HOW “ALONE” CAME TO BE

“_June 5th, 1854._

“... You anticipate from this formidable array of duties,

hindrances, etc., that it will be some time, yet, before I

can avail myself of your bewitching invitation. I doubt if

I shall be ready to accept Powhie’s gallant offer of his

escort, although it is tempting. But—

“‘I’m coming! yes, I’m coming!’

in July, wind, weather, and all else permitting.

“You will probably see a more august personage next Sunday.

I cannot resist the temptation to let you into the secret

of a little manœuvring of my own. I had an intimation a few

weeks ago that Miss L. and poor lonely Mr. S., her near

neighbor, were nodding at each other across the road. There

was an allusion to horseback rides, and a less fertile

imagination could have concocted a very tolerable story out

of the facts (?) in hand.

“But _didn’t_ I make it tell? The plausible tale crashed

into the peaceful brain of our worthy uncle-in-law like

a bomb-shell into a quiet chamber at midnight. How he

squirmed, and fidgeted, and tried to smile! ’Twas all a

ghastly grin! I winked at Herbert, who chanced to come in

while the narrative was in progress. The rogue had heard

but the merest outline, and paid no attention to that;

but he made a ‘sight draught’ upon his inventive talents,

and—adding to the rides, ‘moonlight walks, afternoon strolls

to the tobacco patch, and along the road toward the big

gate to see whether the joint-worm was in the wheat,’ and

insinuations that these excursions were more to the lady’s

taste than ‘sanctuary privileges’—almost drove the venerable

wooer crazy.

“‘Yes!’ said he, bitterly, pushing back his chair from the

table. ‘_He_ has a house and plantation. A land-rope is a

strong rope! Women look at these things.’

“He actually followed Herbert to the front door to

supplicate—Herbert declares, ‘with tears in both

eyes’—that he would at least tell him if his information

was ‘authentic, or if it might not be that he was trying

to scare him?’ Herbert excused himself upon the plea of

pressing business, but invited him to ‘drop into the office

some time if he would have further particulars.’

“Our plot works to a charm. The reverend swain sets out

‘this very week’ for Powhatan, and ‘means to have the matter

settled.’ So, look out for him!

“All this rigmarole is strictly true. No boy of seventeen

was ever more angrily jealous or desperate. You may, if

you like, let the Montrosians into the fun, but, until the

matter is settled, don’t let the key pass into other hands.

“Isn’t it glorious? Two bald heads ducking and ogling to

one fortunate damsel—their bleared eyes looking ‘pistols

for two, coffee for one!’ at each other? What an entrancing

interruption to the monotony of a life that, until now, has

flowed as gently as a canal stream over a grade of a foot to

a mile?”

I remark, _en passant_, what will probably interest not a living

creature of this generation—to wit, that neither of the competitors

won the amiable woman they made ridiculous by their wintry wooing. She

returned a kindly negative to both bachelor and widower, and died,

as she had lived, the beloved maiden “Auntie” of numerous nieces and

nephews.

Before transcribing other passages from the same letter—one of unusual

length even for that epistolary age—I must retrace my steps to pick

up the first thread of what was in time to thicken into a “cord of

stronger twine.”

When I was sixteen I began to write a book. It was a school-girl’s

story—a picture crudely done, but as truthful as I could make it—of

what was going on in the small world I thought large, and every

personage who figured in it was a portrait. In that book I lived and

moved, and had my inmost being for that year. I spoke to nobody of what

I was doing. The shrinking from confiding to my nearest and dearest

what I was writing, was reluctance unfeigned and unconquerable in the

case of this, my best-beloved brain-child. None of my own household

questioned me as to what went on in the hours spent in my “study,” as

the corner, or closet, or room where I planted myself and desk, was

named. We had a way of respecting one another’s eccentricities that had

no insignificant share in maintaining the harmony which earned for ours

the reputation of a singularly happy family.

I was allowed to plan my day’s work, so long as it did not impinge

upon the rights or convenience of the rest. Directly after breakfast,

I called my two willing little pupil-sisters to their lessons. The

rock and shoals of threatened financial disaster that menaced our home

for a while, were safely overpast by now. We were once more in smooth

water, and sacrifices might be remitted. I continued to teach my little

maids for sheer love of them, and of seeing their minds grow. Both were

bright and docile. Alice had an intellect of uncommon strength and of

a remarkably original cast. It was a delight to instruct her for some

years. After that, we studied together.

