Letitia’s triumph and delight when she found that she was to have her
ball to herself, without the presence either of Lady Frogmore, who would
have made her seem second in what she called her own house, or Mar, who
would have been the hero of the evening had he appeared, were almost
more than words could say. It seemed to her too good to be true that
Mary should come, giving thus her sanction and approval, and then go
away, interfering with nothing; and that Mar should play into her hands,
and disqualify himself by the fatigue of his long ramble, a thing which
she could not have hoped for! It seemed to Mrs. Parke as if Providence
had taken the matter in hand, and was fighting for her. It is easy to be
pious when things go so much to one’s mind, and it is always so easy to
deceive one’s-self about the virtuousness of one’s aims. When a woman is
scheming for her children, and their benefit, does it not seem as if the
stars in their courses should fight for her? And Letitia would have
indignantly flung off the charge of selfishness: was it not all for
Duke?--for her husband and her children? that they should have
everything they wanted and a happy life; that they should, if possible,
have all the honours of the race secured to them, or at least should
triumph as much as possible over the untoward accident which had
alienated these honors. It was not for herself, Letitia would have said,
with fine indignation--what could it matter for her? and what could it
be supposed but a mother’s first and highest duty to strive for the
advantage of Duke.
It must not be supposed, however, that Mrs. Parke’s treatment of Mar had
any distinct evil intention. It was her real conviction that the boy
would not live, and she dealt with him as the man in the parable dealt
with the talent which was given to him to make profit of, and which he
laid up in a napkin. Had she been more generously inspired she would
have endeavored, even by taking a risk, to stimulate the forces of the
delicate boy. Had he been her own son this is what she would have done;
but Letitia’s first thought was, not to save him, but that it might not
be said he had been exposed to any danger while under her charge. She
thought that she protected herself from all blame by making a hothouse
plant of the boy, and shutting him up from every wind that blew. “No one
can say he has not been taken every care of,” she said. Should “anything
happen,” she, at least, would thus be free from blame. It would be known
to all that she had been more careful of him than of her own--that she
had not suffered the winds of heaven to visit his cheeks too roughly.
That she had kept him from fatigue, from excitement, from everything
calculated to hurt him. And in all this she was sincere enough. That she
had also wished to ignore him, to keep him in the background, to give
her own children the advantages which were meant chiefly for Mar, did
not hurt her conscience. It was not for herself--she derived no benefit
from the fact that Mar was not sent to school--on the contrary it was a
self denial to her, a bond preventing her from amusing herself as she
would, never leaving home except for a day or two. That it gave to Duke
the principal place, and made John a much more important person in the
county, were objects unconnected with Mrs. Parke’s personality--then how
could she be called selfish? It can never be selfishness to strive for
the pre-eminence of your husband and your child. Thus Letitia made her
conscience quite comfortable when it did by chance give her a pinch. But
generally it must be said her perfect conviction that she was right,
whatever she did, daunted her conscience and kept everything quiet. Of
course she was right! She had a delicate boy to bring up who everybody
said would never be reared, and she took such care of him that he was
never exposed to a draught, or suffered to escape from the cotton wool
in which her assiduous and constant attention enveloped him. What could
a woman do more? She thus put herself beyond the possibility of reproach
whatever happened, while strengthening the conviction of everybody
around that the young Lord Frogmore would never live to grow up; but if
people chose to form that conclusion the fault was not Letitia’s. She
shared it indeed herself, and shook her head over the state of Mar’s
health; but when amiable neighbors said, “If care will save him I am
sure, dear Mrs. Parke, you will do it,” she shook her hand again. “I do
all I can,” she said, “at the risk of being told I do more harm than
good. Some people think I should try bracing for him--exposing him like
the other children. But I think it is best to be on the safe side. I
shall be blamed anyhow, whatever happens, I know,” she would add with a
smile. She would have convinced anyone; and she did convince herself.
She thought she was only angry with Mar because it was so difficult to
make him take proper precautions. She was certain that she wished
nothing but his good.
