CHAPTER XLII.

MARGARET, THE PRECENTOR. AND GOD BETWEEN.

Unless Andrew Luke, who went to Canadas be still above ground, I

am now the only survivor of the few to whom Lang Tammas told what

passed in the manse parlor after the door closed on him and

Margaret. With the years the others lost the details, but before I

forget them the man who has been struck by lightning will look at

his arm without remembering what shrivelled it. There even came a

time when the scene seemed more vivid to me than to the precentor,

though that was only after he began to break up.

"She was never the kind o' woman," Whamond said, "that a body need

be nane feared at. You can see she is o' the timid sort. I couldna

hae selected a woman easier to speak bold out to, though I had

ha'en my pick o' them."

He was a gaunt man, sour and hard, and he often paused in his

story with a puzzled look on his forbidding face.

"But, man, she was so michty windy o' him. If he had wanted to put

a knife into her, I believe that woman would just hae telled him

to take care no to cut his hands. Ay, and what innocent-like she

was! If she had heard enough, afore I saw her, to make her uneasy,

I could hae begun at once; but here she was, shaking my hand and

smiling to me, so that aye when I tried to speak I gaed through

ither. Nobody can despise me for it, I tell you, mair than I

despise mysel'.

"I thocht to mysel', 'Let her hae her smile out, Tammas Whamond;

it's her hinmost,' Syne wi' shame at my cowardliness, I tried to

yoke to my duty as chief elder o' the kirk, and I said to her, as

thrawn as I could speak, 'Dinna thank me; I've done nothing for

you.'

"'I ken it wasna for me you did it,' she said, 'but for him; but,

oh, Mr. Whamond, will that make me think the less o' you? He's my

all,' she says, wi' that smile back in her face, and a look mixed

up wi't that said as plain, 'and I need no more.' I thocht o'

saying that some builds their house upon the sand, but--dagont,

dominie, it's a solemn thing the pride mithers has in their

laddies. I mind aince my ain mither--what the devil are you

glowering at, Andrew Luke? Do you think I'm greeting?

"'You'll sit down, Mr. Whamond,' she says next."

'"No, I winna,' I said, angry-like. 'I didna come here to sit.'"

"I could see she thocht I was shy at being in the manse parlor;

ay, and I thocht she was pleased at me looking shy. Weel, she took

my hat out o' my hand, and she put it on the chair at the door,

whaur there's aye an auld chair in grand houses for the servant to

sit on at family exercise.

"'You're a man, Mr. Whamond,' says she, 'that the minister

delights to honor, and so you'll oblige me by sitting in his own

armchair.'"

Gavin never quite delighted to honor the precentor, of whom he was

always a little afraid, and perhaps Margaret knew it. But you must

not think less of her for wanting to gratify her son's chief

elder. She thought, too, that he had just done her a service. I

never yet knew a good woman who did not enjoy flattering men she

liked.

"I saw my chance at that," Whamond went on, "and I says to her

sternly, 'In worldly position,' I says, 'I'm a common man, and

it's no for the like o' sic to sit in a minister's chair; but it

has been God's will,' I says,' to wrap around me the mantle o'

chief elder o' the kirk, and if the minister falls awa frae grace,

it becomes my duty to take his place.'

"If she had been looking at me, she maun hae grown feared at that,

and syne I could hae gone on though my ilka word was a knockdown

blow. But she was picking some things aff the chair to let me down

on't.

"'It's a pair o' mittens I'm working for the minister,' she says,

and she handed them to me. Ay, I tried no to take them, but--Oh,

lads, it's queer to think how saft I was.

"'He's no to ken about them till they're finished,' she says,

terrible fond-like.

"The words came to my mouth, 'They'll never be finished,' and I

could hae cursed mysel' for no saying them. I dinna ken how it

was, but there was something; pitiful in seeing her take up the

mittens and begin working cheerily at one, and me kenning all the

time that they would never be finished. I watched her fingers, and

I said to mysel', 'Another stitch, and that maun be your last.' I

said that to mysel' till I thocht it was the needle that said it,

and I wondered at her no hearing.