Our “school-time” lasted from nine until one. I never emerged from the

study until three—the universal dinner-hour in Richmond. If visitors

called, as often happened, my mother and sister excused me. In the

afternoon we went out together, making calls, or walking, or driving.

In the evening there was usually company, or we practised with piano

and flute, and, as Herbert grew old enough to join our “band,” he

brought in his guitar, or we met in “the chamber,” and one read aloud

in the sweet old way while the others wrought with needle and pencil

and drawing-board. This was the routine varied by occasional concerts

and parties. Now and then, I got away from the group and wrote until

midnight.

In 1853 the _Southern Era_, a semi-literary weekly owned and run by

the then powerful and popular “Sons of Temperance,” offered a prize

of fifty dollars for the best temperance serial of a given length. I

had written at sixteen, and recast it at eighteen, a story entitled

“Marrying Through Prudential Motives,” and sent it secretly to _Godey’s

Magazine_. It bore the signature of “Mary Vale”—a veiled suggestion of

my real name. For four years I heard nothing of the waif. I had had

experiences enough of the same kind to dishearten a vain or a timorous

writer. It was balm to my mortified soul to reflect that nobody was the

wiser for the ventures and the failures.

So I set my pen in rest, and went in for the prize; less, I avow, for

the fifty dollars than for the reward for seeing my ambitious bantling

in print. So faint and few were my expectations of this consummation,

that I went off to Boston for the summer, without intimating to any one

the audacious cast I had made. I had been with my cousins six weeks

when my mother sent me a copy of the _Southern Era_, containing what

she said in a letter by the same mail, “promised to be the best serial

it had published.” I opened the letter first, and tore the wrapper from

the paper carelessly.

How it leaped at me from the outermost page!

OUR PRIZE STORY!

KATE HARPER

By Marion Harland

All set up in what we christened in the last quarter-century,

“scare-heads.”

As I learned later from home-letters, the editor, after advertising

vainly for the author’s address, had published without waiting for it.

I wrote home that night to my father, pouring out the whole revelation,

and stipulating that the secret should be kept among ourselves.

“Marion Harland” was, again, a hint of my name, so covert that it was

not guessed at by readers in general. The editor, an acquaintance of my

father, was informed of my right to draw the money. I continued to send

tales and poems to him for two years, and preserved my incognito.

In the late spring of 1853, “Mea,” Herbert, and I were sitting in the

parlor on a wild night when it rained as rain falls nowhere else as

in the seven-hilled city. My companions had their magazines. Mea’s,

as I well recollect, was _Harper’s New Monthly_; my brother had the

_Southern Literary Messenger_. Ned Rhodes had taken _Harper’s_ for me

from the very first issue. My father subscribed conscientiously for

the _Messenger_ to encourage Southern literature. All right-minded

Virginians acknowledged the duty of extending such encouragement to the

extent of the subscription price of “native productions.”

I had dragged out the rough copy of my book from the bottom of my desk

that day, and was now looking it over at a table on one side of the

fireplace. Chancing upon the page describing Celestia Pratt’s entrance

upon school-life, I laughed aloud.

“What is it?” queried my sister, looking up in surprise.

“See if you know her,” I responded, and read out the scene. She joined

in the laugh.

“To the life!” she pronounced. “Go on!”

I finished the chapter, and the two resumed their magazines. Presently

Herbert tossed his aside.

“I say!” with boyish impetuosity. “This is stupid after what you gave

us. Haven’t you ‘anything more of the same sort?’”

It was a slang phrase of the day.

It was the “Open Sesame” of my literary life.

They kept me reading until nearly midnight, dipping in here for a

scene, there for a character-sketch, until my voice gave out.

I began rewriting _Alone_ next day, and we welcomed stormy evenings

for the next two months. When the MS. was ready for the press, I wrote

the “Dedication to my Brother and Sister” as a pleasant surprise to my

generous critics. They did not suspect it until they read it in print.

Getting the work into print was not so easy as the eager praises of

my small audience might have inclined me to expect. The principal

book-store in Richmond at that time was owned by Adolphus Morris, a

warm personal friend of my father. The two had been intimate for years,

and the families of the friends maintained most cordial relations. Yet

it was with sore and palpable quakings of heart that I betook myself to

the office of the man who took on dignity as a prospective publisher,

and laid bare my project. It was positive _pain_ to tell him that I

had been writing under divers signatures for the press since I was

fourteen. The task grew harder as the judicial look, I have learned

to know since as the publisher’s perfunctory guise, crept over the

handsome face. When I owned, with blushes that scorched my hair, to

the authorship of the “Robert Remer” series, and of the prize story in

the _Era_, he said frankly and coolly that he “had never read either.”