It may be supposed that the exhibition in the tent, the sudden surging
up of Mar--the delicate boy whom nobody knew--into a distinct boyish
personality, suddenly producing himself in the most attractive and
characteristic way at Duke’s dinner, when she intended only Duke to be
thought of, was gall and bitterness to Letitia. She was almost beside
herself with rage and exasperation. It had been all planned for Duke. It
had been intended to give him the aspect of the heir (which he was sure
to be eventually), and if there can be supposed any more sharp
deception, any more poignant disappointment than Letitia’s, when she saw
the other boy, who was the shadow upon Duke’s sunshine, the barrier to
his advancement, pushed to the front, and so conducting himself there as
to make it for ever impossible to speak of him as of a sick and puny
child--it would be very difficult to find it. That she could have
strangled Mar, and also Duke and Letty, and everyone who was in the
complot, in the exasperation of her soul, is not too much to say. She
had to conceal this under the appearance of anxiety lest the boy should
have harmed himself, and discoursed, as has been seen, on the danger of
excitement for him with a bitterness and energy which went too far, and
betrayed something of her real motive at least to some of her children.
But that real motive was not a guilty one. It was only to keep Mar in
the background and bring forward her own boy. That was all--only to make
Duke first, which by an accident he was not--which he ought to be by
age, the other being really no more than a child, a child to whom it was
pernicious to be brought forward like that, to be forced out of the
quiet life which was the only thing possible to him. Letitia found
herself able to carry matters with a high hand, both with her conscience
and those keen critics her children. Of course she was angry. It was
the very worst thing that could have happened to Mar. And for his poor
mother, who had fainted, what a shock!
When it happened after this that Mary fled, taking a hurried leave,
excusing herself anxiously, imploring Letitia not to think her unkind,
and left the course clear; and that Mar in his elation possibly after
yesterday, and foolish fancy that he had emancipated himself, went and
took that long walk and unfitted himself for the fatigue of the evening,
Letitia’s spirit, we will not say her heart, gave a bound of
satisfaction. The stars in their courses were fighting for her. She was
mistress of her own entertainment, undeniably the most important person,
not over-shadowed by the woman who never ought to have been Lady
Frogmore. And when the county ladies, so many of whom had heard of it,
began to talk to her of the event of yesterday, and to express their
satisfaction in hearing that her young nephew was so much stronger and
had made quite a speech and such a good impression, Letitia felt herself
supported by every right feeling in the gravity with which she still
continued to shake her head. “Ah, poor Mar! yes, he did very well, poor
boy, but it has cost him dear. I did not take much satisfaction in his
speech, for I knew it would cost him dear.”
“I suppose he is here to-night,” said the great lady of the county,
putting up her eyeglass and looking round her, “I want to see him if you
will let me, for his father and I were great friends. I want to ask him
to Highwood now he is getting old enough----”
“Oh, he is not here,” said Letitia. “He is in bed with a sort of nervous
attack and great weakness. I tell my Duke his cousin was not able for
excitement, but it is so difficult to make boys understand.”
“It was not that, mamma--it was the long walk,” whispered Letty at her
ear.
“I see the Miss Winfords without partners,” said Mrs. Parke severely,
“and shoals of young men about. Go and introduce them--you little
horror!” said the mother, the last words under her breath, and she
turned again to the great county lady. “I knew,” she said, “that he
could not bear anything of the kind. Absolute quiet is the only thing
that suits poor Mar. But my boy is very fond of him, and thinks it
kindness to thrust him forward. All pure affection, but affection does
just as much harm as enmity--or more sometimes.” Letitia spoke with a
strength of conviction which much impressed the ladies who were
listening. “It is a great disappointment to us all,” she said, “poor
boy, that he can’t be here to-night.”
The same question was put to her again and again during the evening.
“Where is little Frogmore? I want to see little Frogmore. I hear he
quite distinguished himself at your tenants’ dinner, Parke.” “What have
you done with the boy? I made sure we should see him to-night.” “Where
is the young lord?”
These were the demands that flew about on every side.
John, carefully tutored by his wife, made an answer as much like hers as
it was possible for so different a speaker to make.
“Yes, he made a famous speech. He’s a fine boy, but overdid himself, and
my wife has put him to bed. My wife’s too careful over the boy,” said
John.
