Am I asking too much of my esteemed reader, if I beg of him to remember
where and how I last left the Honorable Annesley Beecher? for it is to
that hopeful individual and his fortunes I am now about to return.
If it be wearisome to the reader to have his attention suddenly drawn
from the topic before him, and his interest solicited for those he has
well-nigh forgotten, let me add that it is almost as bad for the writer,
who is obliged to hasten hither and thither, and, like a huntsman with a
straggling pack, to urge on the tardy, correct the loiterer, and repress
the eager.
When we parted with Annesley Beecher, he was in sore trouble and anxiety
of mind; a conviction was on him that he was “squared,” “nobbled,”
“crossed,” “potted,” or something to the like intent and with a like
euphonious designation. “The Count and Spicer were conspiring to put him
in a hole!” As if any “hole” could be as dark, as hopeless, and as deep
as the dreary pitfall of his own helpless nature!
His only resource seemed flight; to break cover at once and run for it,
appeared the solitary solution of the difficulty. There was many a spot
in the map of Europe which offered a sanctuary against Grog Davis. But
what if Grog were to set the law in motion, where should he seek refuge
then? Some one had once mentioned to him a country with which no treaty
connected us with regard to criminals. It began, if he remembered
aright, with an S; was it Sardinia or Sweden or Spain or Sicily or
Switzerland? It was surely one of them, but which? “What a mass of
rubbish, to be sure,” thought he, “they crammed me with at Rugby, but
not one solitary particle of what one could call useful learning! See
now, for instance, what benefit a bit of geography might be to me!” And
he rambled on in his mind, concocting an educational scheme which would
really fit a man for the wear and tear of life.
It was thus reflecting he entered the inn and mounted to his room; his
clothes lay scattered about, drawers were crammed with his wearables,
and the table covered with a toilet equipage, costly, and not yet paid
for. Who was to pack all these? Who was to make up that one portmanteau
which would suffice for flight, including all the indispensable and
rejecting the superfluous? There is a case recorded of a Frenchman who
was diverted from his resolve on suicide by discovering that his pistols
were not loaded, and, incredible as it may seem, Beecher was deterred
from his journey by the thought of how he was to pack his trunk; He had
never done so much for himself since he was born, and he did n't
think he could do it; at all events, he wasn't going to try. Certain
superstitious people are impressed with the notion that making a will
is a sure prelude to dying; so others there are who fancy that, by
the least effort on their own behalf, they are forecasting a state of
poverty in which they must actually work for subsistence.
How hopelessly, then, did he turn over costly waistcoats and embroidered
shirts, gaze on richly cut and crested essence-bottles and boot-boxes,
whose complexity resembled mathematical instruments! In what manner they
were ever conveyed so far he could not imagine. The room seemed actually
filled with them. It was Rivers had “put them up;” but Rivers could no
longer be trusted, for he was evidently in the “lay” against him.
He sighed heavily at this: it was a dreary, hopeless sigh over the
depravity of the world and mankind in general. “And what a paradise it
might be,” he thought, “if people would only let themselves be cheated
quietly and peaceably, neither threatening with their solicitors, nor
menacing with the police. Heaven knew how little he asked for: a safe
thing now and then on the Derby, a good book on the Oaks; he wanted
no more! He bore no malice nor ill-will to any man breathing; he never
wished to push any fellow to the wall. If ever there was a generous
heart, it beat in _his_ bosom; and if the world only knew the
provocation he had received! No matter, he would never retaliate,--he 'd
die game, be a brick to the last;” and twenty other fine things of the
same sort that actually brought the tears to his own eyes over his own
goodness.
Goodness, however, will not pack a trunk, nor will moral qualities,
however transcendent, fold cravats and dress-coats, and he looked very
despondently around him, and thought over what he half fancied was the
only thing he could n't do. So accustomed had he been of late to seek
Lizzy Davis's counsel in every moment of difficulty, that actually,
without knowing it, he descended now to the drawing-room, some vague,
undefined feeling impelling him to be near her.
