Lord Airlie's return to Earlescourt had been delayed. The changes to
take place at Lynnton involved more than he thought. It was quite three
weeks before he could leave the Hall and seek again the presence he
loved best on earth.
Three weeks, yet nothing had happened. Beatrice had watched each day
begin and end until her heart grew faint with fear; she was as far as
ever from finding herself freed from Hugh Fernely.
Lord Airlie, on his arrival, was startled by the change in her
brilliant face. Yet he was flattered by it. He thought how intensely
she must love him if his absence could affect her so strongly. He
kissed her pale face over and over again, declaring that he would not
leave her any more--no one else knew how to take care of her.
They were all pleased to welcome him for every one liked Lord Airlie,
and the family circle did not seem complete without him. That very
night he had an interview with Lord Earle and besought him to allow the
marriage to take place as soon as possible. He had been miserable away
from Beatrice, he declared, and he thought she looked pale and grave.
Would Lord Earle be willing to say November, or perhaps the latter end
of October?
"My daughter must arrange the time herself" said Lord Earle; "whatever
day she chooses will meet with my approval."
Lord Airlie went to the drawing room where he had left Beatrice, and
told her Lord Earle's answer; she smiled, but he saw the white lips
quiver as she did so.
Only one month since his passionate, loving words would have made the
sweetest music to her; she listened and tried to look like herself, but
her heart was cold with vague, unutterable dread.
"The fourteenth of October"--clever Lord Airlie, by some system of
calculation known only to himself, persuaded Beatrice that that was the
"latter end of the month."
"Not another word," he said, gayly. "I will go and tell Lord Earle.
Do not say afterward that you have changed your mind, as many ladies
do. Beatrice, say to me, 'Hubert, I promise to marry you on the
fourteenth of October.'"
She repeated the words after him.
"It will be almost winter," he added; "the flowers will have faded, the
leaves will have fallen from the trees; yet no summer day will ever be
so bright to me as that."
She watched him quit the room, and a long, low cry came from her lips.
Would it ever be? She went to the window and looked at the trees.
When the green leaves lay dead she would be Lord Airlie's wife, or
would the dark cloud of shame and sorrow have fallen, hiding her
forever from his sight?
Ah, if she had been more prudent! How tame and foolish, how
distasteful the romance she had once thought delightful seemed now! If
she had but told all to Lord Earle!
It was too late now! Yet, despite the deadly fear that lay at her
heart, Beatrice still felt something like hope. Hope is the last thing
to die in the human breast--it was not yet dead in hers.
At least for that one evening--the first after Lord Airlie's
return--she would be happy. She would throw the dark shadow away from
her, forget it, and enjoy her lover's society. He could see smiles on
her face, and hear bright words such as he loved. Let the morrow bring
what it would, she would be happy that night. And she kept her word.
Lord Airlie looked back afterward on that evening as one of the
pleasantest of his life. There was no shadow upon the beautiful face
he loved so well. Beatrice was all life and animation; her gay, sweet
words charmed every one who heard them. Even Lionel forgot to be
jealous, and admired her more than he ever had before.
Lord Earle smiled as he remarked to Lady Helena that all her fears for
her grandchild's health were vain--the true physician was come at last.
When Lord Airlie bade Beatrice good night, he bent low over the white,
jeweled hand.
"I forget all time when with you," he said; "it does not seem an hour
since I came to Earlescourt."
The morrow brought the letter she had dreaded yet expected to see.
It was not filled with loving, passionate words, as was the first Hugh
had written. He said the time had come when he must have an
answer--when he must know from her own lips at what period he might
claim the fulfillment of her promise--when she would be his wife.
He would wait no longer. If it was to be war, let the war begin he
should win. If peace, so much the better. In any case he was tired of
suspense, and must know at once what she intended to do. He would
trust to no more promises; that very night he would be at Earlescourt,
and must see her. Still, though he intended to enforce his rights, he
would not wantonly cause her pain. He would not seek the presence of
her father until she had seen him and they had settled upon some plan
of action.
"I know the grounds around Earlescourt well," he wrote. "I wandered
through them for many nights three weeks ago. A narrow path runs from
the gardens to the shrubbery--meet me there at nine; it will be dark
then, and you need not fear being seen. Remember, Beatrice, at nine
tonight I shall be there; and if you do not come, I must seek you in
the house, for see you I will."
The letter fell from her hands; cold drops of fear and shame stood upon
her brow; hatred and disgust filled her heart. Oh, that she should
ever have placed herself in the power of such a man!
The blow had fallen at last. She stood face to face with her shame and
fear. How could she meet Hugh Fernely? What should she say to him?
How must such a meeting end? It would but anger him the more. He
should not even touch her hand in greeting, she said to herself; and
how would he endure her contempt?
She would not see him. She dared not. How could she find time? Lord
Airlie never left her side. She could not meet Hugh. The web seemed
closing round her, but she would break through it.
She would send him a letter saying she was ill, and begging him to wait
yet a little longer. Despite his firm words, she knew he would not
refuse it if she wrote kindly. Again came the old hope something might
happen in a few days. If not, she must run away; if everything failed
and she could not free herself from him, then she would leave home; in
any case she would not fall into his hands--rather death than that.
