CHAPTER XXIII.

DOWN THE HILL.

When Franks, the acrobat, and his family left Mrs. Baldwin's garret to

go to another yet poorer lodging, it was with heavy hearts: they crept

silent away, to go down yet a step of the world's stair. I have read

somewhere in Jean Paul of a curiously contrived stair, on which while

you thought you were going down you were really ascending: I think it

was so with the Frankses and the stair they were upon. But to many the

world is but a treadmill, on which while they seem to be going up and

up, they are only serving to keep things going round and round.

I think God has more to do with the fortunes of the poor a thousand fold

than with those of the rich. In the fortunes of the poor there are many

more changes, and they are of greater import as coming closer to the

heart of their condition. To careless and purblind eyes these fortunes

appear on an almost dead level of toil and privation; but they have more

variations of weather, more chequers of sunshine and shade, more storms

and calms, than lives passed on airier slopes. Who could think of God as

a God like Christ--and other than such he were not Godand imagine he

would not care as much for the family of John Franks as for the family

of Gerald Raymount? It is impossible to believe that he loves such as

Cornelius or Vavasor as he loves a Christopher. There must be a

difference! The God of truth cannot love the unlovely in the same way as

he loves the lovely. The one he loves for what he is and what he has

begun to be; the other he loves because he sorely needs love--as sorely

as the other, and must begin to grow lovely one day. Nor dare we forget

that the celestial human thing is in itself lovely as made by God, and

pitiably lovely as spoiled by man. That is the Christ-thing which is the

root of every man, created in his image--that which, when he enters the

men, he possesses. The true earthly father must always love those

children more who are obedient and loving--but he will not neglect one

bad one for twenty good ones. "The Father himself loveth you because ye

have loved me;" but "There is more joy in heaven over one sinner that

repenteth than over ninety and nine that need no repentance." The great

joy is the first rush of love in the new-opened channel for its issue

and entrance.

The Frankses were on the down-going side of the hill Difficulty, and

down they must go, unable to help themselves. They had found a cheaper

lodging, but entered it with misgiving; their gains had been very

moderate since their arrival in London, and their expenses greater than

in the country. Also Franks was beginning to feel or to fancy his

strength and elasticity not quite what they had been. The first

suspicion of the approach of old age and the beginning of that weakness

whose end is sure, may well be a startling one. The man has begun to be

a nobody in the world's race--is henceforth himself but the course of

the race between age and death--a race in which the victor is known ere

the start. Life with its self-discipline withdraws itself thenceforth

more to the inside, and goes on with greater vigor. The man has now to

trust and yield constantly. He is coming to know the fact that he was

never his own strength, had never the smallest power in himself at his

strongest. But he is learning also that he is as safe as ever in the

time when he gloried in his might--yea, as safe as then he imagined

himself on his false foundation. He lays hold of the true strength,

makes it his by laying hold of it. He trusts in the unchangeable thing

at the root of all his strength, which gave it all the truth it had--a

truth far deeper than he knew, a reality unfathomable, though not of the

nature he then fancied. Strength has ever to be made perfect in

weakness, and old age is one of the weaknesses in which it is perfected.

Poor Franks had not got so far yet as to see this, and the feeling of

the approach of old age helped to relax the springs of his hopefulness.

Also his wife had not yet got over her last confinement. The baby, too,

was sickly. And there was not much popular receptivity for acrobatics in

the streets; coppers came in slowly; the outlay was heavy; and the

outlook altogether was of the gray without the gold. But his wife's

words were always cheerful, though the tone of them had not a little of

the mournful. Their tone came of temperament, the words themselves of

love and its courage. The daughter of a gamekeeper, the neighbors

regarded her as throwing herself away when she married Franks; but she

had got an honest and brave husband, and never when life was hardest

repented giving herself to him.

For a few weeks they did pretty well in their new lodging. They managed

to pay their way, and had food enough--though not quite so good as

husband and wife wished each for the other, and both for their children.

