CHAPTER XXXIV. “THE WEIGHT OF CRUEL YEARS PILED INTO ONE LONG AGONY.”

Mrs. Varian read on and on until her eyes grew weary, then closing

them, she leaned back with a tired sigh, and fell to musing.

Perhaps the musings were not pleasant, for presently she sighed deeply

again, and raising her head began to look around her in a listless way

at the passengers.

She gave a violent start, and stared fixedly at the handsome head and

broad shoulders a few seats ahead.

Could it be? Or was she dreaming? Surely those outlines were too

familiar for her to be mistaken.

It was _he_! She saw him lean forward to answer the women in the next

seat. The outline of his handsome profile was clear for a moment.

She fell back almost stunned, secretly railing at her ill fortune.

Janetta, the maid, leaned forward from the back seat.

“Do you wish anything, madame? You seem ill.”

She whispered back:

“Who are those people in front of us there?”

“Some people from your own town, madame; a Mrs. Flint, her brother, and

her servant. The lady has been sick, and I heard the conductor telling

some one back there that they were going South for her health.”

“Ah!” and Mrs. Varian shut her eyes and relapsed into pallor and

silence again.

Janetta, good, faithful soul, watched her uneasily, feeling she was not

well.

She was inwardly ill indeed--raging at the trick fate had played on her

this day.

“To endure this thirty-six hours--the sight of him whenever I open my

eyes--it is impossible!” she said to herself, in a sort of blank terror.

Janetta touched her gently, whispering:

“You are very pale--I hope not ill.”

She could fancy that she was ghastly to evoke this anxiety, so she

answered:

“I do not feel quite my usual self. I am thinking of not going on

to-night any further than Charlottesville, and resuming our journey

to-morrow, if I am better.”

“Perhaps that is the better plan,” the maid returned, respectfully,

though secretly rather disappointed at delaying the journey.

But she was used to her mistress and her capricious notions. She had

simply to obey.

So when they reached the university town a little further on, the

mistress and maid left the train, to the great relief of Everard Dawn,

who thought:

“I was right. She is _en route_ for Washington. She will board the

Northern train at this point. But how lonely it seemed, just the two

women traveling together. I remember she used to be one of those

dependent women, always preferring a man’s escort. Arthur ought to be

with her now, poor Paulina!”

Mrs. Flint exclaimed:

“Was not that Mrs. Varian leaving the train?”

“I believe so,” he replied, carelessly; and then the brief wait at the

station being over, the train rushed on into the deep gloom of twilight.

It was scarcely a mile further on that, lying back with shut eyes

and confused thoughts that mostly centered around the lonely figure

of the woman just gone, he was roused by a terrible roar, a jumble

of horrible sound, movement, and stifled shrieks of fear and pain,

then consciousness gave way, and he lay still and death-like under

the _débris_ of a dreadful railway wreck--a collision caused by the

misplacing of a switch.

* * * * *

Mrs. Varian revived out in the cold evening air, and she congratulated

herself on her lucky escape, as she and Janetta sought the nearest

hotel.

They had supper, and went to their rooms, a luxurious connecting suite.

Mrs. Varian was nervous and hysterically gay, laughing to herself at

the clever _coup_ by which she had outwitted fate.

“I wonder if he saw me--if he guessed why I left the train--but perhaps

he was glad of it,” she thought.

She walked restlessly up and down the room, chafing under a weight that

seemed to rest like a pall on her spirits--a weight of prescient gloom.

“Mrs. Varian, you are nervous. You ought to take some drops and retire,

or you will not be fit to resume your journey in the morning,” the maid

remonstrated, when she had watched her restless movements some time in

silence.

“You are right Janetta, and I will take your advice. I should like to

sleep, for my thoughts are not pleasant to-night,” the lady returned,

docilely.

But sleep would not come to the heavy lids, for all she tried to

deceive Janetta by lying as still as a mouse, with her cheek in the

hollow of her little hand.

Strange tears crept under the black-fringed lashes and dampened the

pillow. The maid caught a stifled sob.

“Ah, madame, it is bad dreams you’re having!” she murmured, stroking

the dark head gently.

“Yes, yes, bad dreams, Janetta.”

“And no wonder, with the noise and confusion going on down-stairs,

tramping like horses the last ten minutes. I can’t imagine what all the

racket means, and if you don’t object, madame, I’ll go down and ask the

clerk to have the noise stopped, so you may sleep better.”

“You may go.”

When Janetta was gone, she sat up in bed, throwing her jeweled hands

wildly about crying:

“How I deceived that kind, faithful creature! I have not slept a

moment. I have been too wretched. There is too great a weight on my

heart--the whole weight of cruel years piled into one wild agony

to-night! Oh, death were better than this pain!”

Janetta was gone fully fifteen minutes before she returned, pale, and

tearfully excited, wringing her hands.

“Oh, madame, you are still awake! Then thank God for the lucky

inspiration that came to you at Charlottesville to leave the train!

It was surely Heaven that prompted you, for else we might now both be

dead!”

“Janetta!” wildly.

“Oh, madame, the train was wrecked scarcely a mile further on, and

people were killed--some of them--others were wounded, and may die!

They are bringing them back here--that was the noise we heard--the

tramping of feet that woke you. Oh, I have shocked you, breaking this

so abruptly; but I did not think, I was so excited. Pardon me, dear

lady. Of course there were none of your friends, as all were strangers

to us.”

“All strangers!” gasped Mrs. Varian in a hollow voice, with terror in

her eyes, as she clung to Janetta’s soothing hands.

The excited maid ran on breathlessly:

“Those people you noticed in front of us, madame--oh, it was dreadful!

The sick woman escaped unhurt, but the servant was badly injured, and

the man--Mr. Dawn they say his name is--was killed outright.”

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