Chapter XXXII

For the first time in her life, when the bright sun shone into her

room, Beatrice turned her face to the wall and dreaded the sight of

day. The post-bag would leave the hall at nine in the morning--Hugh

would have the letter at noon. Until then she was safe.

Noon came and went, but the length of the summer's day brought nothing

save fresh misery. At every unusual stir, every loud peal of the bell,

every quick footstep, she turned pale, and her heart seemed to die

within her.

Lady Earle watched her with anxious eyes. She could not understand the

change that had come over the brilliant young girl who had used to be

the life of the house. Every now and then she broke out into wild

feverish gayety. Lillian saw that something ailed her sister--she

could not tell what.

For the fiftieth time that day, when the hall door bell sounded,

Beatrice looked up with trembling lips she vainly tried to still. At

last Lady Earle took the burning hands in her own.

"My dear child," she said, "you will have a nervous fever if you go on

in this way. What makes you start at every noise? You look as though

you were waiting for something dreadful to happen."

"No one ever called me nervous," replied Beatrice, with a smile,

controlling herself with an effort; "mamma's chief complaint against me

was that I had no nerves;" adding presently to herself: "This can not

last. I would rather die at once that live in this agony."

The weary day came to a close, however, and it was well for Beatrice

that Lord Airlie had not spent it with her. The gentlemen at

Earlescourt had all gone to a bachelor's dinner, given by old Squire

Newton of the Grange. It was late when they returned, and Lord Airlie

did not notice anything unusual in Beatrice.

"I call this a day wasted," he said, as he bade her goodnight; "for it

has been a day spent away from you. I thought it would never come to

an end."

She sighed, remembering what a dreary day it had been to her. Could she

live through such another? Half the night she lay awake, wondering if

Hugh's answer to her letter would come by the first post, and whether

Lord Earle would say anything if he noticed another letter from

Brookfield. Fortune favored her. In the morning Lord Earle was deeply

engrossed by a story Lionel was telling, and asked Beatrice to open the

bag for him. She again saw a hated blue envelope bearing her own name.

When all the other letters were distributed, she slipped hers into the

pocket of her dress, without any one perceiving the action.

Breakfast was over at last; and leaving Lord Airlie talking to Lillian,

Beatrice hastened to read the letter. None of Hugh's anger was there

set down; but if she had cared for him her heart must have ached at the

pathos of his simple words. He had received her note, he said--the

note so unworthy of her--and hastened to tell her that he was obliged

to go to London on some important business connected with his ship, and

that he should be absent three weeks. He would write to her at once on

his return, and he should insist upon seeing her then, as well as exact

the fulfillment of her promise.

It was a respite; much might happen in three weeks. She tore the

letter into shreds, and felt as though relieved of a deadly weight. If

time could but be gained, she thought--if something could happen to

urge on her marriage with Hubert Airlie before Hugh returned! At any

rate, for the moment she was free.

She looked like herself again when Lord Airlie came to ask her if she

would ride or walk. The beautiful bloom had returned to her face and

the light to her eyes. All day she was in brilliant spirits. There

was no need now to tremble at a loud ring or a rapid step. Three weeks

was a long time--much might happen. "Oh, if Lord Airlie would but force

me to marry him soon!"

That very evening Lord Airlie asked her if she would go out with him.

He wanted to talk to her alone, for he was going away on the morrow,

and had much to say to her.

"Where are you going?" she asked with sad, wondering eyes, her chance

of escaping seeming rapidly to diminish.

"I am going to Lynnton," he replied, "to see about plans for the new

buildings. They should be begun at once. For even if we remain abroad

a whole year they will then be hardly finished. I shall be away ten

days or a fortnight. When I return, Beatrice, I shall ask you a

question. Can you guess what it will be?"

There was no answering smile on her face. Perhaps he would be absent

three weeks. What chance of escape had she now?

"I shall ask you when you will fulfill your promise," he

continued--"when you will let me make you in deed and in word my wife.

You must not be cruel to me, Beatrice. I have waited long enough. You

will think about it while I am gone, will you not?"

Lord Earle smiled as he noted his daughter's face. Airlie was going

away, and therefore she was dull--that was just as it should be. He

was delighted that she cared so much for him. He told Lady Helena that

he had not thought Beatrice capable of such deep affection. Lady

Helena told him she had never known any one who could love so well or

hate so thoroughly as Beatrice.

The morning came, and Lord Airlie lingered so long over his farewell

that Lady Helena began to think he would alter his mind and remain

where he was. He started at last, however, promising to write every

day to Beatrice, and followed by the good wishes of the whole household.

He was gone, and Hugh was gone; for three weeks she had nothing to

fear, nothing to hope, and a settled melancholy calm fell upon her.

Her father and Lady Helena thought she was dull because her lover was

away; the musical laugh that used to gladden Lord Earle's heart was

hushed; she became unusually silent; the beautiful face grew pale and

sad. They smiled and thought it natural. Lillian, who knew every

expression of her sister's face, grew anxious, fearing there was some

ailment either of body or mind of which none of them were aware.

They believed she was thinking of her absent lover and feeling dull

without him. In reality her thoughts were centered upon one idea--what

could she do to get rid of Hugh Fernely? Morning, noon, and night that

one question was always before her. She talked when others did, she

laughed with them; but if there came an interval of silence the

beautiful face assumed a far-off dreamy expression Lillian had never

seen there before. Beatrice was generally on her guard, watchful and

careful, but there were times when the mask she wore so bravely fell

off, and Lillian, looking at her then, knew all was not well with her

sister.

What was to be done to get free from Hugh? Every hour in the day fresh

plans came to her--some so absurd as to provoke feverish, unnatural

laughter, but none that were feasible. With all her daring wit, her

quick thought, her vivid fancy--with all her resource of mind and

intellect, she could do nothing. Day and night the one question was

still there--what could she do to get free from Hugh Fernely?

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