There were times when Harry felt curiously, impressively, the age of
the house. It was not all of it old, it had been added to from time to
time by successive Trojans; but there had, from the earliest days, been
a stronghold on the hill overlooking the sea and keeping guard.
He had had a wonderful pride in it on his return, but now he began to
feel as though he had no right in it. Surely if any one had a right to
such a heritage it was he, but they had isolated him and told him that
he had no place there. The gardens, the corners and battlements of the
house, the great cliff falling sheer to the sea, had had no welcome for
him, and when he had claimed his succession they had refused him. He
was beginning to give the stocks and stones of the House a personal
existence. Sometimes at night, when the moon gave the place grey
shadows and white lights, or in the early morning when the first birds
were crying in the trees and the sea was slowly taking colour from the
rising sun, in the perfect stillness and beauty of those hours the
house had seemed to speak to him with a new voice. He imagined,
fantastically at times, that the white statues in the garden watched
him with grave eyes, wondering what place he would take in the
chronicles of the House.
It was Sunday afternoon, and he was alone in the library. That was a
room that had always appealed to him, with its dark red walls covered
from floor to ceiling with books, its wide stone fireplace, its soft,
heavy carpets, its wonderfully comfortable armchairs. It seemed to him
the very perfection of that spirit of orderly comfort and luxurious
simplicity for which he had so earnestly longed in New Zealand. He sat
in that room for hours, alone, thinking, wondering, puzzling, devising
new plans for Robin's surrender and rejecting them as soon as they were
formed.
He was sitting by the fire now, hearing the coals click as they fell
into the golden furnace that awaited them. He was comparing the
incidents of the morning with those of the preceding Sunday, and he
knew that things were approaching a crisis. Clare had scarcely spoken
to him for three days. Garrett and Robin had not said a word beyond a
casual good-morning. They were ignoring him, continuing their daily
life as though he did not exist at all. He remembered that he had felt
his welcome a fortnight before a little cold--it seemed rapturous
compared with the present state of things.
They had driven to church that morning in state. No one had exchanged
a word during the whole drive. Clare had sat quietly, in solemn
magnificence, without moving an eyelid. They had moved from the
carriage to the church in majestic procession, watched by an admiring
cluster of townspeople. He had liked Clare's fine bearing and Robin's
carriage; there was no doubt that they supported family traditions
worthily, but he felt that, in the eyes of the world, he scarcely
counted at all. It was a cold and over-decorated church, with an air
of wealth and lack of all warm emotions that was exactly characteristic
of its congregation. Harry thought that he had never seen a gathering
of more unresponsive people. An excellent choir sang Stainer in B flat
with perfect precision and fitting respect, and the hymns and psalms
were murmured with proper decorum. The clergyman who had come to tea
on the day after Harry's arrival preached a carefully calculated and
excellently worded sermon. Although his text was the publican's "Lord,
be merciful to me, a sinner," it was evident that his address was
tinged with the Pharisee's self-congratulations.
A little gathering was formed in the porch after the service, and Mrs.
le Terry, magnificent in green silk and an enormous hat, was the only
person who took any interest in Harry, and she was looking over his
head during the conversation in order, apparently, to fix the attention
of some gentleman moving in the opposite direction.
At lunch Harry had made a determined effort towards cheerfulness. He
had learnt that heartiness was bad manners and effusion a crime, so he
was quiet and restrained. But his efforts failed miserably; Robin
seemed worried and his thoughts were evidently far away, Clare was
occupied with the impertinence of some stranger who had thrust himself
into the Trojan pew at the last moment, and Garrett was repeating
complacently a story that he had heard at the Club tending to prove the
unsanitary condition of the lower classes in general and the
inhabitants of the Cove in particular. After lunch they had left him
alone; he had not dared to petition Robin for a walk, so, sick at heart
and miserably lonely, he had wandered disconsolately into the library.
He had taken from one of the shelves the volume T-U of _The Dictionary
of National Biography_, and had amused himself by searching for the
names of heroes in Trojan annals.
