That night was never forgotten by any one at "The Flutes." Down in the
servants' hall they prolonged their departure for bed to a very late
hour, and then crept, timorously, to their rooms; they were extravagant
with the electric light, and dared Benham's anger in order to secure a
little respite from terrible darkness. Stories were recalled of Sir
Jeremy's kindness and good nature, and much speculation was indulged in
as to his successor--the cook recalled her early youth and an
engagement with a soldier that aroused such sympathy in her hearers
that she fraternised, unexpectedly, with Clare's maid--a girl who had
formerly been considered "haughty," but was now found to be agreeable
and pleasant.
Above stairs there was the same restlessness and sense of uneasy
expectancy. Clare went to bed, but not to sleep. Her mind was not
with her father--she had been waiting for his death during many long
weeks, and now that the time had arrived she could scarcely think of it
otherwise than calmly. If one had lived like a Trojan one would die
like one--quietly, becomingly, in accordance with the best traditions.
She was sure that there would be something ready for Trojans in the
next world a little different from other folks' destiny--something
select and refined--so why worry at going to meet it?
No, it was not Sir Jeremy, but Robin. Throughout the night she heard
the clocks striking the quarters; the first light of dawn crept timidly
through the shuttered blinds, the full blaze of the sun streamed on to
her bed--and she could not sleep. The conversation of the day before
recalled itself syllable for syllable; she read into it things that had
never been there and tortured herself with suspicion and doubt. Robin
was different--utterly different. He was different even from a week
ago when he had first told them of the affair. She could hear his
voice as he had bent over her asking her to forgive him; that had
seemed to her then the hour of her triumph--but now she saw that it was
the premonition of defeat. How she had worked for him, loved him,
spoilt him; and now, in these weeks, her lifework was utterly undone.
And then, in the terrible loneliness of her room, with the darkness on
the world and round her bed and at her heart, she wept--terrible,
tearless sobbing that left her in the morning weak, unstrung, utterly
unequal to the day.
This conversation with Robin had also worried Garrett. The consolation
that he had frequently found in the reassuring comforts of his study
seemed utterly wanting to-night. The stillness irritated him; it
seemed stuffy, close, and he had an overmastering desire for a
companion. This desire he conquered, because he felt that it would be
scarcely dignified to search the byways of the house for a friend; but
he listened for steps, and fancied over and over again that he heard
the eagerly anticipated knock. But no one came, and he sat far into
the night, fancying strange sounds and trembling at the dark; and at
last fell asleep in his chair, and was discovered in an undignified
position on the floor in the early morning by the politely astonished
Benham.
But it was for Harry that the night most truly marked a crisis. He
spent it in vigil by the side of his father, and watched the heavy
passing of the hours, like grey solemn figures through the darkened
room. The faint glimmer of the electric light, heavily shaded, assumed
fantastic and portentous shapes and fleecy enormous shadows on the
white surface of the staring walls. Strange blue shadows glimmered
through the black caverns of the windows, and faint lights came from
beneath the door, and hovered on the ceiling like mysteriously moving
figures.
Sir Jeremy was perfectly still. Death had come to him very gently and
had laid its hand quietly upon him, with no violence or harshness. It
was only old age that had greeted him as a friend, and then with a
smile had persuaded him to go. He was unconscious now, but at any
moment his senses might return, and then he would ask for Harry. The
crisis might come at any time, and Harry must be there.
He felt no weariness; his brain was extraordinarily active and he
passed every incident since his return in review. It all seemed so
clear to him now; the inevitability of it all; and his own blindness in
escaping the meaning of it. It seemed now that he had known nothing of
the world at all three weeks ago. Then he had judged it from his own
knowledge--now he saw it in many lights; the point of view of Robin, of
Dahlia Feverel, of Clare, of Sir Jeremy, of Bethel, of Mary--he had
arrived at the great knowledge that Life could be absolutely right for
many different sorts of people--that the same life, like a globe of
flashing colours, could shine into every corner of obscurity, gleaming
differently in every different place and yet be unchangeable.
Murderer, robber, violator, saint, priest, king, beggar--they were all
parts of a wonderful, inevitable world, and, he saw it now, were all of
them essential. He had been tolerant before from a wide-embracing
charity; he was tolerant now from a wide-embracing knowledge: "Er
liebte jeden Hund, und wünschte von jedem Hund geliebt zu sein."
