THE COLONEL GIVES UP HIS LUXURIES
The Colonel pulled himself together. Ellis was gone, and relieved from
that oppressive influence Blanchard held up his head. He tried to smile,
and found that he succeeded fairly well. He tested his voice; it came as
usual, sonorously.
"Thank Heaven!" he said, "the fellow's gone."
"Father," answered Judith, "you and I have both done wrong."
He waved his hand impatiently; would her confounded straightforwardness
not let him forget? "Never mind."
"Never mind?" she repeated. "Father, we can't put this aside for a
single minute. We must plan at once what shall be done."
"You always were fiery," he said indulgently. "Well, go ahead."
"We need Beth," and Judith went to call her in. Beth came, white with
apprehension, having heard tones but not words, and feeling rather than
knowing that there was trouble. She sought to learn all from one
question. "Where is Mr. Ellis?"
"Gone," answered Judith. "He will not come here again."
"Oh," she cried, "I am glad. Then why so grave?"
"Mr. Ellis," her sister said, "has gone away very angry, and father owes
him money." Then she looked upon the Colonel with sudden suspicion.
"Father, you said _about_ ten thousand dollars. Was it more?"
"My dear child," he protested, "this matter is not so great as you
suppose. And I cannot tell you all of my affairs."
"Father," she returned, "for my sake, if not for yours, Mr. Ellis should
be paid at once."
He rebuked her. "I know how to keep our honour clean. Mr. Ellis shall be
paid at once."
"You promise that, sir?"
"I do."
"And will it mean that we must sell the house?"
"It will." The Colonel always excelled in the delivery of monosyllables.
"Sell the house?" gasped Beth.
"Come here, dear," said Judith, and drew her to her side. "Beth, you
have plenty of courage, I know."
"I hope so." Pleased by the unusual caress, Beth controlled her
trembling. "What are you planning, Judith?"
"We must entirely change our way of life." Judith looked to her father
for confirmation; he nodded. "Are you willing to work, Beth?"
"I am willing," was the confident answer.
"Father," Judith asked, "how much will the house bring?"
"Come here," he answered. "Let me tell you what we must do."
He went to the sofa; they followed. Beth took the place he indicated at
his side; Judith sat in a chair. The Colonel, still smiling, looked on
them paternally, and began to depict in words his ready imaginings.
"When the house is sold and the debt is paid," he said, "we shall have
left--let me see, perhaps twenty thousand dollars. I don't need to
explain," he interrupted himself to say, "that had not other resources
previously failed me--mismanagements and losses, dears, not from my
fault--I should never have turned to Mr. Ellis for assistance. No, no;
of course you understand that. Therefore, the house is our only source
of capital. Well, twenty thousand left: that would mean perhaps a
thousand dollars a year to house and feed and clothe us. Yes, perhaps a
thousand." The Colonel clung to the _perhaps_; it was covering a lie,
several lies. "You see, we shall really be in difficulties."
"Yes," murmured Beth.
The Colonel warmed to his task. "Now, you are both young; on the other
hand I am not old, and I am a soldier. The habit of courage, girls, I
learned in my youth. So we are well equipped. But, only a thousand
dollars! That will pay rent; perhaps it will pay for food. And our
clothes, our little knick-knacks, we must earn for ourselves."
"Shall we take an apartment?" asked Beth, for Judith remained silent,
watching her father intently. "One of the new ones they have been
putting up?"
"Ah, no," he said kindly. "They cost five hundred a year, my child. This
must be something of an emigration, Beth: this quarter of the town is no
longer for us. But there are very respectable, quiet neighbourhoods
where we can go; and even houses, not apartments, that we can rent. Does
that dismay you?"
Beth pressed his hand. "No, father, no!"
He avoided Judith's steady look, and smoothed Beth's hair. "Servants--I
don't think we can afford them. One of you two must do the housework.
Which shall it be?"
"I!" Beth answered promptly.
"Cooking, dishwashing, sweeping," he warned her. "Are you really
willing?"
"If you will be patient with my mistakes."
"My dear little girl, I am proud of you. Judith, is she not fine?" But
still he kept his eyes upon the pleased and blushing Beth. "And we two
others will earn the money."
"I am sorry," responded Beth. Then she brightened. "But, father, need it
be so bad as this? You know so much of affairs; you can command a good
salary at once."
"Remember," he said, "that I have failed. The world has gone against me.