There was only one who really mattered--a certain Humphrey Trojan,
1718-1771; a man apparently of poor circumstances and quite a distant
cousin of the main branch, one who had been in all probability despised
by the Sir Henry Trojan of that time. Nevertheless he had been a
person of some account in history and had, from the towers of the
House, watched the sea and the stars to some purpose. He had been
admitted, Harry imagined, into the sacred precincts after his
researches had made him a person of national importance, and it was
amusing to picture Sir Henry's pride transformed into a rather
obsequious familiarity when "My cousin, Humphrey, had been honoured by
an interview with his Majesty and had received an Order at the royal
hand"--amusing, yes, but not greatly to the glory of Sir Henry. Harry
liked to picture Humphrey in his days of difficulty--sturdy,
persevering, confident in his own ability, oblivious of the cuts dealt
him by his cousin. Time would show.
He let the book fall and gazed at the fire, thinking. After all, he
was a poor creature. He had none of that perseverance and belief in
his own ultimate success, and it was better, perhaps, to get right out
of it, to throw up the sponge, to turn tail, and again there floated
before him that wonderful dream of liberty and the road--of a
relationship with the world at large, and no constraint of family
dignity and absurd grades of respectability. Off with the harness; he
had worn it for a fortnight and he could bear it no longer. Bethel was
right; he would follow the same path and find his soul by losing it in
the eyes of the world. But after all, there was Robin. He had not
given it a fair trial, and it was only cowardice that had spoken to him.
The clock struck half-past three and he went upstairs to see his
father. The old man seldom left his bed now. He grew weaker every day
and the end could not be far away. He had no longer any desire to
live, and awaited with serene confidence the instant of departure,
being firmly convinced that Death was too good a gentleman to treat a
Trojan scurvily, and that, whatever the next world might contain, he
would at least be assured of the respect and deference that the present
world had shown him. His mind dwelt continually on his early days,
and, even when there was no one present to listen, he repeated
anecdotes and reminiscences for the benefit of the world at large. His
face seemed to have dwindled considerably, but his eyes were always
alive--twinkling over the bedclothes like lights in a dark room. His
mouth never moved, only his hand, claw-like and yellow as parchment,
clutched the bedclothes and sometimes waved feebly in the air to
emphasise his meaning. He had grown strangely intolerant of Clare, and
although he submitted to her offices as usual, did so reluctantly and
with no good grace; she had served him faithfully and diligently for
twenty years and this was her reward. She said nothing, but she laid
it to Harry's charge.
Sir Jeremy's eyes twinkled when he saw his son. "Hey, Harry, my
boy--all of 'em out, aren't they? Devilish good thing--no one to worry
us. Just give the pillows a punch and pull that table nearer--that's
right. Just pull that blind up--I can't see the sea."
The room had changed its character within the last week. It was a
place of silences and noiseless tread, and the scent of flowers mingled
with the intangible odour of medicine. A great fire burnt in the open
fireplace, and heavy curtains had been hung over the door to prevent
draughts.
Harry moved silently about the room, flung up the blind to let in the
sun, propped up the pillows, and then sat down by the bed.
"You're looking better, father," he said; "you'll soon be up again."
"The devil I will," said Sir Jeremy. "No, it's not for me. I'm here
for a month or two, and then I'm off. I've had my day, and a damned
good one too. What do you think o' that girl now, Harry--she's
fine--what?"
He produced from under the pillow a photograph, yellow with age, of a
dancer--jet-black hair and black eyes, her body balanced on one leg,
her hands on her hips. "Anonita Sendella--a devilish fine woman, by
gad--sixty years ago that was--and Tom Buckley and I were in the
running. He had the money and I had the looks, although you wouldn't
think it now. She liked me until she got tired of me and she died o'
drink--not many like that nowadays." He gazed at the photograph whilst
his eyes twinkled. "Legs--by Heaven! what legs!" He chuckled.
"Wouldn't do for Clare to see that; she was shaking my pillows this
mornin' and I was in a deuce of a fright--thought the thing would
tumble out."
He lay back on his pillows thinking, and Harry stared out of the
window. The end would come in a month or two--perhaps sooner; and
then, what would happen? He would take his place as head of the
family. He laughed to himself--head of the family! when Clare and
Garrett and Robin all hated him? Head of the family!
The sky was grey and the sea flecked with white horses. It was
shifting colours to-day like a mother-of-pearl shell--a great band of
dark grey on the horizon, and then a soft carpet of green turning to
grey again by the shore. The grey hoofs [Transcriber's note: roofs?]
of the Cove crowded down to the edge of the land, seeming to lean a
little forward, as though listening to what the sea had to say; the
sun, breaking mistily through the clouds, was a round ball of dull
gold--a line of breakwater, far in the distance, seemed ever about to
advance down the stretch of sea to the shore, as though it would hurl
itself on the cluster of brown sails in the little bay, huddling there
for protection. Head of the House! What was the use, when the House
didn't want him?
