CHAPTER I.

One of the most respected inhabitants of the village, rather of the

parish, of Eskholm in Mid-Lothian was Mrs Ogilvy, still often called Mrs

James by the elder people who had known her predecessors, who had seen

her married, and knew everything about her, her antecedents and

belongings. This is a thing very satisfactory in one way, as giving you

an assurance that nothing can be suddenly found out about you, no

disreputable new member or incident foisted into your family life;

while, on the other hand, it has its inconveniences, since it becomes

more or less the right of your neighbours to have every new domestic

occurrence explained to them in all its bearings. Great peace, however,

had for a long time fallen over the house in which Mrs James Ogilvy was

spending the end of her quiet days: no new incident had occurred there

for years: its daily routine to all appearance went on as cheerfully as

could be desired. It was one of the prettiest houses of the

neighbourhood. Built on the side of a little hill, as so many houses are

in Scotland, it was a tallish two-storeyed house behind, plunging its

foundations deep in the soil, with an ample garden lying east and south,

full of all the old-fashioned vegetables and most of the old-fashioned

flowers of its period. But in front it was the trimmest cottage, low but

broad, opening upon a little round platform encircled by a drive, and

that, in its turn, by closely clipped holly-hedges, as thick as a wall

and as smooth. Andrew, the gardener, thought it more genteel to fill the

little flower-border in front with bedding-out plants in the

summer,--red geraniums, blue lobelias, and so forth--never the pansies

and gillyflowers his mistress loved,--and it was only with great

difficulty that he had been prevented from shutting out the view by a

clump of rhododendrons in the middle of the grass plot. “The view!”

Andrew said in high contempt: but this time his mistress had her way.

The view, perhaps, was nothing very wonderful to eyes accustomed to fine

scenery. A bit of the road that led to Edinburgh and the world was

visible among the trees at the foot of the brae, where the private path

of the Hewan between its close holly-hedges sloped upward to the house:

and behind stretched the full expanse of country,--the towers of the

castle making a break among the clouds of trees on one hand, and some of

the roofs of the village and the little stumpy church-steeple showing on

the other side. Between these two points, and far on either side, the

Esk somehow threaded his way, running by village and castle impartially,

but indeed exerting himself very much for the Hewan, forming little

cascades and bits of broken water at the foot of the steep brae,

throwing up glints of sunshine as it were from the depths, and filling

the air always with a murmur of friendly companionship of which the

inhabitants were unconscious, but of which had it stopped they would

have instantly become aware and felt that all the world had gone wrong.

There was a garden-chair placed out here under the window of the

drawing-room, where Mrs Ogilvy used to sit during a great part of the

summer evenings--those long summer evenings of Scotland, which are so

lingering and so sweet. To sit “at the doors” is so natural a thing for

the women. They do it everywhere, in all climates and regions. Ladies

who were critical said that this was a bad habit, and that there was

nothing so becoming for a woman as to sit in her own drawing-room, in

her own chair, where she could always be found when she was wanted. But

a seat that was just under the drawing-room window, was not that as

little different from being inside as could be? I agree, however, with

the critics that the sentiment was quite different, and that to go

indoors at the right time and have your lamp lighted, and sit down in

your comfortable chair, denotes, perhaps, a more contented mind and a

spirit reconciled to fate.

It would have been hard, however, to have looked upon the face of Mrs

James Ogilvy as she went about her little household duties in the

morning, or took her walks about the garden, or knitted her stocking in

the placid afternoon, and to have thought of her as discontented or

struggling with fate. She was about sixty, a little woman but trim in

figure, with a pleasant colour, and eyes still bright with animation and

interest. Perhaps you will think it ridiculous to be asked to interest

yourself in the character and proceedings of an old woman of sixty when

there are so many younger and prettier things in the world: which I

allow is quite true in the general: yet there may be advantages in it,

once in a way. She wore much the same dress all the year through, which

was a black silk gown of varying degrees of richness (her best could

“stand alone,” it was so good), or rather of newness--for the best gown

of one year was the everyday dress of another, not so fresh perhaps, but

wearing to the last thread, and always looking _good_ to the last, as a

good black silk ought to do. Over this she wore a white shawl, which on

superior occasions was of China crape beautifully embroidered, a thing

to be remembered--but often of humbler material. I recollect one of fine

wool with a coloured border printed in what was called an Indian pine

pattern in those days. But whatever the kind was, she always wore a

white shawl. Her cap was also all white, lace for best, but net for

everydays, trimmed with white ribbons, and tied under the chin with the

same. This dress had been old-fashioned when she assumed it, and was

more than old-fashioned now; but it suited her very well, as unusual

dresses, it may be remarked, usually do.

