III

But the studio, where I had been working for the last three or four

months so diligently, became wearisome to me, and for two reasons.

First, because it deprived me of many hours of Marshall's company.

Secondly--and the second reason was the graver--because I was beginning

to regard the delineation of a nymph, or youth bathing, etc., as a very

narrow channel to carry off the strong, full tide of a man's thought.

For now thoughts of love and death, and the hopelessness of life, were

in active fermentation within me and sought for utterance with a strange

persistency of appeal. I yearned merely to give direct expression to my

pain. Life was then in its springtide; every thought was new to me, and

it would have seemed a pity to disguise even the simplest emotion in any

garment when it was so beautiful in its Eden-like nakedness. The

creatures whom I met in the ways and byeways of Parisian life, whose

gestures and attitudes I devoured with my eyes, and whose souls I

hungered to know, awoke in me a tense, irresponsible curiosity, but that

was all,--I despised, I hated them, thought them contemptible, and to

select them as subjects of artistic treatment, could not then, might

never, have occurred to me, had the suggestion to do so not come direct

to me from the outside.

At the time of which I am writing I lived in an old-fashioned hotel on

the Boulevard, which an enterprising Belgian had lately bought and was

endeavouring to modernise; an old-fashioned hotel, that still clung to

its ancient character in the presence of half a dozen old people, who,

for antediluvian reasons, continue to dine on certain well-specified

days at the _table d'hôte_. Fifteen years have passed away, and these

old people, no doubt, have joined their ancestors; but I can see them

still sitting in that _salle à manger_, the _buffets en vieux chéne,_

the opulent candelabra _en style d'empire_, the waiter lighting the gas

in the pale Parisian evening. That white-haired man, that tall, thin,

hatchet-faced American, has dined at this _table d'hôte_ for the last

thirty years--he is talkative, vain, foolish, and authoritative. The

clean, neatly-dressed old gentleman who sits by him, looking so much

like a French gentleman, has spent a great part of his life in Spain.

With that piece of news, and its subsequent developments, your

acquaintance with him begins and ends; the eyes, the fan, the mantilla,

how it began, how it was broken off, and how it began again. Opposite

sits another French gentleman, with beard and bristly hair. He spent

twenty years of his life in India, and he talks of his son who has been

out there for the last ten, and who has just returned home. There is the

Italian comtesse of sixty summers, who dresses like a girl of sixteen

and smokes a cigar after dinner,--if there are not too many strangers in

the room. A stranger she calls any one whom she has not seen at least

once before. The little fat, neckless man, with the great bald head,

fringed below the ears with hair, is M. Duval. He is a dramatic author,

the author of a hundred and sixty plays. He does not intrude himself on

your notice, but when you speak to him on literary matters he fixes a

pair of tiny, sloe-like eyes on you, and talks affably of his

collaborateurs.

I was soon deeply interested in M. Duval, and I invited him to come to

the _café_ after dinner. I paid for his coffee and liqueurs, I offered

him a choice cigar. He did not smoke; I did. It was, of course,

inevitable that I should find out that he had not had a play produced

for the last twenty years, but then the aureole of the hundred and sixty

was about his poor bald head. I thought of the chances of life, he

alluded to the war; and so this unpleasantness was passed over, and we

entered on more genial subjects of conversation. He had written plays

with everybody; his list of collaborateurs was longer than any list of

lady patronesses for an English county ball; there was no literary

kitchen in which he had not helped to dish up. I was at once amazed and

delighted. Had M. Duval written his hundred and sixty plays in the

seclusion of his own rooms, I should have been less surprised; it was

the mystery of the _séances_ of collaboration, the rendezvous, the

discussion, the illustrious company, that overwhelmed me in a rapture of

wonder and respectful admiration. Then came the anecdotes. They were of

all sorts. Here are a few specimens: He, Duval, had written a one-act

piece with Dumas _père_; it had been refused at the Français, and then

it had been about, here, there, and everywhere; finally the _Variétés_

had asked for some alterations, and _c'était une affaire entendue_. "I

made the alterations one afternoon, and wrote to Dumas, and what do you

think,--by return of post I had a letter from him saying he could not

consent to the production of a one-act piece, signed by him, at the

_Variétés,_ because his son was then giving a five-act piece at the

Gymnase." Then came a string of indecent witticisms by Suzanne Lagier

and Dejazet. They were as old as the world, but they were new to me, and

I was amused and astonished. These _bon-mots_ were followed by an

account of how Gautier wrote his Sunday feuilleton, and how he and

Balzac had once nearly come to blows. They had agreed to collaborate.

Balzac was to contribute the scenario, Gautier the dialogue. One morning

Balzac came with the scenario of the first act. "Here it is, Gautier! I

suppose you can let me have it back finished by to-morrow afternoon?"

And the old gentleman would chirp along in this fashion till midnight. I

would then accompany him to his rooms in the Quartier Montmartre--rooms

high up on the fifth floor--where, between two pictures, supposed to be

by Angelica Kauffmann, M. Duval had written unactable plays for the

last twenty years, and where he would continue to write unactable plays

until God called him to a world, perhaps, of eternal cantatas, but

where, by all accounts, _l'exposition de la pièce selon la formule de M.

Scribe_ is still unknown.

How I used to enjoy these conversations! I remember how I used to stand

on the pavement after having bid the old gentleman good-night,

regretting I had not asked for some further explanation regarding _le

mouvement Romantique_, or _la façon de M. Scribe de ménager la

situation_.

Why not write a comedy? So the thought came. I had never written

anything save a few ill-spelt letters; but no matter. To find a plot was

the first thing. Take Marshall for hero and Alice for heroine, surround

them with the old gentlemen who dined at the _table d'hôte,_ flavour

with the Italian countess who smoked cigars when there were not too many

strangers present. After three weeks of industrious stirring, the

ingredients did begin to simmer into something resembling a plot. Put it

upon paper. Ah! there was my difficulty. I remembered suddenly that I

had read "Cain," "Manfred," "The Cenci," as poems, without ever

thinking of how the dialogue looked upon paper; besides, they were in

blank verse. I hadn't a notion how prose dialogue would look upon paper.

Shakespeare I had never opened; no instinctive want had urged me to read

him. He had remained, therefore, unread, unlooked at. Should I buy a

copy? No; the name repelled me--as all popular names repelled me. In

preference I went to the Gymnase, and listened attentively to a comedy

by M. Dumas _fils_. But strain my imagination as I would, I could not

see the spoken words in their written form. Oh, for a look at the

prompter's copy, the corner of which I could see when I leaned forward!

At last I discovered in Galignani's library a copy of Leigh Hunt's

edition of the old dramatists, and after a month's study of Congreve,

Wycherley, Vanbrugh, and Farquhar, I completed a comedy in three acts,

which I entitled "Worldliness." It was, of course, very bad; but, if my

memory serves me well, I do not think it was nearly so bad as might be

imagined.

No sooner was the last scene written than I started at once for London,

confident I should find no difficulty in getting my play produced.

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