The boys had a good enough time of it. They had not yet in London

exhausted their own wonder. The constant changes around made of their

lives a continuous novel--nay, a romance, and being happy they could eat

anything and thrive on it.

The lives of the father and mother over-vault the lives of the children,

shutting out all care if not all sorrow, and every change is welcomed as

a new delight. Their parents, where positive cruelty has not installed

fear and cast out love, are the divinities of even the most neglected.

They feel towards them much the same, I fancy, as the children of

ordinary parents in the middle class--love them more than children given

over to nurses and governesses love theirs. Nor do I feel certain that

the position of the children of the poor, in all its oppression, is not

more favorable to the development of the higher qualities of the human

mind, such as make the least show, than many of those more pleasant

places for which some religious moralists would have us give the thanks

of the specially favored. I suspect, for instance, that imagination,

fancy, perception, insight into character, the faculty of fitting means

to ends, the sense of adventure, and many other powers and feelings are

more likely to be active in the children of the poor, to the greater joy

of their existence, than in others. These Frankses, too, had a strict

rule over them, and that increases much the capacity for enjoyment. The

father, according to his lights, was, as we have seen, a careful and

conscientious parent, and his boys were strongly attached to him, never

thought of shirking their work, and endured a good deal of hardness and

fatigue without grumbling: their mother had opened their eyes to the

fact that their father took his full share in all he required of them,

and did his best for them. They were greatly proud of their father one

and all believing him not only the first man in his profession, but the

best man that ever was in the world; and to believe so of one's parent

is a stronger aid to righteousness than all things else whatever, until

the day-star of the knowledge of the great Father goes up in the heart,

to know whom, in like but better fashion, as the best more than man and

the perfect Father of men, is the only thing to redeem us from misery

and wrong, and lift us into the glorious liberty of the sons and

daughters of God.

They were now reduced to one room, and the boys slept on the floor. This

was no hardship, now that summer was nigh, only the parents found it

interfered a little with their freedom of speech. Nor did it mend the

matter to send them early to bed, for the earlier they went the longer

were they in going to sleep. At the same time they had few things to

talk of which they minded their hearing, and to the mother at least it

was a pleasure to have all her chickens in the nest with her.

One evening after the boys were in bed, the father and mother sat

talking. They had a pint of beer on the table between them, of which the

woman tasted now and then that the man might imagine himself sharing it

with her. Silence had lasted for some time. The mother was busy

rough-patching a garment of Moxy's. The man's work for the day was over,

but not the woman's!

"Well, I dunnow!" he said at last, and there ceased.

"What don ye know, John?" asked his wife, in a tone she would have tried

to make cheerful had she but suspected it half as mournful as it was.

"There's that Mr. Christopher as was such a friend!" he said: "--you

don't disremember what he used to say about the Almighty and that? You

remember as how he used to say a man could no more get out o' the sight

o' them eyes o' hisn than a child could get out o' sight o' the eyes on

his mother as was a watchin' of him!"

"Yes, John, I do remember all that very well, and a great comfort it was

to me at the time to hear him say so, an' has been many's the time

since, when I had no other--leastways none but you an' the children. I

often think over what he said to you an' me then when I was down, an'

not able to hold my head up, nor feelin' as if I should ever lift it no

more!"

"Well, I dunnow!" said Franks, and paused again.

But this time he resumed, "What troubles me is this:--if that there

mother as was a lookin' arter her child, was to see him doin' no better

'n you an' me, an' day by day gettin' furder on the wrong way, I should

say she wan't much of a mother to let us go on in that 'ere way as I

speak on."

"She might ha' got her reasons for it, John," returned his wife, in some

fear lest the hope she cherished was going to give way in her husband.

"P'r'aps she might see, you know, that the child might go a little

farther and fare none the worse. When the children want their dinner

very bad, I ha' heerd you say to them sometimes, 'Now kids, ha'

patience. Patience is a fine thing. What if ye do be hungry, you ain't a

dyin' o' hunger. You'll wear a bit longer yet!' Ain't I heerd you say

that John--more'n once, or twice, or thrice?"