His father was watching him and seemed to have read his thoughts.
"You'll take my place, Harry?" he said. "They won't like it, you know.
It was partly my fault. I sent you away and you grew up away, and
they've always been here. I've been wanting you to come back all this
time, and it wasn't because I was angry that I didn't ask you--but it
was better for you. You don't see it yet; you came back thinking
they'd welcome you and be glad to see you, and you're a bit hurt that
they haven't. They've been hard to you, all of 'em--your boy as well.
I've known, right enough. But it cuts both ways, you see. They can't
see your point of view, and they're afraid of the open air you're
letting in on to them. You're too soft, Harry; you've shown them that
it hurts, and they've wanted it to hurt. Give 'em a stiff back, Harry,
give 'em a stiff back. Then you'll have 'em. That's like us Trojans.
We're devilish cruel because we're devilish proud; if you're kind we
hurt, but if you do a bit of hurting on your own account we like it."
"I've made a mess of it," Harry said, "a hopeless mess of it. I've
tried everything, and it's all failed. I'd better back out of it--"
Then, after a pause, "Robin hates me----"
Sir Jeremy chuckled.
"Oh no, he doesn't. He's like the rest of us. You wanted him to give
himself away at once, and of course he wouldn't. They're trying you
and waiting to see what you'll do, and Robin's just following on.
You'll be all right, only give 'em a stiff back, the whole crowd of
'em."
Suddenly his wrinkled yellow hand shot out from under the bedclothes
and he grasped his son's. "You're a damned fine chap," he said, "and
I'm proud of you--only you're a bit of a fool--sentimental, you know.
But you'll make more of the place than I've ever done, God bless you--"
after which he lay back on his pillows again, and was soon asleep.
Harry waited for a little, and then he stole out of the room. He told
the nurse to take his place, and went downstairs.
It was four o'clock, and he was going to tea at the Bethels'. He had
been there pretty frequently during the past week--that and the Cove
were his only courts of welcome. He knew that his going there had only
aggravated his offences in the eyes of his sister, but that he could
not help. Why should they dictate his friends to him?
The little drawing-room was neat and clean. There were some flowers,
and the chairs and sofa were not littered with books and needlework and
strange fragments of feminine garments. Mrs. Bethel was gorgeous in a
green silk dress and the paint was more obtrusive than ever. Her eyes
were red as though she had been crying, and her hair as usual had
escaped bounds.
Mary was making tea and smiled up at him. "Shout at father," she said.
"He's downstairs in the study, browsing. He'll come up when he knows
you are here."
Harry went to the head of the stairs and called, and Bethel came
rushing up. Sunday made no difference to his clothes, and he wore the
grey suit and flannel collar of their first meeting.
His greeting was, as ever, boisterous. "Hullo! Trojan! that's
splendid! I was afraid they'd carry you off to that church of yours or
you'd have a tea-party or something. I'm glad they've spared you."
"No, I went this morning," Harry answered, "all of us solemnly in the
family coach. I thought that was enough for one day."
"We used to have a carriage when papa was alive," said Mrs. Bethel,
"and we drove to church every Sunday. We were the only people beside
the Porsons, and theirs was only a pony-cart."
"Well, for my part, I hate driving," said Mary. "It puts you in a bad
temper for the sermon."
"Let's have tea," said Bethel. "I'm as hungry as though I'd listened
to fifty parsons."
And, indeed, he always was. He ate as though he had had no meal for a
month at least, and he had utterly demolished the tea-cake before he
realised that no one else had had any.
"Oh, I say, I'm so sorry," he said ruefully. "Mary, why didn't you
tell me? I'll never forgive myself----" and proceeded to finish the
saffron buns.
"All the same," said Mary, "we're going to church to-night, all of us,
and if you're very good, Mr. Trojan, you shall come too."
Harry paused for a moment. "I shall be delighted," he said; "but where
do you go?"
"There's a little church called St. Sennan's. You haven't heard of it,
probably. It's past the Cove--on a hill looking over the sea. It's
the most tumble-down old place you ever saw, and nobody goes there
except a few fishermen, but we know the clergyman and like him. I like
the place too--you can listen to the sea if you're bored with the
sermon."
