With an effort I composed myself, and turned to them with a smile--

“Messieurs, but the door is between me and the street!”

One of them at that stepped forward, opened it, and gravely bowed me

forth. As gravely I stepped into the rain, and made without hurry for

the beach.

So this was the end to all my exaltation, to my dreams of love and

sacrifice! I stamped in the puddles. “_Vive la tyrannie! vive les

Bourbons!_” I cried to myself as I sped on. So shamed, so wronged, so

spurned! was not the worst justified to me? I saw the shadow of my

loved monster standing solemn sentinel over the single trunk we had

brought with us. Our heavy baggage we had left in Rome. O, _mon

fidèle_! how at that moment I could have stormed my wounded heart out

on thy breast!

“Canst thou lift it and follow me?” I said only.

He answered, the dear Caliban, by obeying.

“Whither?” he growled.

I looked desperately about me. Near at hand it was all a tangle of

spars and sheds, and the rain driving between. But inland, the night

went up in glistening terraces, scattered constellations all shaken in

the thunder of a great city. Far south, what looked like the red light

of a forge alternately glared, and faded, and grew again, battling, it

seemed, with drowning flaws of tempest. It was the glimmering bonfires

of Vesuvius, those hot ashes of a consumed empire, from which,

according to Pissani, the phœnix Liberty was to arise. I laughed:

“Not yet, my poet, my friend; since thou choosest another than Pucelle

to breed thee thy patriots!”

I turned to the north. There, upon a huddle of tall buildings, looming

near and enormous in the dark, the stars of the hills seemed to have

drifted down, clinging thickly over all, like primroses under a bank.

“It is the royal palace,” said Gogo.

“It is _our_ way, then,” I panted, on fire. “Follow me, and quickly;

we are not safe here.”

Along wharfs and causeways, plashing over the filthy stones, by

squalid alley and reeking wall, I fled and he pursued. I had no

lodestar save my hate; but it served. The growing scream and thunder

of the town drove towards us as we advanced; but few people in that

bitter night; until, skirting the massed buildings of the arsenal and

palace, we emerged suddenly through a little lane into the Strada di

St. Lucia, and paused a moment undecided and amazed.

It was as if the devil had taken his glowing pencil and ruled off this

quarter of the city for his own. A noisome ravine of houses it was,

with life like a fiery torrent brawling along its bed. Song and tumult

and mad licence; fingers quick to stab, or to snap like castanets to a

dancing child; doorways that were the mouths of tributary sewers

vomiting filth and tatters into the main; fishermen, at their flaring

stalls, bawling crabs and oysters, _frutti di mare_--my God! what

fruit, and from what a sea that drained a shambles; women out in the

rain and the open, making their shameless toilettes, and screaming the

while such damnation by the calendar on their sister doxies for a

word, a retort, a mere flea-bite (the commonest experience, after all)

as to leave themselves, one would have thought, no vocabulary for the

more strenuous encounters of fists and claws; children swarming

everywhere in the double sense, and scattering shrill oaths like

vermin; rags and nakedness and insolence--a loafing melodrama--an

epitome of the worst squalor and viciousness in all Naples--such was

the district upon which we had alighted, the mid-ward of the

Lazzaroni.

As we stood, a ruffian, swaggering past, swerved, and approached a

handsome, impudent face. Gogo, without a word, heaved his shoulder

between. But I had no fear. These Lazzari were the king’s friends--and

mine. I pushed aside my henchman.

“_Pour le roi!_” I cried, and pointed towards the palace.

He understood, and whipped off his greasy hat.

“_Viva il re!_” he answered enthusiastically, showing his white teeth,

and motioned us to a street going eastwards up the hill. I saw and

recognised the same fellow once or twice afterwards. He was a Michele

di Laudo--Mad Michael, they called him--who, as chief of his

vagabonds, was to take a prominent part in the defence of the suburbs

against the French.

We crossed the street under his protection, and on its farther side,

before waving us on, he bent and snatched a kiss. The rank sweet touch

of his lips was like a _visé_ on my passport into hell. It seemed to

bring the blaze, the colour, the stench of the reeling streets

clashing to a focus in my brain, and it sent me speeding on half drunk

and half sick, loathing and hugging myself. I was an angel in Sodom,

running blindly for the refuge of God’s wing in a dazzle of roaring

lights, and confused by the glare, knowing not whether I turned to the

self I had left or to the self that was awaiting me. Gogo, straining

in my wake, panted as I hurried before him--

“For every dog but the watch-dog, a bone.”

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