Among many vain hopes, one hope had been realised: they had met again.
In the darkened room, her weary eyes could hardly have seen the betrayal
of what he suffered--even if she had looked up in his face. She was
content to rest her head on his breast, and to feel his arm round her.
“I am glad, dear,” she said, “to have lived long enough for this.”
Those were her first words--after the first kiss. She had trembled and
sighed, when he ran to her and bent over her: it was the one expression
left of all her joy and all her love. But it passed away as other lesser
agitations had passed away. One last reserve of energy obeyed the gentle
persuasion of love. Silent towards all other friends, she was able to
speak to Ovid.
“You used to breathe so lightly,” she said. “How is it that I hear you
now. Oh, Ovid, don’t cry! I couldn’t bear that.”
He answered her quietly. “Don’t be afraid, darling; I won’t distress
you.”
“And you will let me say, what I want to say?”
“Oh, yes!”
This satisfied her. “I may rest a little now,” she said.
He too was silent; held down by the heavy hand of despair.
The time had been, in the days of his failing health, when the solemn
shadows of evening falling over the fields--the soaring song of the lark
in the bright heights of the midday sky--the dear lost remembrances that
the divine touch of music finds again--brought tears into his eyes.
They were dry eyes now! Those once tremulous nerves had gathered steady
strength, on the broad prairies and in the roving life. Could trembling
sorrow, seeking its way to the sources of tears, overbear the robust
vitality that rioted in his blood, whether she lived or whether she
died? In those deep breathings that had alarmed her, she had indeed
heard the struggle of grief, vainly urging its way to expression against
the masterful health and strength that set moral weakness at defiance.
Nature had remade this man--and Nature never pities.
It was an effort to her to collect her thoughts--but she did collect
them. She was able to tell him what was in her mind.
“Do you think, Ovid, your mother will care much what becomes of me, when
I die?”
He started at those dreadful words--so softly, so patiently spoken. “You
will live,” he said. “My Carmina, what am I here for but to bring you
back to life?”
She made no attempt to dispute with him. Quietly, persistently, she
returned to the thought that was in her.
“Say that I forgive your mother, Ovid--and that I only ask one thing in
return. I ask her to leave me to you, when the end has come. My dear,
there is a feeling in me that I can’t get over. Don’t let me be buried
in a great place all crowded with the dead! I once saw a picture--it
was at home in Italy, I think--an English picture of a quiet little
churchyard in the country. The shadows of the trees rested on the lonely
graves. And some great poet had written--oh, such beautiful words
about it. _The red-breast loves to build and warble there, And little
footsteps lightly print the ground._ Promise, Ovid, you will take me
to some place, far from crowds and noise--where children may gather the
flowers on my grave.”
He promised--and she thanked him, and rested again.
“There was something else,” she said, when the interval had passed. “My
head is so sleepy. I wonder whether I can think of it?”
After a while, she did think of it.
“I want to make you a little farewell present. Will you undo my gold
chain? Don’t cry, Ovid! oh, don’t cry!”
He obeyed her. The gold chain held the two lockets--the treasured
portraits of her father and her mother. “Wear them for my sake,” she
murmured. “Lift me up; I want to put them round your neck myself.”
She tried, vainly tried, to clasp the chain. Her head fell back on his
breast. “Too sleepy,” she said; “always too sleepy now! Say you love me,
Ovid.”
He said it.
“Kiss me, dear.”
He kissed her.
“Now lay me down on the pillow. I’m not eighteen yet--and I feel as old
as eighty! Rest; all I want is rest.” Looking at him fondly, her eyes
closed little by little--then softly opened again. “Don’t wait in this
dull room, darling; I will send for you, if I wake.”
It was the only wish of hers that he disobeyed. From time to time, his
fingers touched her pulse, and felt its feeble beat. From time to time,
he stooped and let the faint coming and going of her breath flutter
on his cheek. The twilight fell, and darkness began to gather over the
room. Still, he kept his place by her, like a man entranced.