XVI

THE rain held off, and an hour later, when she started, wild gleams of

sunlight were blowing across the fields.

After Harney's departure she had returned her bicycle to its owner at

Creston, and she was not sure of being able to walk all the way to the

Mountain. The deserted house was on the road; but the idea of spending

the night there was unendurable, and she meant to try to push on to

Hamblin, where she could sleep under a wood-shed if her strength should

fail her. Her preparations had been made with quiet forethought. Before

starting she had forced herself to swallow a glass of milk and eat a

piece of bread; and she had put in her canvas satchel a little packet of

the chocolate that Harney always carried in his bicycle bag. She wanted

above all to keep up her strength, and reach her destination without

attracting notice....

Mile by mile she retraced the road over which she had so often flown to

her lover. When she reached the turn where the wood-road branched off

from the Creston highway she remembered the Gospel tent--long since

folded up and transplanted--and her start of involuntary terror when

the fat evangelist had said: “Your Saviour knows everything. Come and

confess your guilt.” There was no sense of guilt in her now, but only

a desperate desire to defend her secret from irreverent eyes, and

begin life again among people to whom the harsh code of the village was

unknown. The impulse did not shape itself in thought: she only knew

she must save her baby, and hide herself with it somewhere where no one

would ever come to trouble them.

She walked on and on, growing more heavy-footed as the day advanced. It

seemed a cruel chance that compelled her to retrace every step of the

way to the deserted house; and when she came in sight of the orchard,

and the silver-gray roof slanting crookedly through the laden branches,

her strength failed her and she sat down by the road-side. She sat there

a long time, trying to gather the courage to start again, and walk past

the broken gate and the untrimmed rose-bushes strung with scarlet hips.

A few drops of rain were falling, and she thought of the warm evenings

when she and Harney had sat embraced in the shadowy room, and the noise

of summer showers on the roof had rustled through their kisses. At

length she understood that if she stayed any longer the rain might

compel her to take shelter in the house overnight, and she got up and

walked on, averting her eyes as she came abreast of the white gate and

the tangled garden.

The hours wore on, and she walked more and more slowly, pausing now and

then to rest, and to eat a little bread and an apple picked up from the

roadside. Her body seemed to grow heavier with every yard of the way,

and she wondered how she would be able to carry her child later, if

already he laid such a burden on her.... A fresh wind had sprung up,

scattering the rain and blowing down keenly from the mountain. Presently

the clouds lowered again, and a few white darts struck her in the face:

it was the first snow falling over Hamblin. The roofs of the lonely

village were only half a mile ahead, and she was resolved to push beyond

it, and try to reach the Mountain that night. She had no clear plan of

action, except that, once in the settlement, she meant to look for Liff

Hyatt, and get him to take her to her mother. She herself had been

born as her own baby was going to be born; and whatever her mother's

subsequent life had been, she could hardly help remembering the past,

and receiving a daughter who was facing the trouble she had known.

Suddenly the deadly faintness came over her once more and she sat down

on the bank and leaned her head against a tree-trunk. The long road and

the cloudy landscape vanished from her eyes, and for a time she seemed

to be circling about in some terrible wheeling darkness. Then that too

faded.

She opened her eyes, and saw a buggy drawn up beside her, and a man

who had jumped down from it and was gazing at her with a puzzled face.

Slowly consciousness came back, and she saw that the man was Liff Hyatt.

She was dimly aware that he was asking her something, and she looked at

him in silence, trying to find strength to speak. At length her voice

stirred in her throat, and she said in a whisper: “I'm going up the

Mountain.”

“Up the Mountain?” he repeated, drawing aside a little; and as he

moved she saw behind him, in the buggy, a heavily coated figure with a

familiar pink face and gold spectacles on the bridge of a Grecian nose.

“Charity! What on earth are you doing here?” Mr. Miles exclaimed,

throwing the reins on the horse's back and scrambling down from the

buggy.

She lifted her heavy eyes to his. “I'm going to see my mother.”

The two men glanced at each other, and for a moment neither of them

spoke.

