CHAPTER XVII

It was quite dark when Roberta stole out on Wednesday night to meet

Clyde. But before that what qualms and meditations in the face of her

willingness and her agreement to do so. For not only was it difficult

for her to overcome her own mental scruples within, but in addition

there was all the trouble in connection with the commonplace and

religious and narrow atmosphere in which she found herself imbedded

at the Newtons. For since coming here she had scarcely gone anywhere

without Grace Marr. Besides on this occasion--a thing she had forgotten

in talking to Clyde--she had agreed to go with the Newtons and Grace to

the Gideon Baptist Church, where a Wednesday prayer meeting was to be

followed by a social with games, cake, tea and ice cream.

In consequence she was troubled severely as to how to manage, until it

came back to her that a day or two before Mr. Liggett, in noting how

rapid and efficient she was, had observed that at any time she wanted

to learn one phase of the stitching operations going on in the next

room, he would have her taken in hand by Mrs. Braley, who would teach

her. And now that Clyde's invitation and this church affair fell on the

same night, she decided to say that she had an appointment with Mrs.

Braley at her home. Only, as she also decided, she would wait until

just before dinner Wednesday and then say that Mrs. Braley had invited

her to come to her house. Then she could see Clyde. And by the time the

Newtons and Grace returned she could be back. Oh, how it would feel to

have him talk to her--say again as he did in the boat that he never had

seen any one look so pretty as she did standing on the bank and looking

for water lilies. Many, many thoughts--vague, dreadful, colorful, came

to her--how and where they might go--be--do--from now on, if only she

could arrange to be friends with him without harm to her or him. If

need be, she now decided, she could resign from the factory and get

a place somewhere else--a change which would absolve Clyde from any

responsibility in regard to her.

There was, however, another mental as well as emotional phase in

regard to all this and that related to her clothes. For since coming

to Lycurgus she had learned that the more intelligent girls here

dressed better than did those about Biltz and Trippetts Mills. At the

same time she had been sending a fair portion of her money to her

mother--sufficient to have equipped her exceptionally well, as she

now realized, had she retained it. But now that Clyde was swaying her

so greatly she was troubled about her looks, and on the evening after

her conversation with him at the mill, she had gone through her small

wardrobe, fixing upon a soft blue hat which Clyde had not yet seen,

together with a checkered blue and white flannel skirt and a pair of

white canvas shoes purchased the previous summer at Biltz. Her plan was

to wait until the Newtons and Grace had departed for church and then

swiftly dress and leave.

At eight-thirty, when night had finally fallen, she went east along

Taylor to Central Avenue, then by a circuitous route made her way west

again to the trysting place. And Clyde was already there. Against an

old wooden fence that enclosed a five-acre cornfield, he was leaning

and looking back toward the interesting little city, the lights in so

many of the homes of which were aglow through the trees. The air was

laden with spices--the mingled fragrance of many grasses and flowers.

There was a light wind stirring in the long swords of the corn at his

back--in the leaves of the trees overhead. And there were stars--the

big dipper and the little dipper and the milky way--sidereal phenomena

which his mother had pointed out to him long ago.

And he was thinking how different was his position here to what it had

been in Kansas City. There he had been so nervous in regard to Hortense

Briggs or any girl, really--afraid almost to say a word to any of them.

Whereas here, and especially since he had had charge of this stamping

room, he had seemed to become aware of the fact that he was more

attractive than he had ever thought he was before. Also that the girls

were attracted to him and that he was not so much afraid of them. The

eyes of Roberta herself showed him this day how much she was drawn to

him. She was his girl. And when she came, he would put his arms around

her and kiss her. And she would not be able to resist him.

He stood listening, dreaming and watching, the rustling corn behind him

stirring an old recollection in him, when suddenly he saw her coming.

She looked trim and brisk and yet nervous, and paused at the street end

and looked about like a frightened and cautious animal. At once Clyde

hurried forward toward her and called softly: "Hello. Gee, it's nice to

have you meet me. Did you have any trouble?" He was thinking how much

more pleasing she was than either Hortense Briggs or Rita Dickerman,

the one so calculating, the other so sensually free and indiscriminate.

"Did I have any trouble? Oh, didn't I though?" And at once she plunged

into a full and picturesque account, not only of the mistake in regard

to the Newtons' church night and her engagement with them, but of a

determination on the part of Grace Marr not to go to the church social

without her, and how she had to fib, oh, so terribly, about going over

to Mrs. Braley's to learn to stitch--a Liggett-Roberta development

of which Clyde had heard nothing so far and concerning which he was

intensely curious, because at once it raised the thought that already

Liggett might be intending to remove her from under his care. He

proceeded to question her about that before he would let her go on with

her story, an interest which Roberta noticed and because of which she

was very pleased.