She was singing at the piano, all alone, as he entered; the room, as
usual, brilliantly lighted up as if to receive company, rare flowers and
rich plants grouped tastefully about, and “Daisy”--for she looked
that name on this occasion--in one of those charming “toilettes” whose
consummate skill it is to make the most costly articles harmonize into
something that seems simplicity itself. She wore a fuchsia in her
hair, and another--only this last was of coral and gold elaborately
and beautifully designed--on the front of her dress, and, except these,
nothing more of ornament.
“Tutore mio,” said she, gayly, as he entered, “you have treated me
shamefully; for, first of all, you were engaged to drive with me to
the Kreutz Berg, and, secondly, to take me to the opera, and now,
at half-past nine, you make your appearance. How is this, Monsieur?
_Expliquez-vous_.”
“Shall I tell the truth?” said he.
“By all means, if anything so strange should n't embarrass you.”
“Well, then, I forgot all about both the drive and the opera. It's all
very well to laugh,” said he, in a tone of half pique; “young ladies,
with no weightier cares on their hearts than whether they ought to wear
lilac or green, have very little notion of a man's anxieties. They fancy
that life is a thing of white and red roses, soft music and bouquets;
but it ain't.”
“Indeed! are you quite sure?” asked she, with an air of extreme
innocence.
“I suspect I am,” said he, confidently; “and there's not many a man
about town knows more of it than I do.”
“And now, what may be the cares, or, rather, for I don't want to be
curious, what sort of cares are they that oppress that dear brain? Have
you got any wonderful scheme for the amelioration of mankind to which
you see obstacles? Are your views in politics obstructed by ignorance
or prejudice? Have you grand notions about art for which the age is not
ripe; or are you actually the author of a wonderful poem that nobody has
had taste enough to appreciate?”
“And these are your ideas of mighty anxieties, Miss Lizzy?” said he,
in a tone of compassionate pity. “By Jove! how I'd like to have nothing
heavier on my heart than the whole load of them.”
“I think you have already told me you never were crossed in love?”
“Well, nothing serious, you know. A scratch or so, as one may say,
getting through the bushes, but never a cropper,--nothing like a regular
smash.”
“It would seem to me, then, that you have enjoyed a singularly fortunate
existence, and been just as lucky in life as myself.”
Beecher started at the words. What a strange chaos did they create
within him! There is no tracing the thoughts that came and went, and
lost themselves in that poor bewildered head. The nearest to anything
like, consistency was the astonishment he felt that she--Grog Davis's
daughter--should ever imagine she had drawn a prize in the world's
lottery.
“Yes, Mr. Beecher,” said she, with the ready tact with which she often
read his thoughts and answered them, “even so. I do think myself very,
very fortunate! And why should I not? I have excellent health, capital
spirits, fair abilities, and, bating an occasional outbreak of anger, a
reasonably good temper. As regards personal traits, Mr. Annesley Beecher
once called me beautiful; Count Lienstahl would say something twice
as rapturous; at all events, quite good-looking enough not to raise
antipathies against me at first sight; and lastly, but worth all the
rest, I have an intense enjoyment in mere existence; the words 'I live'
are to me, 'I am happy.' The alternations of life, its little incidents
and adventures, its passing difficulties, are, like the changeful
aspects of the seasons, full of interest, full of suggestiveness,
calling out qualities of mind and resources of temperament that in
the cloudless skies of unbroken prosperity might have lain unused and
unknown. And now, sir, no more sneers at my fancied good fortune; for,
whatever _you_ may say, I feel it to be real.”
There was that in her manner--a blended energy and grace--which went
far deeper into Beecher's heart than her mere words, and he gazed at
her slightly flushed cheek and flashing eyes with something very nearly
rapture; and he muttered to himself, “There she is, a half-bred 'un, and
no training, and able to beat them all!”
This time, at all events, she did not read his thoughts; as little,
perhaps, did she care to speculate about them. “By the by,” said she,
suddenly approaching the chimney and taking up a letter, “this has
arrived here, by private hand, since you went out, and it has a
half-look of papa's writing, and is addressed to you.”
