A DOUBLE STORY
I.
There was a certain country where things used to go rather oddly. For
instance, you could never tell whether it was going to rain or hail, or
whether or not the milk was going to turn sour. It was impossible to
say whether the next baby would be a boy, or a girl, or even, after he
was a week old, whether he would wake sweet-tempered or cross.
In strict accordance with the peculiar nature of this country of
uncertainties, it came to pass one day, that in the midst of a shower
of rain that might well be called golden, seeing the sun, shining as it
fell, turned all its drops into molten topazes, and every drop was good
for a grain of golden corn, or a yellow cowslip, or a buttercup, or a
dandelion at least;—while this splendid rain was falling, I say, with a
musical patter upon the great leaves of the horse-chestnuts, which hung
like Vandyke collars about the necks of the creamy, red-spotted
blossoms, and on the leaves of the sycamores, looking as if they had
blood in their veins, and on a multitude of flowers, of which some
stood up and boldly held out their cups to catch their share, while
others cowered down, laughing, under the soft patting blows of the
heavy warm drops;—while this lovely rain was washing all the air clean
from the motes, and the bad odors, and the poison-seeds that had
escaped from their prisons during the long drought;—while it fell,
splashing and sparkling, with a hum, and a rush, and a soft
clashing—but stop! I am stealing, I find, and not that only, but with
clumsy hands spoiling what I steal:—
“O Rain! with your dull twofold sound,
The clash hard by, and the murmur all round:”
—there! take it, Mr. Coleridge;—while, as I was saying, the lovely
little rivers whose fountains are the clouds, and which cut their own
channels through the air, and make sweet noises rubbing against their
banks as they hurry down and down, until at length they are pulled up
on a sudden, with a musical plash, in the very heart of an odorous
flower, that first gasps and then sighs up a blissful scent, or on the
bald head of a stone that never says, Thank you;—while the very sheep
felt it blessing them, though it could never reach their skins through
the depth of their long wool, and the veriest hedgehog—I mean the one
with the longest spikes—came and spiked himself out to impale as many
of the drops as he could;—while the rain was thus falling, and the
leaves, and the flowers, and the sheep, and the cattle, and the
hedgehog, were all busily receiving the golden rain, something
happened. It was not a great battle, nor an earthquake, nor a
coronation, but something more important than all those put together.
_A baby-girl was born;_ and her father was a king; and her mother was a
queen; and her uncles and aunts were princes and princesses; and her
first-cousins were dukes and duchesses; and not one of her
second-cousins was less than a marquis or marchioness, or of their
third-cousins less than an earl or countess: and below a countess they
did not care to count. So the little girl was Somebody; and yet for all
that, strange to say, the first thing she did was to cry. I told you it
was a strange country.
As she grew up, everybody about her did his best to convince her that
she was Somebody; and the girl herself was so easily persuaded of it
that she quite forgot that anybody had ever told her so, and took it
for a fundamental, innate, primary, first-born, self-evident,
necessary, and incontrovertible idea and principle that _she was
Somebody_. And far be it from me to deny it. I will even go so far as
to assert that in this odd country there was a huge number of
Somebodies. Indeed, it was one of its oddities that every boy and girl
in it, was rather too ready to think he or she was Somebody; and the
worst of it was that the princess never thought of there being more
than one Somebody—and that was herself.
Far away to the north in the same country, on the side of a bleak hill,
where a horse-chestnut or a sycamore was never seen, where were no
meadows rich with buttercups, only steep, rough, breezy slopes, covered
with dry prickly furze and its flowers of red gold, or moister, softer
broom with its flowers of yellow gold, and great sweeps of purple
heather, mixed with bilberries, and crowberries, and cranberries—no, I
am all wrong: there was nothing out yet but a few furze-blossoms; the
rest were all waiting behind their doors till they were called; and no
full, slow-gliding river with meadow-sweet along its oozy banks, only a
little brook here and there, that dashed past without a moment to say,
“How do you do?”—there (would you believe it?) while the same cloud
that was dropping down golden rain all about the queen’s new baby was
dashing huge fierce handfuls of hail upon the hills, with such force
that they flew spinning off the rocks and stones, went burrowing in the
sheep’s wool, stung the cheeks and chin of the shepherd with their
sharp spiteful little blows, and made his dog wink and whine as they
bounded off his hard wise head, and long sagacious nose; only, when
they dropped plump down the chimney, and fell hissing in the little
fire, they caught it then, for the clever little fire soon sent them up
the chimney again, a good deal swollen, and harmless enough for a
while, there (what do you think?) among the hailstones, and the
heather, and the cold mountain air, another little girl was born, whom
the shepherd her father, and the shepherdess her mother, and a good
many of her kindred too, thought Somebody. She had not an uncle or an
aunt that was less than a shepherd or dairymaid, not a cousin, that was
less than a farm-laborer, not a second-cousin that was less than a
grocer, and they did not count farther. And yet (would you believe it?)
she too cried the very first thing. It _was_ an odd country! And, what
is still more surprising, the shepherd and shepherdess and the
dairymaids and the laborers were not a bit wiser than the king and the
queen and the dukes and the marquises and the earls; for they too, one
and all, so constantly taught the little woman that she was Somebody,
that she also forgot that there were a great many more Somebodies
besides herself in the world.
It was, indeed, a peculiar country, very different from ours—so
different, that my reader must not be too much surprised when I add the
amazing fact, that most of its inhabitants, instead of enjoying the
things they had, were always wanting the things they had not, often
even the things it was least likely they ever could have. The grown men
and women being like this, there is no reason to be further astonished
that the Princess Rosamond—the name her parents gave her because it
means _Rose of the World_—should grow up like them, wanting every thing
she could and every thing she couldn’t have. The things she could have
were a great many too many, for her foolish parents always gave her
what they could; but still there remained a few things they couldn’t
give her, for they were only a common king and queen. They could and
did give her a lighted candle when she cried for it, and managed by
much care that she should not burn her fingers or set her frock on
fire; but when she cried for the moon, that they could not give her.
They did the worst thing possible, instead, however; for they pretended
to do what they could not. They got her a thin disc of brilliantly
polished silver, as near the size of the moon as they could agree upon;
and, for a time she was delighted.
But, unfortunately, one evening she made the discovery that her moon
was a little peculiar, inasmuch as she could not shine in the dark. Her
nurse happened to snuff out the candles as she was playing with it; and
instantly came a shriek of rage, for her moon had vanished. Presently,
through the opening of the curtains, she caught sight of the real moon,
far away in the sky, and shining quite calmly, as if she had been there
all the time; and her rage increased to such a degree that if it had
not passed off in a fit, I do not know what might have come of it.
As she grew up it was still the same, with this difference, that not
only must she have every thing, but she got tired of every thing almost
as soon as she had it. There was an accumulation of things in her
nursery and schoolroom and bedroom that was perfectly appalling. Her
mother’s wardrobes were almost useless to her, so packed were they with
things of which she never took any notice. When she was five years old,
they gave her a splendid gold repeater, so close set with diamonds and
rubies, that the back was just one crust of gems. In one of her little
tempers, as they called her hideously ugly rages, she dashed it against
the back of the chimney, after which it never gave a single tick; and
some of the diamonds went to the ash-pit. As she grew older still, she
became fond of animals, not in a way that brought them much pleasure,
or herself much satisfaction. When angry, she would beat them, and try
to pull them to pieces, and as soon as she became a little used to
them, would neglect them altogether. Then, if they could, they would
run away, and she was furious. Some white mice, which she had ceased
feeding altogether, did so; and soon the palace was swarming with white
mice. Their red eyes might be seen glowing, and their white skins
gleaming, in every dark corner; but when it came to the king’s finding
a nest of them in his second-best crown, he was angry and ordered them
to be drowned. The princess heard of it, however, and raised such a
clamor, that there they were left until they should run away of
themselves; and the poor king had to wear his best crown every day till
then. Nothing that was the princess’s property, whether she cared for
it or not, was to be meddled with.
Of course, as she grew, she grew worse; for she never tried to grow
better. She became more and more peevish and fretful every
day—dissatisfied not only with what she had, but with all that was
around her, and constantly wishing things in general to be different.
She found fault with every thing and everybody, and all that happened,
and grew more and more disagreeable to every one who had to do with
her. At last, when she had nearly killed her nurse, and had all but
succeeded in hanging herself, and was miserable from morning to night,
her parents thought it time to do something.
A long way from the palace, in the heart of a deep wood of pine-trees,
lived a wise woman. In some countries she would have been called a
witch; but that would have been a mistake, for she never did any thing
wicked, and had more power than any witch could have. As her fame was
spread through all the country, the king heard of her; and, thinking
she might perhaps be able to suggest something, sent for her. In the
dead of the night, lest the princess should know it, the king’s
messenger brought into the palace a tall woman, muffled from head to
foot in a cloak of black cloth. In the presence of both their
Majesties, the king, to do her honor, requested her to sit; but she
declined, and stood waiting to hear what they had to say. Nor had she
to wait long, for almost instantly they began to tell her the dreadful
trouble they were in with their only child; first the king talking,
then the queen interposing with some yet more dreadful fact, and at
times both letting out a torrent of words together, so anxious were
they to show the wise woman that their perplexity was real, and their
daughter a very terrible one. For a long while there appeared no sign
of approaching pause. But the wise woman stood patiently folded in her
black cloak, and listened without word or motion. At length silence
fell; for they had talked themselves tired, and could not think of any
thing more to add to the list of their child’s enormities.
After a minute, the wise woman unfolded her arms; and her cloak
dropping open in front, disclosed a garment made of a strange stuff,
which an old poet who knew her well has thus described:—
“All lilly white, withoutten spot or pride,
That seemd like silke and silver woven neare;
But neither silke nor silver therein did appeare.”