"There ain't no need to put me to my oath like that, old woman! I ain't

a goin' for to deny it! You needn't go to put it to me as if I was the

pris'ner at the bar, or a witness as wanted to speak up for him!--But

you must allow this is a drivin' of it jest a _leetle_ too far!

Here we be come up to Lon'on a thinkin' to better ourselves--not wantin'

no great things--sich we don't look for to get--but jest thinkin' as how

it wur time'--as th' parson is allus a tellin' his prishioners, to lay

by a shillin' or two to keep us out o' th' workus, when 't come on to

rain, an' let us die i' the open like, where a poor body can

breathe!--that's all as we was after! an' here, sin' ever we come, fust

one shillin' goes, an' then another shillin' goes as we brought with us,

till we 'ain't got one, as I may almost say, left! An' there ain't no

luck! I'stead o' gitting more we git less, an' that wi' harder work, as

is a wearin' out me an' the b'ys; an'--"

Here he was interrupted by a cry from the bed. It was the voice of

little Moxy, the Sarpint o' the Prairies.

"I ain't wore out, father! I'm good for another go."

"I ain't neither, gov'nor. I got a lot more work in me!"

"No, nor me," cried the third. "I likes London. I can stand on my head

twice as long as Tommy Blake, an he's a year older 'n I am."

"Hold your tongues, you rascals, an' go to sleep," growled the father,

pretending to be angry with them. "What right have you to be awake at

this time o' the night--an' i' Lon'on too? It's not like the country, as

you very well know. I' the country you can do much as you like, but not

in the town! There's police, an' them's there for boys to mind what

they're about. You've no call to be awake when your father an' mother

want to be by theirselves--a listenin' to what they've got to say to one

another! Us two was man an' wife afore you was born!"

"We wasn't a listenin', father. We was only hearin' 'cause we wasn't

asleep. An' you didn't speak down as if it was secrets!"

"Well, you know, b'ys, there's things as fathers and mothers can

understand an' talk about, as no b'y's fit to see to the end on, an' so

they better go to sleep, an' wait till their turn comes to be fathers

an' mothers theirselves.--Go to sleep direc'ly, or I'll break every bone

in your bodies!"

"Yes, father, yes!" they answered together, nowise terrified by the

awful threat--which was not a little weakened by the fact that they had

heard it every day of their lives, and not yet known it carried into

execution.

But having been thus advised that his children were awake, the father,

without the least hypocrisy, conscious or unconscious, changed his tone:

in the presence of his children he preferred looking at the other side

of the argument. After a few moments' silence he began again thus:--

"Yes, as you was sayin', wife, an' I knows as you're always in the

right, if the right be anyhows to be got at--as you was sayin', I say,

there's no sayin' when that same as we was a speakin' of--the Almighty

is the man I mean--no sayin', I say, when he may come to see as we have,

as I may say, had enough on it, an' turn an' let us have a taste o' luck

again! Luck's sweet; an' some likes, an' it may be as he likes to give

his childer a taste o' sweets now an' again, just as you and me, that is

when we can afford it, an' that's not often, likes to give ourn a

bull's-eye or a suck of toffy. I don't doubt _he_ likes to see us

enj'yin' of ourselves just as well as we like to see our little uns

enj'yin' o' _theirselves!_--It stands to reason, wife--don't it?"

"So it do seem to me, John!" answered the mother.

"Well," said Franks, apparently, now that he had taken up the defence of

the ways of the Supreme with men, warming to his subject, "I dessay he

do the best he can, an' give us as much luck as is good for us.

Leastways that's how the rest of us do, wife! We can't allus do as well

as we would like for to do for our little uns, but we _always_, in

general, does the best we can. It may take time--it may take time even

with all the infl'ence _he_ has, to get the better o' things as

stands in _his_ way! We'll suppose yet a while, anyhow, as how he's

a lookin' arter us. It can't be for nothink as he counts the hairs on

our heads--as the sayin' is!--though for my part I never could see what

good there was in it. But if it ain't for somethink, why it's no more

good than the census, which is a countin' o' the heads theirselves."