Beecher took it eagerly. With a glance he recognized it as from Grog,
when that gentleman desired to disguise his hand.
“Am I correct?” asked she,--“am I correct in my guess?”
He was too deep in the letter to make her any reply. Its contents were
as follows:--
“Dear B.,--They 've kicked up such a row about that affair
at Brussels that I have been obliged to lie dark for the
last fortnight, and in a confoundedly stupid hole on the
right bank of the Rhine. I sent over Spicer to meet the
Baron, and take Klepper over to Nimroeguen and Magdeburg,
and some other small places in Prussia. They can pick up in
this way a few thousand florins, and keep the mill going. I
gave him strict orders not to see my daughter, who must know
nothing whatever of these or any like doings. The Baron she
might see, for he knows life thoroughly, and if he is not a
man of high honor, he can assume the part so well that it
comes pretty much to the same thing. As to yourself, you
will, on receipt of this, call on a certain Lazarus Stein,
Juden Gasse, Nov 41 or 42, and give him your acceptance for
two thousand gulden, with which settle your hotel bill, and
come on to Bonn, where, at the post-office, you will find a
note, with my address. Tramp, you see, has won the
Cotteswold, as I prophesied, and 'Leo the Tenth' nowhere.
Cranberry must have got his soup pretty hot, for he has come
abroad, and his wife and the children gone down to Scotland.
As to your own affairs, Ford says you are better out of the
way; and if anything is to be done in the way of
compromise, it must be while you are abroad. He does not
think Strich can get the rule, and you must n't distress
yourself for an extra outlawry or two. There will be some
trouble about the jewels, but I think even that matter may
be arranged also. I hope you keep from the tables, and I
look for a strict reckoning as to your expenses, and a
stricter book up as regards your care of my daughter. 'All
square' is the word between pal and pal, and there never
was born the man did n't find that to be his best policy
when he dealt with
“Your friend,
“Christopher Davis.
“To while away the time in this dreary dog-hole, I have been
sketching out a little plan of a martingale for the
roulette-table. There's only one zero at Homburg, and we can
try it there as we go up. There's a flaw in it after the
twelfth 'pass,' but I don't despair of getting over the
difficulty. Old Stein, the money-changer, was upwards of
thirty years croupier at the Cursaal, and get him to tell
you the average runs, black and red, at rouge-et-noir, and
what are the signs of an intermitting game; and also the
six longest runs he has ever known. He is a shrewd fellow,
and seeing that you come from me will be confidential.
“There has been another fight in the Crimea, and somebody
well licked. I had nothing on the match, and don't care a
brass farthing who claimed the stakes.
“Tell Lizey that I 'm longing to see her, and if I didn't
write it is because I 'm keeping everything to tell her when
we meet. If it was n't for her picture, I don't know what
would have become of me since last Tuesday, when the rain
set in.”
Beecher re-read the letter from the beginning; nor was it an easy matter
for him to master at once all the topics it included. Of himself and his
own affairs the information was vague and unsatisfactory; but Grog knew
how to keep him always in suspense,--to make him ever feel that he was
swimming for his life, and he himself the only “spar” he could catch at.
“Bring me to book about my care of his daughter!” muttered he, over and
over, “just as if she was n't the girl to take care of herself. Egad! he
seems to know precious little about her. I 'd give a 'nap' to show her
this letter, and just hear what she 'd say of it all. I suppose she 'd
split on me. She 'd go and tell Davis, 'Beecher has put me up to
the whole “rig;”' and if she did--What would happen then?” asked he,
replying to the low, plaintive whistle which concluded his meditation.
“Eh--what! did I say anything?” cried he, in terror.
“Not a syllable. But I could see that you had conjured up some
difficulty which you were utterly unable to deal with.”
“Well, here it is,” said he, boldly. “This letter is from your father.
It's all full of private details, of which you know nothing, nor would
you care to hear; but there is one passage--just one--that I'd greatly
like to have your opinion upon. At the same time I tell you, frankly, I
have no warranty from your father to let you see it; nay, the odds are
he 'd pull me up pretty sharp for doing so without his authority.”
