CHAPTER XXV

Sally and Eugene and Charlie had almost finished breakfast. It was a

silent group; Eugene was quiet, for he had not got over the

mortification at his miserable failure of the night before, and,

besides, the very fact that he was eating breakfast with Sally was

enough to make him quiet. Charlie was sulky and morose and penitent.

There had been very little said, but that little had been to the

point, and Charlie had pleaded _nolo contendere_, which, in this case,

was equivalent to a plea of guilty; guilty of the offense as charged

and guilty of obtaining money from Patty under false pretenses,

although Sally could not find out how much. He would only say that it

was not so very much; he could not remember exactly how much. And

Sally had promised to give him a reasonable allowance if he would

honestly try to keep within it and would give up his bad habits, which

would be his unfailing ruin if he kept on. It might be necessary to

take him out of college. He was to go home with them and the council

of war would decide about that. Charlie seemed somewhat anxious about

the composition of that council, although he did not seem to care very

much whether he left college or not. As Sally had not decided upon

that point, she did not gratify his curiosity. And Charlie had given

the required promises. He had even promised more than was required of

him, for he agreed to reform permanently. Sally had her doubts about

its being permanent. She had seen too much of the effects of the

"bug," as Horry Carling had called it. But she could not ask more, and

she sighed and expressed herself as satisfied and they went in to

breakfast. That incident was closed.

Now she was leaning back in her chair, watching the others putting

the finishing touches on a rather substantial breakfast. A call-boy

was speaking to the head waiter; and that august official came with

stately step to Sally's table.

"A gen'leman to see Miss Ladue," he announced privately in Sally's

ear.

Sally looked up in surprise. "To see me?" she asked. "Are you sure?

Who is it? Do you know?"

"He asked was Miss Ladue staying here, but he didn't give no card and

he wouldn't give no name. I could say that you've gone or that we

can't find you," the man suggested, "if you don't care to see him."

"Oh, no," said Sally, with a quick smile. "I'll see him. He may have

come to tell me of a long-lost fortune. But," she added with a puzzled

wonder, "I can't imagine who it can be."

Eugene got up, pushing aside his coffee. "Let me go, Sally."

Sally was already up. "Oh, no," she said again. "Thank you, Eugene,

but you and Charlie may as well finish your breakfast in comfort.

There's plenty of time before our train goes and I will join you in a

few minutes. I'm only wondering who in the world it is and what he

wants. Perhaps it's Everett."

A look of annoyance came into Spencer's eyes at the mention of

Everett. Why couldn't he let them alone? But Sally was rapidly

vanishing in the wake of the head waiter, who delivered her safely to

the call-boy. At the door of a small reception room the boy paused,

parted the hangings, and bowed Sally in.

As she entered, a man rose from a chair near the window and stood

waiting. Although Sally could not see his face because of the light

behind him, there was something vaguely familiar in his manner of

rising from the chair and in his attitude. It troubled her.

"You wished to see me?" she asked, wondering why he did not come

forward to meet her.

"Miss Sallie Ladue?" he asked in return. Sally's hand went to her

heart involuntarily; her mother's trick, exactly. The man seemed to be

smiling, although Sally could not see that, either. "I want to make

sure. It is sometime since--"

"Turn around to the light, so that I can see your face," Sally

commanded. Her voice was hard and cold. It may have penetrated his

armor. He turned obediently, giving a short laugh as he did so.

"My face may be a trifle the worse for wear since you have seen me,"

he remarked airily. "A trifle the worse for wear; which yours is not.

Has anybody ever told you, Sally, that you have become a lovely woman?

Or wouldn't you care for that tribute?"

"We will not discuss my appearance, if you please." Sally's voice was

still hard and cold; like steel. She came around in front of him and

scrutinized his face closely. There could be no possible doubt. "Well,

father?"

"You don't seem glad to see me, Sally. After an absence of--er--a

hundred years or so, one would think that you might be. But, I repeat,

you don't seem glad to see me."

"No," said Sally quietly. "I'm not."

He laughed. His laugh was unpleasant. "Truthful as ever, I see.

