It was still raining when she got into a carriage at Boston and drove
under the elevated tracks, through the narrow, slippery business
streets, to the hotel. From the windows of her room, as the night fell,
she looked out across the dripping foliage of the Common. Below her, and
robbed from that sacred ground, were the little granite buildings
that housed the entrances to the subway, and for a long time she stood
watching the people crowding into these. Most of them had homes to go
to! In the gathering gloom the arc-lights shone, casting yellow streaks
on the glistening pavement; wagons and carriages plunged into the
maelstrom at the corner; pedestrians dodged and slipped; lightnings
flashed from overhead wires, and clanging trolley cars pushed their
greater bulk through the mass. And presently the higher toned and more
ominous bell of an ambulance sounded on its way to the scene of an
accident.
It was Mathilde who ordered her dinner and pressed her to eat. But
she had no heart for food. In her bright sitting-room, with the shades
tightly drawn, an inexpressible loneliness assailed her. A large
engraving of a picture of a sentimental school hung on the wall: she
could not bear to look at it, and yet her eyes, from time to time, were
fatally drawn thither. It was of a young girl taking leave of her lover,
in early Christian times, before entering the arena. It haunted Honora,
and wrought upon her imagination to such a pitch that she went into her
bedroom to write.
For a long time nothing more was written of the letter than “Dear Uncle
Tom and Aunt Mary”: what to say to them?
“I do not know what you will think of me. I do not know, to-night,
what to think of myself. I have left Howard. It is not because he
was cruel to me, or untrue. He does not love me, nor I him. I
cannot expect you, who have known the happiness of marriage, to
realize the tortures of it without love. My pain in telling you
this now is all the greater because I realize your belief as to the
sacredness of the tie--and it is not your fault that you did not
instil that belief into me. I have had to live and to think and to
suffer for myself. I do not attempt to account for my action, and I
hesitate to lay the blame upon the modern conditions and atmosphere
in which I lived; for I feel that, above all things, I must be
honest with myself.
“My marriage with Howard was a frightful mistake, and I have grown
slowly to realize it, until life with him became insupportable.
Since he does not love me, since his one interest is his business,
my departure makes no great difference to him.
“Dear Aunt Mary and Uncle Tom, I realize that I owe you much
--everything that I am. I do not expect you to understand or to
condone what I have done. I only beg that you will continue to
--love your niece,
“HONORA.”
She tried to review this letter. Incoherent though it were and
incomplete, in her present state of mind she was able to add but a few
words as a postscript. “I will write you my plans in a day or two, when
I see my way more clearly. I would fly to you--but I cannot. I am going
to get a divorce.”
She sat for a time picturing the scene in the sitting-room when they
should read it, and a longing which was almost irresistible seized her
to go back to that shelter. One force alone held her in misery where
she was,--her love for Chiltern; it drew her on to suffer the horrors of
exile and publicity. When she suffered most, his image rose before her,
and she kissed the ring on her hand. Where was he now, on this rainy
night? On the seas?
At the thought she heard again the fog-horns and the sirens.
Her sleep was fitful. Many times she went over again her talk with
Howard, and she surprised herself by wondering what he had thought and
felt since her departure. And ever and anon she was startled out of
chimerical dreams by the clamour of bells-the trolley cars on their
ceaseless round passing below. At last came the slumber of exhaustion.
It was nine o'clock when she awoke and faced the distasteful task she
had set herself for the day. In her predicament she descended to the
office, where the face of one of the clerks attracted her, and she
waited until he was unoccupied.
“I should like you to tell me--the name of some reputable lawyer,” she
said.
“Certainly, Mrs. Spence,” he replied, and Honora was startled at the
sound of her name. She might have realized that he would know her. “I
suppose a young lawyer would do--if the matter is not very important.”
“Oh, no!” she cried, blushing to her temples. “A young lawyer would do
very well.”
The clerk reflected. He glanced at Honora again; and later in the day
she divined what had been going on in his mind.
“Well,” he said, “there are a great many. I happen to think of Mr.
Wentworth, because he was in the hotel this morning. He is in the
Tremont Building.”