They had all learnt in that last three weeks. Dahlia Feverel would
pass into the world with that struggle at her heart and the strength of
her victory--his father would solve the greatest question of
all--Robin! Mary! Clare!--they had all been learning too, but what it
was that they had learnt he could not yet tell; the conclusion of the
matter was to come. But it had all been, for him at least, only a
prelude; he was to stand for the world as head of the House, he had his
life before him and his work to do, he had only, like Robin, just "come
of age."
He did not know why, but he had no longer any doubt. He knew that he
would win Robin, he knew that he would win Mary; up to that day he had
been uncertain, vacillating, miserable--but now he had no longer any
hesitation. The work of his life was to fit Robin for his due
succession, and, please God, he would do it with all his heart and soul
and strength; there was to be no false sentiment, no shifting of
difficult questions, no hiding from danger, no sheltering blindly under
unquestioned creeds, no false bids for popularity.
Robin was to be clean, straight, and sane, with all the sturdy
cleanliness and strength and sanity that his father's love and
knowledge could give him.
Oh! he loved his son!--but no longer blindly, as he had loved him three
weeks ago ... and so he faced his future.
And of Mary, too, he was sure. He knew that she loved him; he had seen
her face in the mirror as her lips had said "No," and he saw that her
heart had said "Yes." With the new strength that had come to him he
vowed to force her defences and carry her away.... Oh! he could be any
knight and fight for any lady.
But as he sat by the bed, watching the dawn struggle through the blinds
and listening to the faint, clear twittering of birds in the grey,
dew-swept garden--he wished that he could tell his father of his
engagement. He wondered if there would be time. That it would please
the old man he knew, and it would seal the compact, and place a secret
blessing on their married life together. Yes, he would like to tell
him.
The clocks struck five--he heard their voices echo through the house;
and, at the last, the tiny voice of the cuckoo clock sounded and the
little wild flap of his wings came quite clearly through the silence;
his voice was answered by a chorus from the garden, the voices of the
birds seemed to grow ever louder and louder; in that strange dark room,
with its shaded lights and heavy airs, it was clear and fresh like the
falling of water on cold, shining stone.
Harry went softly to the window and drew back a corner of the blind.
The dawn was gradually revealing the forms and colours of the garden,
and in the grey, misty light things were mysterious and uncertain; like
white lights in a dusky room the two white statues shone through the
mist. At that strange hour they seemed in their right atmosphere; they
seemed to move and turn and bend--he could have fancied that they
sailed on the mist--that, for a moment, they had vanished and then that
they had grown enormous, monstrous. He watched them eagerly, and as
the light grew clearer he made them out more plainly--the straight,
eager beauty of the man, the dim, mysterious grace of the woman.
Perhaps they talked in those early hours when they were alone in the
garden; perhaps they might speak to him if he were to join them then.
Then he fancied that the mist formed into figures of men and women; to
his excited fancy the garden seemed peopled with shapes that increased
and dwindled and vanished. Round the statues many shapes gathered; one
in especial seemed to walk to and fro with its face turned to the
house. It was a woman--her grey dress floated in the air, and he saw
her form outlined against the statue. Then the mist seemed to sweep
down again and catch the statues in its eddies and hide them from his
gaze. The dawn was breaking very slowly. From the window the sweep of
the sea was, in daylight, perfectly visible: now in the dim grey of the
sky it was hidden--but Harry knew where it must be and watched for its
appearance. The first lights were creeping over the sky, breaking in
delicate tints and ripples of silver and curving, arc-shaped, from the
west to the east.
Where sky and sea divided a faint pale line of grey hovered and broke,
turning into other paler lights of the most delicate blue. The dawn
had come.
He turned back again to the garden and started with surprise: in the
more certain light there was no doubt that it was a woman who stood
there by the statues, guarding the first early beauties of the garden.
Everything was pearl-grey, save where, high above the water of the
fountain that stood in the centre of the lawn, the sky had broken into
a little lake of the palest blue and this was reflected in the still
mirror of the fountain--but it _was_ a woman. He could see the outline
of her form--the bend of her neck as she turned with her face to the
house, the straight line of her arms as they tell at her sides. And,
as he looked, his heart began to beat thickly. He seemed to recognise
that carriage of the body from the hips, the fling-back of the head as
she stared towards the windows.
