XVIII. MEDITATION.

The bell rings out, the pulse thereof is changed; the tolling was a

faint and intermitting pulse, upon one side; this stronger, and argues

more and better life. His soul is gone out, and as a man who had a lease

of one thousand years after the expiration of a short one, or an

inheritance after the life of a man in a consumption, he is now entered

into the possession of his better estate. His soul is gone, whither? Who

saw it come in, or who saw it go out? Nobody; yet everybody is sure he

had one, and hath none. If I will ask mere philosophers what the soul

is, I shall find amongst them that will tell me, it is nothing but the

temperament and harmony, and just and equal composition of the elements

in the body, which produces all those faculties which we ascribe to the

soul; and so in itself is nothing, no separable substance that overlives

the body. They see the soul is nothing else in other creatures, and they

affect an impious humility to think as low of man. But if my soul were

no more than the soul of a beast, I could not think so; that soul that

can reflect upon itself, consider itself, is more than so. If I will

ask, not mere philosophers, but mixed men, philosophical divines, how

the soul, being a separate substance, enters into man, I shall find some

that will tell me, that it is by generation and procreation from

parents, because they think it hard to charge the soul with the

guiltiness of original sin if the soul were infused into a body in which

it must necessarily grow foul, and contract original sin whether it

will or no; and I shall find some that will tell me, that it is by

immediate infusion from God, because they think it hard to maintain an

immortality in such a soul, as should be begotten and derived with the

body from mortal parents. If I will ask, not a few men, but almost whole

bodies, whole churches, what becomes of the souls of the righteous at

the departing thereof from the body, I shall be told by some, that they

attend an expiation, a purification in a place of torment; by some, that

they attend the fruition of the sight of God in a place of rest, but yet

but of expectation; by some, that they pass to an immediate possession

of the presence of God. St. Augustine studied the nature of the soul as

much as any thing, but the salvation of the soul; and he sent an express

messenger to St. Hierome, to consult of some things concerning the soul;

but he satisfies himself with this: "Let the departure of my soul to

salvation be evident to my faith, and I care the less how dark the

entrance of my soul into my body be to my reason." It is the going out,

more than the coming in, that concerns us. This soul this bell tells me

is gone out, whither? Who shall tell me that? I know not who it is, much

less what he was, the condition of the man, and the course of his life,

which should tell me whither he is gone, I know not. I was not there in

his sickness, nor at his death; I saw not his way nor his end, nor can

ask them who did, thereby to conclude or argue whither he is gone. But

yet I have one nearer me than all these, mine own charity; I ask that,

and that tells me he is gone to everlasting rest, and joy, and glory. I

owe him a good opinion; it is but thankful charity in me, because I

received benefit and instruction from him when his bell tolled; and I,

being made the fitter to pray by that disposition, wherein I was

assisted by his occasion, did pray for him; and I pray not without

faith; so I do charitably, so I do faithfully believe, that that soul is

gone to everlasting rest, and joy, and glory. But for the body, how poor

a wretched thing is that? we cannot express it so fast, as it grows

worse and worse. That body, which scarce three minutes since was such a

house, as that that soul, which made but one step from thence to heaven,

was scarce thoroughly content to leave that for heaven; that body hath

lost the name of a dwelling-house, because none dwells in it, and is

making haste to lose the name of a body, and dissolve to putrefaction.

Who would not be affected to see a clear and sweet river in the morning,

grow a kennel of muddy land-water by noon, and condemned to the saltness

of the sea by night? and how lame a picture, how faint a representation

is that, of the precipitation of man's body to dissolution? Now all the

parts built up, and knit by a lovely soul, now but a statue of clay, and

now these limbs melted off, as if that clay were but snow; and now the

whole house is but a handful of sand, so much dust, and but a peck of

rubbish, so much bone. If he who, as this bell tells me, is gone now,

were some excellent artificer, who comes to him for a cloak or for a

garment now? or for counsel, if he were a lawyer? if a magistrate, for

justice? Man, before he hath his immortal soul, hath a soul of sense,

and a soul of vegetation before that: this immortal soul did not forbid

other souls to be in us before, but when this soul departs, it carries

all with it; no more vegetation, no more sense. Such a mother-in-law is

the earth, in respect of our natural mother; in her womb we grew, and

when she was delivered of us, we were planted in some place, in some

calling in the world; in the womb of the earth we diminish, and when she

is delivered of us, our grave opened for another; we are not

transplanted, but transported, our dust blown away with profane dust,

with every wind.

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