"In the tail o' the day I says, 'You needna bother; he'll never

wear them,' and they sounded sic words o' doom that I rose up off

the chair. Ay, but she took me up wrang, and she said, 'I see you

have noticed how careless o' his ain comforts he is, and that in

his zeal he forgets to put on his mittens, though they may be in

his pocket a' the time. Ay,' says she, confident-like, 'but he

winna forget these mittens, Mr. Whamond, and I'll tell you the

reason: it's because they're his mother's work.'

"I stamped my foot, and she gae me an apologetic look, and she

says, 'I canna help boasting about his being so fond o' me.'

"Ay, but here was me saying to mysel', 'Do your duty, Tammas

Whamond; you sluggard, your duty, and without lifting my een frae

her fingers I said sternly, 'The chances are,' I said, 'that these

mittens will never be worn by the hands they are worked for.'

"'You mean,' says she,' that he'll gie them awa to some ill-off

body, as he gies near a' thing he has? Ay, but there's one thing

he never parts wi', and that's my work. There's a young lady in

the manse the now,' says she, 'that offered to finish the mittens

for me, but he would value them less if I let ony other body put a

stitch into them.'

"I thocht to mysel', 'Tammas Whamond, the Lord has opened a door

to you, and you'll be disgraced forever if you dinna walk straucht

in.' So I rose again, and I says, boldly this time, 'Whaur's that

young leddy? I hae something to say to her that canna be kept

waiting.'

"'She's up the stair,' she says, surprised, 'but you canna ken

her, Mr. Whamond, for she just came last nicht.'"

'"I ken mair o' her than you think,' says I; 'I ken what brocht

her here, and ken wha she thinks she is to be married to, and I've

come to tell her that she'll never get him.'"

'"How no?' she said, amazed like.

"'Because,' said I, wi' my teeth thegither, 'he is already

married.'

"Lads, I stood waiting to see her fall, and when she didna fall I

just waited langer, thinking she was slow in taking it a' in.

"'I see you ken wha she is,' she said, looking at me, 'and yet I

canna credit your news.'

"'They're true,' I cries.

"'Even if they are,' says she, considering, 'it may be the best

thing that could happen to baith o' them.'

"I sank back in the chair in fair bewilderment, for I didna ken at

that time, as we a' ken now, that she was thinking o' the earl

when I was thinking o' her son. Dominie, it looked to me as if the

Lord had opened a door to me, and syne shut it in my face.

"Syne wi' me sitting there in a kind o' awe o' the woman's

simpleness, she began to tell me what the minister was like when

he was a bairn, and I was saying a' the time to mysel', 'You're

chief elder o' the kirk, Tammas Whamond, and you maun speak out

the next time she stops to draw breath.' They were terrible sma',

common things she telled me, sic as near a' mithers minds about

their bairns, but the kind o' holy way she said them drove my

words down my throat, like as if I was some infidel man trying to

break out wi' blasphemy in a--kirk.

"'I'll let you see something,' says she, 'that I ken will interest

you .' She brocht it out o' a drawer, and what do you thitik it

was? As sure as death it was no more than some o' his hair when he

was a litlin, and it was tied up sic carefully in paper that you

would hae thocht it was some valuable thing.

"'Mr. Whamond,' she says solemnly, 'you've come thrice to the

manse to keep me frae being uneasy about my son's absence, and you

was the chief instrument under God in bringing him to Thrums, and

I'll gie you a little o' that hair.'

"Dagont, what did I care about his hair? and yet to see her

fondling it! I says to myself, 'Mrs. Dishart,' I says to mysel',

'I was the chief instrument under God in bringing him to Thrums,

and I've come here to tell you that I'm to be the chief instrument

under God in driving him out o't.' Ay, but when I focht to bring

out these words, my mouth snecked like a box.

"'Dinna gie me his hair,' was a' I could say, and I wouldna take

it frae her; but she laid it in my hand, and--and syne what could

I do? Ay, it's easy to speak about thae things now, and to wonder

how I could hae so disgraced the position o' chief elder o' the

kirk, but I tell you I was near greeting for the woman. Call me

names, dominie; I deserve them all."