The light of the dawn was breaking over the garden, the chorus of the
birds was loud in the trees, and he knew that it was no dream.
He glanced for a moment at his father, and then crept softly from the
room. He found one of the nurses making tea over a spirit-lamp in the
dressing-room and asked her to take his place.
The house was perfectly silent as he opened the French window of the
drawing-room and stepped on to the lawn. The grass was heavy with dew
and the fresh air beat about his face; he had never known anything
quite so fresh--the air, the grass, the trees, the birds' song like the
sound of hidden waters tumbling on to some unseen rock.
Her face was turned away from him and his feet made no sound on the
grass. He came perfectly silently towards her, and then when he saw
that it had indeed been no imagination but that it was reality, and
when he knew all that her coming there meant and what it implied, for
moment his limbs shook so that he could scarcely stand. Then he
laughed a little and said "Mary!"
She turned with a little cry, and when she saw who it was the crimson
flooded her face, changing it as the rising sun was soon to change the
grey of the sea and the garden.
"Oh!" she cried, "I didn't know--I didn't mean. I----"
"It is going to be a lovely day," he said quietly, "the sun will be up
in a moment. I have been watching you from my father's window."
"Oh! You mustn't!" she cried eagerly. "I thought that I was
safe--absolutely; I was here quite by chance--really I was--I couldn't
sleep, and I thought that I would watch the sunrise over the sea--and I
went down to the beach--and then--well, there was the little wood by
your garden, and it was so wonderfully still and silent, and I saw
those statues gleaming through the trees, and they looked so beautiful
that I came nearer. I meant to come only for a moment and then go away
again--but--I--stayed----"
But he could scarcely hear what she said; he only saw her standing
there with her dress trembling a little in the breeze.
"Mary," he said, "you did not mean what you told me the other day?"
She looked at him for a moment and then suddenly flung out her hands
and touched his coat. "No," she answered.
For a moment they were utterly silent. Then he took her into his arms.
"I love you! How I love you!"
Her hair was about his face, for a moment her face was buried in his
coat, then she lifted it and their lips met.
He shook from head to foot, he crushed her to him, then he released her.
She glanced up at him with her hand still touching his coat and looked
into his eyes.
"I will love you and serve you and honour you always," she said. She
took his arm and they passed down the lawn and watched the light
breaking over the sea. The sky was broken into thousands of fleecy
clouds of mother-of-pearl--the sea was trembling as though the sun had
whispered that it was near at hand, and, on the horizon, the first bars
of pale gold heralded its coming.
"I have loved you," he said, "since the first moment that I saw you--I
gave you tea and muffins; I deserted the Miss Ponsonbys in order to
serve you."
"And I too!" she answered, laughing. "I could not eat the muffin for
love of you, and I was jealous of the Miss Ponsonbys!"
"Why did you turn me out the other day?"
"They had been talking--mother and the others; and I was hurt terribly,
and I thought that you would hear what they had said and would think,
perhaps, that it was true and would despise me. And then after you had
gone, I knew that nothing in the world could make any difference--that
they could say what they pleased, but that I could not live without
you--you see I am very young!"
"Oh, and I am so old, dear! You mustn't forget that! Do you think
that you could ever put up with any one as old as I am?"
She laughed. "You are just the same age as myself," she cried. "You
will always be the same age, and I am not sure but I think that you are
younger----"
And suddenly the sun had risen--a great ball of fire changing all the
blue of the sky to red and gold, and they watched as the gods had
watched the flaming ruin of Valhalla.
But the daylight drove them to other thoughts.
"I must go back," she said. "I will go down to the shore and perhaps
will meet father. Oh! you don't know what I have suffered during these
last few days. I thought that perhaps I had driven you away and that
you would never come back--and then I had a silly idea that I would
watch your windows--and so I came----"
"Why! I have watched yours!" he cried--"often! Oh! we will have some
times!"
"But you must remember that there will be three of us," she answered.
"There is Robin!"
"Robin! Why, it will be splendid! You and Robin and I!"