Then Mr. Miles said: “You look ill, my dear, and it's a long way. Do you

think it's wise?”

Charity stood up. “I've got to go to her.”

A vague mirthless grin contracted Liff Hyatt's face, and Mr. Miles again

spoke uncertainly. “You know, then--you'd been told?”

She stared at him. “I don't know what you mean. I want to go to her.”

Mr. Miles was examining her thoughtfully. She fancied she saw a change

in his expression, and the blood rushed to her forehead. “I just want to

go to her,” she repeated.

He laid his hand on her arm. “My child, your mother is dying. Liff Hyatt

came down to fetch me.... Get in and come with us.”

He helped her up to the seat at his side, Liff Hyatt clambered in at

the back, and they drove off toward Hamblin. At first Charity had

hardly grasped what Mr. Miles was saying; the physical relief of finding

herself seated in the buggy, and securely on her road to the Mountain,

effaced the impression of his words. But as her head cleared she

began to understand. She knew the Mountain had but the most infrequent

intercourse with the valleys; she had often enough heard it said that no

one ever went up there except the minister, when someone was dying. And

now it was her mother who was dying... and she would find herself as

much alone on the Mountain as anywhere else in the world. The sense of

unescapable isolation was all she could feel for the moment; then

she began to wonder at the strangeness of its being Mr. Miles who had

undertaken to perform this grim errand. He did not seem in the least

like the kind of man who would care to go up the Mountain. But here he

was at her side, guiding the horse with a firm hand, and bending on her

the kindly gleam of his spectacles, as if there were nothing unusual in

their being together in such circumstances.

For a while she found it impossible to speak, and he seemed to

understand this, and made no attempt to question her. But presently she

felt her tears rise and flow down over her drawn cheeks; and he must

have seen them too, for he laid his hand on hers, and said in a low

voice: “Won't you tell me what is troubling you?”

She shook her head, and he did not insist: but after a while he said, in

the same low tone, so that they should not be overheard: “Charity, what

do you know of your childhood, before you came down to North Dormer?”

She controlled herself, and answered: “Nothing only what I heard Mr.

Royall say one day. He said he brought me down because my father went to

prison.”

“And you've never been up there since?”

“Never.”

Mr. Miles was silent again, then he said: “I'm glad you're coming with

me now. Perhaps we may find your mother alive, and she may know that you

have come.”

They had reached Hamblin, where the snow-flurry had left white patches

in the rough grass on the roadside, and in the angles of the roofs

facing north. It was a poor bleak village under the granite flank of the

Mountain, and as soon as they left it they began to climb. The road was

steep and full of ruts, and the horse settled down to a walk while they

mounted and mounted, the world dropping away below them in great mottled

stretches of forest and field, and stormy dark blue distances.

Charity had often had visions of this ascent of the Mountain but she

had not known it would reveal so wide a country, and the sight of

those strange lands reaching away on every side gave her a new sense of

Harney's remoteness. She knew he must be miles and miles beyond the last

range of hills that seemed to be the outmost verge of things, and she

wondered how she had ever dreamed of going to New York to find him....

As the road mounted the country grew bleaker, and they drove across

fields of faded mountain grass bleached by long months beneath the snow.

In the hollows a few white birches trembled, or a mountain ash lit its

scarlet clusters; but only a scant growth of pines darkened the granite

ledges. The wind was blowing fiercely across the open slopes; the horse

faced it with bent head and straining flanks, and now and then the buggy

swayed so that Charity had to clutch its side.

Mr. Miles had not spoken again; he seemed to understand that she wanted

to be left alone. After a while the track they were following forked,

and he pulled up the horse, as if uncertain of the way. Liff Hyatt

craned his head around from the back, and shouted against the wind:

“Left----” and they turned into a stunted pine-wood and began to drive

down the other side of the Mountain.

A mile or two farther on they came out on a clearing where two or three

low houses lay in stony fields, crouching among the rocks as if to brace

themselves against the wind. They were hardly more than sheds, built of

logs and rough boards, with tin stove-pipes sticking out of their roofs.

