II

He didn't go home, on leaving her--he didn't want to; he walked

instead, through his narrow ways and his _campi_ with gothic arches, to

a small and comparatively sequestered café where he had already more

than once found refreshment and comparative repose, together with

solutions that consisted mainly and pleasantly of further indecisions.

It was a literal fact that those awaiting him there to-night, while he

leaned back on his velvet bench with his head against a florid mirror

and his eyes not looking further than the fumes of his tobacco, might

have been regarded by him as a little less limp than usual. This wasn't

because, before getting to his feet again, there was a step he had seen

his way to; it was simply because the acceptance of his position took

sharper effect from his sense of what he had just had to deal with.

When half an hour before, at the palace, he had turned about to Milly

on the question of the impossibility so inwardly felt, turned about on

the spot and under her eyes, he had acted, by the sudden force of his

seeing much further, seeing how little, how not at all, impossibilities

mattered. It wasn't a case for pedantry; when people were at _her_ pass

everything was allowed. And her pass was now, as by the sharp click of

a spring, just completely his own--to the extent, as he felt, of her

deep dependence on him. Anything he should do or shouldn't would have

close reference to her life, which was thus absolutely in his

hands--and ought never to have reference to anything else. It was on

the cards for him that he might kill her--that was the way he read the

cards as he sat in his customary corner. The fear in this thought made

him let everything go, kept him there actually, all motionless, for

three hours on end. He renewed his consumption and smoked more

cigarettes than he had ever done in the time. What had come out for him

had come out, with this first intensity, as a terror; so that action

itself, of any sort, the right as well as the wrong--if the difference

even survived--had heard in it a vivid "Hush!" the injunction to keep

from that moment intensely still. He thought in fact while his vigil

lasted of several different ways for his doing so, and the hour might

have served him as a lesson in going on tiptoe.

What he finally took home, when he ventured to leave the place, was the

perceived truth that he might on any other system go straight to

destruction. Destruction was represented for him by the idea of his

really bringing to a point, on Milly's side, anything whatever. Nothing

so "brought," he easily argued, but _must_ be in one way or another a

catastrophe. He was mixed up in her fate, or her fate, if that should

be better, was mixed up in _him_, so that a single false motion might

either way snap the coil. They helped him, it was true, these

considerations, to a degree of eventual peace, for what they luminously

amounted to was that he was to do nothing, and that fell in after all

with the burden laid on him by Kate. He was only not to budge without

the girl's leave--not, oddly enough at the last, to move without it,

whether further or nearer, any more than without Kate's. It was to this

his wisdom reduced itself--to the need again simply to be kind. That

was the same as being still--as studying to create the minimum of

vibration. He felt himself as he smoked shut up to a room on the wall

of which something precious was too precariously hung. A false step

would bring it down, and it must hang as long as possible. He was aware

when he walked away again that even Fleet Street wouldn't at this

juncture successfully touch him. His manager might wire that he was

wanted, but he could easily be deaf to his manager. His money for the

idle life might be none too much; happily, however, Venice was cheap,

and it was moreover the queer fact that Milly in a manner supported

him. The greatest of his expenses really was to walk to the palace to

dinner. He didn't want, in short, to give that up, and he should

probably be able, he felt, to stay his breath and his hand. He should

be able to be still enough through everything.

He tried that for three weeks, with the sense after a little of not

having failed. There had to be a delicate art in it, for he wasn't

trying--quite the contrary--to be either distant or dull. That would

not have been being "nice," which in its own form was the real law.