And she was kind as kind could be. She could not refuse either beggar or

borrower, unless the one was a sturdy beggar presuming on the supposed

loneliness of the house and unaware of Andrew in the background, upon

whom she would flash forth indignant, sending him off “with a flee in

his lug,” as Janet said: or the other a professional spendthrift of

other people’s money. Short of these two classes--and even to them her

heart had moments of melting--she refused nobody within her humble

means. But I will not deceive you by pretending that she was a woman who

went a great deal among the poor. That fashion of charity had not come

into use in her days. The Scotch poor are _farouche_, they are arrogant,

and stand tremendously on their dignity--which is thought by many people

a fine thing, though, I confess, I don’t think it so; but it was no

doubt cultivated more or less by good people like Mrs Ogilvy, who never

visited among them, yet was ready to give with a liberality which was

more like that of a Roman Catholic lady “making her soul” by such means,

than a Scotch Puritan looking upon all she herself said or did as

unworthy of regard. They came to her when they were in want; they came

for food, for clothes, for coals; for money to pay an urgent debt; for

all things that could affect family peace. And they very seldom were

sent empty away. It was for this, perhaps, that the other ladies thought

a woman should be found in her own chair in a corner of her own

drawing-room. But if so, it certainly did not matter much, for Mrs

Ogilvy’s seat outside answered quite as well.

There was a dining-room and a drawing-room inside, one on each side of

the door. The latter was usually called the parlour. It was full of

curious things, not exactly of the kind that are considered curious

now,--Mrs Ogilvy was not acquainted with _bric-à-brac_,--but there had

been two or three sailors in the family, and they had brought

unsophisticated wonders, shells, pieces of coral, bowls, sometimes china

and precious, sometimes wood and of no value at all: but all esteemed

pretty much alike, and given an equal place among the treasures of the

house. There was some good china besides of her own, one good portrait,

vaguely believed or hoped by the minister and some other connoisseurs

of the village to be a Rubens (which meant, I suppose, even in their

sanguine imaginations, a copy); and a row of black silhouettes,

representing various members of the family, over the mantelpiece.

Therefore it will be seen there was great impartiality in respect to

artistic value. The carpet was partially covered with a grey linen cloth

to preserve it, which gave the room a somewhat chilly look. It was in

the dining-room that Mrs Ogilvy chiefly sat. She would have found it a

great trouble to change from one to another at every meal. The large

dining-table had been placed against the wall, which was a concession to

comfort for which many friends blamed her during these years when Mrs

Ogilvy had been alone. A smaller round table stood near the fire, her

chair, her little old-fashioned stand for book and her work and her

occasional newspaper, in the corner. It was all very comfortable,

especially on the wintry evenings when the fire sparkled and the lamp

burned softly, and everything felt warm and looked bright--as bright as

Mrs Ogilvy’s face with her white hair under her white cap, and her white

shawl upon her shoulders. It might have been a symphony in white, had

anybody heard of anything so grand and superior in these days.

It seldom happened, however, that one of the long evenings passed

without the entrance of Janet, who at a certain hour in the placid night

began always to wonder audibly what the mistress was doing, and to

divine that she would be the better of a word with somebody, “if it was

only you or me.” Perhaps this meant that Janet herself by that time had

become bored by the society of Andrew, her husband and constant

companion, who was a taciturn person, and who, even if he could have

been persuaded to utter more than one word in half an hour, had no new

subject upon which he could discourse, but only themes which Janet knew

by heart. They were a most peaceable couple, never quarrelling, working

into each other’s hands as the neighbours said, keeping the Hewan

outside and inside as bright as a new pin; and I have no doubt that the

sincerest affection, as well as every tie of habit and long

companionship, bound them together: but still there were moments very

probably when Janet, without using the word or probably understanding

it, was bored. The “fore-night” was long, and the ticking of the clock,

so offensively distinct when nothing is being said, got on Janet’s

nerves; and then she bethought herself of the mistress sitting all alone

in the silence. “I’ll just go ben and see if she wants onything,” she

said. “Aweel: I’ll take a look at Sandy and see if he’s comfortable,”

replied Andrew. Sandy was a sleek old pony with which Mrs Ogilvy drove

in to Eskholm when she had occasion, and sometimes even to Edinburgh,

and he held a high place in Andrew’s affections. The one visit was as

invariable as the other; and Sandy, to whom perhaps also the fore-night

was long, probably expected it too.