I did not call Whamond names for being reluctant to break

Margaret's heart. Here is a confession I may make. Sometimes I say

my prayers at night in a hurry, going on my knees indeed, but with

as little reverence as I take a drink of water before jumping into

bed, and for the same reason, because it is my nightly habit. I am

only pattering words I have by heart to a chair then, and should

be as well employed writing a comic Bible. At such times I pray

for the earthly well-being of the precentor, though he has been

dead for many years. He crept into my prayers the day he told me

this story, and was part of them for so long that when they are

only a recitation he is part of them still.

"She said to me," Whamond continued, "that the women o' the

congregation would be fond to handle the hair. Could I tell her

that the women was waur agin him than the men? I shivered to hear

her.

"'Syne when they're a'sitting breathless listening to his

preaching,' she says, 'they'll be able to picture him as a bairn,

just as I often do in the kirk mysel'.'

"Andrew Luke, you're sneering at me, but I tell you if you had

been there and had begun to say, 'He'll preach in our kirk no

more,' I would hae struck you. And I'm chief elder o' the kirk.

"She says, 'Oh, Mr. Whamond, there's times in the kirk when he is

praying, and the glow on his face is hardly mortal, so that I fall

a-shaking, wi' a mixture fear and pride, me being his mother; and

sinful though I am to say it, I canna help thinking at sic times

that I ken what the mother o' Jesus had in her heart when she

found Him in the temple.'

"Dominie, it's sax-and-twenty years since I was made an elder o'

the kirk. I mind the day as if it was yestreen. Mr. Carfrae made

me walk hame wi' him, and he took me into the manse parlor, and he

set me in that very chair. It was the first time I was ever in the

manse. Ay, he little thocht that day in his earnestness, and I

little thocht mysel' in the pride o' my lusty youth, that the time

was coming when I would sweat in that reverenced parlor. I say

swear, dominie, for when she had finished I jumped to my feet, and

I cried, 'Hell!' and I lifted up my hat. And I was chief elder.

"She fell back frae my oath," he said, "and syne she took my

sleeve and speired, 'What has come ower you, Mr. Whamond? Hae you

onything on your mind?'

"'I've sin on it,' I roared at her. 'I have neglect o' duty on it.

I am one o' them that cries "Lord, Lord," and yet do not the

things which He commands. He has pointed out the way to me, and I

hinna followed it.'

"'What is it you hinna done that you should hae done?' she said.

'Oh, Mr. Whamond, if you want my help, it's yours.'

"'Your son's a' the earth to you,' I cried, 'but my eldership's as

muckle to me. Sax-and-twenty years hae I been an elder, and now I

maun gie it up.'

"'Wha says that?" she speirs.

"'I say it,' I cried. 'I've shirked my duty. I gie ap my eldership

now. Tammas Whamond is no langer an elder o' the kirk;' ay, and I

was chief elder.

"Dominie, I think she began to say that when the minister came

hame he wouldna accept my resignation, but I paid no heed to her.

You ken what was the sound that keeped my ears frae her words; it

was the sound o' a machine coming yont the Tenements. You ken what

was the sicht that made me glare through the window instead o'

looking at her; it was the sicht o' Mr. Dishart in the machine. I

couldna speak, but I got my body atween her and the window, for I

heard shouting, and I couldna doubt that it was the folk cursing

him.

"But she heard too, she heard too, and she squeezed by me to the

window, I couldna look out; I just walked saft-like to the parlor

door, but afore I reached it she cried joyously--

"'It's my son come back, and see how fond o' him they are! They

are running at the side o' the machine, and the laddies are

tossing their bonnets in the air.'

"'God help you, woman!' I said to mysel', 'it canna be bonnets--

it's stanes and divits mair likely that they're flinging at him.'

Syne I creeped out o' the manse. Dominie, you mind I passed you in

the kitchen, and didna say a word?"

Yes, I saw the precentor pass through the kitchen, with such a

face on him as no man ever saw him wear again. Since Tammas

Whamond died we have had to enlarge the Thrums cemetery twice; so

it can matter not at all to him, and but little to me, what you

who read think of him. All his life children ran from him. He was

the dourest, the most unlovable man in Thrums. But may my right

hand wither, and may my tongue be cancer-bitten, and may my mind

be gone into a dry rot, before I forget what he did for me and

mine that day!

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