"The parson is like one of the prophets," said Bethel. "Too strong for
the Pendragon point of view. It's a place of ruins, Trojan, and the
congregation are like a crowd of ancient Britons--but you'll like it."
Mrs. Bethel was unwontedly quiet--it was obvious that she was in
distress; Mary, too, seemed to speak at random, and there was an air of
constraint in the room.
When they set off for church the grey sky had changed to blue; the sun
had just set, and little pink clouds like fairy cushions hung round the
moon. As they passed out of the town, through the crooked path down to
the Cove, Harry had again that strong sense of Cornwall that came to
him sometimes so suddenly, so strangely, that it was almost mysterious,
for it seemed to have no immediate cause, no absolute relation to
surrounding sights or sounds. Perhaps to-night it was in the misty
half-light of the shining moon and the dying sun, the curious stillness
of the air so that the sounds and cries of the town came distinctly on
the wind, the scent of some wild flowers, the faint smell of the
chrysanthemums that Mary was wearing at her breast.
"By Jove, it's Cornwall," he said, drawing a great breath. He was
walking a little ahead with Mary, and he turned to her as she spoke.
She was walking with her head bent, and did not seem to hear him.
"What's up?" he said.
"Nothing," she answered, trying to smile.
"But there is," he insisted. "I'm not blind. I've bored you with my
worries. You might honour me with yours."
"There isn't anything really. One's foolish to mind, and, indeed, it's
not for myself that I care--but it's mother."
"What have they done?"
"They don't like us--none of them do. I don't know why they should; we
aren't, perhaps, very likeable. But it is cruel of them to show it.
Mother, you see, likes meeting people--we had it in London, friends I
mean, lots of them, and then when we came here we had none. We have
never had any from the beginning. We tried, perhaps a little too hard,
to have some. We gave little parties and they failed, and then people
began to think us peculiar, and if they once do that here you're done
for. Perhaps we didn't see it quite soon enough and we went on trying,
and then they began to snub us."
"Snub you?"
"Yes, you know the kind of thing. You saw that first day we met
you----"
"And it hurts?"
"Yes--for mother. She still tries; she doesn't see that it's no good,
and each time that she goes and calls, something happens and she comes
back like she did to-day. I don't suppose they mean to be unkind--it
is only that we are, you see, peculiar, and that doesn't do here.
Father wears funny clothes and never sees any one, and so they think
there must be something wrong----"
"It's a shame," he said indignantly.
"No," she answered, "it isn't really. It's one's own fault--only
sometimes I hate it all. Why couldn't we have stayed in London? We
had friends there, and father's clothes didn't matter. Here such
little things make such a big difference"--which was, Harry reflected,
a complete epitome of the life of Pendragon.
"I'm not whining," she went on. "We all have things that we don't
like, but when you're without a friend----"
"Not quite," he said; "you must count me." He stopped for a moment.
"You _will_ count me, won't you?"
"You realise what you are doing," she said. "You are entering into
alliance with outcasts."
"You forget," he answered, "that I, also, am an outcast. We can at
least be outcasts together."
"It is good of you," she said gravely; "I am selfish enough to accept
it. If I was really worth anything, I would never let you see us
again. It means ostracism."
"We will fight them," he answered gaily. "We will storm the camp"; but
in his heart he knew that their stronghold, with "The Flutes" as the
heart of the defence, would be hard to overcome.
They climbed up the hill to the little church with the sea roaring at
their feet. A strong wind was blowing, and, for a moment, at a steep
turn of the hill, she laid her hand on his arm; at the touch his heart
beat furiously--in that moment he knew that he loved her, that he had
loved her from the first moment that he had seen her, and he passed on
into the church.
It was, as Bethel had said, almost in ruins--the little nave was
complete, but ivy clambered in the aisles and birds had built their
nests in the pillars. Three misty candles flickered on the altar, and
some lights burnt over the pulpit, but there were strange half-lights
and shadows so that it seemed a place of ghosts. Through the open door
the night air blew, bringing with it the beating of the sea, and the
breath of grass and flowers. The congregation was scanty; some
fishermen and their wives, two or three old women, and a baby that made
no sound but listened wonderingly with its finger in its mouth. The
clergyman was a tall man with a long white beard and he did everything,
even playing the little wheezy harmonium. His sermon was short and
simple, but was listened to with rapt attention. There was something
strangely intense about it all, and the hymns were sung with an
eagerness that Harry had never heard elsewhere. This was a contrast
with the church of the morning, just as the Cove was a contrast with
Pendragon; the parting of the ways seemed to face Harry at every moment
of his day--his choice was being urgently demanded and he had no longer
any hesitation.