"Poor Robin----" She laughed. "You don't know how I scolded him last
night. It was about you and I was unhappy. He is changing fast, and
it is because of you. He has come round----"
"We have all come round!" cried Harry. "He and you and I! Oh! this is
the beginning of the world for all of us--and I am forty-five! Will
you write to me later in the day? I cannot get down until to-night.
My father is very ill--I must be here. But write to me--a long
letter--it will be as though you were talking."
She laughed. "Yes, I'll write," she cried; then she looked at him
again--"I love you," she said, as though she were reciting her faith,
"because you are good, because you are strong, because--oh! for no
reason at all--just because you are you."
For a moment they watched the sea, and then again he took her in his
arms and held her as though he would never let her go--then she
vanished through the trees.
The house was waking into life as he re-entered it; servants were astir
at an early hour: he had been away such a little time, but the world
was another place. Every detail of the house--the stairs, the hall,
the windows, the clocks, the pot-pourri scent from the bowls of dried
roses, the dance of the dust in the light of the rising sun, was
presented to him now with a new meaning. He was glad that she had
stayed with him such a little while--it made it more precious, her
coming with the shadows in that grey of breaking skies and a mysterious
plunging sea, and then vanishing with the rising sun. Oh! they would
come down to earth soon enough!--let him keep that kiss, those few
words, her last smile as she vanished into the wood, like the visible
signs of the other world that had, at last, been allowed to him. The
vision of the Grail had passed from his eyes, but the memory of it was
to be his most sacred possession.
He went to his room, had a bath, and then returned to his father; of
course, he could not sleep.
Clare, Garrett, and Robin met at breakfast with the sense of
approaching calamity heavy upon them. As far as Sir Jeremy himself was
concerned there was little real regret--how could there be? Of course,
there was the sentiment of separation, the breaking of a great many
ties that had been strong and traditional; but it was better that the
old man should go--of that there was no question. Sir Jeremy himself
would rather. No, "Le roi est mort" was easy enough to say, but how
"Vive le roi" stuck in their throats.
Garrett hinted at a wretched night, and quoted Benham on the dangers of
an arm-chair at night-time.
"Of course, one had been thinking," he said vaguely, after a melancholy
survey of eggs and bacon that developed into resignation over dry
toast--"there was a good deal to think about. But I certainly had
intended to go to bed--I can't imagine what----"
Robin said nothing. His mind was busy with Mary's speech of the night
before; his world lay crumbled about him, and, like Cato, he was
finding a certain melancholy satisfaction in its ruins. His thoughts
were scarcely with his grandfather; he felt vaguely that there was
Death in the house and that its immediate presence was one of the
things that had helped to bring his self-content about his ears. But
it was of his father that he was thinking, and of a certain morning
when he had refused a walk. If he got a chance again!
Clare looked wretched. Robin thought that she had never seemed so ill
before; there was, for the first time, an air of carelessness about
her, as though she had flung on her clothes anyhow--something utterly
unlike her.
"I am going to speak to Harry this morning," she said.
Garrett looked up peevishly. "Scarcely the time, Clare. I should say
that it were better for us to wait until--well, afterwards. There is,
perhaps, something a little indecent----"
"I have considered the matter carefully," interrupted Clare decisively.
"This is the best time----"
"Oh, well, of course. Only I should have thought that I might have had
just a little say in the matter. I was, after all, originally
consulted as well as yourself. I saw the girl, and was even, I might
venture to suggest, with her for some time. But, of course, a mere
man's opinion----"
"Oh, don't be absurd, Garrett. It is I that have to ask him--it is
pretty obvious that I have every right to choose my own time."
"Oh! Please, don't let me interfere--only I should scarcely have
thought that this was quite the moment when Harry would be most
inclined to listen to you."
"If we don't ask him now," she answered, "there's no knowing when we
shall have the opportunity. When poor father is gone he will have a
great deal to settle and decide; he will have no time for anything at
all for months ahead. This morning is our last chance."
But she had another thought. Her great desire now was that he should
try and fail; that he would fail she was sure. She was eagerly
impatient for that day when he must come to them and admit his failure.
She looked ahead and fashioned that scene for herself--that scene when
Robin should know and confess that his father was only as the rest of
them; that their failure was his failure, their incapacity his
incapacity--and then the balance would be restored and Robin would see
as he had seen before.