“How very badly you have treated her!” said the wise woman. “Poor
child!”
“Treated her badly?” gasped the king.
“She is a very wicked child,” said the queen; and both glared with
indignation.
“Yes, indeed!” returned the wise woman. “She is very naughty indeed,
and that she must be made to feel; but it is half your fault too.”
“What!” stammered the king. “Haven’t we given her every mortal thing
she wanted?”
“Surely,” said the wise woman: “what else could have all but killed
her? You should have given her a few things of the other sort. But you
are far too dull to understand me.”
“You are very polite,” remarked the king, with royal sarcasm on his
thin, straight lips.
The wise woman made no answer beyond a deep sigh; and the king and
queen sat silent also in their anger, glaring at the wise woman. The
silence lasted again for a minute, and then the wise woman folded her
cloak around her, and her shining garment vanished like the moon when a
great cloud comes over her. Yet another minute passed and the silence
endured, for the smouldering wrath of the king and queen choked the
channels of their speech. Then the wise woman turned her back on them,
and so stood. At this, the rage of the king broke forth; and he cried
to the queen, stammering in his fierceness,—
“How should such an old hag as that teach Rosamond good manners? She
knows nothing of them herself! Look how she stands!—actually with her
back to us.”
At the word the wise woman walked from the room. The great folding
doors fell to behind her; and the same moment the king and queen were
quarrelling like apes as to which of them was to blame for her
departure. Before their altercation was over, for it lasted till the
early morning, in rushed Rosamond, clutching in her hand a poor little
white rabbit, of which she was very fond, and from which, only because
it would not come to her when she called it, she was pulling handfuls
of fur in the attempt to tear the squealing, pink-eared, red-eyed thing
to pieces.
“Rosa, Rosa_mond!_” cried the queen; whereupon Rosamond threw the
rabbit in her mother’s face. The king started up in a fury, and ran to
seize her. She darted shrieking from the room. The king rushed after
her; but, to his amazement, she was nowhere to be seen: the huge hall
was empty.—No: just outside the door, close to the threshold, with her
back to it, sat the figure of the wise woman, muffled in her dark
cloak, with her head bowed over her knees. As the king stood looking at
her, she rose slowly, crossed the hall, and walked away down the marble
staircase. The king called to her; but she never turned her head, or
gave the least sign that she heard him. So quietly did she pass down
the wide marble stair, that the king was all but persuaded he had seen
only a shadow gliding across the white steps.
For the princess, she was nowhere to be found. The queen went into
hysterics; and the rabbit ran away. The king sent out messengers in
every direction, but in vain.
In a short time the palace was quiet—as quiet as it used to be before
the princess was born. The king and queen cried a little now and then,
for the hearts of parents were in that country strangely fashioned; and
yet I am afraid the first movement of those very hearts would have been
a jump of terror if the ears above them had heard the voice of Rosamond
in one of the corridors. As for the rest of the household, they could
not have made up a single tear amongst them. They thought, whatever it
might be for the princess, it was, for every one else, the best thing
that could have happened; and as to what had become of her, if their
heads were puzzled, their hearts took no interest in the question. The
lord-chancellor alone had an idea about it, but he was far too wise to
utter it.
II.
The fact, as is plain, was, that the princess had disappeared in the
folds of the wise woman’s cloak. When she rushed from the room, the
wise woman caught her to her bosom and flung the black garment around
her. The princess struggled wildly, for she was in fierce terror, and
screamed as loud as choking fright would permit her; but her father,
standing in the door, and looking down upon the wise woman, saw never a
movement of the cloak, so tight was she held by her captor. He was
indeed aware of a most angry crying, which reminded him of his
daughter; but it sounded to him so far away, that he took it for the
passion of some child in the street, outside the palace-gates. Hence,
unchallenged, the wise woman carried the princess down the marble
stairs, out at the palace-door, down a great flight of steps outside,
across a paved court, through the brazen gates, along half-roused
streets where people were opening their shops, through the huge gates
of the city, and out into the wide road, vanishing northwards; the
princess struggling and screaming all the time, and the wise woman
holding her tight. When at length she was too tired to struggle or
scream any more, the wise woman unfolded her cloak, and set her down;
and the princess saw the light and opened her swollen eyelids. There
was nothing in sight that she had ever seen before. City and palace had
disappeared. They were upon a wide road going straight on, with a ditch
on each side of it, that behind them widened into the great moat
surrounding the city. She cast up a terrified look into the wise
woman’s face, that gazed down upon her gravely and kindly. Now the
princess did not in the least understand kindness. She always took it
for a sign either of partiality or fear. So when the wise woman looked
kindly upon her, she rushed at her, butting with her head like a ram:
but the folds of the cloak had closed around the wise woman; and, when
the princess ran against it, she found it hard as the cloak of a bronze
statue, and fell back upon the road with a great bruise on her head.
The wise woman lifted her again, and put her once more under the cloak,
where she fell asleep, and where she awoke again only to find that she
was still being carried on and on.
When at length the wise woman again stopped and set her down, she saw
around her a bright moonlit night, on a wide heath, solitary and
houseless. Here she felt more frightened than before; nor was her
terror assuaged when, looking up, she saw a stern, immovable
countenance, with cold eyes fixedly regarding her. All she knew of the
world being derived from nursery-tales, she concluded that the wise
woman was an ogress, carrying her home to eat her.
I have already said that the princess was, at this time of her life,
such a low-minded creature, that severity had greater influence over
her than kindness. She understood terror better far than tenderness.
When the wise woman looked at her thus, she fell on her knees, and held
up her hands to her, crying,—
“Oh, don’t eat me! don’t eat me!”
Now this being the best _she_ could do, it was a sign she was a low
creature. Think of it—to kick at kindness, and kneel from terror. But
the sternness on the face of the wise woman came from the same heart
and the same feeling as the kindness that had shone from it before. The
only thing that could save the princess from her hatefulness, was that
she should be made to mind somebody else than her own miserable
Somebody.
Without saying a word, the wise woman reached down her hand, took one
of Rosamond’s, and, lifting her to her feet, led her along through the
moonlight. Every now and then a gush of obstinacy would well up in the
heart of the princess, and she would give a great ill-tempered tug, and
pull her hand away; but then the wise woman would gaze down upon her
with such a look, that she instantly sought again the hand she had
rejected, in pure terror lest she should be eaten upon the spot. And so
they would walk on again; and when the wind blew the folds of the cloak
against the princess, she found them soft as her mother’s camel-hair
shawl.
After a little while the wise woman began to sing to her, and the
princess could not help listening; for the soft wind amongst the low
dry bushes of the heath, the rustle of their own steps, and the
trailing of the wise woman’s cloak, were the only sounds beside.
And this is the song she sang:—
Out in the cold,
With a thin-worn fold
Of withered gold
Around her rolled,
Hangs in the air the weary moon.
She is old, old, old;
And her bones all cold,
And her tales all told,
And her things all sold,
And she has no breath to croon.
Like a castaway clout,
She is quite shut out!
She might call and shout,
But no one about
Would ever call back, “Who’s there?”
There is never a hut,
Not a door to shut,
Not a footpath or rut,
Long road or short cut,
Leading to anywhere!
She is all alone
Like a dog-picked bone,
The poor old crone!
She fain would groan,
But she cannot find the breath.
She once had a fire;
But she built it no higher,
And only sat nigher
Till she saw it expire;
And now she is cold as death.
She never will smile
All the lonesome while.
Oh the mile after mile,
And never a stile!
And never a tree or a stone!
She has not a tear:
Afar and anear
It is all so drear,
But she does not care,
Her heart is as dry as a bone.
None to come near her!
No one to cheer her!
No one to jeer her!
No one to hear her!
Not a thing to lift and hold!
She is always awake,
But her heart will not break:
She can only quake,
Shiver, and shake:
The old woman is very cold.
As strange as the song, was the crooning wailing tune that the wise
woman sung. At the first note almost, you would have thought she wanted
to frighten the princess; and so indeed she did. For when people _will_
be naughty, they have to be frightened, and they are not expected to
like it. The princess grew angry, pulled her hand away, and cried,—
“_You_ are the ugly old woman. I hate you!”
Therewith she stood still, expecting the wise woman to stop also,
perhaps coax her to go on: if she did, she was determined not to move a
step. But the wise woman never even looked about: she kept walking on
steadily, the same pace as before. Little Obstinate thought for certain
she would turn; for she regarded herself as much too precious to be
left behind. But on and on the wise woman went, until she had vanished
away in the dim moonlight. Then all at once the princess perceived that
she was left alone with the moon, looking down on her from the height
of her loneliness. She was horribly frightened, and began to run after
the wise woman, calling aloud. But the song she had just heard came
back to the sound of her own running feet,—
All all alone,
Like a dog-picked bone!
and again,—
She might call and shout,
And no one about
Would ever call back, “Who’s there?”
and she screamed as she ran. How she wished she knew the old woman’s
name, that she might call it after her through the moonlight!
But the wise woman had, in truth, heard the first sound of her running
feet, and stopped and turned, waiting. What with running and crying,
however, and a fall or two as she ran, the princess never saw her until
she fell right into her arms—and the same moment into a fresh rage; for
as soon as any trouble was over the princess was always ready to begin
another. The wise woman therefore pushed her away, and walked on; while
the princess ran scolding and storming after her. She had to run till,
from very fatigue, her rudeness ceased. Her heart gave way; she burst
into tears, and ran on silently weeping.