“That's quite enough, Mr. Beecher, about _your_ scruples. Now, _mine_ go
a little further still; for they would make me refuse to learn anything
which my father's reserve had kept from me. It is a very easy rule of
conscience, and neither hard to remember nor to follow.”
“At all events, he meant this for your own eye,” said Beecher, showing
her the last few lines of the letter.
She read them calmly over; a slight trembling of the lip--so slight that
it seemed rather like a play of light over her face--was the only sign
of emotion visible, and then, carefully folding the letter, she gave it
back, saying, “Yes, I had a right to see these lines.”
“He _is_ fond of you, and proud of you, too,” said Beecher. A very
slight nod of her head gave an assent to his remark, and she was silent.
“We are to leave this at once,” continued he, “and move on to Bonn,
where we shall find a letter with your father's address, somewhere,
I take it, in that neighborhood.” He waited, hoping she would say
something, but she did not speak. And then he went on:
“And then you will be once more at home,--emancipated from this tiresome
guardianship of mine.”
“Why tiresome?” asked she, suddenly.
“Oh, by Jove! I know I' m very slow sort of fellow as a ladies' man;
have none of the small talents of those foreigners; couldn't tell Mozart
from Verdi; nor, though I can see when a woman is well togged, could I
tell you the exact name of any one part of her dress.”
“If you really did know all these, and talked of them, I might have
found you very tiresome,” said she, in that half-careless voice she
used when seeming to think aloud. “And you,” asked she, suddenly, as
she turned her eyes fully upon him,--“and you, are you to be emancipated
then,--are you going to leave us?”
“As to that,” replied he, in deep embarrassment, “there 'a a sort of
hitch in it I ought, if I did the right thing, to be on my way to Italy
now, to see Lackington,--my brother, I mean. I came abroad for that; but
Gr--your father, I should say--induced me to join _him_, and so, with
one thing and the other, here I am, and that's really all I know about
it.”
“What a droll way to go through life!” said she, with one of her low,
soft laughs.
“If you mean that I have n't a will of my own, you 're all wrong,” said
he, in some irritation. “Put me straight at my fence, and see if I won't
take it. Just say, 'A. B., there's the winning-post,' and mark whether I
won't get my speed up.”
What a strange glance was that which answered this speech! It implied no
assent; as little did it mean the reverse. It was rather the look of one
who, out of a maze of tangled fancies, suddenly felt recalled to life
and its real interests. To poor Beecher's apprehension it simply seemed
a sort of half-compassionate pity, and it made his cheek tingle with
wounded pride.
“I know,” muttered he to himself, “that she thinks me a confounded fool;
but I ain't. Many a fellow in the ring made that mistake, and burned his
fingers for it after.”
“Well,” said she, after a moment or so of thought, “I am ready; at
least, I shall be ready very soon. I 'll tell Annette to pack up and
prepare for the road.”
“I wish I could get you to have some better opinion of me, Miss Lizzy,”
said he, seriously. “I'd give more than I 'd like to say, that you
'd--you 'd--”
“That I'd what?” asked she, calmly.
“That you 'd not set me down as a regular flat,” said he, with energy.
“I 'm not very certain that I know what that means; but I will tell
you that I think you very good tempered, very gentle-natured, and very
tolerant of fifty-and-one caprices which must be all the more wearisome
because unintelligible. And then, you are a very fine gentleman,
and--the Honor-Able Annesley Beecher.” And holding out her dress in
minuet fashion, she courtesied deeply, and left the room.
“I wish any one would tell me whether I stand to win or not by that
book,” exclaimed Beecher, as he stood there alone, nonplussed and
confounded. “Would n't she make a stunning actress! By Jove! Webster
would give her a hundred a week, and a free benefit!” And with this
he went off into a little mental arithmetic, at the end of which he
muttered to himself, “And that does not include starring it in the
provinces!”
With the air of a man whose worldly affairs went well, he arranged his
hair before the glass, put on his hat, gave himself a familiar nod, and
went out.