The night was pitch dark, when she stood before the awful gate and
asked admittance.
And the guards let her in because she wore a holy dress. The
halberdiers took her to the hall, where they slept or kept watch,
and invited her to rest.
She sat down on a rude bench, she ate their brown soldier's bread,
she drank a drop of their wine.
Then she offered them a ruby for their hospitality and evening meal.
And while they wondered that a pilgrim possessed such a beautiful
jewel, she said in her strange voice, weak, tired, and yet commanding:
"I have still more topazes and rubies and dark purple carbuncles. Tell
the princess that I have come to do her homage and give her my jewels."
The message was sent to Emeralda, and the queen asked the pilgrim to
come. She sent pages to conduct her to the throne where she sat.
And Psyche understood that Emeralda was afraid of treachery, afraid
of the approach of soul, and therefore was so surrounded by armed men.
She passed between the pages, up the steps, over passages; then iron
gates were opened, and a curtain was drawn aside.
And Psyche stepped into the golden hall of the tower.
There sat Emeralda in the light of a thousand candles, on a throne,
under a canopy, surrounded by a great retinue.
"Holy pilgrim!" said Emeralda, "be welcome! You have come to bring
me jewels?"
A cold shiver ran like a serpent over Psyche's limbs, when she heard
Emeralda's voice. She had not thought that she would be afraid any
more of her proud sister, but now when she saw her and heard her voice,
she almost fainted from fear.
For her look was most terrible.
Emeralda had grown older, but she was still beautiful. Yet her beauty
was horrible. In the hall, lit up with thousands of candles, a hall of
gold and enamel, sat Emeralda like an idol on her throne of agate, in
a niche of jasper. There was nothing more human about her; she was like
a great jewel. She had become petrified, as it were, into a jewel. Her
eyes of sharp emerald looked out from her face, that was ivory white,
like chalcedony; from her crown of beryl there hung down her face six
red plaits of hair, as inflexible as gold-wire, and stiffly interwoven
with emeralds. Her mouth was a split ruby, her teeth glittered like
brilliants. Her voice sounded harsh and creaking, like the noise of
a machine. Her hands and inflexible fingers, stiff with rings, were
opal-white, with blue veins such as run through the opal. Her bosom,
opal, chalcedonic, was enclosed in a bodice of violet amethyst--and
over the bodice she wore a tunic of precious stones. Her dress was no
longer brocade, but composed of jewels. All the arabesque was jewels;
her mantle was jewelled so stiffly that the stuff could not bend,
but hung straight down from her shoulders like a long jewelled clock.
And she was beautiful, but beautiful as a monster, preciously beautiful
as a work of art--made by one, both jeweller and artist, barbarously
beautiful, in the incrustations of her crown, the facets of her eyes,
the lapis lazuli of her stiffly folded under-garments, and all the
gems and cameos which bordered her mantle and dress.
In the light of thousands of candles she glistened, a barbarous
idol, and shot forth rays like a rainbow, representing every colour;
dazzling, fear-inspiring was her look, pitiless and soulless.
Proud she sat and motionless, glistening with lustre, oppressed by
the weight of her splendour; and covetous, her grating voice said
again eagerly:
"Holy pilgrim, welcome! You have come to bring me jewels?"
Psyche gained courage.
"Yes," she said in a firm voice. "Powerful Majesty of the Past,
I come to do you homage and bring you jewels. But I beg that we may
be left alone."
Emeralda hesitated; but when Psyche remained silent, her cupidity
got the better of her fear and she gave a sign. She raised her stiff
hand. And by that single movement she cracked and creaked with grating
jewels, and shot forth rays like the sun, which, like a nimbus,
streamed around her.
Her suite disappeared through side-doors. The shield-bearers
withdrew. Psyche stood alone before her sister. And then Psyche
unfastened the cord round her waist and took off her mantle; her
long hair fell about her, and she was naked. Naked she stood before
Emeralda, and said:
"Emeralda, don't you recognise me? I am Psyche, your sister!"
A cry escaped the princess. She rose up; she creaked; her splendour
and pomp grated, and she glittered so, that Psyche was dazzled.
"Wretched Psyche!" she exclaimed. "Yes, I know you! I have always
hated you, hated as I hate everything that is gentle, as I hate doves,
children, flowers! So you have deceived me, intruder! you bring me
no jewels!"
Psyche knelt down and showed her open hand.