A minute more and the wise woman stooped, and lifting her in her arms,
folded her cloak around her. Instantly she fell asleep, and slept as
soft and as soundly as if she had been in her own bed. She slept till
the moon went down; she slept till the sun rose up; she slept till he
climbed the topmost sky; she slept till he went down again, and the
poor old moon came peaking and peering out once more: and all that time
the wise woman went walking on and on very fast. And now they had
reached a spot where a few fir-trees came to meet them through the
moonlight.
At the same time the princess awaked, and popping her head out between
the folds of the wise woman’s cloak—a very ugly little owlet she
looked—saw that they were entering the wood. Now there is something
awful about every wood, especially in the moonlight; and perhaps a
fir-wood is more awful than other woods. For one thing, it lets a
little more light through, rendering the darkness a little more
visible, as it were; and then the trees go stretching away up towards
the moon, and look as if they cared nothing about the creatures below
them—not like the broad trees with soft wide leaves that, in the
darkness even, look sheltering. So the princess is not to be blamed
that she was very much frightened. She is hardly to be blamed either
that, assured the wise woman was an ogress carrying her to her castle
to eat her up, she began again to kick and scream violently, as those
of my readers who are of the same sort as herself will consider the
right and natural thing to do. The wrong in her was this—that she had
led such a bad life, that she did not know a good woman when she saw
her; took her for one like herself, even after she had slept in her
arms.
Immediately the wise woman set her down, and, walking on, within a few
paces vanished among the trees. Then the cries of the princess rent the
air, but the fir-trees never heeded her; not one of their hard little
needles gave a single shiver for all the noise she made. But there were
creatures in the forest who were soon quite as much interested in her
cries as the fir-trees were indifferent to them. They began to hearken
and howl and snuff about, and run hither and thither, and grin with
their white teeth, and light up the green lamps in their eyes. In a
minute or two a whole army of wolves and hyenas were rushing from all
quarters through the pillar like stems of the fir-trees, to the place
where she stood calling them, without knowing it. The noise she made
herself, however, prevented her from hearing either their howls or the
soft pattering of their many trampling feet as they bounded over the
fallen fir needles and cones.
One huge old wolf had outsped the rest—not that he could run faster,
but that from experience he could more exactly judge whence the cries
came, and as he shot through the wood, she caught sight at last of his
lamping eyes coming swiftly nearer and nearer. Terror silenced her. She
stood with her mouth open, as if she were going to eat the wolf, but
she had no breath to scream with, and her tongue curled up in her mouth
like a withered and frozen leaf. She could do nothing but stare at the
coming monster. And now he was taking a few shorter bounds, measuring
the distance for the one final leap that should bring him upon her,
when out stepped the wise woman from behind the very tree by which she
had set the princess down, caught the wolf by the throat half-way in
his last spring, shook him once, and threw him from her dead. Then she
turned towards the princess, who flung herself into her arms, and was
instantly lapped in the folds of her cloak.
But now the huge army of wolves and hyenas had rushed like a sea around
them, whose waves leaped with hoarse roar and hollow yell up against
the wise woman. But she, like a strong stately vessel, moved unhurt
through the midst of them. Ever as they leaped against her cloak, they
dropped and slunk away back through the crowd. Others ever succeeded,
and ever in their turn fell, and drew back confounded. For some time
she walked on attended and assailed on all sides by the howling pack.
Suddenly they turned and swept away, vanishing in the depths of the
forest. She neither slackened nor hastened her step, but went walking
on as before.
In a little while she unfolded her cloak, and let the princess look
out. The firs had ceased; and they were on a lofty height of moorland,
stony and bare and dry, with tufts of heather and a few small plants
here and there. About the heath, on every side, lay the forest, looking
in the moonlight like a cloud; and above the forest, like the shaven
crown of a monk, rose the bare moor over which they were walking.
Presently, a little way in front of them, the princess espied a
whitewashed cottage, gleaming in the moon. As they came nearer, she saw
that the roof was covered with thatch, over which the moss had grown
green. It was a very simple, humble place, not in the least terrible to
look at, and yet, as soon as she saw it, her fear again awoke, and
always, as soon as her fear awoke, the trust of the princess fell into
a dead sleep. Foolish and useless as she might by this time have known
it, she once more began kicking and screaming, whereupon, yet once
more, the wise woman set her down on the heath, a few yards from the
back of the cottage, and saying only, “No one ever gets into my house
who does not knock at the door, and ask to come in,” disappeared round
the corner of the cottage, leaving the princess alone with the moon—two
white faces in the cone of the night.
III.
The moon stared at the princess, and the princess stared at the moon;
but the moon had the best of it, and the princess began to cry. And now
the question was between the moon and the cottage. The princess thought
she knew the worst of the moon, and she knew nothing at all about the
cottage, therefore she would stay with the moon. Strange, was it not,
that she should have been so long with the wise woman, and yet know
_nothing_ about that cottage? As for the moon, she did not by any means
know the worst of her, or even, that, if she were to fall asleep where
she could find her, the old witch would certainly do her best to twist
her face.
But she had scarcely sat a moment longer before she was assailed by all
sorts of fresh fears. First of all, the soft wind blowing gently
through the dry stalks of the heather and its thousands of little bells
raised a sweet rustling, which the princess took for the hissing of
serpents, for you know she had been naughty for so long that she could
not in a great many things tell the good from the bad. Then nobody
could deny that there, all round about the heath, like a ring of
darkness, lay the gloomy fir-wood, and the princess knew what it was
full of, and every now and then she thought she heard the howling of
its wolves and hyenas. And who could tell but some of them might break
from their covert and sweep like a shadow across the heath? Indeed, it
was not once nor twice that for a moment she was fully persuaded she
saw a great beast coming leaping and bounding through the moonlight to
have her all to himself. She did not know that not a single evil
creature dared set foot on that heath, or that, if one should do so, it
would that instant wither up and cease. If an army of them had rushed
to invade it, it would have melted away on the edge of it, and ceased
like a dying wave.—She even imagined that the moon was slowly coming
nearer and nearer down the sky to take her and freeze her to death in
her arms. The wise woman, too, she felt sure, although her cottage
looked asleep, was watching her at some little window. In this,
however, she would have been quite right, if she had only imagined
enough—namely, that the wise woman was watching _over_ her from the
little window. But after all, somehow, the thought of the wise woman
was less frightful than that of any of her other terrors, and at length
she began to wonder whether it might not turn out that she was no
ogress, but only a rude, ill-bred, tyrannical, yet on the whole not
altogether ill-meaning person. Hardly had the possibility arisen in her
mind, before she was on her feet: if the woman was any thing short of
an ogress, her cottage must be better than that horrible loneliness,
with nothing in all the world but a stare; and even an ogress had at
least the shape and look of a human being.
She darted round the end of the cottage to find the front. But, to her
surprise, she came only to another back, for no door was to be seen.
She tried the farther end, but still no door. She must have passed it
as she ran—but no—neither in gable nor in side was any to be found.
A cottage without a door!—she rushed at it in a rage and kicked at the
wall with her feet. But the wall was hard as iron, and hurt her sadly
through her gay silken slippers. She threw herself on the heath, which
came up to the walls of the cottage on every side, and roared and
screamed with rage. Suddenly, however, she remembered how her screaming
had brought the horde of wolves and hyenas about her in the forest,
and, ceasing at once, lay still, gazing yet again at the moon. And then
came the thought of her parents in the palace at home. In her mind’s
eye she saw her mother sitting at her embroidery with the tears
dropping upon it, and her father staring into the fire as if he were
looking for her in its glowing caverns. It is true that if they had
both been in tears by her side because of her naughtiness, she would
not have cared a straw; but now her own forlorn condition somehow
helped her to understand their grief at having lost her, and not only a
great longing to be back in her comfortable home, but a feeble flutter
of genuine love for her parents awoke in her heart as well, and she
burst into real tears—soft, mournful tears—very different from those of
rage and disappointment to which she was so much used. And another very
remarkable thing was that the moment she began to love her father and
mother, she began to wish to see the wise woman again. The idea of her
being an ogress vanished utterly, and she thought of her only as one to
take her in from the moon, and the loneliness, and the terrors of the
forest-haunted heath, and hide her in a cottage with not even a door
for the horrid wolves to howl against.
But the old woman—as the princess called her, not knowing that her real
name was the Wise Woman—had told her that she must knock at the door:
how was she to do that when there was no door? But again she bethought
herself—that, if she could not do all she was told, she could, at
least, do a part of it: if she could not knock at the door, she could
at least knock—say on the wall, for there was nothing else to knock
upon—and perhaps the old woman would hear her, and lift her in by some
window. Thereupon, she rose at once to her feet, and picking up a
stone, began to knock on the wall with it. A loud noise was the result,
and she found she was knocking on the very door itself. For a moment
she feared the old woman would be offended, but the next, there came a
voice, saying,
“Who is there?”
The princess answered,
“Please, old woman, I did not mean to knock so loud.”
To this there came no reply.
Then the princess knocked again, this time with her knuckles, and the
voice came again, saying,
“Who is there?”
And the princess answered,
“Rosamond.”
Then a second time there was silence. But the princess soon ventured to
knock a third time.
“What do you want?” said the voice.
“Oh, please, let me in!” said the princess.
“The moon will keep staring at me; and I hear the wolves in the wood.”
Then the door opened, and the princess entered. She looked all around,
but saw nothing of the wise woman.
