CHAPTER XXXV

THE BRANDING OF TOMMY

Grizel's secession had at least one good effect: it gave Tommy more time

in which to make a scholar of himself. Would you like a picture of Tommy

trying to make a scholar of himself?

They all helped him in their different ways: Grizel, by declining his

company; Corp, by being far away at Look-about-you, adding to the inches

of a farm-house; Aaron Latta, by saying nothing but looking "college or

the herding;" Mr. McLean, who had settled down with Ailie at the

Dovecot, by inquiries about his progress; Elspeth by--but did Elspeth's

talks with him about how they should live in Aberdeen and afterwards

(when they were in the big house) do more than send his mind a-galloping

(she holding on behind) along roads that lead not to Aberdeen? What

drove Tommy oftenest to the weary drudgery was, perhaps, the alarm that

came over him when he seemed of a sudden to hear the names of the

bursars proclaimed and no Thomas Sandys among them. Then did he shudder,

for well he knew that Aaron would keep his threat, and he hastily

covered the round table with books and sat for hours sorrowfully

pecking at them, every little while to discover that his mind had soared

to other things, when he hauled it back, as one draws in a reluctant

kite. On these occasions Aaron seldom troubled him, except by glances

that, nevertheless, brought the kite back more quickly than if they had

been words of warning. If Elspeth was present, the warper might sit

moodily by the fire, but when the man and the boy were left together,

one or other of them soon retired, as if this was the only way of

preserving the peace. Though determined to keep his word to Jean Myles

liberally, Aaron had never liked Tommy, and Tommy's avoidance of him is

easily accounted for; he knew that Aaron did not admire him, and unless

you admired Tommy he was always a boor in your presence, shy and

self-distrustful. Especially was this so if you were a lady (how

amazingly he got on in after years with some of you, what agony others

endured till he went away!), and it is the chief reason why there are

such contradictory accounts of him to-day.

Sometimes Mr. Cathro had hopes of him other than those that could only

be revealed in a shameful whisper with the door shut. "Not so bad," he

might say to Mr. McLean; "if he keeps it up we may squeeze him through

yet, without trusting to--to what I was fool enough to mention to you.

The mathematics are his weak point, there's nothing practical about him

(except when it's needed to carry out his devil's designs) and he cares

not a doit about the line A B, nor what it's doing in the circle K, but

there's whiles he surprises me when we're at Homer. He has the spirit

o't, man, even when he bogles at the sense."

But the next time Ivie called for a report--!

In his great days, so glittering, so brief (the days of the penny Life)

Tommy, looking back to this year, was sure that he had never really

tried to work. But he had. He did his very best, doggedly, wearily

sitting at the round table till Elspeth feared that he was killing

himself and gave him a melancholy comfort by saying so. An hour

afterwards he might discover that he had been far away from his books,

looking on at his affecting death and counting the mourners at the

funeral.

Had he thought that Grizel's discovery was making her unhappy he would

have melted at once, but never did she look so proud as when she

scornfully passed him by, and he wagged his head complacently over her

coming chagrin when she heard that he had carried the highest bursary.

Then she would know what she had flung away. This should have helped him

to another struggle with his lexicon, but it only provided a breeze for

the kite, which flew so strong that he had to let go the string.

Aaron and the Dominie met one day in the square, and to Aaron's surprise

Mr. Cathro's despondency about Tommy was more pronounced than before.

"I wonder at that," the warper said, "for I assure you he has been

harder 'at it than ever thae last nights. What's more, he used to look

doleful as he sat at his table, but I notice now that he's as sweer to

leave off as he's keen to begin, and the face of him is a' eagerness

too, and he reads ower to himself what he has wrote and wags his head at

it as if he thought it grand."

"Say you so?" asked Cathro, suspiciously; "does he leave what he writes

lying about, Aaron?"

"No, but he takes it to you, does he no'?"

"Not him," said the Dominie, emphatically. "I may be mistaken, Aaron,

but I'm doubting the young whelp is at his tricks again."

