CHAPTER XV

The Duke Receives a Letter,--and Writes One

The Duke, when he received Mrs. Finn's note, demanding an interview,

thought much upon the matter before he replied. She had made her

demand as though the Duke had been no more than any other gentleman,

almost as though she had a right to call upon him to wait upon her.

He understood and admired the courage of this;--but nevertheless he

would not go to her. He had trusted her with that which of all things

was the most sacred to him, and she had deceived him! He wrote to her

as follows:

The Duke of Omnium presents his compliments to Mrs. Finn.

As the Duke thinks that no good could result either to

Mrs. Finn or to himself from an interview, he is obliged

to say that he would rather not do as Mrs. Finn has

requested.

But for the strength of this conviction the Duke would

have waited upon Mrs. Finn most willingly.

Mrs. Finn when she received this was not surprised. She had felt sure

that such would be the nature of the Duke's answer; but she was also

sure that if such an answer did come she would not let the matter

rest. The accusation was so bitter to her that she would spare

nothing in defending herself,--nothing in labour and nothing in time.

She would make him know that she was in earnest. As she could not

succeed in getting into his presence she must do this by letter,--and

she wrote her letter, taking two days to think of her words.

May 18, 18--.

MY DEAR DUKE OF OMNIUM,

As you will not come to me, I must trouble your Grace

to read what I fear will be a long letter. For it is

absolutely necessary that I should explain my conduct to

you. That you have condemned me I am sure you will not

deny;--nor that you have punished me as far as the power

of punishment was in your hands. If I can succeed in

making you see that you have judged me wrongly, I think

you will admit your error and beg my pardon. You are not

one who from your nature can be brought easily to do this;

but you are one who will certainly do it if you can be

made to feel that by not doing so you would be unjust. I

am myself so clear as to my own rectitude of purpose and

conduct, and am so well aware of your perspicuity, that

I venture to believe that if you will read this letter I

shall convince you.

Before I go any further I will confess that the matter is

one,--I was going to say almost of life and death to me.

Circumstances, not of my own seeking, have for some years

past thrown me so closely into intercourse with your

family that now to be cast off, and to be put on one side

as a disgraced person,--and that so quickly after the

death of her who loved me so dearly and who was so dear to

me,--is such an affront as I cannot bear and hold up my

head afterwards. I have come to be known as her whom your

uncle trusted and loved, as her whom your wife trusted and

loved,--obscure as I was before;--and as her whom, may I

not say, you yourself trusted? As there was much of honour

and very much of pleasure in this, so also was there

something of misfortune. Friendships are safest when the

friends are of the same standing. I have always felt there

was danger, and now the thing I feared has come home to

me.

Now I will plead my case. I fancy, that when first you

heard that I had been cognisant of your daughter's

engagement, you imagined that I was aware of it before I

went to Matching. Had I been so, I should have been guilty

of that treachery of which you accuse me. I did know

nothing of it till Lady Mary told me on the day before I

left Matching. That she should tell me was natural enough.

Her mother had known it, and for the moment,--if I am

not assuming too much in saying so,--I was filling her

mother's place. But, in reference to you, I could not

exercise the discretion which a mother might have used,

and I told her at once, most decidedly, that you must be

made acquainted with the fact.

Then Lady Mary expressed to me her wish,--not that this

matter should be kept any longer from you, for that it

should be told she was as anxious as I was myself,--but

that it should be told to you by Mr. Tregear. It was not

for me to raise any question as to Mr. Tregear's fitness

or unfitness,--as to which indeed I could know nothing.

All I could do was to say that if Mr. Tregear would make

the communication at once, I should feel that I had done

my duty. The upshot was that Mr. Tregear came to me

immediately on my return to London, and agreeing with me

that it was imperative that you be informed, went to you

and did inform you. In all of that, if I have told the

story truly, where has been my offence? I suppose you will

believe me, but your daughter can give evidence as to

every word that I have written.

I think that you have got it into your mind that I have

befriended Mr. Tregear's suit, and that, having received

this impression, you hold it with the tenacity which is

usual to you. There never was a greater mistake. I went to

Matching as the friend of my dear friend;--but I stayed

there at your request, as your friend. Had I been, when

you asked me to do so, a participator in that secret I

could not have honestly remained in the position you

assigned to me. Had I done so, I should have deserved your

ill opinion. As it is I have not deserved it, and your

condemnation of me has been altogether unjust. Should I

not now receive from you a full withdrawal of all charge

against me, I shall be driven to think that after all

the insight which circumstances have given me into your

character, I have nevertheless been mistaken in the

reading of it.

I remain,

Dear Duke of Omnium,

Yours truly,

M. FINN.

I find on looking over my letter that I must add one word

further. It might seem that I am asking for a return of

your friendship. Such is not my purpose. Neither can you

forget that you have accused me,--nor can I. What I expect

is that you should tell me that you in your conduct to me

have been wrong and that I in mine to you have been right.

