CHAPTER VII

Christopher had gone down to the door with his brother and the girls,

and had sent a glance up and down the quiet, handsome block, feeling in

the moving air what Norma felt, what all the city felt--the bold, wild

promise of spring. He turned back into the house with something like a

sigh; Acton and Leslie in their young happiness were somehow a little

haunting to-night.

The butler was starting upstairs with the papers; Christopher took them

from him, and went back to Alice's room with his eyes idly following the

headlines. The pretty apartment was somewhat disordered, and looked dull

and dark in the half light. Christopher walked to a window, and pushed

it open upon its railed balcony.

"Chris!" whispered his wife's voice, thick and dry in the gloom.

Aghast in the instant apprehension of something wrong, he sprang to her

couch, dropped to his knees, and put an arm about her.

"Alice! What is it, my darling?"

She struggled for speech, and he could see that her face was ashen.

"Chris--no, don't ring. Chris, _who is that girl_?"

Christopher touched the chain that flooded the couch with rosy light. He

bent in eager sympathy over his wife's relaxed form.

"Alice, what is it?" he asked, tenderly. "Don't worry, dear, don't try

to talk too fast! Just tell Chris what frightened you----"

Alice laughed wretchedly as she detached the fingers he had pressed

anxiously upon her forehead.

"No, I'm not feverish!" she assured him, holding tight to his hand. "But

I want you to tell me, Chris, I must know--and no matter what promise

you have given Mother--or given any one----"

"Now, now, now!" he soothed her. "I'll tell you anything, sweetheart,

only don't let yourself get so excited. Just tell me what it is, Alice,

and I'll do anything in the world for you, of course!"

"Chris," she said, swallowing with a dry throat, and sitting up with an

air of regaining self-control, "you must tell me. You know you can trust

me, you _know_----! That girl----"

"But _what_ girl--what are you talking about, dear? Do--do try to be

just a little clearer, and calmer----"

"Who"--said Alice, with a ghastly look, sweeping the hair back from her

damp forehead--"who is that Norma Sheridan?"

"Why, I told you, dear, that I don't know," her husband protested. "I

told you weeks ago, after your mother made that scene, the night of

Hendrick's speech, that I couldn't make head or tail of it!"

"Chris"--Alice was regarding him fixedly--"you _must_ know!"

"Dearest, couldn't your mother simply wish to befriend a girl whose

parents----"

Alice flung her loosened hair back, and at her gesture and her glance at

the little carafe on her table he poured her a glass of cold water.

Drinking it off, and raising herself in her cushions, she stretched her

hand to touch the chair beside her, and still without a word indicated

that he was to take it. With a face of grave concern Christopher sat

down beside her, holding her hands in both his own.

"Chris," she said, clearly and quickly, if with occasional catches of

breath, "the minute that girl came into the room I knew that--I knew

that _horror_ had come upon us all! I knew that she was one of us--one

of us Melroses, somehow----"

"Alice!" he said, pleadingly.

"But Mama," she said, with a keen look, "didn't tell you that?"

"She told me only what I told you that night, on my honour as a

gentleman! Alice, what makes you say what you do?"

"Ah, Chris," his wife cried, almost frantically, "look at her! _Look_ at

her! Why, her voice is Annie's, the same identical voice--she looks like

my father, like Theodore--she looks like us all! She and Leslie were so

much alike, as they sat there, in spite of the colouring, that I almost

screamed it at them! Surely--surely, you see it--everyone sees it!"

He stared at her, beginning to breathe a little quickly in his turn.

"By George!" she heard him whisper, as if to himself.

"Do you see it, Chris?" Alice whispered, almost fearfully.

"But--but----" He got up and walked restlessly to the window, and came

back to sit down again. "But there's a cousinship somewhere," he said,

sensibly. "There's no reason to suppose that the thing can't be

explained. I do think you're taking this thing pretty hard, my dear.

What can you possibly suppose? There might be a hundred girls----"

His voice fell. Alice was watching him expectantly.

"Mama felt it--saw it--as I do," she said. "You may be very sure that

Mama wouldn't have almost lost her mind, as she did, unless something

had given her cause!"

They looked at each other in silence, in the utter silence of the

lovely, cool-toned room.

"Alice," Chris said in a puzzled voice after awhile, "you suspect me of

keeping something from you. But on my honour you know all that your

mother told me--all that I know!"

"Oh, Chris," she said, with a sort of wail. "If I don't know more!"

Her husband's slow colour rose.