The Dominie was right, and before many days passed he discovered what

was Tommy's new and delicious occupation.

For years Mr. Cathro had been in the habit of writing letters for such

of the populace as could not guide a pen, and though he often told them

not to come deaving him he liked the job, unexpected presents of a hen

or a ham occasionally arriving as his reward, while the personal matters

thus confided to him, as if he were a safe for the banking of private

histories, gave him and his wife gossip for winter nights. Of late the

number of his clients had decreased without his noticing it, so

confident was he that they could not get on without him, but he

received a shock at last from Andrew Dickie, who came one Saturday night

with paper, envelope, a Queen's head, and a request for a letter for

Bell Birse, now of Tilliedrum.

"You want me to speir in your name whether she'll have you, do you?"

asked Cathro, with a flourish of his pen.

"It's no just so simple as that," said Andrew, and then he seemed to be

rather at a loss to say what it was. "I dinna ken," he continued

presently with a grave face, "whether you've noticed that I'm a gey

queer deevil? Losh, I think I'm the queerest deevil I ken."

"We are all that," the Dominie assured him. "But what do you want me to

write?"

"Well, it's like this," said Andrew, "I'm willing to marry her if she's

agreeable, but I want to make sure that she'll take me afore I speir

her. I'm a proud man, Dominie."

"You're a sly one!"

"Am I no!" said Andrew, well pleased. "Well, could you put the letter in

that wy?"

"I wouldna," replied Mr. Cathro, "though I could, and I couldna though I

would. It would defy the face of clay to do it, you canny lover."

Now, the Dominie had frequently declined to write as he was bidden, and

had suggested alterations which were invariably accepted, but to his

astonishment Andrew would not give in. "I'll be stepping, then," he

said coolly, "for if you hinna the knack o't I ken somebody that has."

"Who?" demanded the irate Dominie.

"I promised no to tell you," replied Andrew, and away he went. Mr.

Cathro expected him to return presently in humbler mood, but was

disappointed, and a week or two afterwards he heard Andrew and Mary Jane

Proctor cried in the parish church. "Did Bell Birse refuse him?" he

asked the kirk officer, and was informed that Bell had never got a

chance. "His letter was so cunning," said John, "that without speiring

her, it drew ane frae her in which she let out that she was centred on

Davit Allardyce."

"But who wrote Andrew's letter?" asked Mr. Cathro, sharply.

"I thought it had been yoursel'," said John, and the Dominie chafed, and

lost much of the afternoon service by going over in his mind the names

of possible rivals. He never thought of Tommy.

Then a week or two later fell a heavier blow. At least twice a year the

Dominie had written for Meggy Duff to her daughter in Ireland a long

letter founded on this suggestion, "Dear Kaytherine, if you dinna send

ten shillings immediately, your puir auld mother will have neither house

nor hame. I'm crying to you for't, Kaytherine; hearken and you'll hear

my cry across the cauldriff sea." He met Meggy in the Banker's Close one

day, and asked her pleasantly if the time was not drawing nigh for

another appeal.

"I have wrote," replied the old woman, giving her pocket a boastful

smack, which she thus explained, "And it was the whole ten shillings

this time, and you never got more for me than five."

"Who wrote the letter for you?" he asked, lowering.

She, too, it seemed, had promised not to tell.

"Did you promise to tell nobody, Meggy, or just no to tell me," he

pressed her, of a sudden suspecting Tommy.

"Just no to tell you," she answered, and at that.

"Da-a-a," began the Dominie, and then saved his reputation by adding

"gont." The derivation of the word dagont has puzzled many, but here we

seem to have it.

