THE CHORUS GIRL

One day while she was still pretty and young and her voice was sweet,

Nikolai Kolpakoff, an admirer of hers, was sitting in a room on the

second floor of her cottage. The afternoon was unbearably sultry and

hot. Kolpakoff, who had just dined and drunk a whole bottle of vile

port, felt thoroughly ill and out of sorts. Both he and she were bored,

and were waiting for the heat to abate so that they might go for a

stroll.

Suddenly a bell rang in the hall. Kolpakoff, who was sitting in his

slippers without a coat, jumped up and looked at Pasha with a question

in his eyes.

“It is probably the postman or one of the girls,” said the singer.

Kolpakoff was not afraid of the postman or of Pasha’s girl friends, but

nevertheless he snatched up his coat and disappeared into the next room

while Pasha ran to open the door. What was her astonishment when she saw

on the threshold, not the postman nor a girl friend, but an unknown

woman, beautiful and young! Her dress was distinguished and she was

evidently a lady.

The stranger was pale and was breathing heavily as if she were out of

breath from climbing the stairs.

“What can I do for you?” Pasha inquired.

The lady did not reply at once. She took a step forward, looked slowly

around the room, and sank into a chair as if her legs had collapsed

under her from faintness or fatigue. Her pale lips moved silently,

trying to utter words which would not come.

“Is my husband here?” she asked at last, raising her large eyes with

their red and swollen lids to Pasha’s face.

“What husband do you mean?” Pasha whispered, suddenly taking such

violent fright that her hands and feet grew as cold as ice. “What

husband?” she repeated beginning to tremble.

“My husband—Nikolai Kolpakoff.”

“N-no, my lady. I don’t know your husband.”

A minute passed in silence. The stranger drew her handkerchief several

times across her pale lips, and held her breath in an effort to subdue

an inward trembling, while Pasha stood before her as motionless as a

statue, gazing at her full of uncertainty and fear.

“So you say he is not here?” asked the lady. Her voice was firm now and

a strange smile had twisted her lips.

“I—I—don’t know whom you mean!”

“You are a revolting, filthy, vile creature!” muttered the stranger

looking at Pasha with hatred and disgust. “Yes, yes, you are revolting.

I am glad indeed that an opportunity has come at last for me to tell you

this!”

Pasha felt that she was producing the effect of something indecent and

foul on this lady in black, with the angry eyes and the long, slender

fingers, and she was ashamed of her fat, red cheeks, the pock-mark on

her nose, and the lock of hair on her forehead that would never stay up.

She thought that if she were thin and her face were not powdered, and

she had not that curl on her forehead, she would not feel so afraid and

ashamed standing there before this mysterious, unknown lady.

“Where is my husband?” the lady went on. “However it makes no difference

to me whether he is here or not, I only want you to know that he has

been caught embezzling funds intrusted to him, and that the police are

looking for him. He is going to be arrested. Now see what you have

done!”

The lady rose and began to walk up and down in violent agitation. Pasha

stared at her; fear rendered her uncomprehending.

“He will be found to-day and arrested,” the lady repeated with a sob

full of bitterness and rage. “I know who has brought this horror upon

him! Disgusting, abominable woman! Horrible, bought creature! (Here the

lady’s lips curled and her nose wrinkled with aversion.) I am impotent.

Listen to me, you low woman. I am impotent and you are stronger than I,

but there is One who will avenge me and my children. God’s eyes see all

things. He is just. He will call you to account for every tear I have

shed, every sleepless night I have passed. The time will come when you

will remember me!”

Once more silence fell. The lady walked to and fro wringing her hands.

Pasha continued to watch her dully, uncomprehendingly, dazed with doubt,

waiting for her to do something terrible.

“I don’t know what you mean, my lady!” she suddenly cried, and burst

into tears.

“That’s a lie!” screamed the lady, her eyes flashing with anger. “I know

all about it! I have known about you for a long time. I know that he has

been coming here every day for the last month.”

“Yes—and what if he has? Is it my fault? I have a great many visitors,

but I don’t force any one to come. They are free to do as they please.”

“I tell you he is accused of embezzlement! He has taken money that

didn’t belong to him, and for the sake of a woman like you—for your

sake, he has brought himself to commit a crime! Listen to me,” the lady

said sternly, halting before Pasha. “You are an unprincipled woman, I

know. You exist to bring misfortune to men, that is the object of your

life, but I cannot believe that you have fallen so low as not to have

one spark of humanity left in your breast. He has a wife, he has

children, oh, remember that! There is one means of saving us from

poverty and shame; if I can find nine hundred roubles to-day he will be

left in peace. Only nine hundred roubles!”

“What nine hundred roubles?” asked Pasha feebly. “I—I don’t know—I

didn’t take——”

“I am not asking you to give me nine hundred roubles, you have no money,

and I don’t want anything that belongs to you. It is something else that

I ask. Men generally give presents of jewellery to women like you. All I

ask is that you should give me back the things that my husband has given

you.”

“My lady, he has never given me anything!” wailed Pasha beginning to

understand.

