On a day in March one of his old landladies, Mrs. Higdon, sped to the

house of another, Mrs. Evans, panting under a burden of strange news.

Could it be believed! Mr. Jordan was going to marry--to marry that woman

in whose house he was living! Mrs. Higdon had it on the very best

authority--that of Mr. Jordan's partner, who spoke of the affair without

reserve. A new house had already been taken--at Wood Green. Well! After

all these years, after so many excellent opportunities, to marry a mere

stranger and forsake Islington! In a moment Mr. Jordan's character was

gone; had he figured in the police-court under some disgraceful charge,

these landladies could hardly have felt more shocked and professed

themselves more disgusted. The intelligence spread. Women went out of

their way to have a sight of Mrs. Elderfield's house; they hung about

for a glimpse of that sinister person herself. She had robbed them,

every one, of a possible share in Islington's prize lodger. Had it been

one of themselves they could have borne the chagrin; but a woman whom

not one of them knew, an alien! What base arts had she practised? Ah,

it was better not to inquire too closely into the secrets of that

lodging-house.

Though every effort was made to learn the time and place of the

ceremony, Mr. Jordan's landladies had the mortification to hear of his

wedding only when it was over. Of course, this showed that he felt the

disgracefulness of his behaviour; he was not utterly lost to shame. It

could only be hoped that he would not know the bitterness of repentance.

Not till he found himself actually living in the house at Wood Green did

Mr. Jordan realize how little his own will had had to do with the recent

course of events. Certainly, he had made love to the widow, and had

asked her to marry him; but from that point onward he seemed to have put

himself entirely in Mrs. Elderfield's hands, granting every request,

meeting half-way every suggestion she offered, becoming, in short, quite

a different kind of man from his former self. He had not been sensible

of a moment's reluctance; he enjoyed the novel sense of yielding himself

to affectionate guidance. His wits had gone wool-gathering; they

returned to him only after the short honeymoon at Brighton, when he

stood upon his own hearth-rug, and looked round at the new furniture

and ornaments which symbolized a new beginning of life.

The admirable landlady had shown herself energetic, clear-headed, and

full of resource; it was she who chose the house, and transacted all the

business in connection with it; Mr. Jordan had merely run about in her

company from place to place, smiling approval and signing cheques. No

one could have gone to work more prudently, or obtained what she wanted

at smaller outlay; for all that, Mr. Jordan, having recovered something

like his normal frame of mind, viewed the results with consternation.

Left to himself, he would have taken a very small house, and furnished

it much in the style of Islington lodgings; as it was, he occupied a

ten-roomed 'villa', with appointments which seemed to him luxurious,

aristocratic. True, the expenditure was of no moment to a man in his

position, and there was no fear that Mrs. Jordan would involve him in

dangerous extravagance; but he had always lived with such excessive

economy that the sudden change to a life correspondent with his income

could not but make him uncomfortable.

Mrs. Jordan had, of course, seen to it that her personal appearance

harmonized with the new surroundings. She dressed herself and her young

daughter with careful appropriateness. There was no display, no purchase

of gewgaws--merely garments of good quality, such as became people in

easy circumstances. She impressed upon her husband that this was nothing

more than a return to the habits of her earlier life. Her first marriage

had been a sad mistake; it had brought her down in the world. Now she

felt restored to her natural position.

After a week of restlessness, Mr. Jordan resumed his daily visits to

the shop in Upper Street, where he sat as usual among the books and the

correspondence, and tried to assure himself that all would henceforth

be well with him. No more changing from house to house; a really

comfortable home in which to spend the rest of his days; a kind and most

capable wife to look after all his needs, to humour all his little

habits. He could not have taken a wiser step.

For all that, he had lost something, though he did not yet understand

what it was. The first perception of a change not for the better flashed

upon him one evening in the second week, when he came home an hour

later than his wont. Mrs. Jordan, who always stood waiting for him at

the window, had no smile as he entered.

'Why are you late?' she asked, in her clear, restrained voice.

'Oh--something or other kept me.'

This would not do. Mrs. Jordan quietly insisted on a full explanation of

the delay, and it seemed to her unsatisfactory.

'I hope you won't be irregular in your habits, Archibald,' said his

wife, with gentle admonition. 'What I always liked in you was your

methodical way of living. I shall be very uncomfortable if I never

know when to expect you.'

