_Graveyard of Old Ships_
You've seen them--the old ships, the battered and ruined ships, the
ships that have made one voyage too many, and are so ancient you can't
remember their names or the reputations they've earned for themselves
in deep space! Sure you've seen them! Black hulls stretching away for
miles into the red sunset--ships that can be bought for a song if
you've a song left in you and still want to go adventuring on the rim
of the System.
Do you know how it feels not to have a song left in you? Do you know
how it feels to be a legend without substance--the lad who broke the
bank at Callisto City and walked out two days later without a penny to
his name?
Pete knew and he kept harping on it. "If you'd quit that first night,
Jim, instead of pushin' it all back across the board!"
There was awe in his eyes when he looked at me, and then he'd look at
the ships, and I could guess what he was thinking. Good old Pete! When
he shut his eyes I was still wearing a golden halo.
Lucky Jim Sanders, strong as an ox and coming along fine--born lucky
and loving life too much to worry his head about the future. But when
life rises up and wallops you and lays you out flat you forget the
good times and your own recklessness, and the inner strength and the
laughing girls, and you just want to sit down and never get up!
I'd met Pete down in the valley, sitting on a rock. He didn't want to
get up either. He wanted to croak.
A wiry little cuss with blue eyes and a fringe of beard on his chin
that had just grown there and stayed. Clothes that made him look like
he was trying to spin a cocoon about himself.
You bet he had a story! A hard luck story that would have made Sinbad
look like a quiet family man. But when I like someone straight off, his
past is just so much water over the dam if he wants it that way.
I never did find out the truth about Pete--right up until we parted.
I had a lot of fun kidding him about it. "Rip Van Winkle slept twenty
years, but you slept a thousand, Pete! You crawled out of an old ship
and went to sleep in the desert.
"Did you get tired, Pete? Of the roar and the dust and the night--the
crocus-flower faces of Venusians, the gopher-girls of Mars and the
pinwheeling stars--of the night and the dust and the roar? Couldn't
you take it in the old days, Pete, when ships kept bursting apart at
the seams and there was an ant hill on Callisto called a colony, with
twenty living dead men in it?
"The ant hill's a city now, Pete. And you're still Pete, still around,
and I'm just cutting my wisdom teeth on my first streak of hard luck!
Hard like a biscuit, Pete! A dog biscuit flung to a dog!"
* * * * *
I was raving even more wildly as I stared out over that graveyard of
old ships, feeling sorry for myself, envying Pete because he didn't
seem to care much whether he lived or died.
But I was wrong. Pete did care.
"If we could just get back to Earth, Jim!" he pleaded. "If we could
smell the green earth again, after it's been rainin'! If we could just
get a whiff o' the sea!"
I swung on him. "What chance have we? You don't value dough so much
when you've got it to toss around. But when you're stony broke you get
to feeling like a stone. Weighed down, petrified! You can't do anything
without dough!"
Pete made a clucking sound. "All right! You got trimmed, Jim--and bad!
But last night you had another streak of luck!"
I stared at him, hard.
He gestured toward the old ships. "There's a yardmaster down there with
a list of ships a yard long. If you want to buy a ship you just stand
around twiddling your thumbs until he notices you. If he sizes you up
right--you get a bargain!"
"You mean if he thinks you've got some dough, but not much?"
"Uh huh!" Pete winked. "But if he thinks you've got a lot of dough you
could get a bargain too. Without shelling out a cent!"
It didn't take me long to get what Pete was driving at. I'd taken a
beating, and everyone knew it. But everyone knew my face too! I was
still Lucky Jim Sanders, wearing a golden halo!
Pete's eyes were shining like Halley's Comet when I got through
coaching him. It was his idea, but when I tossed it back at him wrapped
up in dialogue the sparkle took his breath away!
We went down into the valley where the ships stood row on row, shouting
and reeling as though we'd been celebrating for a week. The yardmaster
heard us before he saw us. But he saw us quickly enough.
His lips tightened as he came striding toward us--a bushy-browed,
hard-bitten old barnacle with a crusty stare. I could tell the exact
instant when he recognized me. His jaw dropped about six inches; then
closed with a click.
"Now!" I whispered to Pete.
Pete raised his voice. "You're higher than a kite!" he shouted. "Why
buy a flying coffin when you could own the sweetest little job in the
System?"
"What I do with my dough is my own business!" I shouted back. "They
knew how to build ships in the old days!"
"I tell you--you're crazier than a diving loon!"
"Sure I'm crazy!" I agreed. "Only a baby with curvature of the brain
could win back a cool eighty thousand on one spin of the wheel! But I'm
sane enough not to want to thin out my take!"
"You'd flip a coin for one o' those flyin' coffins?"
"Why not?" I roared belligerently. "I've got five thousand that says I
know what I'm doing! Five thousand against--the right to pick my own
ship!"
I tripped myself then, deliberately by accident. I went sprawling over
Pete's out-thrust right leg. When I picked myself up I must have looked
as helpless as a new-born babe, because the yardmaster was gripping my
arm and refusing to let go.
"You were saying, mister?"
He was seeing the halo, of course, the rim of gold about my head. I was
pretty sure he wouldn't even ask me to cover my bet.
The copper piece on my palm seemed to fascinate him. He couldn't take
his eyes from it.
"What will it be?" I asked.
He swallowed hard. "Heads!" he said.
