I hurried to her. “O, madam!” I cried, “if I might serve _you_ alone!”

Nevertheless, the whole present prospect dismayed me. Whither was it

their scheme to remove the court, and for how long? and in the

meantime, what Government was to represent it? I had immutably ranged

myself against my former party, burning my boats behind me. What, now,

if that party were to triumph, as I had already seen it triumph wholly

and tragically elsewhere? The tables of vengeance would be a trifle

turned, I thought.

However, I gained some reassurance on this point from de’ Medici, upon

whom, in the midst of a distracted rush and scurry, I stumbled in the

course of the afternoon.

“Hush!” he replied to my question. “Whisper it not in Gath. You are

indiscreet, most beautiful. Listen: _if_ we go, it will be but as a

fowler withdraws from his nets, that the foolish birds may fly more

confident into the lure.”

_If_ we go! An event which happened in the morning resolved that

question for ever. Ferreri, the poor courier, was hardly sent on his

message (luckily a verbal one) when the suspecting mob fell upon him,

dragged him all torn and bleeding to the palace square, and there,

with savage cries: “A spy! a Jacobin spy,” despatched him with their

knives before the very eyes of the king, whom they had insisted should

be witness to this proof of their loyalty. The poor monarch tottered

back aghast into our midst; and from that moment the end was sure.

As the day waned, the confusion in the palace waxed indescribable.

Tendency, no doubt, there was in the seeming chaos: I, as a stranger,

could do no more than commit myself blindly to the stream, resolved in

one matter alone--that I would not remain stranded and left behind.

All questions of precedence but in flight--of etiquette, of privacy

even--were blown to the winds. We were become a mere commonwealth of

terror. Great ladies issued puffing and lumbering from their

apartments, their arms loaded with goods and dresses, which they

tripped over like clowns as they ran; nervous warriors got entangled

in their swords, and lay gasping on their backs like dying fish. I

never laughed so much or so hysterically in my life. With all but the

almighty family itself it was _sauve qui peut_; and I was beginning to

formulate my own desperate plans, when de’ Medici whispered quick in

my ear--

“Follow me without seeming to!”

It had been impossible in that frantic crowd, had not my wits already

noted his every trick and mannerism. Fortunate in being utterly

unencumbered, I pursued the shadow. It led me by intricate ways, out

of the light into darkness, out of the tumult into silence, by a back

passage through the arsenal, and so down to the waterside, where a

little boat with dusk figures was waiting. Without ceremony we tumbled

in, and sat panting.

“Any more?” said a voice in my own good English tongue.

De’ Medici answered in the negative.

“Give way, men!” cried the officer sharply.

In an instant we were speeding for the bay. The lights quivered and

shrunk behind us; the uproar attenuated, and was drawn out to a

murmur. Yard by yard there swelled up before our eyes vast

ribbon-girded bulks, that rocked lazily on the tide, tracing intricate

patterns with their masts among the stars. To one of these, the

greatest, we galloped, and came round with a surge and hollow lap of

water under its quarter. The next moment we were aboard the

_Vanguard_.

XXIX.

I STILL KNOW HOW TO WAIT

I sing Palermo, “_la felice_,” the languorous, the sunny, the lotus

island to all shipwrecked mariners. O, those five days in the gulf!--a

hundred hours in which to think of nothing but one’s crimes, and one’s

mistake, saving the sinfulness, in not having been born a mermaid. I

declare I was not ill myself, except in the illness of others; but to

hear the groaning of the ship’s ribs mimicked a hundredfold by the

straining ribs of my companions was an eternal bone in my throat. As a

canary sings the louder the more we talk, so, as the ship talked, the

more fervent rose all round the chaunt of suffering--

“O, San Gennaro, grant it passage! O, Santa Maria, I can give no more;

you have it all! Father of pity, I am like a squeezed wineskin!”

Then, perhaps, from Lady Hamilton, mistaking, in her prostration, the

steward for the admiral: “O, my dear lord! though I cannot rise to

thank you, believe me that for all you have done my heart goes out to

you.” To which the honest sailor would respond, “Give it went, mum,

and take the basin.”

In truth it seemed the stars fought against us with the sea. The

_Vanguard_ itself was none too big a vessel. She was what they call, I

believe, a seventy-four with two tiers of guns--not a first-rater. I

saw her commander sometimes, in the glimpses of the moon. He was not

utterly impervious himself to the calls of the deep. His right arm was

gone, and the sleeve pinned to his breast. He had a gentle, sober

face, blind of one eye, and the scar of a late healed wound on his

forehead. Casually met, I should have taken him for a little mild

professor, who had once said Bo to a goose and been well pecked for

his pains.

We had weighed anchor on the 22nd, and at once run into baffling

winds. The day before, the king had received on board a deputation

mixed of the marine, the city, and representatives of the Lazzari, who

were all aghast to learn that His Majesty projected a withdrawal to

his Sicilian capital. He was very short with them. When facts should

reassure him of their loyalty, he said, he would return. In the

meantime, he left General Pignatelli (a poor bemused creature) as his

regent to restore order. He said nothing of his wholesale plunder of

the public funds, and was only in a perspiration to escape before it

should be discovered. Then he went below, having lighted and flung

ashore the brand which was to set the city blazing.

And the following day we sailed for Palermo, in a vessel as full of

royal livestock as if it had been a training ship for kings. Besides

their Majesties, and as many of their progeny as they could recollect

at the moment, there were on board the ineffable Hamiltons; English

Acton, their minister and the queen’s lover; princes of the blood

Castelcicala and Belmonte, and a few others of condition. Amongst us

all, from the first, there was little affectation of state, and none

of stateliness. It was just a scurry and tumble--an encumbering mass

of royalty, in the thick of which the unhappy crew were hard put to it

to find quarters. One of the poor children even died of sickness; and

the queen screamed lamentations over it whenever she could recall its

name.

