CHAPTER XXVI

The deceased Odintsov had not liked innovations, but he had tolerated

'the fine arts within a certain sphere,' and had in consequence put up

in his garden, between the hothouse and the lake, an erection after the

fashion of a Greek temple, made of Russian brick. Along the dark wall

at the back of this temple or gallery were placed six niches for

statues, which Odintsov had proceeded to order from abroad. These

statues were to represent Solitude, Silence, Meditation, Melancholy,

Modesty, and Sensibility. One of them, the goddess of Silence, with her

finger on her lip, had been sent and put up; but on the very same day

some boys on the farm had broken her nose; and though a plasterer of

the neighbourhood undertook to make her a new nose 'twice as good as

the old one,' Odintsov ordered her to be taken away, and she was still

to be seen in the corner of the threshing barn, where she had stood

many long years, a source of superstitious terror to the peasant women.

The front part of the temple had long ago been overgrown with thick

bushes; only the pediments of the columns could be seen above the dense

green. In the temple itself it was cool even at mid-day. Anna Sergyevna

had not liked visiting this place ever since she had seen a snake

there; but Katya often came and sat on the wide stone seat under one of

the niches. Here, in the midst of the shade and coolness, she used to

read and work, or to give herself up to that sensation of perfect

peace, known, doubtless, to each of us, the charm of which consists in

the half-unconscious, silent listening to the vast current of life that

flows for ever both around us and within us.

The day after Bazarov's arrival Katya was sitting on her favourite

stone seat, and beside her again was sitting Arkady. He had besought

her to come with him to the 'temple.'

There was about an hour still to lunch-time; the dewy morning had

already given place to a sultry day. Arkady's face retained the

expression of the preceding day; Katya had a preoccupied look. Her

sister had, directly after their morning tea, called her into her room,

and after some preliminary caresses, which always scared Katya a

little, she had advised her to be more guarded in her behaviour with

Arkady, and especially to avoid solitary talks with him, as likely to

attract the notice of her aunt and all the household. Besides this,

even the previous evening Anna Sergyevna had not been herself; and

Katya herself had felt ill at ease, as though she were conscious of

some fault in herself. As she yielded to Arkady's entreaties, she said

to herself that it was for the last time.

'Katerina Sergyevna,' he began with a sort of bashful easiness, 'since

I've had the happiness of living in the same house with you, I have

discussed a great many things with you; but meanwhile there is one,

very important ... for me ... one question, which I have not touched

upon up till now. You remarked yesterday that I have been changed

here,' he went on, at once catching and avoiding the questioning glance

Katya was turning upon him. 'I have changed certainly a great deal, and

you know that better than any one else--you to whom I really owe this

change.'

'I?... Me?...' said Katya.

'I am not now the conceited boy I was when I came here,' Arkady went

on. 'I've not reached twenty-three for nothing; as before, I want to be

useful, I want to devote all my powers to the truth; but I no longer

look for my ideals where I did; they present themselves to me ... much

closer to hand. Up till now I did not understand myself; I set myself

tasks which were beyond my powers.... My eyes have been opened lately,

thanks to one feeling.... I'm not expressing myself quite clearly, but

I hope you understand me.'

Katya made no reply, but she ceased looking at Arkady.

'I suppose,' he began again, this time in a more agitated voice, while

above his head a chaffinch sang its song unheeding among the leaves of

the birch--'I suppose it's the duty of every one to be open with those

... with those people who ... in fact, with those who are near to him,

and so I ... I resolved ...'

But here Arkady's eloquence deserted him; he lost the thread,

stammered, and was forced to be silent for a moment. Katya still did

not raise her eyes. She seemed not to understand what he was leading up

to in all this, and to be waiting for something.

'I foresee I shall surprise you,' began Arkady, pulling himself

together again with an effort, 'especially since this feeling relates

in a way ... in a way, notice ... to you. You reproached me, if you

remember, yesterday with a want of seriousness,' Arkady went on, with

the air of a man who has got into a bog, feels that he is sinking

further and further in at every step, and yet hurries onwards in the

hope of crossing it as soon as possible; 'that reproach is often aimed

... often falls ... on young men even when they cease to deserve it;

and if I had more self-confidence ...' ('Come, help me, do help me!'

Arkady was thinking, in desperation; but, as before, Katya did not turn

her head.) 'If I could hope ...'

'If I could feel sure of what you say,' was heard at that instant the

clear voice of Anna Sergyevna.

Arkady was still at once, while Katya turned pale. Close by the bushes

that screened the temple ran a little path. Anna Sergyevna was walking

along it escorted by Bazarov. Katya and Arkady could not see them, but

they heard every word, the rustle of their clothes, their very

breathing. They walked on a few steps, and, as though on purpose, stood

still just opposite the temple.

'You see,' pursued Anna Sergyevna, 'you and I made a mistake; we are

both past our first youth, I especially so; we have seen life, we are

tired; we are both--why affect not to know it?--clever; at first we

interested each other, curiosity was aroused ... and then ...'