It is interesting to know what Tommy wrote. The general opinion was that

his letter must have been a triumph of eloquent appeal, and indeed he

had first sketched out several masterpieces, all of some length and in

different styles, but on the whole not unlike the concoctions of Meggy's

former secretary; that is, he had dwelt on the duties of daughters, on

the hardness of the times, on the certainty that if Katherine helped

this time assistance would never be needed again. This sort of thing had

always satisfied the Dominie, but Tommy, despite his several attempts,

had a vague consciousness that there was something second-rate about

them, and he tapped on his brain till it responded. The letter he

despatched to Ireland, but had the wisdom not to read aloud even to

Meggy, contained nothing save her own words, "Dear Kaytherine, if you

dinna send ten shillings immediately, your puir auld mother will have

neither house nor hame. I'm crying to you for't, Kaytherine; hearken and

you'll hear my cry across the cauldriff sea." It was a call from the

heart which transported Katherine to Thrums in a second of time, she

seemed to see her mother again, grown frail since last they met--and so

all was well for Meggy. Tommy did not put all this to himself but he

felt it, and after that he _could not_ have written the letter

differently. Happy Tommy! To be an artist is a great thing, but to be an

artist and not know it is the most glorious plight in the world.

Other fickle clients put their correspondence into the boy's hands, and

Cathro found it out but said nothing. Dignity kept him in check; he did

not even let the tawse speak for him. So well did he dissemble that

Tommy could not decide how much he knew, and dreaded his getting hold of

some of the letters, yet pined to watch his face while he read them.

This could not last forever. Mr. Cathro was like a haughty kettle which

has choked its spout that none may know it has come a-boil, and we all

know what in that event must happen sooner or later to the lid.

The three boys who had college in the tail of their eye had certain

privileges not for the herd. It was taken for granted that when

knowledge came their way they needed no overseer to make them stand

their ground, and accordingly for great part of the day they had a back

bench to themselves, with half a dozen hedges of boys and girls between

them and the Dominie. From his chair Mr. Cathro could not see them, but

a foot-board was nailed to it, and when he stood on this, as he had an

aggravating trick of doing, softly and swiftly, they were suddenly in

view. A large fire had been burning all day and the atmosphere was

soporific. Mr. Cathro was so sleepy himself that the sight of a nodding

head enraged him like a caricature, and he was on the foot-board

frequently for the reason that makes bearded men suck peppermints in

church. Against his better judgment he took several peeps at Tommy, whom

he had lately suspected of writing his letters in school or at least of

gloating over them on that back bench. To-day he was sure of it. However

absorbing Euclid may be, even the forty-seventh of the first book does

not make you chuckle and wag your head; you can bring a substantive in

Virgil back to the verb that has lost it without looking as if you would

like to exhibit them together in the square. But Tommy was thus elated

until he gave way to grief of the most affecting kind. Now he looked

gloomily before him as if all was over, now he buried his face in his

hands, next his eyes were closed as if in prayer. All this the Dominie

stood from him, but when at last he began to blubber--

At the blackboard was an arithmetic class, slates in hand, each member

adding up aloud in turn a row of figures. By and by it was known that

Cathro had ceased to listen. "Go on," his voice rather than himself

said, and he accepted Mary Dundas's trembling assertion that four and

seven make ten. Such was the faith in Cathro that even boys who could

add promptly turned their eleven into ten, and he did not catch them at

it. So obviously was his mind as well as his gaze on, something beyond,

that Sandy Riach, a wit who had been waiting his chance for years,

snapped at it now, and roared "Ten and eleven, nineteen" ("Go on," said

Cathro), "and four, twenty," gasped Sandy, "and eight, sixteen," he

added, gaining courage. "Very good," nmrmured the Dominie, whereupon

Sandy clenched his reputation forever by saying, in one glorious

mouthful, "and six, eleven, and two, five, and one, nocht."

There was no laughing at it then (though Sandy held a levee in the

evening), they were all so stricken with amazement. By one movement they

swung round to see what had fascinated Cathro, and the other classes

doing likewise, Tommy became suddenly the centre of observation. Big

tears were slinking down his face, and falling on some sheets of paper,

which emotion prevented his concealing. Anon the unusual stillness in

the school made him look up, but he was dazed, like one uncertain of his

whereabouts, and he blinked rapidly to clear his eyes, as a bird shakes

water from its wings.