Newsome was there, and he spoke to him for a moment on coming out.
"You'll be lonely 'up-along,'" he said; "you belong to us."
They all four walked back together.
"How do you like our ancient Britons?" said Bethel.
"It was wonderful," said Harry. "Thank you for taking me."
They were all very silent, but when they parted at the turning of the
road Bethel laughed. "Now you are one of us, Trojan. We have claimed
you."
As he shook Mary's hand he whispered, "This has been a great evening
for me."
"I was wrong to grumble to you," she answered. "You have worries
enough of your own. I release you from your pledge."
"I will not be released," he said.
That night Clare Trojan, before going to bed, went into Garrett's room.
He was working at his book, and, as usual, hinted that to take such
advantage of his good-nature by her interruption was unfair.
"I suppose to-morrow morning wouldn't do instead, Clare--it's a bit
late."
"No, it wouldn't--I want you to listen to me. It's important."
"Well?" He seated himself in the most comfortable chair and sighed.
"Don't be too long."
She was excited and stood over him as though she would force him to be
interested.
"It's too much, Garrett. It's got to stop."
"What?"
"Harry. Some one must speak to him."
Garrett smiled. "That, of course, will be you, Clare--you always do;
but if it's my permission that you want you may have it and welcome.
But we've discussed all this before. What's the new turn of affairs?"
"No. I want more than your permission; we must take some measures
together. It's no good unless we act at once. Miss Ponsonby told me
this afternoon--it has become common talk--the things he does, I mean.
She did not want to say anything, but I made her. He goes down
continually to some low public-house in the Cove; he is with those
Bethels all day, and will see nothing of any of the decent people in
the place--he is becoming a common byword."
"It is a pity," Garrett said, "that he cannot choose his friends
better."
"He must--something must be done. It is not for ourselves only, though
of course that counts. But it is the House--our name. They laugh at
him, and so at all of us. Besides, there is Robin."
Garrett looked at his sister curiously--he had never seen her so
excited before. But she found it no laughing matter. Miss Ponsonby
would not have spoken unless matters had gone pretty far. The Cove!
The Bethels! Robin's father!
For, after all, it was for Robin that she cared. She felt that she was
fighting his battles, and so subtly concealed from herself that she
was, in reality, fighting her own. She was in a state of miserable
uncertainty. She was not sure of her father, she was not sure of
Robin, scarcely sure of Garrett--everything threatened disaster.
"What will you do?" Garrett had no desire that the responsibility
should be shifted in his direction; he feared responsibility as the
rock on which the ship of his carefully preserved proprieties might
come to wreck.
"Do? Why, speak--it must be done. Think of him during the whole time
that he has been here--not only to Pendragon, but to us. He has made
no attempt whatever to fit in with our ways or thoughts; he has shown
no desire to understand any of us; and now he must be pulled up, for
his own sake as well as ours."
But Garrett offered her little assistance. He had no proposals to
offer, and was barren of all definite efforts; he hated definite lines
of any kind, but he promised to fall in with her plans.
"I will come down to breakfast," she said, "and will speak to him
afterwards."
Garrett nodded wearily and went back to his work. On the next morning
the crisis came.
Breakfast was a silent meal at all times. Harry had learnt to avoid
the cheerful familiarity of his first morning--it would not do. But
the heavy solemnity of the massive silver teapot, the ham and cold game
on the sideboard, the racks of toast that were so needlessly numerous,
drove him into himself, and, like his brother and son, he disappeared
behind folds of newspaper until the meal was over.
Clare frequently came down to breakfast, and therefore he saw nothing
unusual in her appearance. The meal was quite silent; Clare had her
letters--and he was about to rise and leave the room, when she spoke.
"Wait a minute, Harry. I want to say something. No, Robin, don't
go--what I'm going to say concerns us all."
Garrett remained behind his newspaper, which showed that he had
received previous warning. Robin looked up in surprise, and then
quickly at his father, who had moved to the fireplace.
"About me, Clare?" He tried to speak calmly, but his voice shook a
little. He saw that it was a premeditated attack, but he wished that
Robin hadn't been there. He was, on the whole, glad that the moment
had come; the last week had been almost unbearable, and the situation
was bound to arrive at a crisis--well, here it was, but he wished that
Robin were not there. As he looked at the boy for a moment his face
was white and his breath came sharply. He had never loved him quite so
passionately as at that moment when he seemed about to lose him.