"Coffee, Robin? It's quite hot still. I saw Dr. Brady just now. He
says that there is no change, nor is there likely to be one for some
hours. You're looking tired, Robin, old boy. Have you been sleeping
on the floor, too?"
"No!" He looked up and smiled. "But I was awake a good bit. The
house is different somehow, when----"
"Oh yes, I know. One feels it, of course. But eating's much the best
thing for keeping one's spirits up. I suppose Harry is coming down.
Just find out from Benham, will you, Wilder, whether Mr. Henry is
coming down?"
The footman left the room, returning in a moment with the answer that
Mr. Henry was about to come down.
Garrett moved to the door, but Clare stopped him.
"I want you, Garrett--you can bear me out!"
"I thought that my opinion was of so little importance," he answered
sulkily, "that I might as well go."
But he sat down again and buried himself in his paper.
They waited, and Robin made mental comparisons with a similar scene a
week before; there were still the silver teapot, the toast, the
ham--they were all there, and it was only he himself who had altered.
Only a week, and what a difference! What a cad he had been! a howling
cad! Not only to his father, but to Dahlia, to every one with whom he
had had to do. He did not spare himself; he had at least the pluck to
go through with it--_that_ was Trojan.
At Harry's entrance there was an involuntary raising of eyebrows to
see, if possible, how _he_ took it; _it_ being his own immediate
succession rather than his father's death. He was grave, of course,
but there was a light in his eyes that Clare could not understand. Had
he some premonition of her request? He apologised for being late.
"I have been up most of the night. There is no immediate danger of a
change, but we ought, I think, to be ready. Yes, the toast, Robin,
please--I hope you've slept all right, Clare?"
How quickly he had picked up the manner, she reflected, as she watched
him! But of course that was natural enough; once a Trojan, always a
Trojan, and no amount of colonies will do away with it. But three
weeks was a short time for so vast a change.
"No, Harry, not very well--of course, it weighs on one rather."
She sighed and rose from the breakfast-table; she looked terribly tired
and Harry was suddenly sorry for her, and, for the first time since the
night of his return, felt that they were brother and sister; but after
the adventure of the early morning it was as though he were related to
the whole world--Love and Death had drawn close to him, and, with the
sound of the beating of their wings, the world had revealed things to
him that had, in other days, been secrets. Love and Death were such
big things that his personal relations with Clare, with Garrett, even
with Robin, had assumed their true proportion.
"Clare, you're tired!" he said. "I should go and lie down again. You
shall be told if anything happens."
"No, thanks, Harry. I wanted to ask you something--but, perhaps, first
I ought to apologise for some of the things that I said the other day.
I said more than I meant to. I am sorry--but one forgets at times that
one has no right to meddle in other people's affairs. But now
I--we--all of us--want to ask you a favour----"
"Yes?" he said, looking up.
"Well, of course, this is scarcely the time. But it is something that
can hardly wait, and you can decide about acting yourself----"
She paused. It was the very hardest thing that she had ever had to do,
and she would never forget it to the day of her death. But it was
harder for Robin; he sat there with flaming cheeks and his head
hanging--he could not look at his father.
"It is to do with Robin--" Clare went on; "he was rather afraid to ask
you about it himself, because, of course, it is not a business of which
he is very proud, and so he has asked me to do it for him. It is a
girl--a Miss Feverel--whom he met at Cambridge and to whom he had
written letters, letters that gave the young woman some reasons to
suppose that he was offering her marriage. He saw the matter more
wisely after a time and naturally wished Miss Feverel to restore the
letters, but this she refused to do. Both Garrett and myself have done
what we could and have, I am afraid, failed. Miss Feverel is quite
resolute--most obstinately so. We are afraid that she may take steps
that would be unpleasant to all of us--it is rather worrying us, and we
thought--it seemed--in short, I determined to ask you to help us. With
your wider experience you will probably know the best way in which to
deal with such a person."
Clare paused. She had put it as drily as possible, but it was,
nevertheless, humiliating.
There was a pause.
"I am scarcely surprised," said Harry, "that Robin is ashamed of the
affair."
"Of course he is," answered Clare eagerly, "bitterly ashamed."