At length, more dead than alive, we were all pitchforked ashore out of

a battered hulk, and carried piecemeal through the city to the old

fortified palace at its southernmost end, where, for the next seven

months, was to be enacted the royal intermezzo in the tragedy of

Naples.

Those months passed livelily enough for me. The king, what time he

could spare from his hunting and fishing and the building of a new

country lodge, was quite my devoted servant, paying my gambling

debts--when it sometimes grew beyond my own power to liquidate

them--and assigning me the new post, fruit of his own incomparable

invention, of stillroom maid to his royal person. He was not really a

bad-hearted man; and, if he could only have accomplished his eternal

wish to be left alone, and not bothered while others were arranging

his affairs for him, would probably have resumed his Neapolitan

dominions without vindictive bloodshed, when the way was once paved

and swept level for him.

We heeded little (I except, in one main question, myself) the volcanic

throes which were wrenching that doomed town across the water while we

feasted and played. While Lazzaro and Jacobin, each dominant in his

turn, were flushing the kennels with blood; while imperious Nelson,

now promoted to his _Foudroyant_, was circling and swooping on and

off, issuing edicts, arrogating to himself the lead, in infatuated

touch all the time with his substantial mistress; while the French

were planting the Tree of Liberty in the palace square, and giving

birth, amidst song and jubilation, to the new republic; while,

following their withdrawal, Cardinal Ruffo was descending, with his

brutish swarms, upon the fated walls, which he was destined to retake

in the king’s name, the king himself was absorbed in ombre or

lansquenet, chuckling over charades, playing practical jokes upon the

most reverend Spanish señors of the place, guzzling and drinking, and

in every lazy way luxuriating in an utter self-abandonment to

pleasure.

And indeed, in that wine-soft climate, there were many temptations to

him as to us all. We were like Boccaccio’s company, forgathered out of

range of the plague, and telling stories to pass the time. The

similarity of our condition, in fact, gave me an idea. I set my wits

to work, and became a public _raconteuse_. I invented and told in

those days more tales than I can remember, but a selection from which

the curious may find included in my _Des Royautés Depouillées_,

first published in Paris in 1806.

The series became so popular, that poor Mrs. Hart found her nose quite

put out of joint in the matter of her own contributions to the fund of

gaiety. She might flop and pose like the most enormous of Greek

goddesses; she might assail our ears with her voice, for she had still

the remains of a very handsome one; or our hearts with her faculty for

mimicry, which, being ill-natured, went deeper. Once my début was

made, she must be content to play second fiddle; and that did not suit

her at all. The result was a coldness towards me, which, by inevitable

process, led to my disgrace with herself and her royal mistress, and

my dependence, as much for my interests as my safety, upon the favour

of the king. The court, in fact, became divided into the party of

Diana and the party of Emma, and was much more concerned over our

rivalry than over the ultimate destinies of the kingdom.

It mattered little to me, so long as I could keep the interest alive

until the moment when my vengeance on a certain couple should be a

_fait accompli_. That once executed, the two Sicilies, for all I

cared, might disappear under the sea. O, believe me that Nicola

Pissani did an ill thing when he loosed an insulted mistress on his

track!

It is not to be supposed that throughout those idle months I had once

lost sight of my purpose, or had failed to inform myself, through de’

Medici, of the real progress of events. And when at last the end came,

and Ruffo with his bloody Calabrians was master of the city, and the

republic had collapsed like a rotten hoarding, I prepared my hands for

their share of the price to be exacted, and laughed to think how great

a fool he had been who claimed to represent Reason by yielding his

soul to the passion of a foolish face.

Now, at this end, Naples had become a shambles. Shot and fire and

sharp steel, butchery and festering wounds and starvation, had left of

the “patriot” hosts but a little mean swarm, that rotted out its

remnant life in the prisons, awaiting the holocaust. Pissani and all

his high hopes were scattered. The gods had no desire to be worshipped

by Reason, missing their perquisites, as this “long-legged Hebe” might

well at the first have assured Liberty’s apostles, if they had not

been at the pains to discard her. She had been in Paris; had seen

Reason sit in the churches; had heard the millennium proclaimed, and

Olympus echo laughter. And what had been the result? Not till the

temples of superstition were razed in all the lands, not till Reason

sat in the fields, would the first glimmer of that golden dawn appear.

This she knew from the table-talk whispers of the new race, which had

decreed the old Titan Nature a vulgarity, and, having overthrown it in

the common hearts of men, dreaded nothing but the destruction of the

countless schools of sophistry on which its own lease of dominion

depended. And I, who had preached, who had been ardent again to preach

their crusade against a detestable lie, had been insulted by these

wise reformers, and been driven back to pour headstrong wine to the

gods of rank desire, and help them to hold the world a market to their

passions! O, Pissani had done well indeed!

And yet he was not among the captured.

One day, near the finish, de’ Medici accosted me alone in the palace

gardens. It was mid-June, and the scent of roses was thick in the air.

I looked in his face, and, for all the warmth and fragrance, my heart

was winter.

“He still baffles you, monsieur?”

“Most beautiful, the man is a fox, or perhaps already a ghost.”

“Go on. You have something else to say.”

A stealthy smile creased his mouth.

“Keen as thou art fair. Know, then, that his wife is in our hands.”

“Again, go on,” I whispered. I could hardly breathe.

“We found her like a little torn rat in a sewer--ragged, half

starved.” He gulped, and looked up with a pallid grin. “Have I not

deserved? It is the better half of the bargain. Vouchsafe me my reward

in advance.”

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