I must be enabled to feel that the separation between us

has come from injury done to me, and not by me.

He did read the letter more than once, and read it with tingling

ears, and hot cheeks, and a knitted brow. As the letter went on, and

as the woman's sense of wrong grew hot from her own telling of her

own story, her words became stronger and still stronger, till at

last they were almost insolent in their strength. Were it not that

they came from one who did think herself to have been wronged, then

certainly they would be insolent. A sense of injury, a burning

conviction of wrong sustained, will justify language which otherwise

would be unbearable. The Duke felt that, and though his ears were

tingling and his brow knitted, he could have forgiven the language,

if only he could have admitted the argument. He understood every word

of it. When she spoke of tenacity she intended to charge him with

obstinacy. Though she had dwelt but lightly on her own services she

had made her thoughts on the matter clear enough. "I, Mrs. Finn, who

am nobody, have done much to succour and assist you, the Duke of

Omnium; and this is the return which I have received!" And then she

told him to his face that unless he did something which it would be

impossible that he should do, she would revoke her opinion of his

honesty! He tried to persuade himself that her opinion about his

honesty was nothing to him;--but he failed. Her opinion was very much

to him. Though in his anger he had determined to throw her off from

him, he knew her to be one whose good opinion was worth having.

Not a word of overt accusation had been made against his wife. Every

allusion to her was full of love. But yet how heavy a charge was

really made! That such a secret should be kept from him, the father,

was acknowledged to be a heinous fault;--but the wife had known the

secret and had kept it from him, the father! And then how wretched a

thing it was for him that any one should dare to write to him about

the wife that had been taken away from him! In spite of all her

faults her name was so holy to him that it had never once passed

his lips since her death, except in low whispers to himself,--low

whispers made in the perfect, double-guarded seclusion of his own

chamber. "Cora, Cora," he had murmured, so that the sense of the

sound and not the sound itself had come to him from his own lips. And

now this woman wrote to him about her freely, as though there were

nothing sacred, no religion in the memory of her.

"It was not for me to raise any question as to Mr. Tregear's

fitness." Was it not palpable to all the world that he was unfit?

Unfit! How could a man be more unfit? He was asking for the hand of

one who was second only to royalty--who was possessed of everything,

who was beautiful, well-born, rich, who was the daughter of the Duke

of Omnium, and he had absolutely nothing of his own to offer.

But it was necessary that he should at last come to the consideration

of the actual point as to which she had written to him so forcibly.

He tried to set himself to the task in perfect honesty. He certainly

had condemned her. He had condemned her and had no doubt punished her

to the extent of his power. And if he could be brought to see that he

had done this unjustly, then certainly must he beg her pardon. And

when he considered it all, he had to own that her intimacy with his

uncle and his wife had not been so much of her seeking as of theirs.

It grieved him now that it should have been so, but so it was. And

after all this,--after the affectionate surrender of herself to his

wife's caprices which the woman had made,--he had turned upon her and

driven her away with ignominy. That was all true. As he thought of

it he became hot, and was conscious of a quivering feeling round his

heart. These were bonds indeed; but they were bonds of such a nature

as to be capable of being rescinded and cut away altogether by

absolute bad conduct. If he could make it good to himself that in a

matter of such magnitude as the charge of his daughter she had been

untrue to him and had leagued herself against him, with an unworthy

lover, then, then--all bonds would be rescinded! Then would his wrath

be altogether justified! Then would it have been impossible that

he should have done aught else than cast her out! As he thought of

this he felt sure that she had betrayed him! How great would be the

ignominy to him should he be driven to own to himself that she had

not betrayed him! "There should not have been a moment," he said to

himself over and over again,--"not a moment!" Yes;--she certainly had

betrayed him.

There might still be safety for him in that confident assertion of

"not a moment;" but had there been anything of that conspiracy of

which he had certainly at first judged her to be guilty? She had told

her story, and had then appealed to Lady Mary for evidence. After

five minutes of perfect stillness,--but five minutes of misery, five

minutes during which great beads of perspiration broke out from him

and stood upon his brow, he had to confess to himself that he did not

want any evidence. He did believe her story. When he allowed himself

to think she had been in league with Tregear he had wronged her. He

wiped away the beads from his brow, and again repeated to himself

those words which were now his only comfort, "There should not have

been a moment;--not a moment!"

It was thus and only thus that he was enabled to assure himself that

there need be no acknowledgment of wrong done on his part. Having

settled this in his own mind he forced himself to attend a meeting

at which his assistance had been asked as to a complex question on

Law Reform. The Duke endeavoured to give himself up entirely to the

matter; but through it all there was the picture before him of Mrs.