She thanked him hurriedly, and was driven to the Tremont Building,
through the soggy street that faced the still dripping trees of the
Common. Mounting in the elevator, she read on the glass door amongst
the names of the four members of the firm that of Alden Wentworth, and
suddenly found herself face to face with the young man, in his private
office. He was well groomed and deeply tanned, and he rose to meet her
with a smile that revealed a line of perfect white teeth.
“How do you do, Mrs. Spence?” he said. “I did not think, when I met you
at Mrs. Grenfell's, that I should see you so soon in Boston. Won't you
sit down?”
Honora sat down. There seemed nothing else to do. She remembered him
perfectly now, and she realized that the nimble-witted clerk had meant
to send her to a gentleman.
“I thought,” she faltered, “I thought I was coming to a--a stranger.
They gave me your address at the hotel--when I asked for a lawyer.”
“Perhaps,” suggested Mr. Wentworth, delicately, “perhaps you would
prefer to go to some one else. I can give you any number of addresses,
if you like.”
She looked up at him gratefully. He seemed very human and
understanding,--very honourable. He belonged to her generation, after
all, and she feared an older man.
“If you will be kind enough to listen to me, I think I will stay here.
It is only a matter of--of knowledge of the law.” She looked at him
again, and the pathos of her smile went straight to his heart. For
Mr. Wentworth possessed that organ, although he did not wear it on his
sleeve.
He crossed the room, closed the door, and sat down beside her.
“Anything I can do,” he said.
She glanced at him once more, helplessly.
“I do not know how to tell you,” she began. “It all seems so dreadful.”
She paused, but he had the lawyer's gift of silence--of sympathetic
silence. “I want to get a divorce from my husband.”
If Mr. Wentworth was surprised, he concealed it admirably. His
attitude of sympathy did not change, but he managed to ask her, in a
business-like tone which she welcomed:--“On what grounds?”
“I was going to ask you that question,” said Honora.
This time Mr. Wentworth was surprised--genuinely so, and he showed it.
“But, my dear Mrs. Spence,” he protested, “you must remember that--that
I know nothing of the case.”
“What are the grounds one can get divorced on?” she asked.
He coloured a little under his tan.
“They are different in different states,” he replied. “I
think--perhaps--the best way would be to read you the Massachusetts
statutes.”
“No--wait a moment,” she said. “It's very simple, after all, what I have
to tell you. I don't love my husband, and he doesn't love me, and it has
become torture to live together. I have left him with his knowledge and
consent, and he understands that I will get a divorce.”
Mr. Wentworth appeared to be pondering--perhaps not wholly on the legal
aspects of the case thus naively presented. Whatever may have been his
private comments, they were hidden. He pronounced tentatively, and a
little absently, the word “desertion.”
“If the case could possibly be construed as desertion on your husband's
part, you could probably get a divorce in three years in Massachusetts.”
“Three years!” cried Honora, appalled. “I could never wait three years!”
She did not remark the young lawyer's smile, which revealed a greater
knowledge of the world than one would have suspected. He said nothing,
however.
“Three years!” she repeated. “Why, it can't be, Mr. Wentworth. There
are the Waterfords--she was Mrs. Boutwell, you remember. And--and Mrs.
Rindge--it was scarcely a year before--”
He had the grace to nod gravely, and to pretend not to notice the
confusion in which she halted. Lawyers, even young ones with white teeth
and clear eyes, are apt to be a little cynical. He had doubtless seen
from the beginning that there was a man in the background. It was not
his business to comment or to preach.
“Some of the western states grant divorces on--on much easier terms,” he
said politely. “If you care to wait, I will go into our library and look
up the laws of those states.”
“I wish you would,” answered Honora. “I don't think I could bear to
spend three years in such--in such an anomalous condition. And at any
rate I should much rather go West, out of sight, and have it all as
quickly over with as possible.”