Wouldn't it be better to mask the truth a little, when it must be as

disagreeable as it is now? To draw even a thin veil over it, so that

it can be perceived dimly--dimly if unmistakably?"

Sally shook her head and she did not smile. "I see no object in it.

What is your purpose in seeing me now? I do not doubt that you have a

purpose. What is it?"

He seemed to find a certain pleasure in tantalizing her. "Aren't you

curious to know how I found out your whereabouts?"

"I am not interested in that. Tell me your purpose."

"What other purpose could I have than to see my daughter after so many

years? Is it permitted, my dear Sally, to ask after the health of your

mother?"

"She is well; as well as can be expected. It is not your fault that

she did not die years ago. She was four years getting over that

trouble of hers. You laughed at her headaches, you remember. She was

four years in Doctor Galen's sanitarium."

He waved his hand lightly, as of old. "A little misunderstanding,

Sally, which I greatly regret. But four years of Doctor Galen! How did

you manage to pay him?"

"That," replied Sally, "cannot possibly be any concern of yours."

"Ah, true. It is not any concern of mine. But is it not possible to

see your mother? She is still my wife, I presume, and you are still my

daughter."

"She is still your wife and I am your daughter. But you shall not see

her if I can prevent it."

"And--I gather from the tenor of your remarks that you would resist

any attempt at--er--reuniting a family long separated by

circumstances."

Sally smiled disdainfully. "I am of age. As to my mother, I should

resist. No court would compel it."

"Ah," he said, smiling, "how well you meet my points! You are of age,

and no doubt you are right about the courts. There is no law that will

prohibit my trying, I think. And Charlie is not of age, if my

recollection serves me."

Before Sally could frame an answer, there was a slight noise in the

hall and Charlie burst in. "I beg your pardon," he said hastily. The

two were standing, and he had not recognized Sally. But an instant's

gaze was enough. "Sally!" he exclaimed. He looked at the man. A wave

of red rushed into his face. "Charlie!" he cried involuntarily. Then

he recovered. "What are you doing here? What do you mean by coming to

see my sister?"

Sally was inexpressibly distressed. She started to speak. She would

have said something--told him the truth, of course--to save them both;

but a quiet movement of her father's hand stopped her. He seemed to be

waiting patiently for the next stone.

"Do you know, Sally," Charlie continued, "who this man is? He is the

dealer in number seven. He has no right--no business to try to see

you. I insist on his leaving at once."

Sally spoke with surprising gentleness, considering her mode of speech

to her father only a few minutes before. "We have some business,

Charlie," she said. "He will go as soon as that is done. Now, leave

us, please, to finish it, for we have not a great deal of time. It is

all right."

And Charlie withdrew slowly, with many a glance from one to the other

and many a misgiving as to the business which seemed to be of so

private a nature. They heard his steps retreating down the hall.

Sally turned her shocked face to her father, "Won't you sit down?" she

asked gently. "I am very sorry; sorrier than I can tell

you--for--everything, but especially for that speech of Charlie's. But

Charlie did not know."

"And I prefer that he shouldn't," her father replied. He had seated

himself with his face half turned away from the light. "I have many

hard things to bear, Sally, and, strange as it may seem to you, I try

to bear them with patience. I have to, so why make a virtue of

necessity? That speech of Charlie's--made in ignorance--was less hard

for me than your own."

"I am sorry," Sally said again, "but I meant what I said, most

emphatically. You are not to suppose that I didn't. But I am sorry for

my manner--if it hurt you."

He smiled faintly. "It was not intended to soothe or to amuse, I take

it," he remarked. And he lapsed into silence, fingering his hat

nervously and turning it around in his hands.

Sally sat gazing at the lined old face before her a long time without

speaking. As she looked, her eyes softened even more and grew

tender--and those eyes could be wonderfully tender. He bore her gaze

as well as he could, but he was ill at ease. If the truth must be

told, his mood had softened, too, and the very fact embarrassed him.

Perhaps he remembered the days of the little lizard and the coal-trees

and the occasions when the gynesaurus had climbed to the topmost

branch and gazed forth upon a wide prospect of tree-tops and swamps.

It could not have been pleasant to recollect those days. For him, they

were no more and could be never again. He was roused by Sally's low

voice.