“Well, Janet,” Mrs Ogilvy would say, putting aside the newspaper. She

did not put aside her stocking, which went on by itself mechanically,

but she turned her countenance towards her old servant always with the

shining on it of a friendly smile.

“Well, mem--I just came in to see if ye maybe were wanting onything.

Andrew he’s away taking a look at Sandy. You would think he is a

Christian to see the troke there is between that beast and my man.”

“Andrew’s a good creature, mindful of everybody’s comfort,” said Mrs

Ogilvy.

“I’m saying nothing against that; but it micht be more cheery for me if

he were a wee less preceese about what he hears and sees. A man is mair

about, he canna miss what might be ca’ed the events of the day. But you

and me, mem, we miss them a’ up here.”

“That’s true, Janet; a man that brings in the news is more entertainment

in a house than the newspaper itself.”

“Whiles,” said Janet, moderating the expression. “It’s no the clashes

and clavers of the toun that I’m wanting, but when onything important is

stirring--there’s another muckle paper-mill to be set up on our water.

It brings wark for the lads--and the lasses too--and ye daurna say,

just for the sake of Esk, that is no living thing----”

“I have more courage than you, Janet, for I daur to say it. What! my

bonnie Esk no a living thing! What was ever more living than the bonnie

running water? Eh, woman, running water is not like anything else in the

world! It’s just life itself! It sees everything happen and flows on--no

stopping for the like of us creatures of a day. It heartens me to think

that there’s aye some bairns sitting playing by it, or some young thing

dreaming her dream, or some woman with her little weans--not you and me,

for our time is past, but just other folk.”

“I’m no like you, mem. I get little comfort out of that. It’s a bonnie

stream, and I like the sough of it coming up through the trees; but none

of the paper-mills would stop that. And when you think that it will

bring siller into the place and wark, and more comfort for the poor

folk----”

“Will it do that? God forbid that I should go against what brings work

and comfort. It will bring new families, Janet, and strange men to sit

and drink, and roar their dreadful songs at the public-house door; and

more publics, and more dirty wives and miserable weans. I’m just for

doing the best we can with what we have,--and that is not an easy

thing.”

“And I’m for ganging forward,” cried Janet. “The more ye produce the

better off ye are--that’s what the books ca’ an axiom. I carena for the

new folk; but it is a grand thing to be making something, and putting

work into men’s hands to do. Thae poor Millers themselves get but little

out of it. They say there’s another of them, the little one with the

curly head, that is just going like the rest.”

“Oh, Janet, the Lord forbid! the little blue-eyed one, that was just the

comfort of the house?”

“That’s what folk say. I’m no answering for it. In an unfortunate family

like that, ye canna have a sair finger but they’ll say it’s the auld

trouble breaking out.”

“Poor man, poor man!” cried Mrs Ogilvy. “My heart is wae for him, Janet.

He is like the man in the Bible that built Jericho. He has laid his

foundations in his first-born, and established his gates on his youngest

son. You must tell Andrew that I will want him and Sandy to-morrow to go

and inquire. No the bonnie little one that was his comfort!--oh, not

her, not her, Janet!”

“Mem, it is aye the Lord that kens best.”

“I am not misdoubting that; but I’ve had many a thought--I would not aye

be blaming the Lord. When the seed is put into the ground, we should be

prepared for what it will bring forth, and no look for leaves of silver

and apples of gold; but why should I speak? for there is little meaning

in words, and we are a strange race--oh, just a strange race--following

our wild ways.”

Mrs Ogilvy had dropped her stocking by this time into her lap, and she

wrung her slender hands as she spoke, with a look that was not like the

calm of the place. Whether Janet noted this or merely followed the

instinct of her wandering record of events, it was impossible to tell

from her steady countenance, which did not change.

“And there’s to be a wedding up the water at Greenha’. You will mind,

mem, Thomoseen, that was once in our ain house here as the girrl, and an

awfu’ time I had with her, for she would learn nothing. She’s grown the

biggest woman on a’ Eskside, and they call her Muckle Tammy, and mony an

adventure she’s had since she left my kitchen--having broken, ye will

maybe mind, mem, every dish we had. And for her ain sake, thinking it

would maybe be a lesson to her, I wanted you to take it off her

wages----”

“Yes, yes, I mind. The things would not stay in her hands; they were too

big. We have had our experiences with our girrls, Janet,” Mrs Ogilvy

said, with a smile. She had taken up her knitting again, and recovered

her tranquil looks.