That too might just have produced the vibration he desired to avert; so

that he best kept everything in place by not hesitating or fearing, as

it were, to let himself go--go in the direction, that is to say, of

staying. It depended on where he went; which was what he meant by

taking care. When one went on tiptoe one could turn off for retreat

without betraying the manoeuvre. Perfect tact--the necessity for which

he had from the first, as we know, happily recognised--was to keep all

intercourse in the key of the absolutely settled. It was settled thus

for instance that they were indissoluble good friends, and settled as

well that her being the American girl was, just in time and for the

relation they found themselves concerned in, a boon inappreciable. If,

at least, as the days went on, she was to fall short of her prerogative

of the great national, the great maidenly ease, if she didn't

diviningly and responsively desire and labour to record herself as

possessed of it, this wouldn't have been for want of Densher's keeping

her, with his idea, well up to it--wouldn't have been in fine for want

of his encouragement and reminder. He didn't perhaps in so many words

speak to her of the quantity itself as of the thing she was least to

intermit; but he talked of it, freely, in what he flattered himself was

an impersonal way, and this held it there before her--since he was

careful also to talk pleasantly. It was at once their idea, when all

was said, and the most marked of their conveniences. The type was so

elastic that it could be stretched to almost anything; and yet, not

stretched, it kept down, remained normal, remained properly within

bounds. And he _had_ meanwhile, thank goodness, without being too much

disconcerted, the sense, for the girl's part of the business, of the

queerest conscious compliance, of her doing very much what he wanted,

even though without her quite seeing why. She fairly touched this once

in saying: "Oh yes, you like us to be as we are because it's a kind of

facilitation to you that we don't quite measure: I think one would have

to be English to measure it!"--and that too, strangely enough, without

prejudice to her good nature. She might have been conceived as

doing--that is of being--what he liked in order perhaps only to judge

where it would take them. They really as it went on _saw_ each other at

the game; she knowing he tried to keep her in tune with his conception,

and he knowing she thus knew it. Add that he again knew she knew, and

yet that nothing was spoiled by it, and we get a fair impression of the

line they found most completely workable. The strangest fact of all for

us must be that the success he himself thus promoted was precisely what

figured to his gratitude as the something above and beyond him, above

and beyond Kate, that made for daily decency. There would scarce have

been felicity--certainly too little of the right lubricant--had not the

national character so invoked been, not less inscrutably than entirely,

in Milly's chords. It made up her unity and was the one thing he could

unlimitedly take for granted.

He did so then, daily, for twenty days, without deepened fear of the

undue vibration that was keeping him watchful. He knew in his

nervousness that he was living at best from day to day and from hand to

mouth; yet he had succeeded, he believed, in avoiding a mistake. All

women had alternatives, and Milly's would doubtless be shaky too; but

the national character was firm in her, whether as all of her,

practically, by this time, or but as a part; the national character

that, in a woman still so young, made of the air breathed a virtual

non-conductor. It wasn't till a certain occasion when the twenty days

had passed that, going to the palace at tea-time, he was met by the

information that the signorina padrona was not "receiving." The

announcement met him, in the court, on the lips of one of the

gondoliers, met him, he thought, with such a conscious eye as the

knowledge of his freedoms of access, hitherto conspicuously shown,

could scarce fail to beget. Densher had not been at Palazzo Leporelli

among the mere receivable, but had taken his place once for all among

the involved and included, so that on being so flagrantly braved he

recognised after a moment the propriety of a further appeal. Neither of

the two ladies, it appeared, received, and yet Pasquale was not

prepared to say that either was _poco bene_. He was yet not prepared to

say that either was anything, and he would have been blank, Densher

mentally noted, if the term could ever apply to members of a race in

whom vacancy was but a nest of darknesses--not a vain surface, but a

place of withdrawal in which something obscure, something always

ominous, indistinguishably lived. He felt afresh indeed at this hour

the force of the veto laid within the palace on any mention, any

cognition, of the liabilities of its mistress. The state of her health

was never confessed to there as a reason. How much it might deeply be

taken for one was another matter; of which he grew fully aware on

carrying his question further. This appeal was to his friend Eugenio,

whom he immediately sent for, with whom, for three rich minutes,

protected from the weather, he was confronted in the gallery that led

from the water-steps to the court, and whom he always called, in

meditation, his friend; seeing it was so elegantly presumable he would

have put an end to him if he could. That produced a relation which

required a name of its own, an intimacy of consciousness in truth for

each--an intimacy of eye, of ear, of general sensibility, of everything

but tongue. It had been, in other words, for the five weeks, far from

occult to our young man that Eugenio took a view of him not less finely

formal than essentially vulgar, but which at the same time he couldn't

himself raise an eyebrow to prevent. It was all in the air now again;

it was as much between them as ever while Eugenio waited on him in the

court.