'Yes, my dear, but--business, you see--'

'But you have explained that you _could_ have been back at the usual

time.'

'Yes--that's true--but--'

'Well, well, you won't let it happen again. Oh really, Archibald!' she

suddenly exclaimed. 'The idea of you coming into the room with muddy

boots! Why, look! There's a patch of mud on the carpet--'

'It was my hurry to speak to you,' murmured Mr. Jordan, in confusion.

'Please go at once and take your boots off. And you left your slippers

in the bedroom this morning. You must always bring them down, and put

them in the dining-room cupboard; then they're ready for you when you

come into the house.'

Mr. Jordan had but a moderate appetite for his dinner, and he did not

talk so pleasantly as usual. This was but the beginning of troubles such

as he had not for a moment foreseen. His wife, having since their

engagement taken the upper hand, began to show her determination to keep

it, and day by day her rule grew more galling to the ex-bachelor. He

himself, in the old days, had plagued his landladies by insisting upon

method and routine, by his faddish attention to domestic minutiae; he

now learnt what it was to be subjected to the same kind of despotism,

exercised with much more exasperating persistence. Whereas Mrs.

Elderfield had scrupulously obeyed every direction given by her lodger,

Mrs. Jordan was evidently resolved that her husband should live, move,

and have his being in the strictest accordance with her own ideal. Not

in any spirit of nagging, or ill-tempered unreasonableness; it was

merely that she had her favourite way of doing every conceivable thing,

and felt so sure it was the best of all possible ways that she could not

endure any other. The first serious disagreement between them had

reference to conduct at the breakfast-table. After a broken night,

feeling headachy and worried, Mr. Jordan took up his newspaper, folded

it conveniently, and set it against the bread so that he could read

while eating. Without a word, his wife gently removed it, and laid it

aside on a chair.

'What are you doing?' he asked gruffly.

'You mustn't read at meals, Archibald. It's bad manners, and bad for your

digestion.'

'I've read the news at breakfast all my life, and I shall do so still,'

exclaimed the husband, starting up and recovering his paper.

'Then you will have breakfast by yourself. Nelly, we must go into the

other room till papa has finished.'

Mr. Jordan ate mechanically, and stared at the newspaper with just as

little consciousness. Prompted by the underlying weakness of his

character to yield for the sake of peace, wrath made him dogged, and the

more steadily he regarded his position, the more was he appalled by the

outlook. Why, this meant downright slavery! He had married a woman so

horribly like himself in several points that his only hope lay in

overcoming her by sheer violence. A thoroughly good and well-meaning

woman, an excellent housekeeper, the kind of wife to do him credit and

improve his social position; but self-willed, pertinacious, and probably

thinking herself his superior in every respect. He had nothing to fear

but subjection--the one thing he had never anticipated, the one thing he

could never endure.

He went off to business without seeing his wife again, and passed a

lamentable day. At his ordinary hour of return, instead of setting off

homeward, he strayed about the by-streets of Islington and Pentonville.

Not till this moment had he felt how dear they were to him, the familiar

streets; their very odours fell sweet upon his nostrils. Never again

could he go hither and thither, among the old friends, the old places,

to his heart's content. What had possessed him to abandon this precious

liberty! The thought of Wood Green revolted him; live there as long as

he might, he would never be at home. He thought of his wife (now waiting

for him) with fear, and then with a reaction of rage. Let her wait!

He--Archibald Jordan--before whom women had bowed and trembled for

five-and-twenty years--was _he_ to come and go at a wife's bidding? And

at length the thought seemed so utterly preposterous that he sped

northward as fast as possible, determined to right himself this very

evening.

Mrs. Jordan sat alone. He marched into the room with muddy boots, flung

his hat and overcoat into a chair, and poked the fire violently. His

wife's eye was fixed on him, and she first spoke--in the quiet voice

that he dreaded.

'What do you mean by carrying on like this, Archibald?'

'I shall carry on as I like in my own house--hear that?'

'I do hear it, and I'm very sorry too. It gives me a very bad opinion

of you. You will _not_ do as you like in your own house. Rage as you

please. You will _not_ do as you like in your own house.'

There was a contemptuous anger in her eye which the man could not face.