Clare had chosen her time and her audience well, and suddenly he felt
that he hated her; he was immediately calm and awaited her attack
almost nonchalantly, his hand resting on the mantelpiece, his legs
crossed.
Clare was still sitting at the table, her face half turned to Harry,
her glance resting on Robin. She tapped the table with her letters,
but otherwise gave no sign of agitation.
"Yes--about you, Harry. It is only that I think we have reason--almost
a right--to expect that you should yield a little more thoroughly to
our wishes. Both _Garrett_"--this with emphasis--"and myself are sure
that your failing to do so is only due to a misconception on your part,
and it is because we are sure that you have only to realise them to
give way a little to them, that I--we--are speaking."
"I certainly had not realised that I had failed in deference to your
wishes, Clare."
"No, not failed--and it is absurd to talk of deference. It is only
that I feel--we all feel"--this with another glance at Robin--"that it
is naturally impossible for you to realise exactly what are the things
required of us here. Things that would in New Zealand have been of no
importance at all."
"Such as----?"
"Well, you must remember that we have, as it were, the eyes of all the
town upon us. We occupy a position of some importance, and we are
definitely expected to maintain that position without lack of dignity."
"Won't you come to the point, Clare? It is a little hard to see----"
"Oh, things are obvious enough--surely, Harry, you must see for
yourself. People were ready to give you a warm welcome when you
returned. I--we--all of us, were only too glad. But you repulsed us
all. Why, on the very day after your arrival you were extremely--I am
sorry, but there is no other word--discourteous to the Miss Ponsonbys.
You have made your friends almost entirely amongst the fisher class, a
strange thing, surely, for a Trojan to do, and you now, I believe,
spend your evenings frequently in a low public-house resorted to by
such persons--at any rate you have spent them neither here nor at the
Club, the two obvious places. I am only mentioning these things
because I think that you may not have seen that such matters--trivial
as they may seem to you--reflect discredit, not only on yourself, but
also, indirectly, on all of us."
"You forget, Clare, that I have many old friends down at the Cove.
They were there when I was a boy. The people in Pendragon have changed
very largely, almost entirely. There is scarcely any one whom I knew
twenty years ago; it is, I should have thought, quite natural that I
should go to see my old friends again after so long an absence."
He was trying to speak quietly and calmly. His heart was beating
furiously, but he knew that if he once lost control, he would lose,
too, his position. But, as he watched them, and saw their cold,
unmoved attitude his anger rose; he had to keep it down with both hands
clenched--it was only by remembering Robin that the effort was
successful.
"Natural to go and see them on your return--of course. But to return,
to go continually, no. I cannot help feeling, Harry, that you have
been a little selfish. That you have scarcely seen our side of the
question. Things have changed in the last twenty years--changed
enormously. We have seen them, studied them, and, I think, understood
them. You come back and face them without any preparation; surely you
cannot expect to understand them quite as we do."
"This seems to me, I must confess, Clare, a great deal of concern about
a very little matter. Surely I am not a person of such importance that
a few visits to the Cove can ruin us socially?"
"Ah! that is what you don't understand! Little things matter here.
People watch, and are, I am afraid, only too ready to fasten on matters
that do not concern them. Besides, it is not only the Cove--there are
other things--there are, for instance, the Bethels."
At the name Robin started. He liked Mary Bethel, had liked her very
much indeed, but he had known that his aunt disapproved of them and had
been careful to disguise his meetings. But the instant thought in his
mind concerned the Feverels. If the Bethels were impossible socially,
what about Dahlia and her mother? What would his aunt say if she knew
of that little affair? And the question which had attacked him acutely
during the last week in various forms hurt him now like a knife.
He watched his father curiously. He did not look as if he cared very
greatly. Of course Aunt Clare was perfectly right. He had been
selfishly indifferent, had cared nothing for their feelings. Randal
had shown plainly enough how impossible he was. Indeed the shadow of
Randal lurked in the room in a manner that would have pleased that
young gentleman intensely had he known it. Clare had it continually
before her, urging her, advising her, commanding her.
At the mention of the Bethels, Harry looked up sharply.
"I think we had better leave them out of the discussion." His voice
trembled a little.