No one will have use for me. A clerk or a bank messenger--that is the
most I can look to be."
"No, no!" cried Beth, shocked.
"It is natural," he said with resignation. "And perhaps Judith, with her
talents and her typewriter, before long will be supporting all three of
us." For the first time Judith heard his natural tone, in this reminder
of his many little flings. "And we will all economise!"
"It will not be hard," Beth said.
"No," was the paternal response, "because we shall be doing it together.
Think--some little four-room cottage. Perhaps not all the modern
improvements, but never mind. We leave you early in the morning, Judith
and I; we take the crowded electrics with all the other people going to
their work. Judith snatches a few minutes to go to a bargain sale; I, at
a ready-made-clothing store, fit myself to a twelve-dollar suit. Then we
work hard all day, we three--and perhaps it will be hardest for you,
Beth, to be so much alone. But at night we meet over the simple meal you
have prepared, and go early to bed, fatigued by our day."
Even Beth saw how far this was from the Colonel's nature. "Father, it
will be hardest for you."
"No worse," he replied, "than the Wilderness campaign. Never you fret,
dear; I can resign my luxuries. And if our friends over here sometimes
speak of us with pity, we shall not meet them often enough to feel hurt
when they do not recognise us in our cheap clothes."
"Father," cried Beth. "Our friends will stand by us. You shall see!"
"They will patronise us," he answered. "Shall we care for that?
Especially Judith." And he turned to her at last.
"I can stand anything," she replied. "I am glad that you have foreseen
all this, father."
"Did you doubt me?" he asked. He rose, and the girls rose with him. "But
now I must go to my room; I must make a beginning on my new life.
Good-night, Beth. Kiss me. Kiss me, Judith. Dears," he said, gazing on
them affectionately, "we have had little dissensions from time to time,
but I promise never to quarrel with you more. No, don't reply; I know
you will be as forbearing toward me. Good-night; I am going to my
study." He went to the door, and paused a moment. "Judith, did you
really doubt me? You shall see what I can do."
Waving them a final good-night, he was gone. He climbed the stair
briskly at first; then his step became slower, and his head bowed. In
his study he sank into a chair and passed his hand across his forehead,
where the perspiration had already started out. That had been an effort,
but it was over, and now----!
He was sitting alone in this little room; like shadows his thoughts
closed in on him. No, he had not lied; he had said _perhaps_. But the
house was mortgaged to its full value, Ellis held the mortgages, and the
interest was long overdue. The furniture was pledged. Monday, owning
nothing but the clothes on his back, he would be turned into the street.
Judith had failed him; everything had failed him. Life, so pleasant,
had played him false at last; there was no outlook any more. Slowly,
without spirit, consumed with self-pity, he took pen and paper and began
to write. How little there was to say! The letter was finished all too
soon.
In the parlour the two girls sat and spoke together. "How brave of
father!" Beth said.
Judith answered, "I never saw him less like himself."
"He is a new man," Beth explained. "He is setting us an example. We must
work, and be a credit to him."
Judith's energy returned. She would work, she said. The typewriter was
her own; it was paid for. She would apply herself to master it. Were
they still rich, even then she would go to work. She must occupy
herself, and forget. And as for Beth, before long Jim would come and
claim her.
Then Judith remembered Mather's note, and the trouble deepened. If Jim
had gone wrong, how would Beth, innocent Beth, bear that? She stole a
glance at her sister. Beth was listening.
"Father, is that you?" she called.
The Colonel's voice answered from the hall. "I just came down for
something." They heard him go up-stairs again.
"He came down very quietly," said Beth. "I heard him in the back
parlour. Poor father! He is very brave."
Then both sat silent, thinking. "We have good blood," said Judith at
last with a tremor of pride in her voice. "We will show we are not
afraid of what may happen."
"Yes," Beth answered. "--Hush, what was that?"
"I heard nothing," Judith said.
Beth's eyes grew larger as she sat rigid. "It was a groan," she
whispered. "Listen!"
Then they both heard it, unmistakable, coming from the floor above. They
started up, but stood in fear, questioning each other with their eyes.
Again it came, but feebler, like a deep sigh.
"Father!" cried Judith, and hastened to the stairs. Up they hurried;
they were breathless when they reached the study door. There they
halted, transfixed.
The Colonel had finished his letter; it lay on the desk by his side. He
reclined in the easy-chair as if asleep, but from his breast stood out
the handle of the Japanese knife.