He bowed, and departed on his quest. And Honora waited, at moments
growing hot at the recollection of her conversation with him. Why--she
asked herself should the law make it so difficult, and subject her to
such humiliation in a course which she felt to be right and natural and
noble? Finally, her thoughts becoming too painful, she got up and looked
out of the window. And far below her, through the mist, she beheld the
burying-ground of Boston's illustrious dead which her cabman had pointed
out to her as he passed. She did not hear the door open as Mr. Wentworth
returned, and she started at the sound of his voice.
“I take it for granted that you are really serious in this matter, Mrs.
Spence,” he said.
“Oh!” she exclaimed.
“And that you have thoroughly reflected,” he continued imperturbably.
Evidently, in spite of the cold impartiality of the law, a New England
conscience had assailed him in the library. “I cannot take er--the
responsibility of advising you as to a course of action. You have asked
me the laws of certain western states as to divorce I will read them.”
An office boy followed him, deposited several volumes on the taule, and
Mr. Wentworth read from them in a voice magnificently judicial.
“There's not much choice, is there?” she faltered, when he had finished.
He smiled.
“As places of residence--” he began, in an attempt to relieve the
pathos.
“Oh, I didn't mean that,” she cried. “Exile is--is exile.” She flushed.
After a few moments of hesitation she named at random a state the laws
of which required a six months' residence. She contemplated him. “I
hardly dare to ask you to give me the name of some reputable lawyer out
there.”
He had looked for an instant into her eyes. Men of the law are not
invulnerable, particularly at Mr. Wentworth's age, and New England
consciences to the contrary notwithstanding. In spite of himself, her
eyes had made him a partisan: an accomplice, he told himself afterwards.
“Really, Mrs. Spence,” he began, and caught another appealing look. He
remembered the husband now, and a lecture on finance in the Grenfell
smoking room which Howard Spence had delivered, and which had grated
on Boston sensibility. “It is only right to tell you that our firm does
not--does not--take divorce cases--as a rule. Not that we are taking
this one,” he added hurriedly. “But as a friend--”
“Oh, thank you!” said Honora.
“Merely as a friend who would be glad to do you a service,” he
continued, “I will, during the day, try to get you the name of--of as
reputable a lawyer as possible in that place.”
And Mr. Wentworth paused, as red as though he had asked her to marry
him.
“How good of you!” she cried. “I shall be at the Touraine until this
evening.”
He escorted her through the corridor, bowed her into the elevator, and
her spirits had risen perceptibly as she got into her cab and returned
to the hotel. There, she studied railroad folders. One confidant was
enough, and she dared not even ask the head porter the way to a locality
where--it was well known--divorces were sold across a counter. And as
she worked over the intricacies of this problem the word her husband
had applied to her action recurred to her--precipitate. No doubt Mr.
Wentworth, too, had thought her precipitate. Nearly every important act
of her life had been precipitate. But she was conscious in this instance
of no regret. Delay, she felt, would have killed her. Let her exile
begin at once.
She had scarcely finished luncheon when Mr. Wentworth was announced. For
reasons best known to himself he had come in person; and he handed her,
written on a card, the name of the Honourable David Beckwith.
“I'll have to confess I don't know much about him, Mrs. Spence,” he
said, “except that he has been in Congress, and is one of the prominent
lawyers of that state.”
The gift of enlisting sympathy and assistance was peculiarly Honora's.
And if some one had predicted that morning to Mr. Wentworth that before
nightfall he would not only have put a lady in distress on the highroad
to obtaining a western divorce (which he had hitherto looked upon as
disgraceful), but that likewise he would miss his train for Pride's
Crossing, buy the lady's tickets, and see her off at the South Station
for Chicago, he would have regarded the prophet as a lunatic. But that
is precisely what Mr. Wentworth did. And when, as her train pulled out,
Honora bade him goodby, she felt the tug at her heartstrings which comes
at parting with an old friend.
“And anything I can do for you here in the East, while--while you are
out there, be sure to let me know,” he said.
She promised and waved at him from the platform as he stood motionless,
staring after her. Romance had spent a whole day in Boston! And with Mr.
Alden Wentworth, of all people!