"But I can't stay very long, you know," she explained briskly and

warmly at the first opportunity, the while Clyde laid hold of her arm

and turned toward the river, which was to the north and untenanted this

far out. "The Baptist Church socials never last much beyond ten-thirty

or eleven, and they'll be back soon. So I'll have to manage to be back

before they are."

Then she gave many reasons why it would be unwise for her to be out

after ten, reasons which annoyed yet convinced Clyde by their wisdom.

He had been hoping to keep her out longer. But seeing that the time

was to be brief, he was all the keener for a closer contact with her

now, and fell to complimenting her on her pretty hat and cape and

how becoming they were. At once he tried putting his arm about her

waist, but feeling this to be a too swift advance she removed his

arm, or tried to, saying in the softest and most coaxing voice "Now,

now--that's not nice, is it? Can't you just hold my arm or let me

hold yours?" But he noted, once she persuaded him to disengage her

waist, she took his arm in a clinging, snuggling embrace and measured

her stride to his. On the instant he was thinking how natural and

unaffected her manner was now that the ice between them had been broken.

And how she went on babbling! She liked Lycurgus, only she thought it

was the most religious town she had ever been in--worse than Biltz or

Trippetts Mills that way. And then she had to explain to Clyde what

Biltz and Trippetts Mills were like--and her home--a very little, for

she did not care to talk about that. And then back to the Newtons and

Grace Marr and how they watched her every move. Clyde was thinking as

she talked how different she was from Hortense Briggs or Rita, or any

other girl he had ever known--so much more simple and confiding--not

in any way mushy as was Rita, or brash or vain or pretentious, as was

Hortense, and yet really as pretty and so much sweeter. He could not

help thinking if she were smartly dressed how sweet she would be. And

again he was wondering what she would think of him and his attitude

toward Hortense in contrast to his attitude toward her now, if she knew.

"You know," he said at the very first opportunity, "I've been trying to

talk to you ever since you came to work at the factory but you see how

very watchful every one is. They're the limit. They told me when I came

up there that I mustn't interest myself in any girl working there and

so I tried not to. But I just couldn't help this, could I?" He squeezed

her arm affectionately, then stopped suddenly and, disengaging his arm

from hers, put both his about her. "You know, Roberta, I'm crazy about

you. I really am. I think you're the dearest, sweetest thing. Oh, say!

Do you mind my telling you? Ever since you showed up there, I haven't

been able to sleep, nearly. That's the truth--honest it is. I think

and think of you. You've got such nice eyes and hair. To-night you

look just too cute--lovely, I think. Oh, Roberta," suddenly he caught

her face between his two hands and kissed her, before really she could

evade him. Then having done this he held her while she resisted him,

although it was almost impossible for her to do so. Instead she felt

as though she wanted to put her arms around him or have him hold her

tight, and this mood in regard to him and herself puzzled and troubled

her. It was awful. What would people think--say--if they knew? She was

a bad girl, really, and yet she wanted to be this way--near him--now as

never before.

"Oh, you mustn't, Mr. Griffiths," she pleaded. "You really mustn't, you

know. Please. Some one might see us. I think I hear some one coming.

Please, now." She looked about quite frightened, apparently, while

Clyde laughed ecstatically. Life had presented him a delicious sweet at

last. "You know I never did anything like this before," she went on.

"Honest, I didn't. Please. It's only because you said----"

Clyde was pressing her close, not saying anything in reply--his pale

face and dark hungry eyes held very close to hers. He kissed her again

and again despite her protests, her little mouth and chin and cheeks

seeming too beautiful--too irresistible--then murmured pleadingly, for

he was too overcome to speak vigorously.

"Oh, Roberta, dearest, please, please, say that you love me. Please

do! I know that you do, Roberta. I can tell. Please, tell me now. I'm

so crazy about you. We have so little time."

He kissed her again upon the cheek and mouth, and suddenly he felt her

relax. She stood quite still and unresisting in his arms. He felt a

wonder of something--he could not tell what. All of a sudden he felt

tears upon her face, her head sunk to his shoulder, and then he heard

her say: "Yes, yes, yes. I do love you. Yes, yes. I do. I do."

There was a sob--half of misery, half of delight--in her voice and

Clyde caught that. He was so touched by her honesty and simplicity that

tears sprang to his own eyes. "It's all right, Roberta. It's all right.

Please don't cry. Oh, I think you're so sweet. I do. I do, Roberta."

He looked up and before him in the east over the low roofs of the city

was the thinnest, yellowest topmost arc of the rising July moon. It

seemed at the moment as though life had given him all--all--that he

could possibly ask of it.

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