It was a single bare little room, with a white deal table, and a few
old wooden chairs, a fire of fir-wood on the hearth, the smoke of which
smelt sweet, and a patch of thick-growing heath in one corner. Poor as
it was, compared to the grand place Rosamond had left, she felt no
little satisfaction as she shut the door, and looked around her. And
what with the sufferings and terrors she had left outside, the new kind
of tears she had shed, the love she had begun to feel for her parents,
and the trust she had begun to place in the wise woman, it seemed to
her as if her soul had grown larger of a sudden, and she had left the
days of her childishness and naughtiness far behind her. People are so
ready to think themselves changed when it is only their mood that is
changed! Those who are good-tempered because it is a fine day, will be
ill-tempered when it rains: their selves are just the same both days;
only in the one case, the fine weather has got into them, in the other
the rainy. Rosamond, as she sat warming herself by the glow of the
peat-fire, turning over in her mind all that had passed, and feeling
how pleasant the change in her feelings was, began by degrees to think
how very good she had grown, and how very good she was to have grown
good, and how extremely good she must always have been that she was
able to grow so very good as she now felt she had grown; and she became
so absorbed in her self-admiration as never to notice either that the
fire was dying, or that a heap of fir-cones lay in a corner near it.
Suddenly, a great wind came roaring down the chimney, and scattered the
ashes about the floor; a tremendous rain followed, and fell hissing on
the embers; the moon was swallowed up, and there was darkness all about
her. Then a flash of lightning, followed by a peal of thunder, so
terrified the princess, that she cried aloud for the old woman, but
there came no answer to her cry.
Then in her terror the princess grew angry, and saying to herself, “She
must be somewhere in the place, else who was there to open the door to
me?” began to shout and yell, and call the wise woman all the bad names
she had been in the habit of throwing at her nurses. But there came not
a single sound in reply.
Strange to say, the princess never thought of telling herself now how
naughty she was, though that would surely have been reasonable. On the
contrary, she thought she had a perfect right to be angry, for was she
not most desperately ill used—and a princess too? But the wind howled
on, and the rain kept pouring down the chimney, and every now and then
the lightning burst out, and the thunder rushed after it, as if the
great lumbering sound could ever think to catch up with the swift
light!
At length the princess had again grown so angry, frightened, and
miserable, all together, that she jumped up and hurried about the
cottage with outstretched arms, trying to find the wise woman. But
being in a bad temper always makes people stupid, and presently she
struck her forehead such a blow against something—she thought herself
it felt like the old woman’s cloak—that she fell back—not on the floor,
though, but on the patch of heather, which felt as soft and pleasant as
any bed in the palace. There, worn out with weeping and rage, she soon
fell fast asleep.
She dreamed that she was the old cold woman up in the sky, with no home
and no friends, and no nothing at all, not even a pocket; wandering,
wandering forever, over a desert of blue sand, never to get to
anywhere, and never to lie down or die. It was no use stopping to look
about her, for what had she to do but forever look about her as she
went on and on and on—never seeing any thing, and never expecting to
see any thing! The only shadow of a hope she had was, that she might by
slow degrees grow thinner and thinner, until at last she wore away to
nothing at all; only alas! she could not detect the least sign that she
had yet begun to grow thinner. The hopelessness grew at length so
unendurable that she woke with a start. Seeing the face of the wise
woman bending over her, she threw her arms around her neck and held up
her mouth to be kissed. And the kiss of the wise woman was like the
rose-gardens of Damascus.
IV.
The wise woman lifted her tenderly, and washed and dressed her far more
carefully than even her nurse. Then she set her down by the fire, and
prepared her breakfast. The princess was very hungry, and the bread and
milk as good as it could be, so that she thought she had never in her
life eaten any thing nicer. Nevertheless, as soon as she began to have
enough, she said to herself,—
“Ha! I see how it is! The old woman wants to fatten me! That is why she
gives me such nice creamy milk. She doesn’t kill me now because she’s
going to kill me then! She _is_ an ogress, after all!”
Thereupon she laid down her spoon, and would not eat another
mouthful—only followed the basin with longing looks, as the wise woman
carried it away.
When she stopped eating, her hostess knew exactly what she was
thinking; but it was one thing to understand the princess, and quite
another to make the princess understand her: that would require time.
For the present she took no notice, but went about the affairs of the
house, sweeping the floor, brushing down the cobwebs, cleaning the
hearth, dusting the table and chairs, and watering the bed to keep it
fresh and alive—for she never had more than one guest at a time, and
never would allow that guest to go to sleep upon any thing that had no
life in it. All the time she was thus busied, she spoke not a word to
the princess, which, with the princess, went to confirm her notion of
her purposes. But whatever she might have said would have been only
perverted by the princess into yet stronger proof of her evil designs,
for a fancy in her own head would outweigh any multitude of facts in
another’s. She kept staring at the fire, and never looked round to see
what the wise woman might be doing.
By and by she came close up to the back of her chair, and said,
“Rosamond!”
But the princess had fallen into one of her sulky moods, and shut
herself up with her own ugly Somebody; so she never looked round or
even answered the wise woman.
“Rosamond,” she repeated, “I am going out. If you are a good girl, that
is, if you do as I tell you, I will carry you back to your father and
mother the moment I return.”
The princess did not take the least notice.
“Look at me, Rosamond,” said the wise woman.
But Rosamond never moved—never even shrugged her shoulders—perhaps
because they were already up to her ears, and could go no farther.
“I want to help you to do what I tell you,” said the wise woman. “Look
at me.”
Still Rosamond was motionless and silent, saying only to herself,
“I know what she’s after! She wants to show me her horrid teeth. But I
won’t look. I’m not going to be frightened out of my senses to please
her.”
“You had better look, Rosamond. Have you forgotten how you kissed me
this morning?”
But Rosamond now regarded that little throb of affection as a momentary
weakness into which the deceitful ogress had betrayed her, and almost
despised herself for it. She was one of those who the more they are
coaxed are the more disagreeable. For such, the wise woman had an awful
punishment, but she remembered that the princess had been very ill
brought up, and therefore wished to try her with all gentleness first.
She stood silent for a moment, to see what effect her words might have.
But Rosamond only said to herself,—
“She wants to fatten and eat me.”
And it was such a little while since she had looked into the wise
woman’s loving eyes, thrown her arms round her neck, and kissed her!
“Well,” said the wise woman gently, after pausing as long as it seemed
possible she might bethink herself, “I must tell you then without; only
whoever listens with her back turned, listens but half, and gets but
half the help.”
“She wants to fatten me,” said the princess.
“You must keep the cottage tidy while I am out. When I come back, I
must see the fire bright, the hearth swept, and the kettle boiling; no
dust on the table or chairs, the windows clear, the floor clean, and
the heather in blossom—which last comes of sprinkling it with water
three times a day. When you are hungry, put your hand into that hole in
the wall, and you will find a meal.”
“She wants to fatten me,” said the princess.
“But on no account leave the house till I come back,” continued the
wise woman, “or you will grievously repent it. Remember what you have
already gone through to reach it. Dangers lie all around this cottage
of mine; but inside, it is the safest place—in fact the only quite safe
place in all the country.”
“She means to eat me,” said the princess, “and therefore wants to
frighten me from running away.”
She heard the voice no more. Then, suddenly startled at the thought of
being alone, she looked hastily over her shoulder. The cottage was
indeed empty of all visible life. It was soundless, too: there was not
even a ticking clock or a flapping flame. The fire burned still and
smouldering-wise; but it was all the company she had, and she turned
again to stare into it.
Soon she began to grow weary of having nothing to do. Then she
remembered that the old woman, as she called her, had told her to keep
the house tidy.
“The miserable little pig-sty!” she said. “Where’s the use of keeping
such a hovel clean!”
But in truth she would have been glad of the employment, only just
because she had been told to do it, she was unwilling; for there _are_
people—however unlikely it may seem—who object to doing a thing for no
other reason than that it is required of them.
“I am a princess,” she said, “and it is very improper to ask me to do
such a thing.”
She might have judged it quite as suitable for a princess to sweep away
the dust as to sit the centre of a world of dirt. But just because she
ought, she wouldn’t. Perhaps she feared that if she gave in to doing
her duty once, she might have to do it always—which was true enough—for
that was the very thing for which she had been specially born.
Unable, however, to feel quite comfortable in the resolve to neglect
it, she said to herself, “I’m sure there’s time enough for such a nasty
job as that!” and sat on, watching the fire as it burned away, the
glowing red casting off white flakes, and sinking lower and lower on
the hearth.
By and by, merely for want of something to do, she would see what the
old woman had left for her in the hole of the wall. But when she put in
her hand she found nothing there, except the dust which she ought by
this time to have wiped away. Never reflecting that the wise woman had
told her she would find food there _when she was hungry_, she flew into
one of her furies, calling her a cheat, and a thief, and a liar, and an
ugly old witch, and an ogress, and I do not know how many wicked names
besides. She raged until she was quite exhausted, and then fell fast
asleep on her chair. When she awoke the fire was out.
By this time she was hungry; but without looking in the hole, she began
again to storm at the wise woman, in which labor she would no doubt
have once more exhausted herself, had not something white caught her
eye: it was the corner of a napkin hanging from the hole in the wall.
She bounded to it, and there was a dinner for her of something
strangely good—one of her favorite dishes, only better than she had
ever tasted it before. This might surely have at least changed her mood
towards the wise woman; but she only grumbled to herself that it was as
it ought to be, ate up the food, and lay down on the bed, never
thinking of fire, or dust, or water for the heather.