"Oh, father," she said impulsively, "why do you do it? Why can't you

give it up? I could get your lizard for you. Why not return to your

old life? You might do something yet. At least, it would be a comfort

to be respectable."

He laughed at that. "No doubt it would," he observed, "be a great

comfort to be respectable. And no doubt it would be a great comfort to

you to have a respectable father; reformed; dragged from the depths."

The tears came to Sally's eyes. "Does your programme," he asked then,

nonchalantly, "include--er--reuniting a family long separated by

circumstances? You may remember that I mentioned the matter once

before."

She shook her head slowly and regretfully. "I'm afraid not. I couldn't

consent to exposing mother to the--" She hesitated and stopped.

"The dangers incident to such an arrangement?" he suggested. "Pardon

me for supplying what you were considerate enough to omit. Perhaps you

are wise. And Charlie?"

"And Charlie." She nodded. "You see, yourself, that such a thing could

not be--at any rate, until you have proved that you could do it."

"I couldn't," he answered promptly. "Don't think that I haven't tried.

I have tried, repeatedly. I hate the life, but I can't give it up.

But," he added, "you need not have been afraid for Charlie."

"I am very much afraid for Charlie," said Sally simply, "in any case.

He is sick of it now. How long the present mood will last, I do not

know. Could you manage that he is not allowed to play at--at your--"

He bowed gravely. "That can be arranged, I think."

"Thank you, father."

Once more there was silence between them. Finally he made a movement

as if to go. "I was--I wanted--was curious to see how you had come

out, Sally. That was the main reason for my troubling you. If there

were other reasons, they no longer exist. I--"

"Don't go yet, father," Sally interrupted. "I have more to say."

He sat down again and waited. She was considering--trying to consider

the problem before her in every aspect. But she could not get the

point of view of her father and Charlie, and she wanted to.

"Father," she resumed, "what _is_ the attraction? I have been trying

hard to get a sympathetic view of it and I can't. I can't see anything

except what is sordid and repulsive. The life is--is not desirable--"

"Not very desirable," he broke in, with a horrible, dry laugh.

"And it can hardly be simply covetousness. If it is, you miss your

mark. What I--"

"It is not covetousness. I may as well say that it is not a sin of

covetousness," he corrected, "in deference to the generally received

opinion. I have no desire to gloss over and to try to excuse by a form

of words, although I, personally, am not convinced that it is a sin

according to natural law. However, we need not discuss that aspect of

it."

He waved that view aside with a familiar motion of his hand. How

familiar they were--those little tricks of the hand and of the voice!

They made Sally's eyes fill and a lump come in her throat. She raised

her hand to her forehead and leaned upon it. It half concealed her

eyes. She said nothing. The professor went on in his old lecture-room

manner; a judicial manner.

"No, it is not a sin of covetousness, but simply a passion to which

any man who is subject to it can't help giving way. It is a passion as

old as humanity--perhaps older. There are no more inveterate gamblers

than the savages. Possibly," he added, smiling, "my little lizard had

it; possibly it goes back to those ancient days that you know about,

Sally. It may be that the saurians had their own games of chance and

their own stakes--and, I may add, their own methods of enforcing

payment. Indeed, their life was one great gamble. For that matter,

life is no more than that now."

Sally made an inarticulate protest.

"As for getting the other man's money," the professor continued,

unheeding, "that is merely incidental. We feel better, it's true, when

we win, but that is for another reason. It has nothing to do with the

game--keeping his money. The other man can keep his money--or, as far

as the game is concerned, I would give it back to him--for all the

happiness it brings him or would bring me. The distinction which I

mean to draw is a little subtle, but I flatter myself that you can

appreciate it."

He looked at her and she nodded. The tears still stood in her eyes.

"Happiness, Sally," he resumed, absently gazing at the wall, "is--but

you probably do not care for my views on the subject of happiness," he

said, interrupting himself and glancing at her with a smile. The smile

was rather pleasant to contemplate; a thing sufficiently

remarkable--for him. "Probably you think I am better qualified to tell

you what it is not than what it is; how to avoid it than how to get

it. I can give advice, but I cannot follow it."