The sun was setting, and dusk had already fallen on the lower world,

but a yellow glare still lay on the lonely hillside and the crouching

houses. The next moment it faded and left the landscape in dark autumn

twilight.

“Over there,” Liff called out, stretching his long arm over Mr. Miles's

shoulder. The clergyman turned to the left, across a bit of bare ground

overgrown with docks and nettles, and stopped before the most ruinous of

the sheds. A stove-pipe reached its crooked arm out of one window, and

the broken panes of the other were stuffed with rags and paper.

In contrast to such a dwelling the brown house in the swamp might have

stood for the home of plenty.

As the buggy drew up two or three mongrel dogs jumped out of the

twilight with a great barking, and a young man slouched to the door and

stood there staring. In the twilight Charity saw that his face had the

same sodden look as Bash Hyatt's, the day she had seen him sleeping

by the stove. He made no effort to silence the dogs, but leaned in the

door, as if roused from a drunken lethargy, while Mr. Miles got out of

the buggy.

“Is it here?” the clergyman asked Liff in a low voice; and Liff nodded.

Mr. Miles turned to Charity. “Just hold the horse a minute, my dear:

I'll go in first,” he said, putting the reins in her hands. She took

them passively, and sat staring straight ahead of her at the darkening

scene while Mr. Miles and Liff Hyatt went up to the house. They stood

a few minutes talking with the man in the door, and then Mr. Miles came

back. As he came close, Charity saw that his smooth pink face wore a

frightened solemn look.

“Your mother is dead, Charity; you'd better come with me,” he said.

She got down and followed him while Liff led the horse away. As

she approached the door she said to herself: “This is where I was

born... this is where I belong....” She had said it to herself often

enough as she looked across the sunlit valleys at the Mountain; but it

had meant nothing then, and now it had become a reality. Mr. Miles took

her gently by the arm, and they entered what appeared to be the only

room in the house. It was so dark that she could just discern a group

of a dozen people sitting or sprawling about a table made of boards laid

across two barrels. They looked up listlessly as Mr. Miles and Charity

came in, and a woman's thick voice said: “Here's the preacher.” But no

one moved.

Mr. Miles paused and looked about him; then he turned to the young man

who had met them at the door.

“Is the body here?” he asked.

The young man, instead of answering, turned his head toward the group.

“Where's the candle? I tole yer to bring a candle,” he said with sudden

harshness to a girl who was lolling against the table. She did not

answer, but another man got up and took from some corner a candle stuck

into a bottle.

“How'll I light it? The stove's out,” the girl grumbled.

Mr. Miles fumbled under his heavy wrappings and drew out a match-box.

He held a match to the candle, and in a moment or two a faint circle of

light fell on the pale aguish heads that started out of the shadow like

the heads of nocturnal animals.

“Mary's over there,” someone said; and Mr. Miles, taking the bottle in

his hand, passed behind the table. Charity followed him, and they stood

before a mattress on the floor in a corner of the room. A woman lay on

it, but she did not look like a dead woman; she seemed to have fallen

across her squalid bed in a drunken sleep, and to have been left lying

where she fell, in her ragged disordered clothes. One arm was flung

above her head, one leg drawn up under a torn skirt that left the other

bare to the knee: a swollen glistening leg with a ragged stocking rolled

down about the ankle. The woman lay on her back, her eyes staring up

unblinkingly at the candle that trembled in Mr. Miles's hand.

“She jus' dropped off,” a woman said, over the shoulder of the others;

and the young man added: “I jus' come in and found her.”

An elderly man with lank hair and a feeble grin pushed between them. “It

was like this: I says to her on'y the night before: if you don't take

and quit, I says to her...”

Someone pulled him back and sent him reeling against a bench along the

wall, where he dropped down muttering his unheeded narrative.

There was a silence; then the young woman who had been lolling against

the table suddenly parted the group, and stood in front of Charity.

She was healthier and robuster looking than the others, and her

weather-beaten face had a certain sullen beauty.

“Who's the girl? Who brought her here?” she said, fixing her eyes

mistrustfully on the young man who had rebuked her for not having a

candle ready.