"How could you know more?" he asked, bewilderedly.

Alice was unhappily silent.

"Chris, if I tell you what I'm afraid of--what I fear," she said,

presently, after anxious thought, "will you promise me never, never to

speak of it--never even to think of it!--if it--if it proves not to be

true?"

"I don't have to tell you that, Alice," he said.

"No, of course you don't--of course you don't!" she echoed with a

nervous laugh. "I'll tell you what I think, Chris--what has been almost

driving me mad--and you can probably tell me a thousand reasons why it

can't be so! You see, I've never understood Mama's feverish distress

these last weeks. She's been to see me, she's done what had to be done

about Leslie's engagement, but she's not herself--you can see that!

Yesterday she began to cry, almost for nothing, and when I happened to

mention--or rather when I mentioned very deliberately--that Miss

Sheridan was coming here, she almost shrieked. Well, I didn't know what

to make of it, and even then I rather wondered----

"Even then," Alice began again, after a painful pause, and with her own

voice rising uncontrollably, "I suspected something. But not this! Oh,

Chris, if I'm wrong about this, I shall be on my knees for gratitude for

the rest of my life; I would die, I would die to have it just--just my

wretched imagination!--A thing like this--to us--the Melroses--who have

always been so straight--so respected!"

"Now, Alice--now, Alice!"

"Yes, I know!" she said, quickly. "I know!" And for a moment she lay

back quietly, stroking his hand. "Chris," she resumed, composedly, after

a moment, "you know the tragedy of Annie's life?"

Chris, taken by surprise, frowned.

"Why, yes, I suppose so," he admitted, unwillingly.

"Chris, did it ever occur to you that she might have had a child--by

that fiend?"

Chris looked at his wife a moment, and his eyes widened, and his mouth

twitched humorously.

"Oh, come now, Alice--come now!"

"You think it's folly!" she asked, eagerly.

"Worse!" he answered, briefly, his eyes smiling reproach.

Alice's whole tense body relaxed, and she stared at him with light

dawning in her eyes.

"Well, probably it is," she said, very simply.

"Of course it is," Chris said. "Now, you are dead tired, dear, and you

have let the thing mill about in your head until you can't see anything

normally. I confess that I don't understand your mother's mysterious

nervousness, but then I am free to say that I don't by any means always

understand your mother! You remember the pearl episode, and the time

that she had Annie and Hendrick cabling from Italy--because Hendrick

Junior had a rash! And then there was Porter--a boy nineteen years old,

and she actually had everyone guessing exactly what she felt toward

him----"

"Oh, Chris, no, she didn't! She simply felt that he was a genius, and he

hadn't a penny," Alice protested, reproachful and hurt.

"Well, she had him there at the house until his mother came after him,

and then, when he finally was sent abroad, she asked me seriously if I

thought two hundred dollars a month was enough for his musical

education!"

"Yes, I know!" Alice said, ruefully, shaking her head.

"Now this comes along," said Christopher, encouraged by the effect of

his words, "and you begin to fret your poor little soul with all sorts

of wild speculations. I wish to the Lord that your mother was a little

bit more trusting with her confidences, but when it all comes out it'll

prove to be some sister of your grandfather who married a tailor or

something, and left a line of pretty girls to work in Biretta's----"

"But, Chris, she reminded me so of Annie to-day I almost felt _sick_,"

Alice said, still frightened and dubious.

"Well, that merely shows that you're soft-hearted; it's no reflection on

Annie!" Chris said, giving her her paper, and opening his own. But

Alice did not open her paper.

A maid came in, and moved about noiselessly setting chairs and rugs in

order. Another soft light was lighted and the little square table set

before the fire. The cool fresh air drifted in at the half-open window,

and sent a delicate breath, from Alice's great bowl of freesia lilies,

through the peaceful room. The fire snapped smartly about a fresh log,

and Alice's great tortoise-shell cat came to make a majestic spring into

her lap.

"Chris--I'm so worried!" said his wife.

"As a matter of fact," said Christopher, quietly, after a while,

"did----Annie was very ill, I know, but was there--was there any reason

to suppose that there might have been--that such a situation as to-day's

might have arisen?"

Alice looked at him with apprehension dawning afresh.

"Oh, yes--that is, I believe so. I didn't know it then, of course."

"I never knew that," Christopher said, thoughtfully.

"Well, I didn't at the time, you know. It was--of course it was

sixteen--eighteen years ago," Alice said. And in a whisper she added,

"Chris, that girl is eighteen!"

