A MALADY of The HEART

In the firelight of that evening--when the maids had cleared the cozy

room and carried away the lamp and we three sat alone together in my

father's house--was planned our simple partnership in good works and the

fish business. 'Tis wonderful what magic is abroad at such times--what

dreams, what sure hopes, lie in the flickering blaze, the warm, red

glow, the dancing shadows; what fine aspirations unfold in hearts that

are brave and hopeful and kind. Presently, we had set a fleet of new

schooners afloat, put a score of new traps in the water, proved

fair-dealing and prosperity the selfsame thing, visited the sick of five

hundred miles, established a hospital--transformed our wretched coast,

indeed, into a place no longer ignorant of jollity and thrift and

healing. The doctor projected all with lively confidence--his eyes

aflash, his lean, white hand eloquent, his tongue amazingly active and

persuasive--and with an insight so sagacious and well-informed, a

purpose so pure and wise, that he revealed himself (though we did not

think of it then) not only as a man of heart but of conspicuous sense.

It did not enter our minds to distrust him: because our folk are not

sophisticated in polite overreaching, not given to the vice of

suspicion, and because--well, he was what he was.

My sister's face was aglow--most divinely radiant--with responsive faith

and enthusiasm; and as for me----

"Leave me get down," I gasped, at last, to the doctor, "or I'll bust

with delight, by heaven!"

He laughed, but unclasped his hands and let me slip from his knee; and

then I began to strut the floor, my chest puffed out to twice its

natural extent.

"By heaven!" I began. "If that Jagger----"

The clock struck ten. "David Roth," my sister exclaimed, lifting her

hands in mock horror, "'tis fair scandalous for a lad o' your years t'

be up 't this hour!"

"Off to bed with you, you rascal!" roared the doctor.

"I'll not go," I protested.

"Off with you!"

"Not I."

"Catch un, doctor!" cried my sister.

"An you can, zur!" I taunted.

If he could? Ecod! He snatched at me, quick as a cat; but I dodged his

hand, laughed in his face and put the table between us. With an agility

beyond compare--with a flow of spirits like a gale of wind--he vaulted

the broad board. The great, grave fellow appeared of a sudden to my

startled vision in midair--his arms and legs at sixes and sevens--his

coat-tails flapping like a loose sail--his mouth wide open in a

demoniacal whoop--and I dropped to the floor but in the bare nick of

time to elude him. Uproarious pursuit ensued: it made my sister limp and

pain-stricken and powerless with laughter; it brought our two maids from

the kitchen and kept them hysterically screaming in the doorway, the

lamp at a fearsome angle; it tumbled the furniture about with rollicking

disregard, led the doctor a staggering, scrambling, leaping course in

the midst of upturned tables and chairs, and, at last, ran the gasping

quarry to earth under the sofa. I was taken out by the heels,

shouldered, carried aloft and flung sprawling on my bed--while the whole

house rang again with peal upon peal of hearty laughter.

"Oh, zur," I groaned, "I never knowed you was so jolly!"

"Not so?"

"On my word, zur!"

He sighed.

"I fancied you was never but sad."

"Ah, well," said he, "the Labrador, Davy, is evidently working a cure."

"God be thanked for that!" said I, devoutly.

He rumpled my hair and went out. And I bade him send my sister with the

candle; and while I lay waiting in the dark a glow of content came upon

me--because of this: that whereas I had before felt woefully inadequate

to my sister's protection, however boastfully I had undertaken it, I was

now sure that in our new partnership her welfare and peace of heart were

to be accomplished. Then she came in and sat with me while I got ready

for bed. She had me say my prayers at her knee, as a matter of course,

but this night hinted that an additional petition for the doctor's

well-doing and happiness might not be out of place. She chided me, after

that, for the temper I had shown against Jagger and for the oath I had

flung at his head, as I knew she would--but did not chide me heartily,

because, as she said, she was for the moment too gratefully happy to

remember my short-comings against me. I thanked her, then, for this

indulgence, and told her that she might go to bed, for I was safely and

comfortably bestowed, as she could see, and ready for sleep; but she

would not go, and there sat, with the candle in her hand, her face

flushed and her great blue eyes soulfully glowing, while she continued

to chatter in an incoherent and strangely irrelevant fashion: so that,

astonished into broad wakefulness by this extraordinary behaviour, I sat

bolt upright in bed, determined to discover the cause.

"Bessie Roth," said I, severely, "what's come upon you?"

"I'm not knowin', Davy," she answered, softly, looking away.

"'Tis somewhat awful, then," said I, in alarm, "for you're not lookin'

me in the eye."

She looked then in her lap--and did not raise her eyes, though I waited:

which was very strange.

"You isn't sick, is you?"

"No-o," she answered, doubtfully.

"Oh, you _mustn't_ get sick," I protested. "'Twould _never_ do. I'd fair

die--if _you_ got sick!"

"'Tisn't sickness; 'tis--I'm not knowin' what."

"Ah, come," I pleaded; "what is it, dear?"

"Davy, lad," she faltered, "I'm just--dreadful--happy."

"Happy?" cried I, scornfully. "'Tis not happiness! Why, sure, your lip

is curlin' with grief!"

"But I _was_ happy."

"You isn't happy now, my girl."

"No," she sobbed, "I'm wonderful miserable--now."

I kicked off the covers. "You've the fever, that's what!" I exclaimed,

jumping out of bed.

"'Tis not that, Davy."

"Then--oh, for pity's sake, Bessie, tell your brother what's gone wrong

along o' you!"

"I'm thinkin', Davy," she whispered, despairingly, "that I'm nothin' but

a sinful woman."

"A--what! Why, Bessie----"

"Nothin'," she repeated, positively, "but a sinful, wicked person."

"Who told you that?" said I, dancing about in a rage.

"My own heart."

"Your heart!" cried I, blind angry. "'Tis a liar an it says so."

"What words!" she exclaimed, changed in a twinkling. "An' to your

sister! Do you get back in bed this instant, David Roth, an' tell her

that you're sorry."

I was loath to do it, but did, to pacify her; and when she had carried

away the candle I chuckled, for I had cured her of her indisposition for

that night, at any rate: as I knew, for when she kissed me 'twas plain

that she was more concerned for her wayward brother than for herself.

* * * * *

Past midnight I was awakened by the clang of the bell on my father's

wharf. 'Twas an unpleasant sound. Half a gale--no less--could do it. I

then knew that the wind had freshened and veered to the southeast; and

I listened to determine how wild the night. Wild enough! The bell

clanged frequently, sharply, jangling in the gusts--like an anxious

warning. My window was black; there was no light in the sky--no star

shining. Rain pattered on the roof. I heard the rush of wind. 'Twas

inevitable that I should contrast the quiet of the room, the security of

my place, the comfort of my couch and blankets, with a rain-swept,

heaving deck and a tumultuous sea. A gusty night, I thought--thick, wet,

with the wind rising. The sea would be in a turmoil on the grounds by

dawn: there would be no fishing; and I was regretting this--between

sleep and waking--when the bell again clanged dolefully. Roused, in a

measure, I got ear of men stumbling up the path. I was into my breeches

before they had trampled half the length of the platform--well on my way

down the dark stair when they knocked on the door--standing scared in

the light of their lantern, the door open, before they found time to

hail.

I was addressed by a gray old man in ragged oilskins. "We heared tell,"

said he, mildly, wiping his dripping beard, "that you got a doctor

here."

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