The wind began to moan about the cottage, and grew louder and louder,
till a great gust came down the chimney, and again scattered the white
ashes all over the place. But the princess was by this time fast
asleep, and never woke till the wind had sunk to silence. One of the
consequences, however, of sleeping when one ought to be awake is waking
when one ought to be asleep; and the princess awoke in the black
midnight, and found enough to keep her awake. For although the wind had
fallen, there was a far more terrible howling than that of the wildest
wind all about the cottage. Nor was the howling all; the air was full
of strange cries; and everywhere she heard the noise of claws
scratching against the house, which seemed all doors and windows, so
crowded were the sounds, and from so many directions. All the night
long she lay half swooning, yet listening to the hideous noises. But
with the first glimmer of morning they ceased.
Then she said to herself, “How fortunate it was that I woke! They would
have eaten me up if I had been asleep.” The miserable little wretch
actually talked as if she had kept them out! If she had done her work
in the day, she would have slept through the terrors of the darkness,
and awaked fearless; whereas now, she had in the storehouse of her
heart a whole harvest of agonies, reaped from the dun fields of the
night!
They were neither wolves nor hyenas which had caused her such dismay,
but creatures of the air, more frightful still, which, as soon as the
smoke of the burning fir-wood ceased to spread itself abroad, and the
sun was a sufficient distance down the sky, and the lone cold woman was
out, came flying and howling about the cottage, trying to get in at
every door and window. Down the chimney they would have got, but that
at the heart of the fire there always lay a certain fir-cone, which
looked like solid gold red-hot, and which, although it might easily get
covered up with ashes, so as to be quite invisible, was continually in
a glow fit to kindle all the fir-cones in the world; this it was which
had kept the horrible birds—some say they have a claw at the tip of
every wing-feather—from tearing the poor naughty princess to pieces,
and gobbling her up.
When she rose and looked about her, she was dismayed to see what a
state the cottage was in. The fire was out, and the windows were all
dim with the wings and claws of the dirty birds, while the bed from
which she had just risen was brown and withered, and half its purple
bells had fallen. But she consoled herself that she could set all to
rights in a few minutes—only she must breakfast first. And, sure
enough, there was a basin of the delicious bread and milk ready for her
in the hole of the wall!
After she had eaten it, she felt comfortable, and sat for a long time
building castles in the air—till she was actually hungry again, without
having done an atom of work. She ate again, and was idle again, and ate
again. Then it grew dark, and she went trembling to bed, for now she
remembered the horrors of the last night. This time she never slept at
all, but spent the long hours in grievous terror, for the noises were
worse than before. She vowed she would not pass another night in such a
hateful haunted old shed for all the ugly women, witches, and ogresses
in the wide world. In the morning, however, she fell asleep, and slept
late.
Breakfast was of course her first thought, after which she could not
avoid that of work. It made her very miserable, but she feared the
consequences of being found with it undone. A few minutes before noon,
she actually got up, took her pinafore for a duster, and proceeded to
dust the table. But the wood-ashes flew about so, that it seemed
useless to attempt getting rid of them, and she sat down again to think
what was to be done. But there is very little indeed to be done when we
will not do that which we have to do.
Her first thought now was to run away at once while the sun was high,
and get through the forest before night came on. She fancied she could
easily go back the way she had come, and get home to her father’s
palace. But not the most experienced traveller in the world can ever go
back the way the wise woman has brought him.
She got up and went to the door. It was locked! What could the old
woman have meant by telling her not to leave the cottage? She was
indignant.
The wise woman had meant to make it difficult, but not impossible.
Before the princess, however, could find the way out, she heard a hand
at the door, and darted in terror behind it. The wise woman opened it,
and, leaving it open, walked straight to the hearth. Rosamond
immediately slid out, ran a little way, and then laid herself down in
the long heather.
V.
The wise woman walked straight up to the hearth, looked at the fire,
looked at the bed, glanced round the room, and went up to the table.
When she saw the one streak in the thick dust which the princess had
left there, a smile, half sad, half pleased, like the sun peeping
through a cloud on a rainy day in spring, gleamed over her face. She
went at once to the door, and called in a loud voice,
“Rosamond, come to me.”
All the wolves and hyenas, fast asleep in the wood, heard her voice,
and shivered in their dreams. No wonder then that the princess
trembled, and found herself compelled, she could not understand how, to
obey the summons. She rose, like the guilty thing she felt, forsook of
herself the hiding-place she had chosen, and walked slowly back to the
cottage she had left full of the signs of her shame. When she entered,
she saw the wise woman on her knees, building up the fire with
fir-cones. Already the flame was climbing through the heap in all
directions, crackling gently, and sending a sweet aromatic odor through
the dusty cottage.
“That is my part of the work,” she said, rising. “Now you do yours. But
first let me remind you that if you had not put it off, you would have
found it not only far easier, but by and by quite pleasant work, much
more pleasant than you can imagine now; nor would you have found the
time go wearily: you would neither have slept in the day and let the
fire out, nor waked at night and heard the howling of the beast-birds.
More than all, you would have been glad to see me when I came back; and
would have leaped into my arms instead of standing there, looking so
ugly and foolish.”
As she spoke, suddenly she held up before the princess a tiny mirror,
so clear that nobody looking into it could tell what it was made of, or
even see it at all—only the thing reflected in it. Rosamond saw a child
with dirty fat cheeks, greedy mouth, cowardly eyes—which, not daring to
look forward, seemed trying to hide behind an impertinent nose—stooping
shoulders, tangled hair, tattered clothes, and smears and stains
everywhere. That was what she had made herself. And to tell the truth,
she was shocked at the sight, and immediately began, in her dirty
heart, to lay the blame on the wise woman, because she had taken her
away from her nurses and her fine clothes; while all the time she knew
well enough that, close by the heather-bed, was the loveliest little
well, just big enough to wash in, the water of which was always
springing fresh from the ground, and running away through the wall.
Beside it lay the whitest of linen towels, with a comb made of
mother-of-pearl, and a brush of fir-needles, any one of which she had
been far too lazy to use. She dashed the glass out of the wise woman’s
hand, and there it lay, broken into a thousand pieces!
Without a word, the wise woman stooped, and gathered the fragments—did
not leave searching until she had gathered the last atom, and she laid
them all carefully, one by one, in the fire, now blazing high on the
hearth. Then she stood up and looked at the princess, who had been
watching her sulkily.
“Rosamond,” she said, with a countenance awful in its sternness, “until
you have cleansed this room—”
“She calls it a room!” sneered the princess to herself.
“You shall have no morsel to eat. You may drink of the well, but
nothing else you shall have. When the work I set you is done, you will
find food in the same place as before. I am going from home again; and
again I warn you not to leave the house.”
“She calls it a house!—It’s a good thing she’s going out of it anyhow!”
said the princess, turning her back for mere rudeness, for she was one
who, even if she liked a thing before, would dislike it the moment any
person in authority over her desired her to do it.
When she looked again, the wise woman had vanished.
Thereupon the princess ran at once to the door, and tried to open it;
but open it would not. She searched on all sides, but could discover no
way of getting out. The windows would not open—at least she could not
open them; and the only outlet seemed the chimney, which she was afraid
to try because of the fire, which looked angry, she thought, and shot
out green flames when she went near it. So she sat down to consider.
One may well wonder what room for consideration there was—with all her
work lying undone behind her. She sat thus, however, considering, as
she called it, until hunger began to sting her, when she jumped up and
put her hand as usual in the hole of the wall: there was nothing there.
She fell straight into one of her stupid rages; but neither her hunger
nor the hole in the wall heeded her rage. Then, in a burst of
self-pity, she fell a-weeping, but neither the hunger nor the hole
cared for her tears. The darkness began to come on, and her hunger grew
and grew, and the terror of the wild noises of the last night invaded
her. Then she began to feel cold, and saw that the fire was dying. She
darted to the heap of cones, and fed it. It blazed up cheerily, and she
was comforted a little. Then she thought with herself it would surely
be better to give in so far, and do a little work, than die of hunger.
So catching up a duster, she began upon the table. The dust flew about
and nearly choked her. She ran to the well to drink, and was refreshed
and encouraged. Perceiving now that it was a tedious plan to wipe the
dust from the table on to the floor, whence it would have all to be
swept up again, she got a wooden platter, wiped the dust into that,
carried it to the fire, and threw it in. But all the time she was
getting more and more hungry and, although she tried the hole again and
again, it was only to become more and more certain that work she must
if she would eat.
At length all the furniture was dusted, and she began to sweep the
floor, which happily, she thought of sprinkling with water, as from the
window she had seen them do to the marble court of the palace. That
swept, she rushed again to the hole—but still no food! She was on the
verge of another rage, when the thought came that she might have
forgotten something. To her dismay she found that table and chairs and
every thing was again covered with dust—not so badly as before,
however. Again she set to work, driven by hunger, and drawn by the hope
of eating, and yet again, after a second careful wiping, sought the
hole. But no! nothing was there for her! What could it mean?
Her asking this question was a sign of progress: it showed that she
expected the wise woman to keep her word. Then she bethought her that
she had forgotten the household utensils, and the dishes and plates,
some of which wanted to be washed as well as dusted.
Faint with hunger, she set to work yet again. One thing made her think
of another, until at length she had cleaned every thing she could think
of. Now surely she must find some food in the hole!
When this time also there was nothing, she began once more to abuse the
wise woman as false and treacherous;—but ah! there was the bed
unwatered! That was soon amended.—Still no supper! Ah! there was the
hearth unswept, and the fire wanted making up!—Still no supper! What
else could there be? She was at her wits’ end, and in very weariness,
not laziness this time, sat down and gazed into the fire. There, as she
gazed, she spied something brilliant,—shining even, in the midst of the
fire: it was the little mirror all whole again; but little she knew
that the dust which she had thrown into the fire had helped to heal it.