There are, or there used to be when I was a boy, who, in their reverence

for the name of the Most High, would have shown horror at the idea that

he could not do anything or everything in a moment as it pleased him,

but would not have been shocked at all at the idea that he might not

please to give this or that man any help. In their eyes power was a

grander thing than love, though it is nowhere said in the Book that God

is omnipotence. Such, because they are told that he is omnipotent, call

him Omnipotence; when told that he is Love, do not care to argue that he

must then be loving? But as to doing what he wills with a word--see what

it cost him to redeem the world! He did not find that easy, or to be

done in a moment without pain or toil. Yea, awfully omnipotent is God.

For he wills, effects and perfects the thing which, because of the bad

in us, he has to carry out in suffering and sorrow, his own and his

Son's Evil is a hard thing for God himself to overcome. Yet thoroughly

and altogether and triumphantly will he overcome it; and that not by

crushing it underfoot--any god of man's idea could do that!--but by

conquest of heart over heart, of life in life, of life over death.

Nothing shall be too hard for the God that fears not pain, but will

deliver and make true and blessed at his own severest cost.

For a time, then, the Frankses went on, with food to eat and money to

pay their way, but going slowly down the hill, and finding it harder and

harder to keep their footing. By and by the baby grew worse, pining

visibly. They sought help at the hospital, but saw no Mr. Christopher,

and the baby did not improve. Still they kept on, and every day the

husband brought home a little money. Several times they seemed on the

point of an engagement, but as often something came between, until at

length Franks almost ceased to hope, and grew more and more silent,

until at last he might well have appeared morose. The wonder to me is

that any such as do not hope in a Power loving to perfection, should

escape moroseness. Under the poisonous influences of anxiety, a loving

man may become unkind, even cruel to the very persons for whose sake he

is anxious. In good sooth what we too often count righteous care, but

our Lord calls the care of the world, consumes the life of the heart as

surely as the love of money. At the root they are the same. Yet evil

thing as anxiety is, it were a more evil thing to be delivered from it

by anything but the faith of the Son of God--that is faith in his Father

and our Father; it would be but another and worse, because more

comfortable form of the same slavery.

Poor Franks, however, with but a little philosophy, had much affection,

which is indeed the present God in a man--and so did not go far in the

evil direction. The worse sign of his degenerating temper was the more

frequently muttered oath of impatience with his boys--never with his

wife; and not one of them was a moment uneasy in consequence--only when

the _gov'nor_ wasn't jolly, neither were they.

The mind of Franks, so it appears to me, was mainly a slow sullen stream

of subthought, a something neither thought nor feeling but partaking of

the character of both, a something more than either, namely, the

substance of which both are formed--the undeveloped elemental life,

risen a little way, and but a little way, towards consciousness. The

swifter flow of this stream is passion, the gleams of it where it

ripples into the light, are thoughts. This sort of nature can endure

much without being unhappy. What would crush a swift-thinking man is

upborne by the denser tide. Its conditions are gloomier, and it consorts

more easily with gloom. But light and motion and a grand future are

waiting for such as he. All their sluggish half-slumberous being will be

roused and wrought into conscious life--nor the unconscious whence it

arises be therein exhausted, for that will be ever supplied and upheld

by the indwelling Deity. In his own way Franks was in conflict with the

problems of life; neither was he very able to encounter them; but on the

other hand he was one to whom wonders might safely be shown, for he

would use them not speculatively but practically. "Nothing almost sees

miracles but misery," perhaps because to misery alone, save it be to the

great unselfish joy, is it safe to show miracles. Those who must see ere

they will believe, may have to be brought to the verge of the infinite

grave that a condition fit for seeing may be effected in them. "Blessed

are they who have not seen and yet have believed."

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