CHAPTER XL.

FAMILY OPINIONS.

It was thought best that Innocent should be brought back that evening to

The Elms, where Mrs. Barclay accompanied her full of smiles and

congratulations. “Since he could not have the one, my dear, he set his

heart upon having the other,” she said to Mrs. Eastwood; “otherwise I am

sure he would never have married at all. He had made up his mind to have

one of your girls. A good mother makes a good daughter; that has always

been the doctrine in our family,--and oh, how glad I am that the old

stock is not to be allowed to die out! It will be such a disappointment

to the Huntly Longuevilles, they never could bear Alexis,--and I am sure

if I once saw him with a nice wife and a young family, I would wish for

nothing more in this world----”

“We must not go so fast,” said Mrs. Eastwood.

“Oh, no, of course we must say nothing about that,” said Mrs. Barclay,

nodding and laughing in supreme satisfaction. She and her brother

remained to dinner, and but for the moroseness of Frederick, who

contemplated the whole matter with almost savage dissatisfaction, the

evening would have been a more cheerful one than the Eastwood family had

passed for some time. Frederick, however, was half frantic in his

opposition when the party dispersed. He asked his mother how she could

permit such a sacrifice,--how she could allow such a child to pledge

herself to a man old enough to be her grandfather? “If you call that

love for Innocent, I don’t know what love means,” he said.

“It is Innocent’s own doing,” said his mother in self-defence; “it is

she alone who is responsible. I have had nothing to do with it, for I

feel as you do, Frederick,--to some extent.”

“To some extent!--I don’t know how you can limit the extent,” he cried

in fiery indignation,--“and how about this,--what do you call it?--this

fancy,--this delusion----? She ought not to be allowed to go out of the

family with such a notion in her mind.”

“Frederick, I am afraid you will be annoyed,” said poor Mrs. Eastwood,

“I was very much distressed myself. She--told him everything;--though,

indeed, if they are to be married, it was indispensable that he should

know----”

Frederick almost foamed at the mouth with rage and vexation. He refused

to believe that Innocent could have done anything of the kind of her own

initiative,--he insisted that some one had suggested it, that she had

been frightened,--that the idea had been put into her mind. After the

improvement and amelioration of his manners, to which they had been

gradually getting accustomed, he went to the very farthest bound of

their endurance. He would be no party to the arrangement, he

declared,--they might carry it out if they would, but without him.

Frederick, indeed, was stung to the quick by what seemed to him the most

manifold and most complicated invasion of his rights. Innocent had been

his slave since ever he knew her, and she was to be taken from him,--and

the secret of her delusion, or whatever it was, was exposed to a

stranger. His wife’s death, and Innocent’s connexion with it, whatever

that might be, all talked of, discussed, pulled to pieces by others! I

think Frederick had some ground for general irritation, though he had no

right to blame any one individually; he was very sore and very angry at

this revolution of affairs; he had begun to think that Innocent was very

pretty and sweet, and that he might reward her for her devotion to him,

when lo, there came, first this story about Amanda’s death, and then

Innocent’s sudden, unaccountable throwing of herself into Longueville’s

arms! By degrees he became less sore, and began to think that he

understood the latter incident, and Innocent, feeling what a great gulf

lay between them now, now that he knew what had happened, had fled to

Sir Alexis from her own despair and his. This made him less sore, but

not less sorry. He had been conscious that he must think of her no more

when he heard her revelation on the previous night, but as soon as

further thinking of her was useless, he felt that the revelation she had

made was nothing,--that it was indeed mere delusion, as his mother said,

and that Innocent, once removed out of his reach, became the thing he

most longed for in the world. Altogether, that night brought him little

comfort. He was impatient, unhappy, irritable, nay furious; and,

naturally, his fury fixed upon those who deserved it least,--upon his

mother and sister, who were absolutely innocent, and upon Sir Alexis,

who had been brought into the matter by appeal, without any action of

his. It was some days after this before he could even secure a chance of

speaking to Innocent alone. They kept her from him watchfully, yet so

naturally, that much as he chafed, he could say nothing,--and

Longueville was there in the evenings, filling him with suppressed rage.

At last fortune favoured him, and he found her for a few minutes alone.

“Innocent,” he said, “I fear you are going to take a very foolish step.

Who has advised you to do it? You ought not to marry Longueville,--a man

whom you cannot care for,--a man so much older than yourself.”

Innocent shrank from him into the corner of the sofa where she was

sitting. She made no answer,--but she shrank unquestionably, which made

him more angry still.

“You are very foolish,--because you have been unhappy, you determine to

be more unhappy, to leave no way of escape for yourself. If you marry

that man you can have no sympathy with him. He is older than your

father. Was there no one else in the world to help you, Innocent, that

you should have referred to him?”

“Do not be angry,” sighed Innocent, softly, turning upon him her

anxious, deprecating eyes. “No one else offered to help me. He is very

kind----”

“Oh, kind!” cried Frederick, “is any one unkind? When you say such a

thing you accuse us all. Surely I could have helped you better than

Longueville----”

“Not you, Frederick,” said the girl. She did not withdraw her eyes from

him, but a faint flush came upon her face.