The weather, from early morning, had turned to storm, the first

sea-storm of the autumn, and Densher had almost invidiously brought him

down the outer staircase--the massive ascent, the great feature of the

court, to Milly's _piano nobile_. This was to pay him--it was the one

chance--for all imputations; the imputation in particular that, clever,

_tanto bello_ and not rich, the young man from London was--by the

obvious way--pressing Miss Theale's fortune hard. It was to pay him for

the further ineffable intimation that a gentleman must take the young

lady's most devoted servant (interested scarcely less in the high

attraction) for a strangely casual appendage if he counted in such a

connexion on impunity and prosperity. These interpretations were odious

to Densher for the simple reason that they might have been so true of

the attitude of an inferior man, and three things alone, accordingly,

had kept him from righting himself. One of these was that his critic

sought expression only in an impersonality, a positive inhumanity, of

politeness; the second was that refinements of expression in a friend's

servant were not a thing a visitor could take action on; and the third

was the fact that the particular attribution of motive did him after

all no wrong. It was his own fault if the vulgar view, the view that

might have been taken of an inferior man, happened so incorrigibly to

fit him. He apparently wasn't so different from inferior men as that

came to. If therefore, in fine, Eugenio figured to him as "my friend"

because he was conscious of his seeing so much of him, what he made him

see on the same lines in the course of their present interview was ever

so much more. Densher felt that he marked himself, no doubt, as

insisting, by dissatisfaction with the gondolier's answer, on the

pursuit taken for granted in him; and yet felt it only in the

augmented, the exalted distance that was by this time established

between them. Eugenio had of course reflected that a word to Miss

Theale from such a pair of lips would cost him his place; but he could

also bethink himself that, so long as the word never came--and it was,

on the basis he had arranged, impossible--he enjoyed the imagination of

mounting guard. He had never so mounted guard, Densher could see, as

during these minutes in the damp _loggia_ where the storm-gusts were

strong; and there came in fact for our young man, as a result of his

presence, a sudden sharp sense that everything had turned to the

dismal. Something had happened--he didn't know what; and it wasn't

Eugenio who would tell him. What Eugenio told him was that he thought

the ladies--as if their liability had been equal--were a "leetle"

fatigued, just a "leetle leetle," and without any cause named for it.

It was one of the signs of what Densher felt in him that, by a

profundity, a true deviltry of resource, he always met the latter's

Italian with English and his English with Italian. He now, as usual,

slightly smiled at him in the process--but ever so slightly this time,

his manner also being attuned, our young man made out, to the thing,

whatever it was, that constituted the rupture of peace.

This manner, while they stood a long minute facing each other over all

they didn't say, played a part as well in the sudden jar to Densher's

protected state. It was a Venice all of evil that had broken out for

them alike, so that they were together in their anxiety, if they really

could have met on it; a Venice of cold lashing rain from a low black

sky, of wicked wind raging through narrow passes, of general arrest and

interruption, with the people engaged in all the water-life huddled,

stranded and wageless, bored and cynical, under archways and bridges.

