IV

After all, why should I tell Grace Bridgeworth—ever? I had had a glimpse

of things that were really no business of hers. If the revelation had

been vouchsafed to me, ought I not to bury it in those deepest depths

where the inexplicable and the unforgettable sleep together? And

besides, what interest could there be to a woman like Grace in a tale

she could neither understand nor believe in? She would just set me down

as “queer”—and enough people had done that already. My first object,

when I finally did get back to New York, was to convince everybody of my

complete return to mental and physical soundness; and into this scheme

of evidence my experience with Mary Pask did not seem to fit. All things

considered, I would hold my tongue.

But after a while the thought of the grave began to trouble me. I

wondered if Grace had ever had a proper grave-stone put on it. The queer

neglected look of the house gave me the idea that perhaps she had done

nothing—had brushed the whole matter aside, to be attended to when she

next went abroad. “Grace forgets,” I heard the poor ghost quaver.... No,

decidedly, there could be no harm in putting (tactfully) just that one

question about the care of the grave; the more so as I was beginning to

reproach myself for not having gone back to see with my own eyes how it

was kept....

Grace and Horace welcomed me with all their old friendliness, and I soon

slipped into the habit of dropping in on them for a meal when I thought

they were likely to be alone. Nevertheless my opportunity didn’t come at

once—I had to wait for some weeks. And then one evening, when Horace was

dining out and I sat alone with Grace, my glance lit on a photograph of

her sister—an old faded photograph which seemed to meet my eyes

reproachfully.

“By the way, Grace,” I began with a jerk, “I don’t believe I ever told

you: I went down to that little place of ... of your sister’s the day

before I had that bad relapse.”

At once her face lit up emotionally. “No, you never told me. How sweet

of you to go!” The ready tears overbrimmed her eyes. “I’m _so_ glad you

did.” She lowered her voice and added softly: “And did you see her?”

The question sent one of my old shudders over me. I looked with

amazement at Mrs. Bridgeworth’s plump face, smiling at me through a veil

of painless tears. “I do reproach myself more and more about darling

Mary,” she added tremulously. “But tell me—tell me everything.”

There was a knot in my throat; I felt almost as uncomfortable as I had

in Mary Pask’s own presence. Yet I had never before noticed anything

uncanny about Grace Bridgeworth. I forced my voice up to my lips.

“Everything? Oh, I can’t—.” I tried to smile.

“But you did see her?”

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