'And then I grew stale,' put in Bazarov.

'You know that was not the cause of our misunderstanding. But, however,

it was to be, we had no need of one another, that's the chief point;

there was too much ... what shall I say? ... that was alike in us. We

did not realise it all at once. Now, Arkady ...'

'So you need him?' queried Bazarov.

'Hush, Yevgeny Vassilyitch. You tell me he is not indifferent to me,

and it always seemed to me he liked me. I know that I might well be his

aunt, but I don't wish to conceal from you that I have come to think

more often of him. In such youthful, fresh feeling there is a special

charm ...'

'The word _fascination_ is most usual in such cases,' Bazarov

interrupted; the effervescence of his spleen could be heard in his

choked though steady voice. 'Arkady was mysterious over something with

me yesterday, and didn't talk either of you or your sister.... That's a

serious symptom.'

'He is just like a brother with Katya,' commented Anna Sergyevna, 'and

I like that in him, though, perhaps, I ought not to have allowed such

intimacy between them.'

'That idea is prompted by ... your feelings as a sister?' Bazarov

brought out, drawling.

'Of course ... but why are we standing still? Let us go on. What a

strange talk we are having, aren't we? I could never have believed I

should talk to you like this. You know, I am afraid of you ... and at

the same time I trust you, because in reality you are so good.'

'In the first place, I am not in the least good; and in the second

place, I have lost all significance for you, and you tell me I am

good.... It's like a laying a wreath of flowers on the head of a

corpse.'

'Yevgeny Vassilyitch, we are not responsible ...' Anna Sergyevna began;

but a gust of wind blew across, set the leaves rustling, and carried

away her words. 'Of course, you are free ...' Bazarov declared after a

brief pause. Nothing more could be distinguished; the steps retreated

... everything was still.

Arkady turned to Katya. She was sitting in the same position, but her

head was bent still lower. 'Katerina Sergyevna,' he said with a shaking

voice, and clasping his hands tightly together, 'I love you for ever

and irrevocably, and I love no one but you. I wanted to tell you this,

to find out your opinion of me, and to ask for your hand, since I am

not rich, and I feel ready for any sacrifice.... You don't answer me?

You don't believe me? Do you think I speak lightly? But remember these

last days! Surely for a long time past you must have known that

everything--understand me--everything else has vanished long ago and

left no trace? Look at me, say one word to me ... I love ... I love you

... believe me!'

Katya glanced at Arkady with a bright and serious look, and after long

hesitation, with the faintest smile, she said, 'Yes.'

Arkady leapt up from the stone seat. 'Yes! You said Yes, Katerina

Sergyevna! What does that word mean? Only that I do love you, that you

believe me ... or ... or ... I daren't go on ...'

'Yes,' repeated Katya, and this time he understood her. He snatched her

large beautiful hands, and, breathless with rapture, pressed them to

his heart. He could scarcely stand on his feet, and could only repeat,

'Katya, Katya ...' while she began weeping in a guileless way, smiling

gently at her own tears. No one who has not seen those tears in the

eyes of the beloved, knows yet to what a point, faint with shame and

gratitude, a man may be happy on earth.

The next day, early in the morning, Anna Sergyevna sent to summon

Bazarov to her boudoir, and with a forced laugh handed him a folded

sheet of notepaper. It was a letter from Arkady; in it he asked for her

sister's hand.

Bazarov quickly scanned the letter, and made an effort to control

himself, that he might not show the malignant feeling which was

instantaneously aflame in his breast.

'So that's how it is,' he commented; 'and you, I fancy, only yesterday

imagined he loved Katerina Sergyevna as a brother. What are you

intending to do now?'

'What do you advise me?' asked Anna Sergyevna, still laughing.

'Well, I suppose,' answered Bazarov, also with a laugh, though he felt

anything but cheerful, and had no more inclination to laugh than she

had; 'I suppose you ought to give the young people your blessing. It's

a good match in every respect; Kirsanov's position is passable, he's

the only son, and his father's a good-natured fellow, he won't try to

thwart him.'

Madame Odintsov walked up and down the room. By turns her face flushed

and grew pale. 'You think so,' she said. 'Well, I see no obstacles ...

I am glad for Katya ... and for Arkady Nikolaevitch too. Of course, I

will wait for his father's answer. I will send him in person to him.

But it turns out, you see, that I was right yesterday when I told you

we were both old people.... How was it I saw nothing? That's what

amazes me!' Anna Sergyevna laughed again, and quickly turned her head

away.

'The younger generation have grown awfully sly,' remarked Bazarov, and

he too laughed. 'Good-bye,' he began again after a short silence. 'I

hope you will bring the matter to the most satisfactory conclusion; and

I will rejoice from a distance.'

Madame Odintsov turned quickly to him. 'You are not going away? Why

should you not stay _now_? Stay ... it's exciting talking to you ...

one seems walking on the edge of a precipice. At first one feels timid,

but one gains courage as one goes on. Do stay.'