She drew it out carefully, and, looking into it, saw, not indeed the
ugly creature she had seen there before, but still a very dirty little
animal; whereupon she hurried to the well, took off her clothes,
plunged into it, and washed herself clean. Then she brushed and combed
her hair, made her clothes as tidy as might be, and ran to the hole in
the wall: there was a huge basin of bread and milk!
Never had she eaten any thing with half the relish! Alas! however, when
she had finished, she did not wash the basin, but left it as it was,
revealing how entirely all the rest had been done only from hunger.
Then she threw herself on the heather, and was fast asleep in a moment.
Never an evil bird came near her all that night, nor had she so much as
one troubled dream.
In the morning as she lay awake before getting up, she spied what
seemed a door behind the tall eight-day clock that stood silent in the
corner.
“Ah!” she thought, “that must be the way out!” and got up instantly.
The first thing she did, however, was to go to the hole in the wall.
Nothing was there.
“Well, I am hardly used!” she cried aloud. “All that cleaning for the
cross old woman yesterday, and this for my trouble,—nothing for
breakfast! Not even a crust of bread! Does Mistress Ogress fancy a
princess will bear that?”
The poor foolish creature seemed to think that the work of one day
ought to serve for the next day too! But that is nowhere the way in the
whole universe. How could there be a universe in that case? And even
she never dreamed of applying the same rule to her breakfast.
“How good I was all yesterday!” she said, “and how hungry and ill used
I am to-day!”
But she would _not_ be a slave, and do over again to-day what she had
done only last night! _She_ didn’t care about her breakfast! She might
have it no doubt if she dusted all the wretched place again, but she
was not going to do that—at least, without seeing first what lay behind
the clock!
Off she darted, and putting her hand behind the clock found the latch
of a door. It lifted, and the door opened a little way. By squeezing
hard, she managed to get behind the clock, and so through the door. But
how she stared, when instead of the open heath, she found herself on
the marble floor of a large and stately room, lighted only from above.
Its walls were strengthened by pilasters, and in every space between
was a large picture, from cornice to floor. She did not know what to
make of it. Surely she had run all round the cottage, and certainly had
seen nothing of this size near it! She forgot that she had also run
round what she took for a hay-mow, a peat-stack, and several other
things which looked of no consequence in the moonlight.
“So, then,” she cried, “the old woman _is_ a cheat! I believe she’s an
ogress, after all, and lives in a palace—though she pretends it’s only
a cottage, to keep people from suspecting that she eats good little
children like me!”
Had the princess been tolerably tractable, she would, by this time,
have known a good deal about the wise woman’s beautiful house, whereas
she had never till now got farther than the porch. Neither was she at
all in its innermost places now.
But, king’s daughter as she was, she was not a little daunted when,
stepping forward from the recess of the door, she saw what a great
lordly hall it was. She dared hardly look to the other end, it seemed
so far off: so she began to gaze at the things near her, and the
pictures first of all, for she had a great liking for pictures. One in
particular attracted her attention. She came back to it several times,
and at length stood absorbed in it.
A blue summer sky, with white fleecy clouds floating beneath it, hung
over a hill green to the very top, and alive with streams darting down
its sides toward the valley below. On the face of the hill strayed a
flock of sheep feeding, attended by a shepherd and two dogs. A little
way apart, a girl stood with bare feet in a brook, building across it a
bridge of rough stones. The wind was blowing her hair back from her
rosy face. A lamb was feeding close beside her; and a sheepdog was
trying to reach her hand to lick it.
“Oh, how I wish I were that little girl!” said the princess aloud. “I
wonder how it is that some people are made to be so much happier than
others! If I were that little girl, no one would ever call me naughty.”
She gazed and gazed at the picture. At length she said to herself,
“I do not believe it is a picture. It is the real country, with a real
hill, and a real little girl upon it. I shall soon see whether this
isn’t another of the old witch’s cheats!”
She went close up to the picture, lifted her foot, and stepped over the
frame.
“I am free, I am free!” she exclaimed; and she felt the wind upon her
cheek.
The sound of a closing door struck on her ear. She turned—and there was
a blank wall, without door or window, behind her. The hill with the
sheep was before her, and she set out at once to reach it.
Now, if I am asked how this could be, I can only answer, that it was a
result of the interaction of things outside and things inside, of the
wise woman’s skill, and the silly child’s folly. If this does not
satisfy my questioner, I can only add, that the wise woman was able to
do far more wonderful things than this.
VI.
Meantime the wise woman was busy as she always was; and her business
now was with the child of the shepherd and shepherdess, away in the
north. Her name was Agnes.
Her father and mother were poor, and could not give her many things.
Rosamond would have utterly despised the rude, simple playthings she
had. Yet in one respect they were of more value far than hers: the king
bought Rosamond’s with his money; Agnes’s father made hers with his
hands.
And while Agnes had but few things—not seeing many things about her,
and not even knowing that there were many things anywhere, she did not
wish for many things, and was therefore neither covetous nor
avaricious.
She played with the toys her father made her, and thought them the most
wonderful things in the world—windmills, and little crooks, and
water-wheels, and sometimes lambs made all of wool, and dolls made out
of the leg-bones of sheep, which her mother dressed for her; and of
such playthings she was never tired. Sometimes, however, she preferred
playing with stones, which were plentiful, and flowers, which were few,
or the brooks that ran down the hill, of which, although they were
many, she could only play with one at a time, and that, indeed,
troubled her a little—or live lambs that were not all wool, or the
sheep-dogs, which were very friendly with her, and the best of
playfellows, as she thought, for she had no human ones to compare them
with. Neither was she greedy after nice things, but content, as well
she might be, with the homely food provided for her. Nor was she by
nature particularly self-willed or disobedient; she generally did what
her father and mother wished, and believed what they told her. But by
degrees they had spoiled her; and this was the way: they were so proud
of her that they always repeated every thing she said, and told every
thing she did, even when she was present; and so full of admiration of
their child were they, that they wondered and laughed at and praised
things in her which in another child would never have struck them as
the least remarkable, and some things even which would in another have
disgusted them altogether. Impertinent and rude things done by _their_
child they thought _so_ clever! laughing at them as something quite
marvellous; her commonplace speeches were said over again as if they
had been the finest poetry; and the pretty ways which every moderately
good child has were extolled as if the result of her excellent taste,
and the choice of her judgment and will. They would even say sometimes
that she ought not to hear her own praises for fear it should make her
vain, and then whisper them behind their hands, but so loud that she
could not fail to hear every word. The consequence was that she soon
came to believe—so soon, that she could not recall the time when she
did not believe, as the most absolute fact in the universe, that she
was _Somebody;_ that is, she became most immoderately conceited.
Now as the least atom of conceit is a thing to be ashamed of, you may
fancy what she was like with such a quantity of it inside her!
At first it did not show itself outside in any very active form; but
the wise woman had been to the cottage, and had seen her sitting alone,
with such a smile of self-satisfaction upon her face as would have been
quite startling to her, if she had ever been startled at any thing; for
through that smile she could see lying at the root of it the worm that
made it. For some smiles are like the ruddiness of certain apples,
which is owing to a centipede, or other creeping thing, coiled up at
the heart of them. Only her worm had a face and shape the very image of
her own; and she looked so simpering, and mawkish, and self-conscious,
and silly, that she made the wise woman feel rather sick.
Not that the child was a fool. Had she been, the wise woman would have
only pitied and loved her, instead of feeling sick when she looked at
her. She had very fair abilities, and were she once but made humble,
would be capable not only of doing a good deal in time, but of
beginning at once to grow to no end. But, if she were not made humble,
her growing would be to a mass of distorted shapes all huddled
together; so that, although the body she now showed might grow up
straight and well-shaped and comely to behold, the new body that was
growing inside of it, and would come out of it when she died, would be
ugly, and crooked this way and that, like an aged hawthorn that has
lived hundreds of years exposed upon all sides to salt sea-winds.
As time went on, this disease of self-conceit went on too, gradually
devouring the good that was in her. For there is no fault that does not
bring its brothers and sisters and cousins to live with it. By degrees,
from thinking herself so clever, she came to fancy that whatever seemed
to her, must of course be the correct judgment, and whatever she
wished, the right thing; and grew so obstinate, that at length her
parents feared to thwart her in any thing, knowing well that she would
never give in. But there are victories far worse than defeats; and to
overcome an angel too gentle to put out all his strength, and ride away
in triumph on the back of a devil, is one of the poorest.
So long as she was left to take her own way and do as she would, she
gave her parents little trouble. She would play about by herself in the
little garden with its few hardy flowers, or amongst the heather where
the bees were busy; or she would wander away amongst the hills, and be
nobody knew where, sometimes from morning to night; nor did her parents
venture to find fault with her.
She never went into rages like the princess, and would have thought
Rosamond—oh, so ugly and vile! if she had seen her in one of her
passions. But she was no better, for all that, and was quite as ugly in
the eyes of the wise woman, who could not only see but read her face.
What is there to choose between a face distorted to hideousness by
anger, and one distorted to silliness by self-complacency? True, there
is more hope of helping the angry child out of her form of selfishness
than the conceited child out of hers; but on the other hand, the
conceited child was not so terrible or dangerous as the wrathful one.
The conceited one, however, was sometimes very angry, and then her
anger was more spiteful than the other’s; and, again, the wrathful one
was often very conceited too. So that, on the whole, of two very
unpleasant creatures, I would say that the king’s daughter would have
been the worse, had not the shepherd’s been quite as bad. But, as I
have said, the wise woman had her eye upon her: she saw that something
special must be done, else she would be one of those who kneel to their
own shadows till feet grow on their knees; then go down on their hands
till their hands grow into feet; then lay their faces on the ground
till they grow into snouts; when at last they are a hideous sort of
lizards, each of which believes himself the best, wisest, and loveliest
being in the world, yea, the very centre of the universe. And so they
run about forever looking for their own shadows, that they may worship
them, and miserable because they cannot find them, being themselves too
near the ground to have any shadows; and what becomes of them at last
there is but one who knows.