Christopher pursed his lips to whistle, but made no sound, and looked

into the fire.

"You see I was only about thirteen or fourteen," Alice said. "I was

going to Miss Bennet's school, and we were all living in the Madison

Avenue house. Papa had been dead only a year, or less, for I remember

that Annie was eighteen, and wasn't going out much, because of mourning.

Theodore had been worrying Mama to death, and had left the house then,

and Mama was sending him and his wife money, I believe, but of course

lots of that was kept from me. Annie was terribly wild and excitable

then, always doing reckless things; I can remember when she and Belle

Duer dressed up as boys and had their pictures taken, and once they put

a matrimonial advertisement in the papers--of course they were just

silly--at least that was. But then she began to rave about this man

Müller----"

"The acrobat!" Christopher, who was listening intently, supplied.

"No, dearest! He was their riding master--I suppose that isn't much

better, really. But he was an extremely handsome man--really stunning.

Carry Winchester's mother forbade her taking any more lessons because

_she_ was so wild about him, and Annie told me once that that was why

Ida Burnett was popped into a boarding school. He was big, and dark, and

he had a slight foreign accent, and he was ever so much older than

Annie--forty, at least. She began to spend all her time at the riding

club; it used to make Mama wild--especially as Annie was so headstrong

and saucy about it! Poor Mama, I remember her crying and complaining!"

"And how long did this go on?" Christopher asked.

"Oh, weeks! Well, and then one hot day, just before Easter vacation it

was, I remember, I came home early from school with a headache, and when

I reached the upper hall I could hear Mama crying, and Annie shouting

out loud, and this Kate--this very same Kate Sheridan!--trying to quiet

Mama, and everything in an uproar! Finally I heard Annie sobbing--I was

frightened to death of course, and I sat down on the stairs that go up

to the nursery--and I heard Annie say something about being

eighteen--and she was eighteen the very day before; and she ran by me,

in her riding clothes, with the derby hat that girls used to wear then,

and her hair clubbed on her neck, and she ran downstairs, and I could

hear her crying, and saying to herself: 'I'll show them; I'll show

them!' And that was the last I saw of her," Alice finished sadly, "for

almost two years."

"She went out?" Christopher asked.

"Yes; she slammed the door. Mama fainted."

"Of course!"

"Oh, Chris," said his wife, half crying, "wasn't that enough to make any

one faint?--let alone Mama. Anyway, she was dreadfully ill, and they

rather shut me up about it, and told everyone that Annie had gone

abroad. We had been living very quietly, you know, and nobody cared much

what Annie did, then. And she really had gone abroad, she wrote Mama

from Montreal, and she had been married to Emil Müller in Albany. They

had taken a train there, and were married that same afternoon. They went

to London, and they were in Germany, and then--then it all broke up, you

know about that!"

"How much later was that?"

Alice considered.

"It was about Christmas time. Don't you remember that I went to your

mother, and Acton and I got measles? Mama was abroad then."

"And this Kate went with her?"

"Yes. That was--that was one of the things I was--just thinking about!

Annie wrote Mama that she was very ill, in Munich, and poor Mama just

flew. Müller had left her; indeed there was a woman and two quite big

girls that had a claim on him, and if Mama hadn't been so anxious to

shut it all up, she might have proved that he was a bigamist--but I

don't know that she was ever sure. Judge Lee put the divorce through for

Annie, and Mama took her to the Riviera and petted her, and pulled her

through. But all her hair came out, and for weeks they didn't think she

would live. She had brain fever. You see, Annie had had some money

waiting for her on her eighteenth birthday, and your own father, who was

her guardian, Chris, had given her the check--interest, it was, about

seven or eight thousand dollars. And he told her to open her own

account, and manage her own income, from then on. And we thought--Mama

and I--that in some way Müller must have heard of it. Anyway, she never

deposited the check, and when her money gave out he just left her."

"But what makes you think that her illness didn't commence--or wasn't

entirely--brain fever?"

"That she might have had a baby?" Alice asked, outright.

Christopher nodded, the point almost insufferably distasteful to him.

"Oh, I know it!" Alice said.

"You _know_ it?" the man echoed, almost in displeasure.