'Thanks for the suggestion, Anna Sergyevna, and for your flattering

opinion of my conversational talents. But I think I have already been

moving too long in a sphere which is not my own. Flying fishes can hold

out for a time in the air; but soon they must splash back into the

water; allow me, too, to paddle in my own element.'

Madame Odintsov looked at Bazarov. His pale face was twitching with a

bitter smile. 'This man did love me!' she thought, and she felt pity

for him, and held out her hand to him with sympathy.

But he too understood her. 'No!' he said, stepping back a pace. 'I'm a

poor man, but I've never taken charity so far. Good-bye, and good luck

to you.'

'I am certain we are not seeing each other for the last time,' Anna

Sergyevna declared with an unconscious gesture.

'Anything may happen!' answered Bazarov, and he bowed and went away.

'So you are thinking of making yourself a nest?' he said the same day

to Arkady, as he packed his box, crouching on the floor. 'Well, it's a

capital thing. But you needn't have been such a humbug. I expected

something from you in quite another quarter. Perhaps, though, it took

you by surprise yourself?'

'I certainly didn't expect this when I parted from you,' answered

Arkady; 'but why are you a humbug yourself, calling it "a capital

thing," as though I didn't know your opinion of marriage.'

'Ah, my dear fellow,' said Bazarov, 'how you talk! You see what I'm

doing; there seems to be an empty space in the box, and I am putting

hay in; that's how it is in the box of our life; we would stuff it up

with anything rather than have a void. Don't be offended, please; you

remember, no doubt, the opinion I have always had of Katerina

Sergyevna. Many a young lady's called clever simply because she can

sigh cleverly; but yours can hold her own, and, indeed, she'll hold it

so well that she'll have you under her thumb--to be sure, though,

that's quite as it ought to be.' He slammed the lid to, and got up from

the floor. 'And now, I say again, good-bye, for it's useless to deceive

ourselves--we are parting for good, and you know that yourself ... you

have acted sensibly; you're not made for our bitter, rough, lonely

existence. There's no dash, no hate in you, but you've the daring of

youth and the fire of youth. Your sort, you gentry, can never get

beyond refined submission or refined indignation, and that's no good.

You won't fight--and yet you fancy yourselves gallant chaps--but we

mean to fight. Oh well! Our dust would get into your eyes, our mud

would bespatter you, but yet you're not up to our level, you're

admiring yourselves unconsciously, you like to abuse yourselves; but

we're sick of that--we want something else! we want to smash other

people! You're a capital fellow; but you're a sugary, liberal snob for

all that--_ay volla-too_, as my parent is fond of saying.'

'You are parting from me for ever, Yevgeny,' responded Arkady

mournfully; 'and have you nothing else to say to me?'

Bazarov scratched the back of his head. 'Yes, Arkady, yes, I have other

things to say to you, but I'm not going to say them, because that's

sentimentalism--that means, mawkishness. And you get married as soon as

you can; and build your nest, and get children to your heart's content.

They'll have the wit to be born in a better time than you and me. Aha!

I see the horses are ready. Time's up! I've said good-bye to every

one.... What now? embracing, eh?'

Arkady flung himself on the neck of his former leader and friend, and

the tears fairly gushed from his eyes.

'That's what comes of being young!' Bazarov commented calmly. 'But I

rest my hopes on Katerina Sergyevna. You'll see how quickly she'll

console you! Good-bye, brother!' he said to Arkady when he had got into

the light cart, and, pointing to a pair of jackdaws sitting side by

side on the stable roof, he added, 'That's for you! follow that

example.'

'What does that mean?' asked Arkady.

'What? Are you so weak in natural history, or have you forgotten that

the jackdaw is a most respectable family bird? An example to you!...

Good-bye!'

The cart creaked and rolled away.

Bazarov had spoken truly. In talking that evening with Katya, Arkady

completely forgot about his former teacher. He already began to follow

her lead, and Katya was conscious of this, and not surprised at it. He

was to set off the next day for Maryino, to see Nikolai Petrovitch.

Anna Sergyevna was not disposed to put any constraint on the young

people, and only on account of the proprieties did not leave them by

themselves for too long together. She magnanimously kept the princess

out of their way; the latter had been reduced to a state of tearful

frenzy by the news of the proposed marriage. At first Anna Sergyevna

was afraid the sight of their happiness might prove rather trying to

herself, but it turned out quite the other way; this sight not only did

not distress her, it interested her, it even softened her at last. Anna

Sergyevna felt both glad and sorry at this. 'It is clear that Bazarov

was right,' she thought; 'it has been curiosity, nothing but curiosity,

and love of ease, and egoism ...'

'Children,' she said aloud, 'what do you say, is love a purely

imaginary feeling?'

But neither Katya nor Arkady even understood her. They were shy with

her; the fragment of conversation they had involuntarily overheard

haunted their minds. But Anna Sergyevna soon set their minds at rest;

and it was not difficult for her--she had set her own mind at rest.

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