CHAPTER XXIV. “THE PANGS THAT REND MY HEART IN TWAIN!”

Madame Ray despised Arthur Varian so much that she was bitterly

chagrined on learning that he was related to her favorite, Frederick

Foster, whom she hoped to see Cinthia marry.

Foster had frankly confided his hopes to the actress, and elicited her

sympathy in his love. She had promised to do all she could to help him

win Cinthia, and it annoyed her very much that, for a time at least,

the ardent lover would be debarred from seeing the object of his love.

Perhaps, too, if he should find out that love episode with his cousin

Arthur, he would not wish to marry a girl who had been so cruelly

deserted on the eve of marriage. She guessed wrongly that the Varians

would very likely use all their influence against Cinthia.

But, however much she worried, she could see no way out of the dilemma.

Foster had been abruptly parted from Cinthia before he had taught her

to love him, and she saw no safe way of bringing them together again in

the present. Time alone could solve the problem.

It was a great disappointment not to be able to take Cinthia to

Newport, where she knew that the girl’s grace and beauty would create a

sensation; but, of course, it was not to be thought of now. Cinthia and

Arthur Varian must be kept apart for the sake of the young girl’s peace

of mind.

But how handsome and manly he had looked--not at all like the weak

coward Madame Ray deemed him. She found herself dwelling with pleasure

on his handsome face and form, his dark-blue eyes, and brown,

clustering hair.

“Much after the style of Cinthia’s handsome father. I fancy he might

have looked like that when he was a young man, before the gray came

into his brown locks, and the anxious lines into his face,” she mused,

thoughtfully; and her eyes grew grave, and her cheek pale with a

sudden, startling thought that made her exclaim: “Good heavens! _could_

it be?”

The line of thought thus started was most distressing, as evinced by

the agitation of her face, and presently she muttered:

“There may be a mystery, after all. I will try to get at the bottom of

it.”

Meanwhile, Cinthia, struggling with the heartache renewed by her

encounter with her lost love, or her false love, as she preferred to

call him, made a great effort to throw off the weight on her spirits

and become herself again.

“One struggle more, and I am free

From pangs that rend my heart in twain.

One last farewell to love and thee,

Then back to busy, life again.

It suits me well to mingle now

With things that never pleased before;

Now every joy is fled below,

What future grief can touch me more?

“By many a shore, and many a sea,

Divided, loving all in vain,

The past, the future, fled to thee,

To bid us meet--no--ne’er again!

’Tis silent all; but on my ear

The well-remembered echoes thrill;

I hear a voice I would not hear,

A voice that now might well be still.”

Cinthia could not thrust Arthur’s image from her heart however much she

tried and longed to do so. She could wear the mask of pride over her

sorrow, that was all.

Her father hoped and believed that she was overcoming her trouble, and

would have rejoiced as much as Madame Ray if she could have transferred

her heart to Frederick Foster. He who had known the pangs of wounded

love so well was eager to find a cure for his daughter’s heart.

But all chance of this had been temporarily frustrated by her

unexpected _rencontre_ with Arthur Varian.

He felt that all the old ground would have to be gone over now again,

and cursed the evil fates that had worked against him.

He regretted that a sudden weariness of foreign shores had decided him

to return to America, and made up his mind to take Cinthia away again

out of reach of the Varians. This was why he had said that he was

going to California.

He had decided to make a home for himself and daughter under those blue

and sunny skies, among orange groves and bowers of bloom, where life

would glide so softly amid wooing zephyrs, that it would seem like an

Arcadia even to disappointed hearts like his own and Cinthia’s. There

they would win forgetfulness of the past and hope for the future.

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