"I suppose you made love to--ah--Miss Feverel?" he said, turning
directly to Robin.
"Yes," said Robin, lifting his head and facing his father. As their
eyes met the colour rushed to his cheeks.
"It was a rotten thing to do," said Harry.
"I have been very much ashamed of myself," answered Robin. "I would
make Miss Feverel any apology that is in my power, but there seems to
be little that I can do."
Harry said no more.
"I am really sorry," said Clare at last, "to speak about a business
like this just now--but really there is no time to lose. I am sure
that you will do something to prevent trouble in the Courts, and that
is what Miss Feverel seems to threaten."
"What do you want me to do?" he asked.
"To see her--to see her and try and arrange some compromise----"
"I should have thought that Robin was the proper person----"
"He has tried and failed; she would not listen to him."
"Then I am afraid that she will not listen to me--a perfect stranger
with no claims on her interest."
"It is precisely that. You will be able to put it on a business
footing, because sentiment does not enter into the question at all."
"Do you want me to help you, Robin?"
At the direct question Robin looked up again. His father looked very
stern and judicial. It was the schoolmaster rather than the parent,
but, after all, what else could he expect? So he said, quite
simply--"Yes, father."
But at this moment there was an interruption. With the hurried opening
of the door there came the sounds of agitated voices and steps in the
passage--then Benham appeared.
"Sir Jeremy is worse, Mr. Henry. The doctor thinks that, perhaps----"
Harry hurriedly left the room. Absolute silence reigned. The sudden
arrival of the long-expected crisis was terrifying. They sat like
statues, staring in front of them, and listening eagerly to every
sound. The monotonous ticking of the clock on the mantelpiece was
terrifying--the clock on the wall by the door seemed to run a race.
The "tick-tock" grew faster and faster--at last it was as if both
clocks were screaming aloud.
The room was filled with the clamour, and through it all they sat
motionless and silent.
In a moment Harry had returned. "All of you," he said quickly--"he
would like to see you--I am afraid----"
After that Robin was confused and saw nothing clearly. As he crept
tremblingly up the stairs everything assumed gigantic and menacing
shapes--the clock, the pot-pourri bowls, the window-curtains, and the
brass rods on the stairs. In the room there was that grey half-light
that seemed so terrible, and the spurt and crackle of the fire seemed
to fill the place with sounds. He scarcely saw his grandfather. In
the centre of the bed, something was lying; the eyes gleamed for a
moment in the light of the fire, the lips seemed to move. But he did
not realise that those things were his grandfather whom he had known
for so many years--in another hour he would be dead.
But the things that he saw were the shadows of the fire on the wall,
the dancing in the air of the only lock of hair that Dr. Brady
possessed, the way that Clare's hands were folded as she stood silently
by the bed, Uncle Garrett's waistcoat-buttons that shot little sparks
of light into the room as he turned, ever so slightly, from side to
side.
At a motion of the doctor's, he came forward to bid Sir Jeremy
farewell. As he bent over the bed panic seized him--he did not see Sir
Jeremy but something horrible, terrible, ghoulish--Death. Then he saw
the old man's eyes, and they were twinkling; then he knew that he was
speaking to him. The words came with difficulty, but they were quite
clear--
"You'll be a good man, Robin--but listen to your father--he
knows--he'll show you how to be a Trojan."
For a moment he held the wrinkled, shrivelled hand in his own, and then
he stepped back. Clare bent down and kissed her father, and then
kneeled down by the bed; Robin had a mad longing to laugh as he saw his
uncle and aunt kneeling there, their heads made enormous shadows on the
wall.
Harry also bent down and kissed his father; the old man held his hand
and kept it--
"I've tried to be a fair man and a gentleman--I've not been a good one.
But I've had some fun and seen life--thank God, I was born a Trojan--so
will the rest of you. Harry, my boy, you're all right--you'll do. I'm
going, but I don't regret anything--your sins are experience--and the
greatest sin of all is not having any."
His lips closed--as the fire flashed with the falling of a cavern of
blazing coal his head rolled back on to the pillow.
Suddenly he smiled--
"Dear old Harry!" he said, and then he died.
The shadows from the fire leapt and danced on the wall, and the
kneeling figures by the bed flung grotesque shapes over the dead man.