Sally smiled quickly. "Your views are interesting," she said. She

stirred a little. She did not know how he would take what she was

about to say. "You would--would you feel hurt, father, if I should

offer you an allowance?"

A quarter of an hour before, he would not have felt hurt or

embarrassed in the least. In fact, that was the very thing he had come

there for. At the moment, it was different. A flush crept into his

face slowly.

"Why should I feel hurt?" His voice had changed. It had lost that

intimate quality which it had had during the last few minutes, when he

had been on the point of telling Sally about happiness. "It is Uncle

John's money, I suppose? Why should I feel any compunctions about

taking it? And--er--there are conditions incident to the acceptance

of this--er--this gift, I suppose?"

"I'm afraid there are," she replied; "at least, tacitly understood."

He considered for a few moments. "I think," he said then, "that it

will conduce to happiness, on the whole, if we are not too tacit about

those conditions. What are they?"

"I hoped," she answered gently, "that you would not insist on my

repeating them. You must understand, from what I have said, what they

are."

"I prefer that they should be stated as conditions."

"Very well." Sally's voice was harder and colder. "As you like. You

are not to take any steps whatever, even to reveal your existence to

my mother and Charlie. Charlie is not to be allowed to play at your

house--not to be allowed to enter it."

"But, Sally, I may be unable to prevent that," he protested. "The

house is not mine. I am only--only an employe and an underling. I will

do what I can, but there is no use in promising what I can't perform."

Sally smiled a little. It was something new for him to stick at

promising.

"Those are the conditions which I must make in self-defense," she

said.

"May I venture to ask what is offered on the other side?"

She made a rapid calculation. "The most that I can offer you is seven

hundred a year. I'd like to make it a thousand; but I have mother and

Charlie to take care of, and I must pay Patty what she had let him

have--without my knowledge," she added apologetically. "I agree to

send you sixty dollars a month on those conditions."

He was leaning back in his chair and spoke in his old manner, lightly.

"And if the conditions are violated?"

"The allowance stops," Sally replied promptly.

"And further?"

There was a suspicion of moisture again in Sally's eyes. "You make it

unnecessarily hard, father," she said gently. "I shall act further if

you compel me to." She was reminded of the time when she had asked his

permission to go to dancing-school. Her feelings, she found, were much

the same as they had been on that occasion. "I am ready to put it in

writing if you wish."

"Oh, no," said the professor airily. "It is not necessary, Sally. Your

word would be all that anybody could require; anybody who knew you."

"Thank you," she murmured. It was very low and he gave no sign of

having heard it.

Again he was silent; then he turned to her. A smile of amusement

curled his lip. "There is, at least, no question of sentiment in all

this, is there, Sally?"

"Oh, I don't know," she murmured more gently than ever. She was not

looking at him, but down at the arm of her chair. "There may be, but I

must not let it interfere with my judgment--in this matter. There is

mother to think of."

"Ah! I infer that your mother would not welcome an occasion for

reuniting that family which I mentioned."

It was not a question and Sally said nothing. After a pause, the

professor sighed and spoke again.

"I accept your munificent offer, Sally. There is nothing else to do."

It was his way--it had always been his way to put the giver in the

wrong, by a simple turn of words; to make her feel as if it were he

who was conferring the favor. Sally felt somehow guilty and

apologetic.

"Will you give me your address?" she asked, diffidently--"the address

to which you would like your money sent?"

He wrote on a slip of paper with an old stub of a pencil which he

pulled from his pocket and handed her the paper. She read it and

looked up at him quickly.

"Am I to make them out in this name?" she asked. "It is not--"

"It is not Ladue," he interrupted deliberately, but showing more

emotion than he had shown hitherto. "Professor Charles Ladue, I would

have you know, Sally, died about ten years ago, in extreme poverty and

distress--of mind as well as of body."

Sally's tears overflowed and dropped, unheeded. She put out her hand

impulsively, and laid it upon his.

"Oh, father!" she whispered. "I am sorry."

"I believe you are," he said. He rose. "Now I will go back to

obscurity. Don't be too sorry for me," he added quickly. "I cultivate

it."

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