THE LIGHT OF OTHER DAYS

I

Dimsdale’s prospects had suddenly ceased by the productive marriage of a

rich uncle late in life; and then his career began. He went to Egypt

at the time when men who knew things had their chance to do things.

His information was general and discursive, but he had a real gift for

science: an inheritance from a grandfather who received a peerage for

abstruse political letters written to the Times and lectures before the

Royal Institution. Besides, he had known well and loved inadvertently

the Hon. Lucy Gray, who kept a kind of social kindergarten for confiding

man, whose wisdom was as accurate as her face was fair, her manners

simple, and her tongue demure and biting.

Egypt offered an opportunity for a man like Dimsdale, and he always said

that his going there was the one inspiration of his life. He did not

know that this inspiration came from Lucy Gray. She had purposely thrown

him in the way of General Duncan Pasha, who, making a reputation in

Egypt, had been rewarded by a good command in England and a K.C.B.

After a talk with the General, who had spent his Egyptian days in the

agreeable strife with native premiers and hesitating Khedives, Dimsdale

rose elated, with his mission in his hand. After the knock-down blow his

uncle had given him, he was in a fighting mood. General Duncan’s tale

had come at the psychological moment, and hot with inspiration he had

gone straight off to Lucy Gray with his steamship ticket in his pocket,

and told her he was going to spend his life in the service of the pasha

and the fellah. When she asked him a little bitingly what form his

disciplined energy would take, he promptly answered: “Irrigation.”

She laughed in his face softly. “What do you know about irrigation?” she

asked.

“I can learn it--it’s the game to play out there, I’m sure of that,” he

answered.

“It doesn’t sound distinguished,” she remarked drily. Because she smiled

satirically at him, and was unresponsive to his enthusiasm, and gave him

no chance to tell her of the nobility of the work in which he was going

to put his life; of the work of the Pharaohs in their day, the hope of

Napoleon in his, and the creed Mahomet Ali held and practised, that

the Nile was Egypt and Egypt was irrigation--because of this he became

angry, said unkind things, drew acid comments upon himself, and left

her with a last good-bye. He did not realise that he had played into the

hands of Lucy Gray in a very childish manner. For in scheming that he

should go to Egypt she had planned also that he should break with her;

for she never had any real intention of marrying him, and yet it was

difficult to make him turn his back on her, while at the same time she

was too tender of his feelings to turn her back on him. She held that

anger was the least injurious of all grounds for separation. In anger

there was no humiliation. There was something dignified and brave about

a quarrel, while a growing coolness which must end in what the world

called “jilting” was humiliating. Besides, people who quarrel and

separate may meet again and begin over again: impossible in the other

circumstance.

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