The powers of justice in Bladesover made an extraordinary mess of my
case.
I have regretfully to admit that the Honourable Beatrice Normandy did,
at the age of ten, betray me, abandon me, and lie most abominably about
me. She was, as a matter of fact, panic-stricken about me, conscience
stricken too; she bolted from the very thought of my being her
affianced lover and so forth, from the faintest memory of kissing; she
was indeed altogether disgraceful and human in her betrayal. She and
her half-brother lied in perfect concord, and I was presented as a
wanton assailant of my social betters. They were waiting about in the
Warren, when I came up and spoke to them, etc.
On the whole, I now perceive Lady Drew’s decisions were, in the light
of the evidence, reasonable and merciful.
They were conveyed to me by my mother, who was, I really believe, even
more shocked by the grossness of my social insubordination than Lady
Drew. She dilated on her ladyship’s kindnesses to me, on the effrontery
and wickedness of my procedure, and so came at last to the terms of my
penance. “You must go up to young Mr. Garvell, and beg his pardon.”
“I won’t beg his pardon,” I said, speaking for the first time.
My mother paused, incredulous.
I folded my arms on her table-cloth, and delivered my wicked little
ultimatum. “I won’t beg his pardon nohow,” I said. “See?”
“Then you will have to go off to your uncle Frapp at Chatham.”
“I don’t care where I have to go or what I have to do, I won’t beg his
pardon,” I said.
And I didn’t.
After that I was one against the world. Perhaps in my mother’s heart
there lurked some pity for me, but she did not show it. She took the
side of the young gentleman; she tried hard, she tried very hard, to
make me say I was sorry I had struck him. Sorry!