a little quiver of excitement in her voice, "To whom, my

dear?"

"Oh, you don't know him, Auntie, but I hope you will soon. His name is

Ralph Wylde. Isn't it pretty? I met him last winter, and we became

very good friends. But we had a quarrel before I came down here and,

oh, I have been so unhappy over it. Three weeks ago he wrote me and

begged my pardon--so nice of him, because I was really all to blame,

you know. And he said he loved me and--all that, you know."

"No, I don't know," said Miss Madeline gently. "But--but--I can

imagine."

"Oh, I was so happy. I wrote back and I had this letter from him

today. He is coming down tomorrow. You'll be glad to see him, won't

you, Auntie?"

"Oh, yes, my dear, and I am glad for your sake--very glad. You are

sure you love him?"

"Yes, indeed," said Lina, with a little laugh, as if wondering how

anyone could doubt it.

Presently, Miss Madeline said in a shy voice, "Lina, did--did you ever

receive a proposal of marriage from anybody besides Mr. Wylde?"

Lina laughed roguishly. "Why, yes, Auntie, ever so many. A dozen, at

least."

"Oh, my dear!" cried Miss Madeline in a slightly shocked tone.

"But I did, really. Sometimes it was horrid and sometimes it was

funny. It all depended on the man. Dear me, how red and uncomfortable

most of them looked--all but the fifth. He was so cool and business

like that he almost surprised me into accepting him."

"And--and what did you feel like, Lina?"

"Oh, frightened, mostly--but I always wanted to laugh too. You must

know how it is yourself, Auntie. What did you feel like when somebody

proposed to you?"

Miss Madeline flushed from chin to brow.

"Oh, Lina," she faltered as if she were confessing something very

disgraceful, yet to which she was impelled by her strict truthfulness,

"I--I--never had a proposal in my life--not one."

Lina opened her big brown eyes in amazement. "Why, Aunt Madeline! And

you so pretty! What was the reason?"

"I've often wondered," said Miss Madeline faintly. "I _was_ pretty, as

you say--it's so long ago I can say that now. And I had many gentlemen

friends. But nobody ever wanted to marry me. I sometimes wish

that--that I could have had just one proposal. Not that I wanted to

marry, you know, I do not mean that, but just so that it wouldn't have

seemed that I was different from anybody else. It is very foolish of

me to wish it, I know, and even wicked--for if I had not cared for the

person it would have made him very unhappy. But then, he would have

forgotten and I would have remembered. It would always have been

something to be a little proud of."

"Yes," said Lina absently; her thoughts had gone back to Ralph.

That evening a letter was left at the front door of the old Churchill

place. It was addressed in a scholarly hand to Miss Madeline

Churchill, and Amelia Kent took it in. Amelia had been Miss Madeline's

"help" for years and had grown grey in her service. In Amelia's loyal

eyes Miss Madeline was still young and beautiful; she never doubted

that the letter was for her mistress. Nobody else there was ever

addressed as "Miss Madeline."

Miss Madeline was sitting by the window of her own room watching the

sunset through the elms and reading her evening portion of Thomas à

Kempis. She never liked to be disturbed when so employed but she read

her letter after Amelia had gone out.

When she came to a certain paragraph, she turned very pale and Thomas

à Kempis fell to the floor unheeded. When she had finished the letter

she laid it on her lap, clasped her hands, and said, "Oh, oh, oh," in

a faint, tremulous voice. Her cheeks were very pink and her eyes very

bright. She did not even pick up Thomas à Kempis but went to the door

and called Lina.

"What is it, Auntie?" asked Lina curiously, noticing the signs of

unusual excitement about Miss Madeline.

Miss Madeline held out her letter with a trembling hand.

"Lina, dear, this is a letter from the Rev. Cecil Thorne. It--it is--a

proposal of marriage. I feel terribly upset. How very strange that it

should come so soon after our talk this morning! I want you to read

it! Perhaps I ought not to show it to anyone--but I would like you to

see it."

Lina took the letter and read it through. It was unmistakably a

proposal of marriage and was, moreover, a very charming epistle of its

kind, albeit a little stiff and old-fashioned.

"How funny!" said Lina when she came to the end.

"Funny!" exclaimed Miss Madeline, with a trace of indignation in her

gentle voice.

"Oh, I didn't mean that the letter was funny," Lina hastened to

explain, "only that, as you said, it is odd to think of it coming so

soon after our talk."