He lost all control of himself, uttered coarse oaths, and stood

quivering. Then the woman began to lecture him; she talked steadily,

acrimoniously, for more than an hour, regardless of his interruptions.

Nervously exhausted, he fled at length from the room. A couple of hours

later they met again in the nuptial chamber, and again Mrs. Jordan began

to talk. Her point, as before, was that he had begun married life about

as badly as possible. Why had he married her at all? What fault had she

committed to incur such outrageous usage? But, thank goodness, she had a

will of her own, and a proper self-respect; behave as he might, _she_

would still persevere in the path of womanly duty. If he thought to make

her life unbearable he would find his mistake; she simply should not

heed him; perhaps he would return to his senses before long--and in this

vein Mrs. Jordan continued until night was at odds with morning, only

becoming silent when her partner had sunk into the oblivion of uttermost

fatigue.

The next day Mr. Jordan's demeanour showed him, for the moment at all

events, defeated. He made no attempt to read at breakfast; he moved

about very quietly. And in the afternoon he came home at the regulation

hour.

Mrs. Jordan had friends in the neighbourhood, but she saw little of

them. She was not a woman of ordinary tastes. Everything proved that,

to her mind, the possession of a nice house, with the prospects of a

comfortable life, was an end in itself; she had no desire to exhibit her

well-furnished rooms, or to gad about talking of her advantages. Every

moment of her day was taken up in the superintendence of servants, the

discharge of an infinitude of housewifely tasks. She had no assistance

from her daughter; the girl went to school, and was encouraged to study

with the utmost application. The husband's presence in the house seemed

a mere accident--save in the still nocturnal season, when Mrs. Jordan

bestowed upon him her counsel and her admonitions.

After the lapse of a few days Mr. Jordan again offered combat, and threw

himself into it with a frenzy.

'Look here!' he shouted at length, 'either you or I are going to leave

this house. I can't live with you--understand? I hate the sight of you!'

'Go on!' retorted the other, with mild bitterness. 'Abuse me as much as

you like, I can bear it. I shall continue to do my duty, and unless you

have recourse to personal violence, here I remain. If you go too far, of

course the law must defend me!'

This was precisely what Mr. Jordan knew and dreaded; the law was on his

wife's side, and by applying at a police-court for protection she could

overwhelm him with shame and ridicule, which would make life

intolerable. Impossible to argue with this woman. Say what he might, the

fault always seemed his. His wife was simply doing her duty--in a spirit

of admirable thoroughness; he, in the eyes of a third person, would

appear an unreasonable and violent curmudgeon. Had it not all sprung out

of his obstinacy with regard to reading at breakfast? How explain to

anyone what he suffered in his nerves, in his pride, in the outraged

habitudes of a lifetime?

That evening he did not return to Wood Green. Afraid of questions

if he showed himself in the old resorts, he spent some hours in a

billiard-room near King's Cross, and towards midnight took a bedroom

under the same roof. On going to business next day, he awaited with

tremors either a telegram or a visit from his wife; but the whole day

passed, and he heard nothing. After dark he walked once more about the

beloved streets, pausing now and then to look up at the windows of this

or that well remembered house. Ah, if he durst but enter and engage a

lodging! Impossible--for ever impossible!

He slept in the same place as on the night before. And again a day

passed without any sort of inquiry from Wood Green. When evening came

he went home.

Mrs. Jordan behaved as though he had returned from business in the usual

way. 'Is it raining?' she asked, with a half-smile. And her husband

replied, in as matter-of-fact a tone as he could command, 'No, it

isn't.' There was no mention between them of his absence. That night,

Mrs. Jordan talked for an hour or two of his bad habit of stepping on

the paint when he went up and down stairs, then fell calmly asleep.

But Mr. Jordan did not sleep for a long time. What! was he, after all,

to be allowed his liberty _out_ of doors, provided he relinquished it

within? Was it really the case that his wife, satisfied with her house

and furniture and income, did not care a jot whether he stayed away or

came home? There, indeed, gleamed a hope. When Mr. Jordan slept, he

dreamed that he was back again in lodgings at Islington, tasting an

extraordinary bliss. Day dissipated the vision, but still Mrs. Jordan

spoke not a word of his absence, and with trembling still he hoped.

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