"Yes, she told me herself! But of course that was years later. At the

time, all I knew was that Kate Sheridan came home, and came to see me at

school, and told me that Mama and Annie were very well, but that Annie

had been frightfully sick, and that Mama wouldn't come back until Annie

was much stronger. As a matter of fact, it was nearly two

years--Theodore took me over to them a year from that following summer,

and then Annie stayed with some friends in England; she was having a

wonderful time! But years afterward, when little Hendrick was coming, in

fact, she was here one day, and she seemed to feel blue, and finally I

happened to say that if motherhood seemed so hard to a person like

herself, whose husband and whose whole family were so mad with joy over

the prospect of a baby, what on earth must it be to the poor girls who

have every reason to hate it. And she looked at me rather oddly, and

said: 'Ah, I know what _that_ is!' Of course I guessed right away what

she meant, and I said: 'Annie--not really!' And she said: 'Oh, yes, that

was what started my illness. I had been so almost crazy--so blue and

lonesome, and so sick with horror at the whole thing, that it all

happened too soon, the day after Mama and Kate got there, in fact!' And

then she burst out crying and said: 'Thank God it was that way! I

couldn't have faced _that_.' And she said that she had been too

desperately ill to realize anything, but that afterward, at Como, when

she was much better, she asked Mama about it, and Mama said she must

only be glad that it was all over, and try to think of it as a terrible

dream!"

"Well, there you are," said Chris, "she herself says that no child was

born!"

"Yes, but, Chris, mightn't it be that she didn't know?" Alice submitted,

timidly.

Her husband eyed her with a faint and thoughtful frown.

"It seems to me that that is rather a fantastic theory, dear! Where

would this child be all this time?"

"Kate" Alice said, simply.

"Kate!" he echoed, struck. And Alice saw, with a sinking heart, that he

was impressed. After a full moment of silence he said, simply: "You

think this is the child?"

"Chris," his wife cried, appealingly, "I don't say I think so! But it

occurred to me that it might be. I hope, with all my soul, that you

don't think so!"

"I'm afraid," he answered, thoughtfully, "that I do!"

Alice's eyes filled with tears, and she tightened her fingers in his

without speaking.

"The idea being," Christopher mused, "that Mrs. Sheridan brought the

baby home, and has raised her. That makes Miss Sheridan--Norma--the

child of Annie and that German blackguard!"

"I suppose so!" Alice admitted, despairingly.

"But why has it been kept quiet all this time!"

"Well, that," Alice said, "I don't understand. But this I _am_ sure of:

Annie hasn't the faintest suspicion of it! She supposes that the whole

thing ended with her terrible illness. She was only eighteen, and

younger and more childish even than Leslie is! Oh, Chris," said Alice,

her eyes watering, "isn't it horrible! To come to us, of all people!

Will everybody know?"

"Well, it all depends. It's a nasty sort of business, but I suppose

there's no help for it. How much does Hendrick know?"

"About Annie? Oh, everything that she does; I know that. Annie told him,

and Judge Lee told him about Müller and the divorce, or nullification,

or whatever it was! There was nothing left unexplained there. But if the

child lived, she didn't know that--only Mama did, and Kate. Oh, poor

Annie, it would kill her to have all that raked up now! Why Kate kept it

secret all these years----"

"I must say," Christopher exclaimed, "that----By George, I hate this

sort of thing! No help for it, I suppose. But if it gets out we shall

all be in for a sweet lot of notoriety. We shall just have to make terms

with these Sheridans, and keep our mouths shut. I didn't get the idea

that they were holding your mother up. I believe it's more that she

wants justice done; she would, you know, for the sake of the family. The

girl herself, this Norma, evidently hasn't been raised on any

expectations--probably knows nothing about it!"

"Oh, I'm sure of that!" Alice agreed, eagerly. "And if she has Melrose

blood in her, you may be sure she'll play the game. But, Chris, I can't

stand the uncertainty. Mama's coming to have luncheon with me to-morrow,

and I'm going to ask her outright. And if this Norma is really--what we

fear, what do you think we ought to do?"

"Well, it's hard to say. It's all utterly damnable," Christopher said,

distressed. "And Annie, who let us all in for it, gets off scot free! I

wish, since she let it go so long, that your mother had forgotten it

entirely. But, as it is, this child isn't, strictly speaking,

illegitimate. There was a marriage, and some sort of divorce, whether

Müller deceived Annie as to his being a bachelor or not!"

A maid stood in the doorway.

"Mrs. Melrose, Mrs. Liggett."

"Oh," Alice said, in an animated tone of pleasure, "ask her to come

upstairs!" But the eyes she turned to her husband were full of

apprehension. "Chris, here's Mama now! Shall we----? Would you dare?"

"Use your own judgment!" he had time to say hastily, before his wife's

mother came in.

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