Mr. Miles spoke. “I brought her; she is Mary Hyatt's daughter.”

“What? Her too?” the girl sneered; and the young man turned on her with

an oath. “Shut your mouth, damn you, or get out of here,” he said;

then he relapsed into his former apathy, and dropped down on the bench,

leaning his head against the wall.

Mr. Miles had set the candle on the floor and taken off his heavy coat.

He turned to Charity. “Come and help me,” he said.

He knelt down by the mattress, and pressed the lids over the dead

woman's eyes. Charity, trembling and sick, knelt beside him, and tried

to compose her mother's body. She drew the stocking over the dreadful

glistening leg, and pulled the skirt down to the battered upturned

boots. As she did so, she looked at her mother's face, thin yet swollen,

with lips parted in a frozen gasp above the broken teeth. There was no

sign in it of anything human: she lay there like a dead dog in a ditch.

Charity's hands grew cold as they touched her.

Mr. Miles drew the woman's arms across her breast and laid his coat

over her. Then he covered her face with his handkerchief, and placed the

bottle with the candle in it at her head. Having done this he stood up.

“Is there no coffin?” he asked, turning to the group behind him.

There was a moment of bewildered silence; then the fierce girl spoke up.

“You'd oughter brought it with you. Where'd we get one here, I'd like

ter know?”

Mr. Miles, looking at the others, repeated: “Is it possible you have no

coffin ready?”

“That's what I say: them that has it sleeps better,” an old woman

murmured. “But then she never had no bed....”

“And the stove warn't hers,” said the lank-haired man, on the defensive.

Mr. Miles turned away from them and moved a few steps apart. He had

drawn a book from his pocket, and after a pause he opened it and began

to read, holding the book at arm's length and low down, so that the

pages caught the feeble light. Charity had remained on her knees by the

mattress: now that her mother's face was covered it was easier to stay

near her, and avoid the sight of the living faces which too horribly

showed by what stages hers had lapsed into death.

“I am the Resurrection and the Life,” Mr. Miles began; “he that

believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live.... Though after

my skin worms destroy my body, yet in my flesh shall I see God....”

IN MY FLESH SHALL I SEE GOD! Charity thought of the gaping mouth and

stony eyes under the handkerchief, and of the glistening leg over which

she had drawn the stocking....

“We brought nothing into this world and we shall take nothing out of

it----”

There was a sudden muttering and a scuffle at the back of the group. “I

brought the stove,” said the elderly man with lank hair, pushing his

way between the others. “I wen' down to Creston'n bought it... n' I got a

right to take it outer here... n' I'll lick any feller says I ain't....”

“Sit down, damn you!” shouted the tall youth who had been drowsing on

the bench against the wall.

“For man walketh in a vain shadow, and disquieteth himself in vain; he

heapeth up riches and cannot tell who shall gather them....”

“Well, it ARE his,” a woman in the background interjected in a

frightened whine.

The tall youth staggered to his feet. “If you don't hold your mouths

I'll turn you all out o' here, the whole lot of you,” he cried with many

oaths. “G'wan, minister... don't let 'em faze you....”

“Now is Christ risen from the dead and become the first-fruits of them

that slept.... Behold, I show you a mystery. We shall not all sleep, but

we shall all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at

the last trump.... For this corruptible must put on incorruption and this

mortal must put on immortality. So when this corruption shall have put

on incorruption, and when this mortal shall have put on immortality,

then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is

swallowed up in Victory....”

One by one the mighty words fell on Charity's bowed head, soothing

the horror, subduing the tumult, mastering her as they mastered the

drink-dazed creatures at her back. Mr. Miles read to the last word, and

then closed the book.

“Is the grave ready?” he asked.

Liff Hyatt, who had come in while he was reading, nodded a “Yes,” and

pushed forward to the side of the mattress. The young man on the bench

who seemed to assert some sort of right of kinship with the dead woman,

got to his feet again, and the proprietor of the stove joined him.