Finn waiting for an answer to her letter. If he should confirm

himself in his opinion that he had been right, then would any answer

be necessary? He might just acknowledge the letter, after the fashion

which has come up in official life, than which silence is an insult

much more bearable. But he did not wish to insult, nor to punish her

further. He would willingly have withdrawn the punishment under which

she was groaning could he have done so without self-abasement. Or he

might write as she had done,--advocating his own cause with all his

strength, using that last one strong argument,--"there should not

have been a moment." But there would be something repulsive to his

personal dignity in the continued correspondence which this would

produce. "The Duke of Omnium regrets to say, in answer to Mrs.

Finn's letter, that he thinks no good can be attained by a prolonged

correspondence." Such, or of such kind, he thought must be his

answer. But would this be a fair return for the solicitude shown by

her to his uncle, for the love which had made her so patient a friend

to his wife, for the nobility of her own conduct in many things? Then

his mind reverted to certain jewels,--supposed to be of enormous

value,--which were still in his possession though they were the

property of this woman. They had been left to her by his uncle, and

she had obstinately refused to take them. Now they were lying packed

in the cellars of certain bankers,--but still they were in his

custody. What should he now do in this matter? Hitherto, perhaps once

in every six months, he had notified to her that he was keeping them

as her curator, and she had always repeated that it was a charge from

which she could not relieve him. It had become almost a joke between

them. But how could he joke with a woman with whom he had quarrelled

after this internecine fashion?

What if he were to consult Lady Cantrip? He could not do so without a

pang that would be very bitter to him,--but any agony would be better

than that arising from a fear that he had been unjust to one who had

deserved well of him. No doubt Lady Cantrip would see it in the same

light as he had done. And then he would be able to support himself by

the assurance that that which he had judged to be right was approved

of by one whom the world would acknowledge to be a good judge on such

a matter.

When he got home he found his son's letter telling him of the

election at Silverbridge. There was something in it which softened

his heart to the young man,--or perhaps it was that in the midst

of his many discomforts he wished to find something which at least

was not painful to him. That his son and his heir should insist on

entering political life in opposition to him was of course a source

of pain; but, putting that aside, the thing had been done pleasantly

enough, and the young member's letter had been written with some good

feeling. So he answered the letter as pleasantly as he knew how.

MY DEAR SILVERBRIDGE,

I am glad that you are in Parliament and am glad also

that you should have been returned by the old borough;

though I would that you could have reconciled yourself

to adhering to the politics of your family. But there is

nothing disgraceful in such a change, and I am able to

congratulate you as a father should a son and to wish you

long life and success as a legislator.

There are one or two things I would ask you to

remember;--and firstly this, that as you have voluntarily

undertaken certain duties you are bound as an honest man

to perform them as scrupulously as though you were paid

for doing them. There was no obligation in you to seek the

post;--but having sought it and acquired it you cannot

neglect the work attached to it without being untrue to

the covenant you have made. It is necessary that a young

member of Parliament should bear this in his mind, and

especially a member who has not worked his way up to

notoriety outside the House, because to him there will be

great facility for idleness and neglect.

And then I would have you always remember the purport for

which there is a Parliament elected in this happy and free

country. It is not that some men may shine there, that

some may acquire power, or that all may plume themselves

on being the elect of the nation. It often appears to me

that some members of Parliament so regard their success

in life,--as the fellows of our colleges do too often,

thinking that their fellowships were awarded for their

comfort and not for the furtherance of any object as

education or religion. I have known gentlemen who have

felt that in becoming members of Parliament they had

achieved an object for themselves instead of thinking that

they had put themselves in the way of achieving something

for others. A member of Parliament should feel himself

to be the servant of his country,--and like every other

servant, he should serve. If this be distasteful to a man

he need not go into Parliament. If the harness gall him he

need not wear it. But if he takes the trappings, then he

should draw the coach. You are there as the guardian of

your fellow-countrymen,--that they may be safe, that they

may be prosperous, that they may be well governed and

lightly burdened,--above all that they may be free. If you

cannot feel this to be your duty, you should not be there

at all.

And I would have you remember also that the work of a

member of Parliament can seldom be of that brilliant

nature which is of itself charming; and that the young

member should think of such brilliancy as being possible

to him only at a distance. It should be your first care to

sit and listen so that the forms and methods of the House

may as it were soak into you gradually. And then you must

bear in mind that speaking in the House is but a very

small part of a member's work, perhaps that part which

he may lay aside altogether with the least strain on his

conscience. A good member of Parliament will be good

upstairs in the Committee Rooms, good down-stairs to make

and to keep a House, good to vote, for his party if it

may be nothing better, but for the measures also which he

believes to be for the good of his country.

Gradually, if you will give your thoughts to it, and above

all your time, the theory of legislation will sink into

your mind, and you will find that there will come upon you

the ineffable delight of having served your country to the

best of your ability.

It is the only pleasure in life which has been enjoyed

without alloy by your affectionate father,

OMNIUM.

The Duke in writing this letter was able for a few moments to forget

Mrs. Finn, and to enjoy the work which he had on hand.

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