Our young man's mute exchange with his friend contained meanwhile such

a depth of reference that, had the pressure been but slightly

prolonged, they might have reached a point at which they were equally

weak. Each had verily something in mind that would have made a hash of

mutual suspicion and in presence of which, as a possibility, they were

more united than disjoined. But it was to have been a moment for

Densher that nothing could ease off--not even the formal propriety with

which his interlocutor finally attended him to the _portone_ and bowed

upon his retreat. Nothing had passed about his coming back, and the air

had made itself felt as a non-conductor of messages. Densher knew of

course, as he took his way again, that Eugenio's invitation to return

was not what he missed; yet he knew at the same time that what had

happened to him was part of his punishment. Out in the square beyond

the _fondamenta_ that gave access to the land-gate of the palace, out

where the wind was higher, he fairly, with the thought of it, pulled

his umbrella closer down. It couldn't be, his consciousness, unseen

enough by others--the base predicament of having, by a concatenation,

just to _take_ such things: such things as the fact that one very acute

person in the world, whom he couldn't dispose of as an interested

scoundrel, enjoyed an opinion of him that there was no attacking, no

disproving, no (what was worst of all) even noticing. One had come to a

queer pass when a servant's opinion so mattered. Eugenio's would have

mattered even if, as founded on a low vision of appearances, it had

been quite wrong. It was the more disagreeable accordingly that the

vision of appearances was quite right, and yet was scarcely less low.

Such as it was, at any rate, Densher shook it off with the more

impatience that he was independently restless. He had to walk in spite

of weather, and he took his course, through crooked ways, to the

Piazza, where he should have the shelter of the galleries. Here, in the

high arcade, half Venice was crowded close, while, on the Molo, at the

limit of the expanse, the old columns of the Saint Theodore and of the

Lion were the frame of a door wide open to the storm. It was odd for

him, as he moved, that it should have made such a difference--if the

difference wasn't only that the palace had for the first time failed of

a welcome. There was more, but it came from that; that gave the harsh

note and broke the spell. The wet and the cold were now to reckon with,

and it was to Densher precisely as if he had seen the obliteration, at

a stroke, of the margin on a faith in which they were all living. The

margin had been his name for it--for the thing that, though it had held

out, could bear no shock. The shock, in some form, had come, and he

wondered about it while, threading his way among loungers as vague as

himself, he dropped his eyes sightlessly on the rubbish in shops. There

were stretches of the gallery paved with squares of red marble, greasy

now with the salt spray; and the whole place, in its huge elegance, the

grace of its conception and the beauty of its detail, was more than

ever like a great drawing-room, the drawing-room of Europe, profaned

and bewildered by some reverse of fortune. He brushed shoulders with

brown men whose hats askew, and the loose sleeves of whose pendent

jackets, made them resemble melancholy maskers. The tables and chairs

that overflowed from the cafés were gathered, still with a pretence of

service, into the arcade, and here and there a spectacled German, with

his coat-collar up, partook publicly of food and philosophy. These were

impressions for Densher too, but he had made the whole circuit thrice

before he stopped short, in front of Florian's, with the force of his

sharpest. His eye had caught a face within the café--he had spotted an

acquaintance behind the glass. The person he had thus paused long

enough to look at twice was seated, well within range, at a small table

on which a tumbler, half-emptied and evidently neglected, still

remained; and though he had on his knee, as he leaned back, a copy of a

French newspaper--the heading of the _Figaro_ was visible--he stared

straight before him at the little opposite rococo wall. Densher had him

for a minute in profile, had him for a time during which his identity

produced, however quickly, all the effect of establishing

connexions--connexions startling and direct; and then, as if it were

the one thing more needed, seized the look, determined by a turn of the

head, that might have been a prompt result of the sense of being

noticed. This wider view showed him _all_ Lord Mark--Lord Mark as

encountered, several weeks before, the day of the first visit of each

to Palazzo Leporelli. For it had been all Lord Mark that was going out,

on that occasion, as he came in--he had felt it, in the hall, at the

time; and he was accordingly the less at a loss to recognise in a few

seconds, as renewed meeting brought it to the surface, the same

potential quantity.