“Then where is the money he has wasted? He has squandered in some way

his own fortune, and mine, and the fortunes of others. Where has the

money gone? Listen, I implore you! I was excited just now and said some

unpleasant things, but I ask you to forgive me! I know you must hate me,

but if pity exists for you, oh, put yourself in my place! I implore you

to give me the jewellery!”

“H’m—” said Pasha shrugging her shoulders. “I should do it with

pleasure, only I swear before God he never gave me a thing. He didn’t,

indeed. But, no, you are right,” the singer suddenly stammered in

confusion. “He did give me two little things. Wait a minute, I’ll fetch

them for you if you want them.”

Pasha pulled out one of the drawers of her bureau, and took from it a

bracelet of hollow gold, and a narrow ring set with a ruby.

“Here they are!” she said, handing them to her visitor.

The lady grew angry and a spasm passed over her features. She felt that

she was being insulted.

“What is this you are giving me?” she cried. “I’m not asking for alms,

but for the things that do not belong to you, for the things that you

have extracted from my weak and unhappy husband by your position. When I

saw you on the wharf with him on Thursday you were wearing costly

brooches and bracelets. Do you think you can play the innocent baby with

me? I ask you for the last time: will you give me those presents or

not?”

“You are strange, I declare,” Pasha exclaimed, beginning to take

offence. “I swear to you that I have never had a thing from your

Nikolai, except this bracelet and ring. He has never given me anything,

but these and some little cakes.”

“Little cakes!” the stranger laughed suddenly. “His children are

starving at home, and he brings you little cakes! So you won’t give up

the things?”

Receiving no answer, the lady sat down, her eyes grew fixed, and she

seemed to be debating something.

“What shall I do?” she murmured. “If I can’t get nine hundred roubles he

will be ruined as well as the children and myself. Shall I kill this

creature, or shall I go down on my knees to her?”

The lady pressed her handkerchief to her eyes and burst into tears.

“Oh, I beseech you!” she sobbed. “It is you who have disgraced and

ruined my husband; now save him! You can have no pity for him, I know;

but the children, remember the children! What have they done to deserve

this?”

Pasha imagined his little children standing on the street corner weeping

with hunger, and she, too, burst into tears.

“What can I do, my lady?” she cried. “You say I am a wicked creature who

has ruined your husband, but I swear to you before God I have never had

the least benefit from him! Mota is the only girl in our chorus who has

a rich friend, the rest of us all live on bread and water. Your husband

is an educated, pleasant gentleman, that’s why I received him. We can’t

pick and choose.”

“I want the jewellery; give me the jewellery! I am weeping, I am

humiliating myself; see, I shall fall on my knees before you!”

Pasha screamed with terror and waved her arms. She felt that this pale,

beautiful lady, who spoke the same refined language that people did in

plays, might really fall on her knees before her, and for the very

reason that she was so proud and high-bred, she would exalt herself by

doing this, and degrade the little singer.

“Yes, yes, I’ll give you the jewellery!” Pasha cried hastily, wiping her

eyes. “Take it, but it did not come from your husband! I got it from

other visitors. But take it, if you want it!”

Pasha pulled out an upper drawer of the bureau, and took from it a

diamond brooch, a string of corals, two or three rings, and a bracelet.

These she handed to the lady.

“Here is the jewellery, but I tell you again your husband never gave me

a thing. Take it, and may you be the richer for having it!” Pasha went

on, offended by the lady’s threat that she would go down on her knees.

“You are a lady and his lawful wife—keep him at home then! The idea of

it! As if I had asked him to come here! He came because he wanted to!”

The lady looked through her tears at the jewellery that Pasha had handed

her and said:

“This isn’t all. There is scarcely five hundred roubles’ worth here.”

Pasha violently snatched a gold watch, a cigarette-case, and a set of

studs out of the drawer and flung up her arms, exclaiming:

“Now I am cleaned out! Look for yourself!”

Her visitor sighed. With trembling hands she wrapped the trinkets in her

handkerchief, and went out without a word, without even a nod.

The door of the adjoining room opened and Kolpakoff came out. His face

was pale and his head was shaking nervously, as if he had just swallowed

a very bitter draught. His eyes were full of tears.

“I’d like to know what you ever gave me!” Pasha attacked him vehemently.

“When did you ever give me the smallest present?”

“Presents—they are a detail, presents!” Kolpakoff cried, his head still

shaking. “Oh, my God, she wept before you, she abased herself!”

“I ask you again: what have you ever given me?” screamed Pasha.

“My God, she—a respectable, a proud woman, was actually ready to fall on

her knees before—before this—wench! And I have brought her to this! I

allowed it!”

He seized his head in his hands.

“No,” he groaned out, “I shall never forgive myself for this—never! Get

away from me, wretch!” he cried, backing away from Pasha with horror,

and keeping her off with outstretched, trembling hands. “She was ready

to go down on her knees, and before whom?—Before you! Oh, my God!”

He threw on his coat and, pushing Pasha contemptuously aside, strode to

the door and went out.

Pasha flung herself down on the sofa and burst into loud wails. She

already regretted the things she had given away so impulsively, and her

feelings were hurt. She remembered that a merchant had beaten her three

years ago for nothing, yes, absolutely for nothing, and at that thought

she wept louder than ever.

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