"Why? Are they so much to you? They have, however, a good deal to do
with my argument. Do you think it was wise to neglect the whole of
Pendragon for the society of the Bethels--people of whom one is an
idler and loafer and the other a lunatic?" Clare was becoming excited.
"You forget, Clare, that I first met them in your drawing-room."
"They were there entirely against my will. I showed them that quite
distinctly at the time. They will not come again."
"That may be. But they are, as you have said, my friends. I cannot,
therefore, hear them insulted. They must be left out of the
discussion."
On any other matter he could have heard her quietly, but the Bethels
she must leave alone. He could see Mary, as he spoke, turning on the
hill and laying her hand on his arm; her hair blew in the wind and the
light in her eyes shone under the moon. He had for a moment forgotten
Robin.
"At any rate, I have made my meaning clear. We wish you--out of regard
for us, if for no other reason--to be a little more careful both of
your company and of your statements. It is hard for you to see the
position quite as we do, I know, but I cannot say that you have made
any attempt whatsoever to see it with our eyes. It seems useless to
appeal to you on behalf of the House, but that, too, is worth some
consideration. We have been here for many hundreds of years; we should
continue in the paths that our ancestors have marked out. I am only
saying what you yourself feel, Garrett?"
"Absolutely." Garrett looked up from his paper. "I think you must
see, Harry, that we are quite justified in our demands--Clare has put
it quite plainly."
"Quite," said Harry. "And you, Robin?"
"I think that Aunt Clare is perfectly right," answered Robin coldly.
Harry's face was very white. He spoke rapidly and his hand gripped the
marble of the mantelpiece; he did not want them to see that his legs
were trembling.
"Yes. I am glad to know exactly where we stand. It is better for all
of us. I might have taken it submissively, Clare, had you left out
your last count against me. That was unworthy of you. But haven't
you, perhaps, seen just a little too completely your own point of view
and omitted mine? I came back a stranger. I was ready to do anything
to win your regard. I was perhaps a little foolishly sentimental about
it, but I am a very easy person to understand--it could not have been
very difficult. I imagined, foolishly, that things would be quite
easy--that there would be no complications. I soon found that I had
made a mistake; you have taught me more during the last fortnight than
I had ever learnt in all my twenty years abroad. I have learnt that to
expect affection from your own relations, even from your son, is
absurd--affection is bad form; that, of course, was rather a shock.
"You have had, all of you, your innings during the last fortnight. You
have decided, with your friends, that I am impossible, and from that
moment you have deliberately cut me. You have driven me to find
friends of my own and then you have complained of the friends that I
have chosen. That is completed--in a fortnight you have shown me,
quite plainly, your position. Now I will show you mine. You have
refused to have anything to do with me--for the future the position
shall be reversed. I shall alter in no respect whatever, either my
friendships or my habits. I shall go where I please, do what I please,
see whom I please. We shall, of course, disguise our position from the
world. I have learnt that disguise is a very important part of one's
education. Our former relations from this moment cease entirely."
He was speaking apparently calmly, but his anger was at white-heat.
All the veiled insults and disappointments of the last fortnight rose
before him, but, above all, he saw Mary as though he were defending
her, there, in the room. He would never forgive them.
Clare was surprised, but she did not show it. She got up from the
table and walked to the door. "Very well, Harry," she said, "I think
you will regret it."
Garrett rose too, his hand trembling a little as he folded his
newspaper.
"That is, I suppose, an ultimatum," he said. "It is a piece of
insolence that I shall not forget."
Robin was turning to leave the room. Harry suddenly saw him. He had
forgotten him; he had thought only of Mary.
"Robin," he whispered, stepping towards him. "Robin--you don't think
as they do?"
"I agree with my aunt," he said, and he left the room, closing the door
quietly behind him.
Harry's defiance had left him. For a moment the only thing that he saw
clearly in a world that had suddenly grown dark and cold was his son.
He had forgotten the rest--his sister, Mary, Pendragon--it all seemed
to matter nothing.
He had come from New Zealand to love his son--for nothing else.
He had an impulse to run after him, to seize him, and hold him, and
force him to come back.
Then he remembered--his pride stung him. He would fight it out to the
end; he would, as his father said, "show them a stiff back."
He was very white, and for a moment he had to steady himself by the
table. The silver teapot, the ham, the racks of toast were all
there--how strange, when the rest of the world had changed; he was
quite alone now--he must remember that--he had no son. And he, too,
went out, closing the door quietly behind him.