It was a matter, the whole passage--it could only be--but of a few

seconds; for as he might neither stand there to stare nor on the other

hand make any advance from it, he had presently resumed his walk, this

time to another pace. It had been for all the world, during his pause,

as if he had caught his answer to the riddle of the day. Lord Mark had

simply faced him--as he had faced _him_, not placed by him, not at

first--as one of the damp shuffling crowd. Recognition, though hanging

fire, had then clearly come; yet no light of salutation had been struck

from these certainties. Acquaintance between them was scant enough for

neither to take it up. That neither had done so was not, however, what

now mattered, but that the gentleman at Florian's should be in the

place at all. He couldn't have been in it long; Densher, as inevitably

a haunter of the great meeting-ground, would in that case have seen him

before. He paid short visits; he was on the wing; the question for him

even as he sat there was of his train or of his boat. He had come back

for something--as a sequel to his earlier visit; and whatever he had

come back for it had had time to be done. He might have arrived but

last night or that morning; he had already made the difference. It was

a great thing for Densher to get this answer. He held it close, he

hugged it, quite leaned on it as he continued to circulate. It kept him

going and going--it made him no less restless. But it explained--and

that was much, for with explanations he might somehow deal. The vice in

the air, otherwise, was too much like the breath of fate. The weather

had changed, the rain was ugly, the wind wicked, the sea impossible,

_because_ of Lord Mark. It was because of him, _a fortiori_, that the

palace was closed. Densher went round again twice; he found the visitor

each time as he had found him first. Once, that is, he was staring

before him; the next time he was looking over his _Figaro_, which he

had opened out. Densher didn't again stop, but left him apparently

unconscious of his passage--on another repetition of which Lord Mark

had disappeared. He had spent but the day; he would be off that night;

he had now gone to his hotel for arrangements. These things were as

plain to Densher as if he had had them in words. The obscure had

cleared for him--if cleared it was; there was something he didn't see,

the great thing; but he saw so round it and so close to it that this

was almost as good. He had been looking at a man who had done what he

had come for, and for whom, as done, it temporarily sufficed. The man

had come again to see Milly, and Milly had received him. His visit

would have taken place just before or just after luncheon, and it was

the reason why he himself had found her door shut.

He said to himself that evening, he still said even on the morrow, that

he only wanted a reason, and that with this perception of one he could

now mind, as he called it, his business. His business, he had settled,

as we know, was to keep thoroughly still; and he asked himself why it

should prevent this that he could feel, in connexion with the crisis,

so remarkably blameless. He gave the appearances before him all the

benefit of being critical, so that if blame were to accrue he shouldn't

feel he had dodged it. But it wasn't a bit he who, that day, had

touched her, and if she was upset it wasn't a bit his act. The ability

so to think about it amounted for Densher during several hours to a

kind of exhilaration. The exhilaration was heightened fairly, besides,

by the visible conditions--sharp, striking, ugly to him--of Lord Mark's

return. His constant view of it, for all the next hours, of which there

were many, was as a demonstration on the face of it sinister even to

his own actual ignorance. He didn't need, for seeing it as evil, seeing

it as, to a certainty, in a high degree "nasty," to know more about it

than he had so easily and so wonderfully picked up. You couldn't drop

on the poor girl that way without, by the fact, being brutal. Such a

visit was a descent, an invasion, an aggression, constituting precisely

one or other of the stupid shocks he himself had so decently sought to

spare her. Densher had indeed drifted by the next morning to the

reflexion--which he positively, with occasion, might have brought

straight out--that the only delicate and honourable way of treating a

person in such a state was to treat her as _he_, Merton Densher, did.

With time, actually--for the impression but deepened--this sense of the

contrast, to the advantage of Merton Densher, became a sense of relief,

and that in turn a sense of escape. It was for all the world--and he

drew a long breath on it--as if a special danger for him had passed.

Lord Mark had, without in the least intending such a service, got it

straight out of the way. It was _he_, the brute, who had stumbled into

just the wrong inspiration and who had therefore produced, for the very

person he had wished to hurt, an impunity that was comparative

innocence, that was almost like purification. The person he had wished

to hurt could only be the person so unaccountably hanging about. To

keep still meanwhile was, for this person, more comprehensively, to

keep it all up; and to keep it all up was, if that seemed on

consideration best, not, for the day or two, to go back to the palace.

The day or two passed--stretched to three days; and with the effect,

extraordinarily, that Densher felt himself in the course of them washed

but the more clean. Some sign would come if his return should have the

better effect; and he was at all events, in absence, without the

particular scruple. It wouldn't have been meant for him by either of

the women that he was to come back but to face Eugenio. That was

impossible--the being again denied; for it made him practically

answerable, and answerable was what he wasn't. There was no neglect

either in absence, inasmuch as, from the moment he didn't get in, the

one message he could send up would be some hope on the score of health.