Mr. Cathro first uttered what was afterward described as a kind of

throttled skirl, and then he roared "Come here!" whereupon Tommy stepped

forward heavily, and tried, as commanded, to come to his senses, but it

was not easy to make so long a journey in a moment, and several times,

as he seemed about to conquer his fears, a wave of feeling set them

flowing again.

"Take your time," said Mr. Cathro, grimly, "I can wait," and this had

such a helpful effect that Tommy was able presently to speak up for his

misdeeds. They consisted of some letters written at home but brought to

the school for private reading, and the Dominie got a nasty jar when he

saw that they were all signed "Betsy Grieve." Miss Betsy Grieve, servant

to Mr. Duthie, was about to marry, and these letters were

acknowledgments of wedding presents. Now, Mr. Cathro had written similar

letters for Betsy only a few days before.

"Did she ask you to write these for her?" he demanded, fuming, and Tommy

replied demurely that she had. He could not help adding, though he felt

the unwisdom of it, "She got some other body to do them first, but his

letters didna satisfy her."

"Oh!" said Mr. Cathro, and it was such a vicious oh that Tommy squeaked

tremblingly, "I dinna know who he was."

Keeping his mouth shut by gripping his underlip with his teeth, the

Dominie read the letters, and Tommy gazed eagerly at him, all fear

forgotten, soul conquering body. The others stood or sat waiting,

perplexed as to the cause, confident of the issue. The letters were much

finer productions than Cathro's, he had to admit it to himself as he

read. Yet the rivals had started fair, for Betsy was a recent immigrant

from Dunkeld way, and the letters were to people known neither to Tommy

nor to the Dominie. Also, she had given the same details for the

guidance of each. A lady had sent a teapot, which affected to be new,

but was not; Betsy recognized it by a scratch on the lid, and wanted to

scratch back, but politely. So Tommy wrote, "When you come to see me we

shall have a cup of tea out of your beautiful present, and it will be

like a meeting of three old friends." That was perhaps too polite, Betsy

feared, but Tommy said authoritatively, "No, the politer the nippier."

There was a set of six cups and saucers from Peter something, who had

loved Betsy in vain. She had shown the Dominie and Tommy the ear-rings

given her long ago by Peter (they were bought with 'Sosh checks) and the

poem he had written about them, and she was most anxious to gratify him

in her reply. All Cathro could do, however, was to wish Peter well in

some ornate sentences, while Tommy's was a letter that only a tender

woman's heart could have indited, with such beautiful touches about the

days which are no more alas forever, that Betsy listened to it with

heaving breast and felt so sorry for her old swain that, forgetting she

had never loved him, she all but gave Andrew the go-by and returned to

Peter. As for Peter, who had been getting over his trouble, he saw now

for the first time what he had lost, and he carried Betsy's dear letter

in his oxter pocket and was inconsolable.

But the masterpiece went to Mrs. Dinnie, baker, in return for a flagon

bun. Long ago her daughter, Janet, and Betsy had agreed to marry on the

same day, and many a quip had Mrs. Dinnie cast at their romantic

compact. But Janet died, and so it was a sad letter that Tommy had to

write to her mother. "I'm doubting you're no auld enough for this ane,"

soft-hearted Betsy said, but she did not know her man. "Tell me some one

thing the mother used often to say when she was taking her fun off the

pair of you," he said, and "Where is she buried?" was a suggestive

question, with the happy tag, "Is there a tree hanging over the grave?"

Thus assisted, he composed a letter that had a tear in every sentence.

Betsy rubbed her eyes red over it, and not all its sentiments were

allowed to die, for Mrs. Dinnie, touched to the heart, printed the best

of them in black licorice on short bread for funeral feasts, at which

they gave rise to solemn reflections as they went down.

