Next Year

We have named it Cain. She caught it while I was up country trapping on

the North Shore of the Erie; caught it in the timber a couple of miles

from our dug-out—or it might have been four, she isn’t certain which.

It resembles us in some ways, and may be a relation. That is what she

thinks, but this is an error, in my judgment. The difference in size

warrants the conclusion that it is a different and new kind of animal—a

fish, perhaps, though when I put it in the water to see, it sank, and

she plunged in and snatched it out before there was opportunity for the

experiment to determine the matter. I still think it is a fish, but she

is indifferent about what it is, and will not let me have it to try. I

do not understand this. The coming of the creature seems to have

changed her whole nature and made her unreasonable about experiments.

She thinks more of it than she does of any of the other animals, but is

not able to explain why. Her mind is disordered—everything shows it.

Sometimes she carries the fish in her arms half the night when it

complains and wants to get to the water. At such times the water comes

out of the places in her face that she looks out of, and she pats the

fish on the back and makes soft sounds with her mouth to soothe it, and

betrays sorrow and solicitude in a hundred ways. I have never seen her

do like this with any other fish, and it troubles me greatly. She used

to carry the young tigers around so, and play with them, before we lost

our property; but it was only play; she never took on about them like

this when their dinner disagreed with them.

Extracts from Adam's Diary, translated from the original ms. · 第 25 / 35 题