Since accordingly that sort of expression was definitely forbidden him

he had only to wait--which he was actually helped to do by his feeling

with the lapse of each day more and more wound up to it. The days in

themselves were anything but sweet; the wind and the weather lasted,

the fireless cold hinted at worse; the broken charm of the world about

was broken into smaller pieces. He walked up and down his rooms and

listened to the wind--listened also to tinkles of bells and watched for

some servant of the palace. He might get a note, but the note never

came; there were hours when he stayed at home not to miss it. When he

wasn't at home he was in circulation again as he had been at the hour

of his seeing Lord Mark. He strolled about the Square with the herd of

refugees; he raked the approaches and the cafés on the chance the

brute, as he now regularly imaged him, _might_ be still there. He could

only be there, he knew, to be received afresh; and that--one had but to

think of it--would be indeed stiff. He had gone, however--it was

proved; though Densher's care for the question either way only added to

what was most acrid in the taste of his present ordeal. It all came

round to what he was doing for Milly--spending days that neither relief

nor escape could purge of a smack of the abject. What was it but abject

for a man of his parts to be reduced to such pastimes? What was it but

sordid for him, shuffling about in the rain, to have to peep into shops

and to consider possible meetings? What was it but odious to find

himself wondering what, as between him and another man, a possible

meeting would produce? There recurred moments when in spite of

everything he felt no straighter than another man. And yet even on the

third day, when still nothing had come, he more than ever knew that he

wouldn't have budged for the world.

He thought of the two women, in their silence, at last--he at all

events thought of Milly--as probably, for her reasons, now intensely

wishing him to go. The cold breath of her reasons was, with everything

else, in the air; but he didn't care for them any more than for her

wish itself, and he would stay in spite of her, stay in spite of odium,

stay in spite perhaps of some final experience that would be, for the

pain of it, all but unbearable. That would be his one way, purified

though he was, to mark his virtue beyond any mistake. It would be

accepting the disagreeable, and the disagreeable would be a proof; a

proof of his not having stayed for the thing--the agreeable, as it

were--that Kate had named. The thing Kate had named was not to have

been the odium of staying in spite of hints. It was part of the odium

as actual too that Kate was, for her comfort, just now well aloof.

These were the first hours since her flight in which his sense of what

she had done for him on the eve of that event was to incur a

qualification. It was strange, it was perhaps base, to be thinking such

things so soon; but one of the intimations of his solitude was that she

had provided for herself. She was out of it all, by her act, as much as

he was in it; and this difference grew, positively, as his own

intensity increased. She had said in their last sharp snatch of

talk--sharp though thickly muffled, and with every word in it final and

deep, unlike even the deepest words they had ever yet spoken: "Letters?

Never--_now_. Think of it. Impossible." So that as he had sufficiently

caught her sense--into which he read, all the same, a strange

inconsequence--they had practically wrapped their understanding in the

breach of their correspondence. He had moreover, on losing her, done

justice to her law of silence; for there was doubtless a finer delicacy

in his not writing to her than in his writing as he must have written

had he spoken of themselves. That would have been a turbid strain, and

her idea had been to be noble; which, in a degree, was a manner. Only

it left her, for the pinch, comparatively at ease. And it left _him_,

in the conditions, peculiarly alone. He was alone, that is, till, on

the afternoon of his third day, in gathering dusk and renewed rain,

with his shabby rooms looking doubtless, in their confirmed dreariness,

for the mere eyes of others, at their worst, the grinning padrona threw

open the door and introduced Mrs. Stringham. That made at a bound a

difference, especially when he saw that his visitor was weighted. It

appeared part of her weight that she was in a wet waterproof, that she

allowed her umbrella to be taken from her by the good woman without

consciousness or care, and that her face, under her veil, richly rosy

with the driving wind, was--and the veil too--as splashed as if the

rain were her tears.