Nevertheless, this letter affected none so much as the writer of it. His

first rough sketch became so damp as he wrote that he had to abandon his

pen and take to pencil; while he was revising he had often to desist to

dry his eyes on the coverlet of Aaron's bed, which made Elspeth weep

also, though she had no notion what he was at. But when the work was

finished he took her into the secret and read his letter to her, and he

almost choked as he did so. Yet he smiled rapturously through his woe,

and she knew no better than to be proud of him, and he woke next morning

with a cold, brought on you can see how, but his triumph was worth its

price.

Having read the letter in an uncanny silence, Mr. Cathro unbottled Tommy

for the details, and out they came with a rush, blowing away the cork

discretion. Yet was the Dominie slow to strike; he seemed to find more

satisfaction in surveying his young friend with a wondering gaze that

had a dash of admiration in it, which Tommy was the first to note.

"I don't mind admitting before the whole school," said Mr. Cathro,

slowly, "that if these letters had been addressed to me they would have

taken me in."

Tommy tried to look modest, but his chest would have its way.

"You little sacket," cried the Dominie, "how did you manage it?"

"I think I thought I was Betsy at the time," Tommy answered, with proper

awe.

"She told me nothing about the weeping-willow at the grave," said the

Dominie, perhaps in self-defence.

"You hadna speired if there was one," retorted Tommy, jealously.

"What made you think of it?"

"I saw it might come in neat." (He had said in the letter that the

weeping-willow reminded him of the days when Janet's bonny hair hung

down kissing her waist just as the willow kissed the grave.)

"Willows don't hang so low as you seem to think," said the Dominie.

"Yes, they do," replied Tommy, "I walked three miles to see one to make

sure. I was near putting in another beautiful bit about

weeping-willows."

"Well, why didn't you?"

Tommy looked up with an impudent snigger. "You could never guess," he

said.

"Answer me at once," thundered his preceptor. "Was it because--"

"No," interrupted Tommy, so conscious of Mr. Cathro's inferiority that

to let him go on seemed waste of time. "It was because, though it is a

beautiful thing in itself, I felt a servant lassie wouldna have thought

o't. I was sweer," he admitted, with a sigh; then firmly, "but I cut it

out."

Again Cathro admired, reluctantly. The hack does feel the difference

between himself and the artist. Cathro might possibly have had the idea,

he could not have cut it out.

_But_ the hack is sometimes, or usually, or nearly always the artist's

master, and can make him suffer for his dem'd superiority.

"What made you snivel when you read the pathetic bits?" asked Cathro,

with itching fingers.

"I was so sorry for Peter and Mrs. Dinnie," Tommy answered, a little

puzzled himself now. "I saw them so clear."

"And yet until Betsy came to you, you had never heard tell of them?"

"No."

"And on reflection you don't care a doit about them?"

"N-no."

"And you care as little for Betsy?"

"No now, but at the time I a kind of thought I was to be married to

Andrew."

"And even while you blubbered you were saying to yourself, 'What a

clever billie I am!'"

Mr. Cathro had certainly intended to end the scene with the strap, but

as he stretched out his hand for it he had another idea. "Do you know

why Nether Drumgley's sheep are branded with the letters N.D.?" he asked

his pupils, and a dozen replied, "So as all may ken wha they belong to."

"Precisely," said Mr. Cathro, "and similarly they used to brand a letter

on a felon, so that all might know whom _he_ belonged to." He crossed to

the fireplace, and, picking up a charred stick, wrote with it on the

forehead of startled Tommy the letters "S.T."

"Now," said the Dominie complacently, "we know to whom Tommy belongs."

All were so taken aback that for some seconds nothing could be heard

save Tommy indignantly wiping his brow; then "Wha is he?" cried one, the

mouthpiece of half a hundred.

"He is one of the two proprietors we have just been speaking of,"

replied Cathro, dryly, and turning again to Tommy, he said, "Wipe away,

Sentimental Tommy, try hot water, try cold water, try a knife, but you

will never get those letters off you; you are branded for ever and

ever."

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