“That we have, mem! if I was to make out a chronicle--but some of them

have turned out no so ill after a’. Weel, Muckle Tammy, she has gotten

a man.”

“He will likely be some small bit creature,” the mistress said.

“They say no--a clever chield, and grand wi’ a garden, and meaning to

grow vegetables for the market at Edinburgh; for she is a lass with a

tocher, her mother’s kailyard and her bit cottage, and nothing for him

to do but draw in a chair and sit down.”

“I doubt there’ll be but little comfort inside,” said Mrs Ogilvy. “If it

had been her to look after the kail and the cabbages, and him to keep

everything clean and trig; but there’s no telling. A change like that

works many ferlies. You must just see, Janet, if there is anything she

is wanting for her plenishing--some linen, or a few silver teaspoons, or

a set of china, or a new gown.”

“They a’ ken there will be something for them in the coffers at the

Hewan,” said Janet; “but, mem, if ye will be guided by me, you will let

it be no too much. If only one of these dishes had been stoppit off her

wages it would have been a grand lesson: but ye will never hear a word!

A set of chiney! they would a’ be broken afore ever she got them hame.”

“Let it be the silver spoons then, Janet; they are the things that last

the best. And now, if you were to cry in Andrew, we might read our

chapter, and get ready for our beds.”

This was the invariable conclusion of these evening colloquies. And

Janet went “ben” to her kitchen and then to the garden door, and “cried

upon” Andrew, still conversing with the pony in the stable. And then

there was a great turning of keys and drawing of bolts, and the house

was closed up for the night. And finally the pair went into the parlour,

where Mrs Ogilvy, with her clear little educated voice read “the

chapter,” usually from one of the Gospels, and read in sequence night by

night. Janet was of opinion that she never understood so well as when

her mistress read, and indeed Mrs Ogilvy had a little pride in her

reading, which was very clear and distinct with its broad vowels. The

little prayer which was read out of a book did not please Andrew so

much, who was of opinion that prayers ought never to be previously

invented and written, but come, as he said, “straught from the hairt.”

He had himself indeed thought on occasion that he could have poured

forth the sentiments that moved the family with more unction and

expression than was in the sometimes faltering voice and pause for

breath which affected his mistress when she read these “cauld words out

of a book”; but Andrew knew his own place: or if he did not know, Janet

did.

What was there to catch the breath, and make the voice falter, in the

printed words and amid all that deep calm of waning life? It was at the

prayer for the absent that Mrs Ogilvy for fifteen years past had always

broken down. Nay, not broken down: she was too deeply sensible that to

make an exhibition of private feeling while leading the family devotions

would have been irreverent and unseemly, but she was not capable of

going on quite smoothly without a pause over that petition, “Those who

are absent of this family, be Thou with them to bless them, and bring

them home in Thy good time if it be Thy blessed will.” Every night there

came to Janet’s eyes as she knelt a secret tear; and every night it

seemed to Andrew that if he might speak “straught from the hairt”

instead of that cauld prayer that was printed, the Lord would hear. I

need not say that even in a Scotch book of domestic worship the words

were varied from day to day, but the meaning was always the same. They

left the mistress of the house in a certain commotion of mind when her

old servants had bidden her good night and withdrawn. She had a way then

of walking about the room, sometimes pausing as if to listen. There was

deep silence about the Hewan, uplifted on its little brae, and with few

houses near,--nothing to be heard except the distant murmur of the Esk,

and the rustling of the trees. But the night has strange mysteries of

sound for which no one can account. Sometimes something came that seemed

like a step on the gravel outside, sometimes, fainter in the distance,

what might have been the swing of the gate, sometimes a muffled knock as

at the door. She knew them all well, and had been deceived by them a

thousand times; nor was she undeceived yet, but would stop and raise her

head and hold her breath, waiting for perhaps some second sound to

follow to give meaning to it. But there never came any second sound, or

at least there never was, never had been, any meaning in them. She

listened, holding up her head, and then drooped it again, going on upon

her little measured walk. “At ainy moment!” she would say sometimes to

herself.

Over the front door of the cottage, which was not without a little

pretension, there was what we used to call a fanlight: and in this

summer and winter every night a light burned till morning. People shook

their heads at it as a piece of foolish sentiment and very extravagant;

and Andrew grudged a little the trouble it caused him. But there it

burned all the year round, every night through.

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