How strange those old recollections are which haunt us, without our
being able to get rid of them!
This one is so very old that I cannot understand how it has clung so
vividly and tenaciously to my memory. Since then I have seen so many
sinister things, which were either affecting or terrible, that I am
astonished at not being able to pass a single day without the face of
Mother Bellflower recurring to my mind's eye, just as I knew her
formerly, now so long ago, when I was ten or twelve years old.
She was an old seamstress, who came to my parents house once a week,
every Thursday to mend the linen. My parents lived in one of those
country houses called _châteaux_, and which are merely old houses with
pointed roofs, which are surrounded by three or four farms.
The village, a large village, almost a small market town, was a few
hundred yards off, and lay closely round the church, a red brick church,
which had become black with age.
Well, every Thursday Mother Bellflower came between half-past six and
seven in the morning, and went immediately into the linen-room and began
to work. She was a tall, thin, bearded or rather hairy woman, for she
had a beard all over her face, a surprising, an unexpected beard,
growing in tufts, in curly bunches, which looked as if they had been
sown by a madman over that great face of a gendarme in petticoats. She
had them on her nose, under her nose, round her nose, on her chin, on
her cheeks; and her eyebrows, which were extraordinarily thick and long,
and quite gray, bushy and bristling, looked exactly like a pair of
moustaches stuck on there by mistake.
She limped, but not like lame people generally do, but like a ship at
anchor. When she planted her great, bony, swerving body on her sound
leg, she seemed to be preparing to mount some enormous wave, and then
suddenly she dipped as if to disappear in an abyss, and buried herself
in the ground. Her walk reminded one of a storm, as she balanced herself
at the same time, and her head, which was always covered with an
enormous white cap, whose ribbons fluttered down her back, seemed to
traverse the horizon from North to South and from South to North, at
each of her movements.
I adored Mother Bellflower. As soon as I was up I went into the
linen-room, where I found her installed at work, with a foot-warmer
under her feet. As soon as I arrived, she made me take the foot-warmer
and sit upon it, so that I might not catch cold in that large, chilly
room under the roof.
She told me stories, while mending the linen with her long crooked
nimble fingers; her eyes behind her magnifying spectacles, for age had
impaired her sight, appeared enormous to me, strangely profound, double.
She had, as far as I can remember, the things which she told me and by
which my childish heart was moved, the large heart of a poor woman. She
told me what had happened in the village, how a cow had escaped from the
cowhouse and had been found the next morning in front of Prosper Malet's
mill, looking at the sails turning, or about a hen's egg, which had
been found in the church belfry without anyone being able to understand
what creature had been there to lay it, or the story of Jean-Jean Pila's
dog, who had been ten leagues to bring back his master's breeches, which
a tramp had stolen while they were hanging up to dry out of doors, after
he had been in the rain. She told me these simple adventures in such a
manner, that in my mind they assumed the proportions of
never-to-be-forgotten dramas, of grand and mysterious poems; and the
ingenious stories invented by the poets which my mother told me in the
evening had none of the flavor, none of the fullness nor of the vigor of
the peasant woman's narratives.
Well, one Thursday, when I had spent all the morning in listening to
Mother Clochette, I wanted to go up stairs to her again during the day
after picking hazelnuts with the manservant in the wood behind the farm.
I remember it all as clearly as what happened only yesterday.
On opening the door of the linen-room, I saw the old seamstress lying on
the ground by the side of her chair, with her face to the ground and her
arms stretched out, but still holding her needle in one hand and one of
my shirts in the other. One of her legs in a blue stocking, the longer
one, no doubt, was extended under her chair, and her spectacles
glistened against the wall, as they had rolled away from her.
I ran away uttering shrill cries. They all came running, and in a few
minutes I was told that Mother Clochette was dead.
I cannot describe the profound, poignant, terrible emotion which stirred
my childish heart. I went slowly down into the drawing-room and went
and hid myself in a dark corner, in the depths of a great, old armchair,
where I knelt and wept. I remained there for a long time no doubt, for
night came on. Suddenly somebody came in with a lamp, without seeing me,
however, and I heard my father and mother talking with the medical man,
whose voice I recognized.