But this was a little fib on Lina's part. She _had_ thought that the

letter or, rather, the fact that it had been written to Miss Madeline,

funny. The Rev. Cecil Thorne was Miss Madeline's pastor. He was a

handsome, scholarly man of middle age, and Lina had seen a good deal

of him during her summer in Lower Wentworth. She had taught the infant

class in Sunday School and sometimes she had thought that the minister

was in love with her. But she must have been mistaken, she reflected;

it must have been her aunt after all, and the Rev. Cecil Thorne's

shyly displayed interest in her must have been purely professional.

"What a goose I was to be afraid he was in love with me!" she thought.

Aloud she said, "He says he will call tomorrow evening to receive your

answer."

"And, oh, what can I say to him?" murmured Miss Madeline in dismay.

She wished she had a little of Lina's experience.

"You are going to--you will accept him, won't you?" asked Lina

curiously.

"Oh, my dear, no!" cried Miss Madeline almost vehemently. "I couldn't

think of such a thing. I am very sorry; do you think he will feel

badly?"

"Judging from his letter I feel sure he will," said Lina decidedly.

Miss Madeline sighed. "Oh, dear me! It is very unpleasant. But of

course I must refuse him. What a beautiful letter he writes too. I

feel very much disturbed by this."

Miss Madeline picked up Thomas à Kempis, smoothed him out repentantly,

and placed the letter between his leaves.

* * * * *

When the Rev. Cecil Thorne called at the old Churchill place next

evening at sunset and asked for Miss Madeline Churchill, Amelia showed

him into the parlour and went to call her mistress. Mr. Thorne sat

down by the window that looked out on the lawn. His heart gave a bound

as he caught a glimpse of an airy white muslin among the trees and a

ripple of distant laughter. The next minute Lina appeared, strolling

down the secluded path that curved about the birches. A young man was

walking beside her with his arm around her. They crossed the green

square before the house and disappeared in the rose garden.

Mr. Thorne leaned back in his chair and put his hand over his eyes. He

felt that he had received his answer, and it was a very bitter moment

for him. He had hardly dared hope that this bright, beautiful child

could care for him, yet the realization came home to him none the less

keenly. When Miss Madeline, paling and flushing by turns, came shyly

in he had recovered his self-control sufficiently to be able to say

"good evening" in a calm voice.

Miss Madeline sat down opposite to him. At that moment she was

devoutly thankful that she had never had any other proposal to refuse.

It was a dreadful ordeal. If he would only help her out! But he did

not speak and every moment of silence made it worse.

"I--received your letter, Mr. Thorne," she faltered at last, looking

distressfully down at the floor.

"My letter!" Mr. Thorne turned towards her. In her agitation Miss

Madeline did not notice the surprise in his face and tone.

"Yes," she said, gaining a little courage since the ice was broken.

"It--it--was a very great surprise to me. I never thought you--you

cared for me as--as you said. And I am very sorry because--because I

cannot return your affection. And so, of course, I cannot marry you."

Mr. Thorne put his hand over his eyes again. He understood now that

there had been some mistake and that Miss Madeline had received the

letter he had written to her niece. Well, it did not matter--the

appearance of the young man in the garden had settled that. Would he

tell Miss Madeline of her mistake? No, it would only humiliate her and

it made no difference, since she had refused him.

"I suppose it is of no use to ask you to reconsider your decision?" he

said.

"Oh, no," cried Miss Madeline almost aghast. She was afraid he might

ask it after all. "Not in the least use. I am sorry--so very

sorry--but I could not answer differently. We--I hope--this will make

no difference in our friendly relations, Mr. Thorne?"

"Not at all," said Mr. Thorne gravely. "We will try to forget that it

has happened."

He bowed sadly and went out. Miss Madeline watched him guiltily as he

walked across the lawn. He looked heart-broken. How dreadful it had

been! And Lina had refused twelve men! How could she have lived

through it?

"Perhaps one gets accustomed to doing it," reflected Miss Madeline.

"But I am sure I never could."

"Did Mr. Thorne feel very badly?" whispered Lina that night.

"I'm afraid he did," confessed Miss Madeline sorrowfully. "He looked

so pale and sad, Lina, that my heart ached for him. I am very thankful

that I have never had any other proposals to decline. It is a very

unpleasant experience. But," she added, with a little tinge of

satisfaction in her sweet voice, "I am glad I had one. It--it has made

me feel more like other people, you know, dear."

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