“Why not I? You are thinking of this business about--my wife. That was

no reason why you should turn from me. Innocent, be wise in time, and

give this man up.”

He did not remember that she too had suggested to him to give up his

marriage, with more simplicity, but not less unreasonableness. She shook

her head half-sadly, half-smiling. She had no wish to marry Sir Alexis.

The thought, indeed, filled her with vague alarm when it occurred to

her. But he had taken her burden on his shoulders,--he had promised to

set it right. And Innocent, not asking any questions, had been able to

believe him. Such help no one else in the world had offered her. It

seemed the only thing she understood or cared for in her life.

Thus the time stole away,--the interval between this rapid settlement of

affairs and the marriage-day, which was so strangely unlike other

marriage-days. Innocent had her _trousseau_ prepared like other brides,

and The Elms was full of the excitement of the preparations. I am not

even sure, notwithstanding all the circumstances involved which

tempered the pleasure, that Mrs. Eastwood and Nelly did not derive a

certain enjoyment from choosing her dresses, and buying her “things,”

and deciding how this and that was to be made. She was passive herself,

and took little interest in what was going on, but she was a very

patient lay figure in their hands, suffering draperies of all sorts to

be tried upon her, without active rebellion. The other ladies had the

satisfaction of artists in dressing Innocent. She had never been

“dressed” before, and to get her up as Lady Longueville ought to be got

up, was a delightful exercise of skill and ingenuity. Men, no doubt,

have other solacements of a like character,--but one requires to be a

woman to understand the genuine, simple, and natural pleasures which

Nelly Eastwood, though her heart was sore, and her mind full of a

thousand anxieties, got out of her cousin’s _trousseau_. To try how one

thing after another would look upon Innocent, to see which shade, which

fashion would become her best, to fit her out, in short, for her new

position, according to their own ideal of what that position was, amused

the mother and daughter as few other things could have done, and

distracted them from their own cares. If you despise Mrs. Eastwood and

Nelly for this, my dear reader, I do not agree with you. The marriage

itself was one in which they had no responsibility. They had not been

consulted in it--it was Innocent’s own doing,--and considering all the

circumstances, and the peculiarity of Innocent’s character, it was, to

Mrs. Eastwood at least, as she said, “a matter of great thankfulness,”

that Innocent had selected for herself so efficient a protector, so kind

a guardian as Sir Alexis. “He will give her everything that this world

can give,” Mrs. Eastwood said, addressing an indignation meeting of her

own two younger boys which had been hastily convened on the occasion.

“He is very fond of her, and will consider her happiness in everything.

He is an old friend of the family, and it need not trouble us to know

that he is acquainted with all our circumstances.” This last remark was

intended for Frederick, who stood sullenly at the window, turning his

back upon the others, with his figure relieved against the light.

“Our circumstances?” said Jenny. “Is there anything in our circumstances

that may not be known to all the world?”

“That is all very well, mother,” cried Dick, who was less observant,

“but I don’t know how you can make up your mind to give Innocent to an

old fogie like Longueville. He looks a hundred and fifty. He has old

ways of thinking, old habits; in short, he is an old fogie, neither more

nor less, and she is eighteen. It is the sort of thing one reads of in

novels. Such things don’t happen in real life----”

“My dear boy--” began Mrs. Eastwood.

“At least they oughtn’t to,” said Dick, “and as for its being Innocent’s

own choice, what does she know about it? She has been talked over. She

has been seduced by all that trash of dresses and finery---”

Dick had spent half the precious morning helping to decide between a

blue silk and a green one, and he was naturally wrathful (after it was

over) at that loss of his valuable time.

“Innocent doesn’t care for that sort of thing,” said Jenny. “Has some

one been hard upon her? has some one worried her? I don’t know what my

mother means about our circumstances. I thought Innocent was to get the

same as the rest of us. She may have my share, if that will keep her

from marrying old Longueville. I don’t see why she should want to marry

any one;--I don’t.”

“How can I explain it to you?” said poor Mrs. Eastwood; “a girl is not

like a young man. If anything was to happen to me, what would become of

Innocent?--who would take care of her? You, or you? Dick, who is going

to India, or Jenny who has his own way to make in the world,--or Nelly?

Nelly will have some one else to consult----”

“You seem to put me out of the question altogether,” said Frederick,

“though it seems to me I have a right to be considered----”

“You!--oh, Frederick!--when you know how impossible, how out of all

question that would be---- But Innocent has put it out of my hands, she

has chosen Sir Alexis herself,--and when I think how much more he can

give her than I ever could,--what advantages--what means of

developing----”

“The fact is, women are all mercenary,” said Frederick, “they cannot

help it. Money carries the day with them, whatever may be the drawbacks.

I have long known it. Innocent is simple enough in other things, but in

this she is like all the rest.”