"Emeralda, I offer you the homage which I once refused you. I present
you with topazes, rubies, and dark purple carbuncles. I kneel in
humility before you. I offer you my tears, which have turned into
stone, and I ask you humbly: punish me and give me a penance to
do. Look! I have lost my wings. I may not go naked any longer. I
have committed sin. Emeralda, make me do penance! Inflict on me the
heaviest that you can think of. If I can do it, I will do it. Lay a
heavy task upon my wingless shoulders."
Emeralda looked down at kneeling Psyche. The princess approached
her sister, took the jewels, examined them attentively, held them
up to the light of the candles, and then dropped them into an open
casket. Thoughtfully she continued gazing at Psyche. And she seemed to
Psyche like a gigantic jewel-spider, watching from the midst of her
glittering web the rays of her own splendour. But whatever she were,
princess, sun, spider, or jewel, a woman she was not, a human being she
was not, and through the opal of her bosom gleamed her heart of ruby.
Psyche, kneeling penitent, spoke not, awaiting her fate, and Emeralda
watched her.
Thoughts, mechanical as wheels, rolled through her brain. She thought
as a machine. She was inexorable, because she had no feeling; she
thought inhumanly because she had no soul. Soulless she was and hard
as stone, but she was powerful, the mightiest ruler of the world. She
ruled with a movement, she condemned with a look, she could kill
with a smile; if she spoke a word, it was terrible; if she appeared
in public there was disaster; and if she rode through her kingdom in
a triumphal chariot, then everything was scorched by her lustre and
crushed under her triumph.
At last she spoke, motionless like a spider in her web of glittering
rays, and her voice sounded like an oracle in a screeching incantation.
"Psyche, fled from her father's house, fallen from all princely
dignity, dethroned Princess of the Present, immoral Bacchante,
corrupt and wingless, weeping tears of scarlet sin--listen!
"Psyche, who wandered frivolously to purple streaks of sky, who
longed for the nothingness of azure and of light, who loved a horse,
who forsook her husband, who wandered and sought and asked, in desert
and in wood--wander, seek, and ask!
"Wander, seek, and ask, till you find!
"Wander along the flaming caves, seek in the fire-vomiting mouths of
monsters, ask of the martyred spirits, who roll upon the inky sea.
"Descend to the Nether-world! Seek the Mystic Jewel, the Philosopher's
Stone that gives the highest omnipotence; seek the Mystic Jewel,
the rays of which reach to eternity and penetrate to the Godhead.
"Descend, wander, ask, seek, and find!"
Her voice grew terrible, and, screeching, she stepped nearer, and
with a look at the casket, said pitilessly:
"Or ... weep for it ... suffer for it. I care not how much."
She paused, and then in a voice of horrible hypocrisy, continued:
"And then, if you bring me the Sacred Jewel, the name of which may
not be uttered...." She drew still nearer.
... "Then be blessed, Psyche, and share with me, Emeralda, your sister,
the divine omnipotence!"
Like an oracle sounded her hypocritical voice. She felt in Psyche
an unknown power; she feared for her soul, and wished to gain that
power for herself, to make sure of the two-fold omnipotence of the
world, both soul and body. And in the horrible penance which she laid
upon Psyche, she feigned tender love. Creaking and cracking, she drew
nearer, and in her web of rays shed a sunbeam over her kneeling sister,
and with her stiff opal fingers stroked the bent head with its fair,
long tresses.
An ice-cold shiver ran through Psyche, as if her burning soul were
being frozen.
"I obey," she murmured.
And she rose up, intoxicated from splendour, stiff from icy
coldness. She tottered and shut her eyes. When she opened them,
she was in a gloomy ante-chamber, clad in her coarse mantle; and the
shield-bearers approached with torches.
"Conduct me to Astra!" she commanded.
There was something strange in her voice which made them obey,
the voice of a princess, the soft voice of command, which appealed
strangely to the men, as if they had heard it when they were pages.
They conducted Psyche through halls, over passages, up steps, to
another tower. They opened low doors, and, through silent vaults,
guided the strange pilgrim, rich in rubies.
"Who comes there?" asked a voice, tired, weak, and faint.
Then the men left Psyche alone, and she was with Astra, and she saw her
sister in the twilight on the terrace, sitting before her telescope,
surrounded by globes and rolls of heavy parchment spread out. And
Psyche saw Astra, looking very old, with thin grey hair, which
hung down her wax-white face, from which two dull eyes stared out;
her white dress hung down limp on her sunken shoulders, her withered
breast, and attenuated limbs. Bitter dejection was in her dull eyes;
her thin hand hung down powerless, tired, and incapable of work,
and her voice, faint and weak, said:
"Who comes there?"