“Ah, it is a great responsibility to have the care of children that are
not your own,” said someone standing by.
“I suppose so,” said Mr. Parke, smoothing his big moustache.
The responsibility would not have moved John. He would have let Mar take
his chance with the rest, and made no difference; but he had been well
tutored, and made to see that this would never do. “A mother’s always
anxious, you know,” he said. “As for me, I think it does more harm than
good.”
Letitia had, after much vexation, come to the conclusion that it was not
a bad thing John should talk like this. It would show that there was no
agreement between them for keeping Mar out of the way.
And the ball was most brilliantly successful--more successful, everyone
said, than any ball in the county had been for years. There was no
shadow at all upon it--no reminder to the family that they were
temporary tenants, and that in a few years they would all have to retire
from the scene, which they all used, and rejoiced in as if it were their
own.
Mrs. Parke, in the satisfaction of finding all possible rivalry absent,
felt that her feet were upon her native heath as she had never done:
she talked to everybody of Duke’s prospects, and of the difference it
made when he came home. She spoke of the younger boys who would have
their own way to make, and must not think they would always have their
father’s house to fall back upon. She spoke of John’s good intelligence
with the “tenants,” and how well he was getting on with the Home Farm,
which he had taken into his own hands. For this night only she forgot to
be careful; she took the full enjoyment of the position, as if
everything was her own. Nearly a dozen years she had been in the house,
with full command of everything. The children had grown up in it. How
could she help feeling that it was her own? She forgot all about
guardians and executors, and it seemed to her for a blessed hour or two
as if all difficulties had been smoothed away, and Duke was indeed the
heir, and she herself all but Lady Frogmore. Moments of intoxication
will come like this in everybody’s career--when we remember nothing that
is against us, and are able to believe that all we wish is going to be
fulfilled. It was remarked how Mrs. Parke’s eyes, not bright by nature,
glittered, and how her little person seemed to swell with satisfaction
and pride as she moved about doing the honors. But her aspect, I am
afraid, was not regarded with sympathy by the greater part of her
guests. We are all apt to believe that the outer world takes our view
and regards matters from our standing point in such a moment of triumph.
But as a matter of fact that is precisely the time when it does not do
so. Letitia’s neighbors whispered to each other that Mrs. Parke looked
as if everything belonged to her--“which it doesn’t at all, you know,”
and talked as if her husband was the head of the house and her son the
heir--“whereas, as soon as little Frogmore comes of age they must all
pack off.” They thought it bad taste of Letitia not to have produced the
boy. “If he’s as ill as that she might have had him on the sofa. He
ought to have showed for a little,” they said. But Mrs. Parke was quite
unconscious of their sentiments. There never had been a time in her life
when she had so ignored them. Always till now she had retained a
consciousness of what people would be saying. But this evening it had
vanished from her mind. She was _fey_, as people say in Scotland; her
prosperity had gone to her head and made her forget everything that was
not delightful. Either some great and critical moment or perhaps death
itself was in her way.
“Well,” she said, when all was over, “it has gone off as I never saw
anything go off before. Everything went well, the music and the floor
and the supper and the temper of the people. They were all so pleasant.
The old marchioness made me the prettiest of speeches. She said, ‘The
Park has never been so brilliant as in your time.’ The young people
hoped we would have one every year. I said perhaps--for after all there
is nothing so easily managed as a ball when it _is_ a success.”
“You must remember, Letitia,” said John, “that there cannot be very many
years now before we’ve got to march out bag and baggage.”
“Oh, don’t speak nonsense,” she cried incredulously. In the sweep of her
excitement she would not receive that thought.
“But, mother, it’s true,” said Duke. “I’ve liked the ball awfully. You
are one for this sort of thing, nobody can do it like you. But of course
when Mar comes of age----”
“Oh, don’t speak to me of Mar. He’ll never come of age!” she cried in
the wildness of her elated mood. There was a universal cry: “Letitia!
Mother! Mamma!” in different tones of indignation and horror.
She was driven out of all sense of decorum in her heat and excitement.
“Oh, you set of fools!” Letitia said.