LETTER I.

New-York University, Sept. 10th, 1853.

Rev. Isaac Ferris, D. D.

Dear Sir,--I deem it a duty of justice towards myself, as well as to the

honor of the Institution of which I am an officer and yourself the

newly-elected head, to bring to your consideration a few circumstances

from the history of our incidental intercourse during the past winter,

which at the time of occurrence, struck me with painful surprise, and

which I cannot suffer to pass without my most earnest protestations.

1st, During the earlier part of the winter, in passing out of my

lecture-room one morning, I met you in the hall of the University with a

pale face, asking me in the most uncalled-for and singular manner the

strange question:--"_Are you my superior?_"--The reply, which I ought to

have written on the spot to such an enquiry, I would now make by saying,

that such an idea never occurred to me, and that, as I had never seen

any thing of your presence in the actual performance of duty in the

University at the time of my instruction to the students, such an idea

_never could have suggested itself_ to me. The question of superiority

or inferiority being, moreover, of a relative nature and one that (in

our profession) can only be settled by actual services rendered to the

cause of letters and by actual acknowledgements obtained in a proper

manner and from competent judges, it would be folly for me or for any

one else to attempt to place it on any other ground; and for that reason

I never touch it, although I am always ready to acknowledge both moral

and intellectual superiority, wherever I become aware of its existence.

2d, On a second occasion, I met you by accident in the hall before my

door, when to my equal surprise, you informed me by indefinite murmurs

and in the same painful half-way-utterance, "_that I had the chapel_,"

and "_that I was in the next church_," pointing to Dr. Hutton's. This

cannot possibly be the case, as I am not of your persuasion in matters

of religion, and if I am to communicate any instruction in the

Institution, it must be done in the usual way.

3d, During the horrid disorders within the Institution the past winter,

I repeatedly heard vociferous declamations in the adjoining room, and at

one time the famous words of Patrick Henry were declaimed by Mr. Bennet

(I think) of the last class: "_Give me liberty, or give me death!_"

fearfully emphasized, and _your own voice echoed_: "_Death you shall

have!_" As at that particular time I underwent the crucifixion of

college-disorder, at the same time receiving occasional intimations that

either in my speculations or in my instruction _I was going too far_,

and that on that account it was necessary for me to leave, I cannot

possibly be mistaken in supposing, _that both that horrible word of

yours_, as well as the frequent scandalous vociferations were intended

as an insult for me; (and, _if that is so_, I would most respectfully

beg leave to reciprocate the compliment).

4th, At the dinner of the Alumni my attention along with that of all the

rest of the assembled guests was directed towards you, at the time you

rose to speak. While yet standing, you turned towards me with a peculiar

expression of countenance (which I beg you to allow me to reciprocate)

and in an under-tone (distinctly audible to me) asked the guests of the

opposite side of the room (between whom and yourself there appears to

have been a collusion): _Shall I have to become the step-father of that

man?_ and again in the same tone and with the same expression of

countenance: "_Next year I shall see another man in that man's place!_"

The subsequent exchange of salutations _over Prof._ Martin was ironical

on your part, and independently of the rudeness of the act, wholly out

of place. No one else present was treated in the same way.--In regard to

the last expression, with which you honored me on that occasion, I would

say, that by the repetition of the scenes of immorality and disorder of

which this building was the theatre (in the most odious sense of that

term) during the past year, such an event might be possible, not however

without some troublesome resistance on my part and _the prospect of

another change_.--In regard to the first question, I will myself take

the responsibility of a reply, by frankly informing you, that, although

I do not feel the slightest inclination to question the responsible

honor of your office, and with due deference to the reputation for moral

integrity (of your _scholarship_ I have never seen any proof), which

must have secured the same to you, I nevertheless most emphatically

decline such paternal supervision--having for many years past been

myself of full age, and even won a place _as a man_ among the men and

scholars of our land. And this I purpose to maintain, whether I am in

the University, or out of it. I must, therefore, beg you _to take back

the offensive words at the next dinner as publicly as they were

uttered_, or else I shall be obliged to take measures in defence of my

honor, which, painful and disagreeable as they would be to me, would

nevertheless be a necessary duty of self-protection. As for my peculiar

views and position with reference to questions of scholarship and

education, I have undergone no change of opinion whatever, nor could I

undergo one, unless it were the necessary consequence of a rational

conviction; and I shall have my hands full for some years to come, to

write out and publish what I have but imperfectly and in a desultory

manner indicated in my lectures and conversations; and while I am

convinced that in many respects I have (as is usual) been voluntarily

and involuntarily misunderstood, I am sure, that in the main I am right,

and entitled to a hearing or a reading, whether, as has been intimated

to me, I go too far or not.--In regard to the many scandalous

interruptions by spectral noises (by day and by night), of which I well

remember the chief authors, and in regard to my other persecutions, I am

aware, that they can only be the subject of commiseration and of merited

contempt, and that under the given circumstances, it would be difficult

to obtain redress or justice. I shall, however, procure some legal

advice on the subject. Allow me, in conclusion, Sir, to assure you of

the absence of all hostile personal feeling on my part. I have said what

my duty imperatively demands, and my silence would have made me a

villain, justly liable to perpetual abuse.

I am, Dear Sir,

with the most distinguished consideration,

Yours, &c.

G. J. Adler.

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