He “fancied that he had heard Mrs. Morris speak of the Remer papers.

Religious—were they not?”

He liked me, and his pretty wife (who had far more brains and vivacity

than he) had made a pet of me. He honored my father, and was under

business obligations to him. I was conscious, while I labored away at

my share in my first business interview, that he lent kindly heed to me

for these reasons, and not that he had the smallest grain of faith in

the merits of my work. I was a child in his sight, and he would humor

my whim.

“I am willing to submit your manuscript to my reader,” he said, at last.

I looked the blank ignorance I felt. He explained patronizingly. He

had patronized me from the moment I said that I had written a book. I

have become familiar with this phase of publisherhood, also, since that

awful day.

“John R. T. reads all my manuscripts!” fell upon my ear like a trickle

of boiling lead. “Send it down when it is ready, and I will put it into

his hands. You know, I suppose, that everything intended for printing

must be written on one side of the paper?”

I answered meekly that I had heard as much, bade him “Good morning!”

and crept homeward, humbled to the dust.

“John R. T.!” (Nobody ever left out the “R.” in speaking of him, and

nobody, so far as I ever heard, knew for what it stood.)

He was the bright son of a worthy citizen; had been graduated at the

University of Virginia; studied _at_ the law, and entered the editorial

profession as manager-in-chief, etc., of the _Southern Literary

Messenger_. He had social ambitions, and had succeeded in acquiring a

sort of world-weary air, and a gentle languor of tone and bearing which

might have been copied from D’Israeli’s _Young Duke_, a book in high

favor in aristocratic circles. I never saw “Johnny”—as graceless youths

who went to school with him grieved him to the heart by calling him on

the street—without thinking of the novel. Like most caricatures, the

likeness was unmistakable.

And into the hands of this “reader” I was to commit my “brain-child!”

I cried out against the act in such terms as these, and stronger, in

relating the substance of the interview to my father.

“Be sensible, little girl! Keep a cool head!” he counselled. “Business

is business. And I suppose John R. understands his. I will take the

manuscript to Morris myself to-morrow.”

“And make him comprehend,” I interjected, “that I do not shirk

criticism. I see the faults of my book. If I were sure that it would be

judged fairly, I wouldn’t mind it so much.”

The reader kept the manuscript two months. Then my father wrote a civil

demand to Mr. Morris for the return of the work. I was too sick of soul

to lift a finger to reclaim what I was persuaded was predestined to be

a dead failure. Two days later the bulky parcel came back. Mr. Morris

had enclosed with it the reader’s opinion:

“I regret that the young author’s anxiety to regain possession of her

bantling has prevented me from reading more than a few pages of the

story. Judging from what I have read, however, I should not advise you

to publish it upon speculation.”

I laid the note before my father after supper that evening. Our mother

had early inculcated in our minds the eminent expediency of never

speaking of unpleasant topics to a tired and hungry man. We always

waited until bath, food, and rest had had their perfect work upon

the head of the house. He leaned back in his arm-chair, the evening

paper at his elbow, his slippered feet to the glowing grate, and a

good cigar between his lips. His teeth tightened suddenly upon it when

he heard the note. It was curt. To my flayed sensibilities, it was

brutal. I see, now, that it was businesslike and impersonal. Were I a

professional “reader,” I should indite one as brief, and not a whit

more sympathetic. _Alone_ was my first book, and a sentient fraction of

my soul and heart.

For a whole minute there was no sound in the room but the bubbling

song of the soft coal. I sat upon a stool beside my confidant, and,

having passed the letter up to him, my head sank gradually to his knee.

I was unspeakably miserable, but I made no moan. He had not patience

with weak wails when anything remained to be done. His cigar had gone

out, for when I lifted my head at his movement toward the lamp, he had

folded the scrap of paper into a spile, and was lighting it. He touched

the dead cigar with the flame, and drew hard upon it until it was in

working order before he said:

“I believe in that book! I shall send it back to Morris, to-morrow, and

tell him to bring it out in good style and send the bill to me.”

“But,” I gasped, “you may lose money by it!”

“I don’t think so. At any rate, we will make the experiment.”

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