Between them they raised up the mattress; but their movements were

unsteady, and the coat slipped to the floor, revealing the poor body in

its helpless misery. Charity, picking up the coat, covered her mother

once more. Liff had brought a lantern, and the old woman who had already

spoken took it up, and opened the door to let the little procession

pass out. The wind had dropped, and the night was very dark and bitterly

cold. The old woman walked ahead, the lantern shaking in her hand and

spreading out before her a pale patch of dead grass and coarse-leaved

weeds enclosed in an immensity of blackness.

Mr. Miles took Charity by the arm, and side by side they walked behind

the mattress. At length the old woman with the lantern stopped, and

Charity saw the light fall on the stooping shoulders of the bearers and

on a ridge of upheaved earth over which they were bending. Mr. Miles

released her arm and approached the hollow on the other side of the

ridge; and while the men stooped down, lowering the mattress into the

grave, he began to speak again.

“Man that is born of woman hath but a short time to live and is full

of misery.... He cometh up and is cut down... he fleeth as it were a

shadow.... Yet, O Lord God most holy, O Lord most mighty, O holy and

merciful Saviour, deliver us not into the bitter pains of eternal

death....”

“Easy there... is she down?” piped the claimant to the stove; and the

young man called over his shoulder: “Lift the light there, can't you?”

There was a pause, during which the light floated uncertainly over the

open grave. Someone bent over and pulled out Mr. Miles's coat----(“No,

no--leave the handkerchief,” he interposed)--and then Liff Hyatt, coming

forward with a spade, began to shovel in the earth.

“Forasmuch as it hath pleased Almighty God of His great mercy to take

unto Himself the soul of our dear sister here departed, we therefore

commit her body to the ground; earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to

dust...” Liff's gaunt shoulders rose and bent in the lantern light as he

dashed the clods of earth into the grave. “God--it's froze a'ready,”

he muttered, spitting into his palm and passing his ragged shirt-sleeve

across his perspiring face.

“Through our Lord Jesus Christ, who shall change our vile body that it

may be like unto His glorious body, according to the mighty working,

whereby He is able to subdue all things unto Himself...” The last

spadeful of earth fell on the vile body of Mary Hyatt, and Liff rested

on his spade, his shoulder blades still heaving with the effort.

“Lord, have mercy upon us, Christ have mercy upon us, Lord have mercy

upon us...”

Mr. Miles took the lantern from the old woman's hand and swept its light

across the circle of bleared faces. “Now kneel down, all of you,” he

commanded, in a voice of authority that Charity had never heard.

She knelt down at the edge of the grave, and the others, stiffly and

hesitatingly, got to their knees beside her. Mr. Miles knelt, too. “And

now pray with me--you know this prayer,” he said, and he began: “Our

Father which art in Heaven...” One or two of the women falteringly took

the words up, and when he ended, the lank-haired man flung himself on

the neck of the tall youth. “It was this way,” he said. “I tole her the

night before, I says to her...” The reminiscence ended in a sob.

Mr. Miles had been getting into his coat again. He came up to Charity,

who had remained passively kneeling by the rough mound of earth.

“My child, you must come. It's very late.”

She lifted her eyes to his face: he seemed to speak out of another

world.

“I ain't coming: I'm going to stay here.”

“Here? Where? What do you mean?”

“These are my folks. I'm going to stay with them.”

Mr. Miles lowered his voice. “But it's not possible--you don't know what

you are doing. You can't stay among these people: you must come with

me.”

She shook her head and rose from her knees. The group about the grave

had scattered in the darkness, but the old woman with the lantern stood

waiting. Her mournful withered face was not unkind, and Charity went up

to her.

“Have you got a place where I can lie down for the night?” she asked.

Liff came up, leading the buggy out of the night. He looked from one

to the other with his feeble smile. “She's my mother. She'll take you

home,” he said; and he added, raising his voice to speak to the

old woman: “It's the girl from lawyer Royall's--Mary's girl... you

remember....”

The woman nodded and raised her sad old eyes to Charity's. When Mr.

Miles and Liff clambered into the buggy she went ahead with the lantern

to show them the track they were to follow; then she turned back, and in

silence she and Charity walked away together through the night.

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