Fortunately for the sanity of the human race, the tension of grief is
variable. Honora, closed in her stateroom, eased herself that night by
writing a long, if somewhat undecipherable, letter to Chiltern; and was
able, the next day, to read the greater portion of a novel. It was only
when she arrived in Chicago, after nightfall, that loneliness again
assailed her. She was within nine hours--so the timetable said--of St.
Louis! Of all her trials, the homesickness which she experienced as she
drove through the deserted streets of the metropolis of the Middle West
was perhaps the worst. A great city on Sunday night! What traveller
has not felt the depressing effect of it? And, so far as the incoming
traveller is concerned, Chicago does not put her best foot forward. The
way from the station to the Auditorium Hotel was hacked and bruised--so
it seemed--by the cruel battle of trade. And she stared, in a kind of
fascination that increased the ache in her heart; at the ugliness and
cruelty of the twentieth century.
To have imagination is unquestionably to possess a great capacity for
suffering, and Honora was paying the penalty for hers. It ran riot now.
The huge buildings towered like formless monsters against the blackness
of the sky under the sickly blue of the electric lights, across the
dirty, foot-scarred pavements, strange black human figures seemed to
wander aimlessly: an elevated train thundered overhead. And presently
she found herself the tenant of two rooms in that vast refuge of the
homeless, the modern hotel, where she sat until the small hours looking
down upon the myriad lights of the shore front, and out beyond them on
the black waters of an inland sea.
.......................
From Newport to Salomon City, in a state not far from the Pacific tier,
is something of a transition in less than a week, though in modern life
we should be surprised at nothing. Limited trains are wonderful enough;
but what shall be said of the modern mind, that travels faster than
light? and much too fast for the pages of a chronicle. Martha Washington
and the good ladies of her acquaintance knew nothing about the upper
waters of the Missouri, and the words “for better, for worse, for
richer, for poorer” were not merely literature to them.
'Nous avons change tout cela', although there are yet certain crudities
to be eliminated. In these enlightened times, if in one week a lady is
not entirely at home with husband number one, in the next week she
may have travelled in comparative comfort some two-thirds across a
continent, and be on the highroad to husband number two. Why travel?
Why have to put up with all this useless expense and worry and waste
of time? Why not have one's divorce sent, C.O.D., to one's door,
or establish a new branch of the Post-office Department? American
enterprise has surely lagged in this.
Seated in a plush-covered rocking-chair that rocked on a track of its
own, and thus saved the yellow-and-red hotel carpet, the Honourable
Dave Beckwith patiently explained the vexatious process demanded by his
particular sovereign state before she should consent to cut the Gordian
knot of marriage. And his state--the Honourable Dave remarked--was in
the very forefront of enlightenment in this respect: practically all
that she demanded was that ladies in Mrs. Spence's predicament should
become, pro tempore, her citizens. Married misery did not exist in the
Honourable Dave's state, amongst her own bona fide citizens. And, by a
wise provision in the Constitution of our glorious American Union, no
one state could tie the nuptial knot so tight that another state could
not cut it at a blow.
Six months' residence, and a whole year before the divorce could be
granted! Honora looked at the plush rocking-chair, the yellow-and-red
carpet, the inevitable ice-water on the marble-topped table, and the
picture of a lady the shape of a liqueur bottle playing tennis in the
late eighties, and sighed. For one who is sensitive to surroundings,
that room was a torture chamber.
“But Mr. Beckwith,” she exclaimed, “I never could spend a year here!
Isn't there a--house I could get that is a--a little--a little better
furnished? And then there is a certain publicity about staying at a
hotel.”
The Honourable Dave might have been justly called the friend of ladies
in a temporary condition of loneliness. His mission in life was not
merely that of a liberator, but his natural goodness led him to perform
a hundred acts of kindness to make as comfortable as possible the
purgatory of the unfortunates under his charge. He was a man of a
remarkable appearance, and not to be lightly forgotten. His hair, above
all, fascinated Honora, and she found her eyes continually returning
to it. So incredibly short it was, and so incredibly stiff, that it
reminded her of the needle points on the cylinder of an old-fashioned
music-box; and she wondered, if it were properly inserted, what would be
the resultant melody.