The wise woman, therefore, one day walked up to the door of the
shepherd’s cottage, dressed like a poor woman, and asked for a drink of
water. The shepherd’s wife looked at her, liked her, and brought her a
cup of milk. The wise woman took it, for she made it a rule to accept
every kindness that was offered her.
Agnes was not by nature a greedy girl, as I have said; but self-conceit
will go far to generate every other vice under the sun. Vanity, which
is a form of self-conceit, has repeatedly shown itself as the deepest
feeling in the heart of a horrible murderess.
That morning, at breakfast, her mother had stinted her in milk—just a
little—that she might have enough to make some milk-porridge for their
dinner. Agnes did not mind it at the time, but when she saw the milk
now given to a beggar, as she called the wise woman—though, surely, one
might ask a draught of water, and accept a draught of milk, without
being a beggar in any such sense as Agnes’s contemptuous use of the
word implied—a cloud came upon her forehead, and a double vertical
wrinkle settled over her nose. The wise woman saw it, for all her
business was with Agnes though she little knew it, and, rising, went
and offered the cup to the child, where she sat with her knitting in a
corner. Agnes looked at it, did not want it, was inclined to refuse it
from a beggar, but thinking it would show her consequence to assert her
rights, took it and drank it up. For whoever is possessed by a devil,
judges with the mind of that devil; and hence Agnes was guilty of such
a meanness as many who are themselves capable of something just as bad
will consider incredible.
The wise woman waited till she had finished it—then, looking into the
empty cup, said:
“You might have given me back as much as you had no claim upon!”
Agnes turned away and made no answer—far less from shame than
indignation.
The wise woman looked at the mother.
“You should not have offered it to her if you did not mean her to have
it,” said the mother, siding with the devil in her child against the
wise woman and her child too. Some foolish people think they take
another’s part when they take the part he takes.
The wise woman said nothing, but fixed her eyes upon her, and soon the
mother hid her face in her apron weeping. Then she turned again to
Agnes, who had never looked round but sat with her back to both, and
suddenly lapped her in the folds of her cloak. When the mother again
lifted her eyes, she had vanished.
Never supposing she had carried away her child, but uncomfortable
because of what she had said to the poor woman, the mother went to the
door, and called after her as she toiled slowly up the hill. But she
never turned her head; and the mother went back into her cottage.
The wise woman walked close past the shepherd and his dogs, and through
the midst of his flock of sheep. The shepherd wondered where she could
be going—right up the hill. There was something strange about her too,
he thought; and he followed her with his eyes as she went up and up.
It was near sunset, and as the sun went down, a gray cloud settled on
the top of the mountain, which his last rays turned into a rosy gold.
Straight into this cloud the shepherd saw the woman hold her pace, and
in it she vanished. He little imagined that his child was under her
cloak.
He went home as usual in the evening, but Agnes had not come in. They
were accustomed to such an absence now and then, and were not at first
frightened; but when it grew dark and she did not appear, the husband
set out with his dogs in one direction, and the wife in another, to
seek their child. Morning came and they had not found her. Then the
whole country-side arose to search for the missing Agnes; but day after
day and night after night passed, and nothing was discovered of or
concerning her, until at length all gave up the search in despair
except the mother, although she was nearly convinced now that the poor
woman had carried her off.
One day she had wandered some distance from her cottage, thinking she
might come upon the remains of her daughter at the foot of some cliff,
when she came suddenly, instead, upon a disconsolate-looking creature
sitting on a stone by the side of a stream.
Her hair hung in tangles from her head; her clothes were tattered, and
through the rents her skin showed in many places; her cheeks were
white, and worn thin with hunger; the hollows were dark under her eyes,
and they stood out scared and wild. When she caught sight of the
shepherdess, she jumped to her feet, and would have run away, but fell
down in a faint.
At first sight the mother had taken her for her own child, but now she
saw, with a pang of disappointment, that she had mistaken. Full of
compassion, nevertheless, she said to herself:
“If she is not my Agnes, she is as much in need of help as if she were.
If I cannot be good to my own, I will be as good as I can to some other
woman’s; and though I should scorn to be consoled for the loss of one
by the presence of another, I yet may find some gladness in rescuing
one child from the death which has taken the other.”
Perhaps her words were not just like these, but her thoughts were. She
took up the child, and carried her home. And this is how Rosamond came
to occupy the place of the little girl whom she had envied in the
picture.
VII.
Notwithstanding the differences between the two girls, which were,
indeed, so many that most people would have said they were not in the
least alike, they were the same in this, that each cared more for her
own fancies and desires than for any thing else in the world. But I
will tell you another difference: the princess was like several
children in one—such was the variety of her moods; and in one mood she
had no recollection or care about any thing whatever belonging to a
previous mood—not even if it had left her but a moment before, and had
been so violent as to make her ready to put her hand in the fire to get
what she wanted. Plainly she was the mere puppet of her moods, and more
than that, any cunning nurse who knew her well enough could call or
send away those moods almost as she pleased, like a showman pulling
strings behind a show. Agnes, on the contrary, seldom changed her mood,
but kept that of calm assured self-satisfaction. Father nor mother had
ever by wise punishment helped her to gain a victory over herself, and
do what she did not like or choose; and their folly in reasoning with
one unreasonable had fixed her in her conceit. She would actually nod
her head to herself in complacent pride that she had stood out against
them. This, however, was not so difficult as to justify even the pride
of having conquered, seeing she loved them so little, and paid so
little attention to the arguments and persuasions they used. Neither,
when she found herself wrapped in the dark folds of the wise woman’s
cloak, did she behave in the least like the princess, for she was not
afraid. “She’ll soon set me down,” she said, too self-important to
suppose that any one would dare do her an injury.
Whether it be a good thing or a bad not to be afraid depends on what
the fearlessness is founded upon. Some have no fear, because they have
no knowledge of the danger: there is nothing fine in that. Some are too
stupid to be afraid: there is nothing fine in that. Some who are not
easily frightened would yet turn their backs and run, the moment they
were frightened: such never had more courage than fear. But the man who
will do his work in spite of his fear is a man of true courage. The
fearlessness of Agnes was only ignorance: she did not know what it was
to be hurt; she had never read a single story of giant, or ogress or
wolf; and her mother had never carried out one of her threats of
punishment. If the wise woman had but pinched her, she would have shown
herself an abject little coward, trembling with fear at every change of
motion so long as she carried her.
Nothing such, however, was in the wise woman’s plan for the curing of
her. On and on she carried her without a word. She knew that if she set
her down she would never run after her like the princess, at least not
before the evil thing was already upon her. On and on she went, never
halting, never letting the light look in, or Agnes look out. She walked
very fast, and got home to her cottage very soon after the princess had
gone from it.
But she did not set Agnes down either in the cottage or in the great
hall. She had other places, none of them alike. The place she had
chosen for Agnes was a strange one—such a one as is to be found nowhere
else in the wide world.
It was a great hollow sphere, made of a substance similar to that of
the mirror which Rosamond had broken, but differently compounded. That
substance no one could see by itself. It had neither door, nor window,
nor any opening to break its perfect roundness.
The wise woman carried Agnes into a dark room, there undressed her,
took from her hand her knitting-needles, and put her, naked as she was
born, into the hollow sphere.
What sort of a place it was she could not tell. She could see nothing
but a faint cold bluish light all about her. She could not feel that
any thing supported her, and yet she did not sink. She stood for a
while, perfectly calm, then sat down. Nothing bad could happen to
_her_—she was so important! And, indeed, it was but this: she had cared
only for Somebody, and now she was going to have only Somebody. Her own
choice was going to be carried a good deal farther for her than she
would have knowingly carried it for herself.
After sitting a while, she wished she had something to do, but nothing
came. A little longer, and it grew wearisome. She would see whether she
could not walk out of the strange luminous dusk that surrounded her.
Walk she found she could, well enough, but walk out she could not. On
and on she went, keeping as much in a straight line as she might, but
after walking until she was thoroughly tired, she found herself no
nearer out of her prison than before. She had not, indeed, advanced a
single step; for, in whatever direction she tried to go, the sphere
turned round and round, answering her feet accordingly. Like a squirrel
in his cage she but kept placing another spot of the cunningly
suspended sphere under her feet, and she would have been still only at
its lowest point after walking for ages.
At length she cried aloud; but there was no answer. It grew dreary and
drearier—in her, that is: outside there was no change. Nothing was
overhead, nothing under foot, nothing on either hand, but the same
pale, faint, bluish glimmer. She wept at last, then grew very angry,
and then sullen; but nobody heeded whether she cried or laughed. It was
all the same to the cold unmoving twilight that rounded her. On and on
went the dreary hours—or did they go at all?—“no change, no pause, no
hope;”—on and on till she _felt_ she was forgotten, and then she grew
strangely still and fell asleep.
The moment she was asleep, the wise woman came, lifted her out, and
laid her in her bosom; fed her with a wonderful milk, which she
received without knowing it; nursed her all the night long, and, just
ere she woke, laid her back in the blue sphere again.
When first she came to herself, she thought the horrors of the
preceding day had been all a dream of the night. But they soon asserted
themselves as facts, for here they were!—nothing to see but a cold blue
light, and nothing to do but see it. Oh, how slowly the hours went by!
She lost all notion of time. If she had been told that she had been
there twenty years, she would have believed it—or twenty minutes—it
would have been all the same: except for weariness, time was for her no
more.