I flipped the coin.
"Tails it is!" I told him.
He stared at my palm suspiciously. I grinned and handed him the copper
piece. There was nothing wrong with it.
"I never cheat!" I said.
I walked over to where she stood collecting rust in the red
Jupiterlight--the ship I'd picked out. She wasn't so ancient as old
ships go. She must have been built around 2097, just a hundred years
before I'd won her. We were riding hard on your luck!
"Got a navigator's license?" the yardmaster asked.
"Sure! Want to see it?"
* * * * *
He shook his head. "Never mind! Take her and get going before I start
telling myself I'm the System's prize sap!"
The control room was as musty as a tomb, and when I switched on the
cold lights our shadows looked like black widow spiders dangling from
the overhead.
"She'll never hold together!" Pete groaned.
"Don't be like that!" I chided. "All of these ships have to pass a
rigid inspection."
Pete blinked. "You sure of that?"
"Well ... maybe the inspectors skip a ship here and there," I conceded.
I went over her from stem to stern, to make sure she wouldn't fly about
when I gave her the gun. While I inspected the atomotors Pete kept
giving me uneasy looks, like he was dying to ask me where I'd picked up
my knowledge of ghost ships, but was scared I'd say something to shake
his confidence in me.
I wasn't worried. I can be awfully sure of myself when I'm around
anything mechanical, from an inch-high rheostat to the guide lines on a
sixty-foot control board.
The ship had the right feel about her. I'd have trusted my life to her,
but Pete kept sniffing like he could smell the odor of charred flesh.
To make him feel better I thumped him on the back and told him not to
worry, that he'd appreciate what a fine ship she was when he saw the
green Earth filling the viewpane, misty with spring rains. He'd lived
alone so long he'd become suspicious of everything.
Eaten up by his own fears, tormented by shadows, an old man before his
time. Some of my confidence seemed to seep into him as I talked. He
didn't look so old when he looked up.
He was sitting on a bulkhead chronometer, which meant that time was
ticking away right under him. He was a dead ringer for old Father Time
himself, but for an instant as he returned my stare there was a strange
look in his eyes. As though he'd shrugged off his woes, and was gazing
straight back across the years at his lost youth.
"Maybe you're right, Jim," he said. "When do we take off?"
"Before the yardmaster visiphones Callisto City to find out if I really
did make a killing last night!" I told him.
I was standing close to the control board, my thumb on the oscillatory
circuit. There are two ways of starting an atomotor. You can test out
the strength of the circuit by letting the power drum through the board
before you give the dial a full turn.
Or you can switch the power on full blast, reaching peak in ten seconds
and letting the ship do its own testing. I liked the second way best. A
ship that can't absorb the shock of a take-off at sixty gravities will
almost certainly fly apart in space.
I switched the power on full strength. From the corner of one eye
I had a brief, soul-satisfying glimpse of Pete stiffening in utter
consternation. A mean trick to play on a pal? No. I don't think so. I
wasn't asking him to take the plunge alone. I was sharing the risks,
and I was doing him a favor.
When you're taking a swim you just prolong the agony by sitting around
on a diving raft wriggling your toes in the icy water. It's best to
jump right in, and get it over with.
We must have been twenty thousand feet up when Pete's startled face
slipped out of focus, and I found myself on my hands and knees on a
deck that was revolving like a centrifuge. Cathode rays were darting
in all directions, and everything in the path of the rays glowed with
fluorescent light. I knew that the ship was X-raying itself while fog
condensed on the negative ions of its hull and dissolved into sizzling
steam.
I didn't try to get up immediately. I waited for the deck to stop
gyrating and the strength to return to my wrists. My right arm was
numb and tingling. When I raised my hands I could see the bones in
my fingers. All pilots have skeleton hands when they take off. It's a
second-order cathode ray effect which vanishes after a minute or two.
It doesn't mean a thing. Not if you're sound of mind and limb, and the
ship you've picked is spaceworthy.
But Pete seemed to take a different view. He was staring at me in
horror. I knew what he was thinking. If I was pinch-hitting for
Death--I'd got off to a good start.
He, too, was on his knees on the deck, his shoulders swaying, his face
turned toward me in bitter reproach.
Suddenly his eyes blazed with anger. "Son, I ought to get up and bust
you one on the jaw! If you'd warned me, I could have braced myself!"
I hadn't thought of that. But before I could tell him how sorry I felt,
he was chuckling!
"It's all right, Jim! No bones broken! She sure took it beautifully,
eh?"
"She sure did!" I muttered.
I watched him get to his feet and go reeling toward the viewpane. Mr.
Chameleon was the name for him! He could change his moods so fast, his
mental outlook must have been as dazzling as a display of fireworks.
A guy like that just couldn't hold a grudge. If you poked him in the
ribs he'd blacken your eye and give you his last ounce of tobacco. Good
old Pete! Insatiably curious he was too, like a little boy at a circus
side show.
He just couldn't wait to see how far up we were, had to look out the
viewpane before his brain stopped spinning.
I was satisfied just to sit on the deck and watch him.
For an instant he stared out, his face pressed to the pane, the pulse
in his forehead swelling visibly.
Then, abruptly, he turned and flashed me a startled look. "Jehoshaphat,
Jim! We--we can't be travelin' that fast! Callisto's just a little
crawlin' red gnat in the middle o' the sky!"