And thus the family conclave broke up, even Jenny, who was his mother’s

champion, being unable to see his way to her defence in this particular.

Dick gave up the question with more light-heartedness, being unaffected

by theories, but Jenny went back to Oxford somewhat melancholy,

wondering if indeed “all women” were to be condemned wholesale, or

whether there would be any other meaning in the allusion to the

circumstances which could be trusted to Sir Alexis. What these

circumstances were, and the special mystery which enveloped poor

Innocent, neither of the boys knew.

The effect, however, upon the world at large was very different. In the

opinion of the Molyneuxes, for instance, Mrs. Eastwood rose to a far

higher degree of estimation than they had ever bestowed upon her before.

They even thought it might be as well that Ernest should be “settled,”

now that things had taken this turn. Nelly was not a bad match, all

things considered, and to be married would probably settle Ernest, and

the connexion was good. Besides, when the mother had done so well for

her niece, a poor girl whom she had “shamefully neglected,” what might

she not aspire to for her daughter? I do not know that Ernest was

stimulated in distinct words by these sentiments--but such feelings

convey themselves otherwise than by words--and the conviction came to

his mind also that now was the moment to conclude his long probation, as

he now chose to call it. “Don’t you think I have been kept hanging on

and waiting long enough?” he said to Nelly, whom he found immersed in

Innocent’s business, one morning, when, contrary to his habit, and very

unexpectedly to them all, he sauntered into the drawing-room at The

Elms.

“Kept hanging on?” said Nelly, with a surprise she did not attempt to

conceal.

“Of course, you don’t suppose it is of my own will that I have waited

for you like this,--almost as long as Jacob, eh, Nelly?--longer, I

should say, considering how much faster things go now-a-days----”

“I did not know that you had ever tried to shorten it,” said Nelly

slowly, growing very red.

“I don’t pretend to be able to subdue circumstances,” said Molyneux; “we

are all the victims of them, and I as much as other men. But it seems to

me, Nelly, that now’s our chance; now that Frederick has been

providentially released from his encumbrance, and that your mother has

made this triumphant stroke, and booked old Longueville for

Innocent----”

“Ernest! I will not permit such words----”

“Well, well, don’t let us quarrel about the words--now that Sir Alexis

is about to be made happy with the hand, &c. By Jove, you may say what

you like, Nelly, but it is the cleverest _coup_ I have heard of for a

very long time. Altogether the family is in luck; and if you play your

cards well, and we can get hold of your mother when she is in a good

humour----”

Poor Nelly’s endurance had been greatly tried. Her troubles which she

dared not confide to her lover--the sense that he could not be trusted

to enter into the closer circle of her family anxieties, and

consequently that his sympathy with herself could never be complete--had

long been gnawing at her heart and embittering all his careless words

and irreverent thoughts. She turned red and then pale, tremulous and

then rigid, in the passionate tumult of feeling which took possession of

her; but she kept herself calm with all her might, and answered him with

an artificial coldness which filled Molyneux half with ridicule, half

with dismay.

“How am I to play my cards?” she said, “and what is it that you mean to

ask from my mother when she is in a good humour?”

“Nelly!” he said, half laughing, half angry, “what does this

tragedy-queen air portend? surely it is a little late to get on stilts

with me. Of course you know as well as I do what I have to propose to

your mother. We can’t marry without her help; the responsibility lies

upon her of keeping you from being settled and done for--I and my

people are ready enough. When I talk of playing your cards, I take it

for granted you want our business to be decided as much as I do,--and

the very first step for us is to know how much she means to do.”

“I look at it in a different way,” said Nelly, plunging desperately into

the centre of the question which she had so long avoided. “Ernest, now

we must understand each other at last; I will not have any such proposal

made to mamma. I will not!--it does not matter what you say. If we

cannot do with what we have and your profession, it is better to put an

end to it altogether. I have not wished for anything, nor thought of any

thing beyond what we could afford,” cried Nelly suddenly, the tears

coming in spite of her,--“but I will not take our living from mamma!”

Molyneux was thunderstruck. “Why, Nelly!” he said, in the half-derisive,

half-affectionate tone which had so often disarmed her, “you innocent

little goose!” and he drew her within his arm. But Nelly was wrought to

a point which did not admit of this treatment. She withdrew from his

clasp, and stood fronting him, tears in her eyes, but resolution in her

face.

“We must understand each other,” she cried. “I have long tried to say

it. Now I have had courage to speak, and I cannot go back. I will live

as poorly as you like--if you like; but I will not fight with my own

mother for money; I will not take our living from hers; I am determined.

But I must not bind you,” she added, faltering slightly, “if you think

otherwise. If you think otherwise--if there is no other

alternative--Ernest, I must set you free----”

“To speak to your mother?” he said, with a laugh in which there was some

relief. “I should have done it without all this declamation, Nelly.”

“No,--but to be free from me,” said Nelly, folding closely together the

hands which he tried to take.

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