The Honourable Dave's head was like a cannon-ball painted white. Across
the top of it (a blemish that would undoubtedly have spoiled the tune)
was a long scar,--a relic of one of the gentleman's many personal
difficulties. He who made the sear, Honora reflected, must have been
a strong man. The Honourable Dave, indeed, had fought his way upward
through life to the Congress of the United States; and many were the
harrowing tales of frontier life he told Honora in the long winter
evenings when the blizzards came down the river valley. They would fill
a book; unfortunately, not this book. The growing responsibilities of
taking care of the lonely ladies that came in increasing numbers to
Salomon City from the effeter portions of the continent had at length
compelled him to give up his congressional career. The Honourable Dave
was unmarried; and, he told Honora, not likely to become so. He was thus
at once human and invulnerable, a high priest dedicated to freedom.
It is needless to say that the plush rocking-chair and the picture
of the liqueur-bottle lady did not jar on his sensibilities. Like
an eminent physician who has never himself experienced neurosis, the
Honourable Dave firmly believed that he understood the trouble from
which his client was suffering. He had seen many cases of it in ladies
from the Atlantic coast: the first had surprised him, no doubt. Salomon
City, though it contained the great Boon, was not esthetic. Being a keen
student of human nature, he rightly supposed that she would not care to
join the colony, but he thought it his duty to mention that there was a
colony.
Honora repeated the word.
“Out there,” he said, waving his cigar to the westward, “some of the
ladies have ranches.” Some of the gentlemen, too, he added, for it
appeared that exiles were not confined to one sex. “It's social--a
little too social, I guess,” declared Mr. Beckwith, “for you.” A
delicate compliment of differentiation that Honora accepted gravely.
“They've got a casino, and they burn a good deal of electricity first
and last. They don't bother Salomon City much. Once in a while, in the
winter, they come in a bunch to the theatre. Soon as I looked at you I
knew you wouldn't want to go there.”
Her exclamation was sufficiently eloquent.
“I've got just the thing for you,” he said. “It looks a little as if I
was reaching out into the sanitarium business. Are you acquainted by
any chance with Mrs. Boutwell, who married a fellow named Waterford?” he
asked, taking momentarily out of his mouth the cigar he was smoking by
permission.
Honora confessed, with no great enthusiasm, that she knew the present
Mrs. Waterford. Not the least of her tribulations had been to listen to
a partial recapitulation, by the Honourable Dave, of the ladies he had
assisted to a transfer of husbands. What, indeed, had these ladies to do
with her? She felt that the very mention of them tended to soil the pure
garments of her martyrdom.
“What I was going to say was this,” the Honourable Dave continued. “Mrs.
Boutwell--that is to say Mrs. Waterford--couldn't stand this hotel any
more than you, and she felt like you do about the colony, so she rented
a little house up on Wylie Street and furnished it from the East. I took
the furniture off her hands: it's still in the house, by the way, which
hasn't been rented. For I figured it out that another lady would be
coming along with the same notions. Now you can look at the house any
time you like.”
Although she had to overcome the distaste of its antecedents, the house,
or rather the furniture, was too much of a find in Salomon City to be
resisted. It had but six rooms, and was of wood, and painted grey, like
its twin beside it. But Mrs. Waterford had removed the stained-glass
window-lights in the front door, deftly hidden the highly ornamental
steam radiators, and made other eliminations and improvements, including
the white bookshelves that still contained the lady's winter reading
fifty or more yellow-and-green-backed French novels and plays. Honora's
first care, after taking possession, was to order her maid to remove
these from her sight: but it is to be feared that they found their way,
directly, to Mathilde's room. Honora would have liked to fumigate the
house; and yet, at the same time, she thanked her stars for it. Mr.
Beekwith obligingly found her a cook, and on Thursday evening she sat
down to supper in her tiny dining room. She had found a temporary haven,
at last.
Suddenly she remembered that it was an anniversary. One week ago that
day, in the old garden at Beaulieu, had occurred the momentous event
that had changed the current of her life!