He had been sent for immediately, and he was explaining the causes of
the accident, of which I understood nothing, however. Then he sat down
and had a glass of liquor and biscuit.
He went on talking, and what he then said will remain engraved on my
mind until I die! I think that I can give the exact words which he used.
"Ah!" said he, "the poor woman! She broke her leg the day of my arrival
here, and I had only not even had time to wash my hands after getting
off the diligence before I was sent for in all haste, for it was a bad
case, very bad.
"She was seventeen, and a pretty girl, very pretty! Would any one
believe it? I have never told her story before, and nobody except myself
and one other person, who is no longer living in this part of the
country, ever knew it. Now that she is dead, I may be less discreet.
"Just then a young assistant teacher came to live in the village; he was
good-looking and had the bearing of a sub-officer. All the girls ran
after him, and he acted the disdainful, and besides that, he was very
much afraid of his superior, the schoolmaster, old Grabu, who
occasionally got out of bed the wrong foot first.
"Old Grabu already employed pretty Hortense, who has just died here, and
who was afterwards nicknamed Clochette. The assistant master singled
out the pretty young girl, who was no doubt flattered at being chosen by
this impregnable conqueror; at any rate, she fell in love with him, and
he succeeded in persuading her to give him a first meeting in the
hay-loft behind the school, at night, after she had done her day's
sewing.
"She pretended to go home, but instead of going downstairs when she left
the Grabu's, she went upstairs and hid among the hay, to wait for her
lover. He soon joined her, and he was beginning to say pretty things to
her, when the door of the hay-loft opened and the schoolmaster appeared,
and asked: 'What are you doing up there, Sigisbert?' Feeling sure that
he would be caught, the young schoolmaster lost his presence of mind and
replied stupidly: 'I came up here to rest a little among the bundles of
hay, Monsieur Grabu.'
"The loft was very large and absolutely dark, and Sigisbert pushed the
frightened girl to the further end and said: 'Go there and hide
yourself. I shall lose my situation, so get away and hide yourself.'
"When the schoolmaster heard the whispering, he continued: 'Why, you are
not by yourself?' 'Yes, I am, Monsieur Grabu!' 'But you are not, for you
are talking.' 'I swear I am, Monsieur Grabu.' 'I will soon find out,'
the old man replied, and double-locking the door, he went down to get a
light.
"Then the young man, who was a coward such as one frequently meets, lost
his head, and he repeated, having grown furious all of a sudden: 'Hide
yourself, so that he may not find you. You will deprive me of my bread
for my whole life; you will ruin my whole career.... Do hide yourself!'
They could hear the key turning in the lock again, and Hortense ran to
the window, which looked out onto the street, opened it quickly, and
then in a low and determined voice she said: 'You will come and pick me
up when he is gone,' and she jumped out.
"Old Grabu found nobody, and went down again in great surprise, and a
quarter of an hour later Monsieur Sigisbert came to me and related his
adventure. The girl had remained at the foot of the wall unable to get
up, as she had fallen from the second story, and I went with him to
fetch her. It was raining in torrents, and I brought the unfortunate
girl home with me, for the right leg was broken in three places, and the
bones had come out through the flesh. She did not complain, and merely
said, with admirable resignation: 'I am punished, well punished!'
"I sent for assistance and for the workgirl's friends and told them a
made-up story of a runaway carriage which had knocked her down and lamed
her, outside my door. They believed me, and the gendarmes for a whole
month tried in vain to find the author of this accident.
"That is all! And I say that this woman was a heroine, and belonged to
the race of those who accomplished the grandest deeds in history.
"That was her only love affair, and she died a virgin. She was a martyr,
a noble soul, a sublimely devoted woman! And if I did not absolutely
admire her, I should not have told you this story, which I would never
tell anyone during her life: you understand why."
The doctor ceased; Mamma cried and Papa said some words which I did not
catch; then they left the room, and I remained on my knees in the
armchair and sobbed, while I heard a strange noise of heavy footsteps
and something knocking against the side of the staircase.
They were carrying away Clochette's body.