"I, Psyche, your little sister, come back, O Astra, as a penitent...!"
"As a penitent?"
"Yes, I fled, committed sin, and now I will do penance...."
Astra mused.
"It is true," she murmured. "I remember, little Psyche. Come
nearer. Take my hand, I cannot see you."
"The night is dark, Astra: there are few stars in the sky, and the
torches are not yet lit...."
"No? Is it dark about me? That does not matter, Psyche, for I cannot
see, I am blind...."
Psyche gave a cry.
"Astra! Poor sister, are you blind? Oh! you who could see so well! are
you blind?"
"Yes, I have gazed myself blind!! I have turned my telescope from
left to right, to all the points of the universe. I thought to become
the centre, the kernel of science, the focus of brilliant knowledge;
now I am blind, now I see nothing more, now I know nothing more. The
colossal numbers have become confused in my brain since the living
Star on my head faded. Do you still see its faint splendour between
my grey hair? Ah! now I have your hand.
"What is that, child? What round things are falling over my fingers?"
"My tears, Astra, poor Astra!"
"How hard they are and cold! What hard, cold tears, Psyche!... Sit
down here at my feet. Is the night dark? Are the torches not yet
lit? Well, let it be dark, for I see nothing; but I feel you, I feel
your hair; now I stroke your head, round and small. I feel along
your shoulders, Psyche, little child with wings.... But your wings
I do not feel.... Have you none now? Have they been cut off? My star
has faded, and your wings are cut; Emeralda triumphs alone! Her gift
from the fairy has brought her prosperity. Her heart of ruby feels
no pain; she is clad in the majesty of precious jewels. She is hard
and beautiful, hard as a stone, beautiful as a jewel.... Psyche,
creep close to me.... We can do nothing against her, child. My star
is faded, your wings clipt; we have lost our noble rights.... I am
old, but you--are you still young? You feel so young, indestructibly
young.... You have suffered so, asked and wandered.... not appreciated
your happiness, and murdered Eros! Poor child, you a murderess...! You
weep rubies ... you will do penance. You are strong, Psyche, and
always young.... You will do penance after all your sins! Emeralda
has laid penance on you.... To seek the Philosopher's Stone in the
caverns of flaming hell!! O Psyche, the Stone does not exist. The
unutterable name is a legend. The Jewel exists only in the pride of
man. The universe is limited, the Godhead is not limited; no rays from
precious stones can reach the Godhead and rule over God. No looking
through lenses of diamond can penetrate the Godhead. It is all pride
and vanity. Psyche, there is nothing but resignation. Emeralda is
powerful, but more powerful she cannot become....
"In vain will you seek."
"Yet I will seek, Astra, although it be in vain.... And do you also,
sister, lay penance on me.... Let me do penance for Astra, as I do
for Emeralda."
"No, child, I know no penance. There is nothing but resignation. There
is nothing but to wait. Everything else is vanity and pride. But do
penance, little Psyche. Penance is illusion, yet illusion is pleasant:
illusion ennobles. Believe, poor child, in your penance, believe in
your illusion. I have never known it. I have always calculated. The
colossal numbers roll through my dull and hazy brain in endless
series of figures. However you count, you never come to the sum of
the endless.... The stars cannot be counted. The farthest sun is
incomputable, the divine is limitless. Even the nearest frontier
of the Future is beyond computation. There is a sea of unfathomable
light.... O Psyche, I am tired, I am blind, and I shall soon die. In
this place, here I will stay. Psyche, look through the telescope. Is
the night too dark? Do you see anything?"
"The stars give a dim light."
"Look through the telescope. What do you see? Tell me, what do
you see?"
"In the glass, right at the top, I see a dark spot, which emits a
few rays. Is that a black star?"
"No, Psyche, that is a spider. Emeralda has sent a spider. The spider
has crawled to the top, along the smooth diamond; there the spider
weaves his web. And the diamond ... is crumbling to pieces....["]
"Astra...!!"
"Psyche, creep closer to me.... Let me feel your little round head,
your wingless shoulders...."
"Astra, everything is black; clouds are drifting past the stars!"
"Sleep thus in my mantle, sleep thus at my feet. Sleep, my little
child, and cover yourself for the night.... Psyche, your old nurse
is dead. Psyche, now I am your nurse.... Sleep now by blind Astra...."
Feeling for Psyche, she threw her mantle round her. The night was
dark. Astra's powerless hand dropped over Psyche. Psyche fell asleep.