More than once she thought of Gaspar's words. He was so true, so
brave--he would have died for her. Ah, if he could but help her, if
she could but call him to her aid! In this, the dark hour of her life
by her own deed she had placed herself beyond the reach of all human
help.
She would write--upon that she was determined; but who would take the
letter? Who could she ask to stand at the shrubbery gate and give to
the stranger a missive from herself? If she asked such a favor from a
servant, she would part with her secret to one who might hold it as a
rod of iron over her. She was too proud for that. There was only one
in the world who could help her, and that was her sister Lillian.
She shrank with unutterable shame from telling her. She remembered how
long ago at Knutsford she had said something that had shocked her
sister, and the scared, startled expression of her face was with her
still. It was a humiliation beyond all words. Yet, if she could
undergo it, there would be comfort in Lillian's sympathy. Lillian
would take the letter, she would see Hugh, and tell him she was ill.
Ill she felt in very truth. Hugh would be pacified for a time if he saw
Lillian. She could think of no other arrangement. That evening she
would tell her sister--there was rest even in the thought.
Long before dinner Lady Helena came in search of Beatrice--it was high
time, she said, that orders should be sent to London for her trousseau,
and the list must be made out at once.
She sat calmly in Lady Helena's room, writing in obedience to her
words, thinking all the time how she should tell Lillian, how best make
her understand the deadly error committed, yet save herself as much as
she could. Lady Earle talked of laces and embroidery, of morning
dresses and jewels, while Beatrice went over in her mind every word of
her confession.
"That will do," said Lady Earle, with a smile; "I have been very
explicit, but I fear it has been in vain. Have you heard anything I
have said, Beatrice?"
She blushed, and looked so confused that Lady Helena said, laughingly:
"You may go--do not be ashamed. Many years ago I was just as much in
love myself, and just as unable to think of anything else as you are
now."
There was some difficulty in finding Lillian; she was discovered at
last in the library, looking over some fine old engravings with Mr.
Dacre. He looked up hastily when Beatrice asked her sister to spare
her half an hour.
"Do not go, Lily," he said, jestingly; "it is only some nonsense about
wedding dresses. Let us finish this folio."
But Beatrice had no gay repartee for him. She looked grave, although
she tried to force a smile.
"I can not understand that girl," he said to himself, as the library
door closed behind the two sisters. "I could almost fancy that
something was distressing her."
"Lily," said Beatrice, "I want you very much. I am sorry to take you
from Lionel; you like being with him, I think."
The fair face of her sister flushed warmly.
"But I want you, dear," said Beatrice. "Oh, Lily, I am in bitter
trouble! No one can help me but you."
They went together into the little boudoir Beatrice called her own.
She placed her sister in the easy lounging chair drawn near the window,
and then half knelt, half sat at her feet.
"I am in such trouble, Lily!" she cried. "Think how great it is when I
know not how to tell you."
The sweet, gentle eyes looked wonderingly into her own. Beatrice
clasped her sister's hands.
"You must not judge me harshly," she said, "I am not good like you,
Lily; I never could be patient and gentle like you. Do you remember,
long ago, at Knutsford, how I found you one morning upon the cliffs,
and told you that I hated my life? I did hate it, Lillian," she
continued. "You can never tell how much; its quiet monotony was
killing me. I have done wrong; but surely they are to blame who made
my life what it was then--who shut me out from the world, instead of
giving me my rightful share of its pleasures. I can not tell you what
I did, Lily."
She laid her beautiful, sad face on her sister's hands. Lillian bent
over her, and whispered how dearly she loved her, and how she would do
anything to help her.
"That very morning," she said, never raising her eyes to her sister's
face--"that morning, Lily, I met a stranger--a gentleman he seemed to
me--and he watched me with admiring eyes. I met him again, and he spoke
to me. He walked by my side through the long meadows, and told me
strange stories of foreign lands he had visited--such stories! I
forgot that he was a stranger, and talked to him as I am talking to you
now. I met him again and again. Nay, do not turn from me; I shall die
if you shrink away."
The gentle arms clasped her more closely.
"I am not turning from you," replied Lillian. "I can not love you more
than I do now."
"I met him" continued Beatrice, "every day, unknown to every one about
me. He praised my beauty, and I was filled with joy; then he talked to
me of love, and I listened without anger. I swear to you," she said,
"that I did it all without thought; it was the novelty, the flattery,
the admiration that pleased me, not he himself, I believe Lily. I
rarely thought of him. He interested me; he had eloquent words at his
command, and seeing how I loved romance, he told me stories of
adventure that held me enchanted and breathless. I lost sight of him
in thinking of the wonders he related. They are to blame, Lily, who
shut me out from the living world. Had I been in my proper place here
at home, where I could have seen and judged people rightly, it would
not have happened. At first it was but a pleasant break in a life
dreary beyond words; then I looked for the daily meed of flattery and
homage. I could not do without it. Lily, will you hold me to have
been mad when I tell you the time came when I allowed that man to hold
my hands as you are doing, to kiss my face, and win from me a promise
that I would be his wife?"
Beatrice looked up then and saw the fair, pitying face almost as white
as snow.
"Is it worse than you thought?" she asked.
"Oh, yes," said Lillian; "terrible, irretrievable, I fear!"