Another night came, and another still, during both of which the wise
woman nursed and fed her. But she knew nothing of that, and the same
one dreary day seemed ever brooding over her.
All at once, on the third day, she was aware that a naked child was
seated beside her. But there was something about the child that made
her shudder. She never looked at Agnes, but sat with her chin sunk on
her chest, and her eyes staring at her own toes. She was the color of
pale earth, with a pinched nose, and a mere slit in her face for a
mouth.
“How ugly she is!” thought Agnes. “What business has she beside me!”
But it was so lonely that she would have been glad to play with a
serpent, and put out her hand to touch her. She touched nothing. The
child, also, put out her hand—but in the direction away from Agnes. And
that was well, for if she had touched Agnes it would have killed her.
Then Agnes said, “Who are you?” And the little girl said, “Who are
you?” “I am Agnes,” said Agnes; and the little girl said, “I am Agnes.”
Then Agnes thought she was mocking her, and said, “You are ugly;” and
the little girl said, “You are ugly.”
Then Agnes lost her temper, and put out her hands to seize the little
girl; but lo! the little girl was gone, and she found herself tugging
at her own hair. She let go; and there was the little girl again! Agnes
was furious now, and flew at her to bite her. But she found her teeth
in her own arm, and the little girl was gone—only to return again; and
each time she came back she was tenfold uglier than before. And now
Agnes hated her with her whole heart.
The moment she hated her, it flashed upon her with a sickening disgust
that the child was not another, but her Self, her Somebody, and that
she was now shut up with her for ever and ever—no more for one moment
ever to be alone. In her agony of despair, sleep descended, and she
slept.
When she woke, there was the little girl, heedless, ugly, miserable,
staring at her own toes. All at once, the creature began to smile, but
with such an odious, self-satisfied expression, that Agnes felt ashamed
of seeing her. Then she began to pat her own cheeks, to stroke her own
body, and examine her finger-ends, nodding her head with satisfaction.
Agnes felt that there could not be such another hateful, ape-like
creature, and at the same time was perfectly aware she was only doing
outside of her what she herself had been doing, as long as she could
remember, inside of her.
She turned sick at herself, and would gladly have been put out of
existence, but for three days the odious companionship went on. By the
third day, Agnes was not merely sick but ashamed of the life she had
hitherto led, was despicable in her own eyes, and astonished that she
had never seen the truth concerning herself before.
The next morning she woke in the arms of the wise woman; the horror had
vanished from her sight, and two heavenly eyes were gazing upon her.
She wept and clung to her, and the more she clung, the more tenderly
did the great strong arms close around her.
When she had lain thus for a while, the wise woman carried her into her
cottage, and washed her in the little well; then dressed her in clean
garments, and gave her bread and milk. When she had eaten it, she
called her to her, and said very solemnly,—
“Agnes, you must not imagine you are cured. That you are ashamed of
yourself now is no sign that the cause for such shame has ceased. In
new circumstances, especially after you have done well for a while, you
will be in danger of thinking just as much of yourself as before. So
beware of yourself. I am going from home, and leave you in charge of
the house. Do just as I tell you till my return.”
She then gave her the same directions she had formerly given
Rosamond—with this difference, that she told her to go into the
picture-hall when she pleased, showing her the entrance, against which
the clock no longer stood—and went away, closing the door behind her.
VIII.
As soon as she was left alone, Agnes set to work tidying and dusting
the cottage, made up the fire, watered the bed, and cleaned the inside
of the windows: the wise woman herself always kept the outside of them
clean. When she had done, she found her dinner—of the same sort she was
used to at home, but better—in the hole of the wall. When she had eaten
it, she went to look at the pictures.
By this time her old disposition had begun to rouse again. She had been
doing her duty, and had in consequence begun again to think herself
Somebody. However strange it may well seem, to do one’s duty will make
any one conceited who only does it sometimes. Those who do it always
would as soon think of being conceited of eating their dinner as of
doing their duty. What honest boy would pride himself on not picking
pockets? A thief who was trying to reform would. To be conceited of
doing one’s duty is then a sign of how little one does it, and how
little one sees what a contemptible thing it is not to do it. Could any
but a low creature be conceited of not being contemptible? Until our
duty becomes to us common as breathing, we are poor creatures.
So Agnes began to stroke herself once more, forgetting her late
self-stroking companion, and never reflecting that she was now doing
what she had then abhorred. And in this mood she went into the
picture-gallery.
The first picture she saw represented a square in a great city, one
side of which was occupied by a splendid marble palace, with great
flights of broad steps leading up to the door. Between it and the
square was a marble-paved court, with gates of brass, at which stood
sentries in gorgeous uniforms, and to which was affixed the following
proclamation in letters of gold, large enough for Agnes to read:—
“By the will of the King, from this time until further notice, every
stray child found in the realm shall be brought without a moment’s
delay to the palace. Whoever shall be found having done otherwise shall
straightway lose his head by the hand of the public executioner.”
Agnes’s heart beat loud, and her face flushed.
“Can there be such a city in the world?” she said to herself. “If I
only knew where it was, I should set out for it at once. _There_ would
be the place for a clever girl like me!”
Her eyes fell on the picture which had so enticed Rosamond. It was the
very country where her father fed his flocks. Just round the shoulder
of the hill was the cottage where her parents lived, where she was born
and whence she had been carried by the beggar-woman.
“Ah!” she said, “they didn’t know me there. They little thought what I
could be, if I had the chance. If I were but in this good, kind,
loving, generous king’s palace, I should soon be such a great lady as
they never saw! Then they would understand what a good little girl I
had always been! And I shouldn’t forget my poor parents like some I
have read of. _I_ would be generous. _I_ should never be selfish and
proud like girls in story-books!”
As she said this, she turned her back with disdain upon the picture of
her home, and setting herself before the picture of the palace, stared
at it with wide ambitious eyes, and a heart whose every beat was a
throb of arrogant self-esteem.
The shepherd-child was now worse than ever the poor princess had been.
For the wise woman had given her a terrible lesson one of which the
princess was not capable, and she had known what it meant; yet here she
was as bad as ever, therefore worse than before. The ugly creature
whose presence had made her so miserable had indeed crept out of sight
and mind too—but where was she? Nestling in her very heart, where most
of all she had her company, and least of all could see her. The wise
woman had called her out, that Agnes might see what sort of creature
she was herself; but now she was snug in her soul’s bed again, and she
did not even suspect she was there.
After gazing a while at the palace picture, during which her ambitious
pride rose and rose, she turned yet again in condescending mood, and
honored the home picture with one stare more.
“What a poor, miserable spot it is compared with this lordly palace!”
she said.
But presently she spied something in it she had not seen before, and
drew nearer. It was the form of a little girl, building a bridge of
stones over one of the hill-brooks.
“Ah, there I am myself!” she said. “That is just how I used to do.—No,”
she resumed, “it is not me. That snub-nosed little fright could never
be meant for me! It was the frock that made me think so. But it _is_ a
picture of the place. I declare, I can see the smoke of the cottage
rising from behind the hill! What a dull, dirty, insignificant spot it
is! And what a life to lead there!”
She turned once more to the city picture. And now a strange thing took
place. In proportion as the other, to the eyes of her mind, receded
into the background, this, to her present bodily eyes, appeared to come
forward and assume reality. At last, after it had been in this way
growing upon her for some time, she gave a cry of conviction, and said
aloud,—
“I do believe it is real! That frame is only a trick of the woman to
make me fancy it a picture lest I should go and make my fortune. She is
a witch, the ugly old creature! It would serve her right to tell the
king and have her punished for not taking me to the palace—one of his
poor lost children he is so fond of! I should like to see her ugly old
head cut off. Anyhow I will try my luck without asking her leave. How
she has ill used me!”
But at that moment, she heard the voice of the wise woman calling,
“Agnes!” and, smoothing her face, she tried to look as good as she
could, and walked back into the cottage. There stood the wise woman,
looking all round the place, and examining her work. She fixed her eyes
upon Agnes in a way that confused her, and made her cast hers down, for
she felt as if she were reading her thoughts. The wise woman, however,
asked no questions, but began to talk about her work, approving of some
of it, which filled her with arrogance, and showing how some of it
might have been done better, which filled her with resentment. But the
wise woman seemed to take no care of what she might be thinking, and
went straight on with her lesson. By the time it was over, the power of
reading thoughts would not have been necessary to a knowledge of what
was in the mind of Agnes, for it had all come to the surface—that is up
into her face, which is the surface of the mind. Ere it had time to
sink down again, the wise woman caught up the little mirror, and held
it before her: Agnes saw her Somebody—the very embodiment of miserable
conceit and ugly ill-temper. She gave such a scream of horror that the
wise woman pitied her, and laying aside the mirror, took her upon her
knees, and talked to her most kindly and solemnly; in particular about
the necessity of destroying the ugly things that come out of the
heart—so ugly that they make the very face over them ugly also.
And what was Agnes doing all the time the wise woman was talking to
her? Would you believe it?—instead of thinking how to kill the ugly
things in her heart, she was with all her might resolving to be more
careful of her face, that is, to keep down the things in her heart so
that they should not show in her face, she was resolving to be a
hypocrite as well as a self-worshipper. Her heart was wormy, and the
worms were eating very fast at it now.
Then the wise woman laid her gently down upon the heather-bed, and she
fell fast asleep, and had an awful dream about her Somebody.
When she woke in the morning, instead of getting up to do the work of
the house, she lay thinking—to evil purpose. In place of taking her
dream as a warning, and thinking over what the wise woman had said the
night before, she communed with herself in this fashion:—