CHAPTER XVIII.

"A talebearer revealeth secrets; but he that is of a faithful

spirit concealeth the matter."--Prov. xi. 13.

"He that covereth a transgression seeketh love, but he that

repeateth a matter separateth very friends."--Prov. xvii. 9.

"When pride cometh, then cometh shame."--Prov. xi. 2.

"A haughty spirit goeth before a fall."--Prov. xvi. 18.

Perhaps those who have read the first part of the story of Louis

Mortimer will remember that I there endeavored to explain the nature

of the Christian's warfare, and that I stated that there were sad

periods when the Christian, too confident in his own strength, perhaps

too much inclined to exult in his victories as evincing some latent

power in _himself_, becomes less watchful, and gradually falls back

in his glorious course. It is certain, that if we do not advance

we go back, and oh, how sad it is that redeemed sinners, called by

so holy a name as that of Christian, should, in any degree, forget

to whom they owe all their might to do well, as well as their final

salvation, that they should relax, in the least, their prayers, their

efforts in the strength of the Holy Spirit to press forward towards

the mark of the prize of their high calling. It is not that all those

who thus sadly backslide are allowed to fall into open sin. Many, by

the great mercy of their Lord, are preserved from thus dishonoring

His holy name and cause; but alas! too often is there a falling off

in devotion, in singleness of heart, in perseverance, in watchfulness

against besetting sins, when the prayers are fewer and colder, the

praises fainter, and the Christian, after languishing for a time

in this divided state, hardly making an effort to return, becomes

conscious, to his alarm, how far he has wandered, and feels with

our sweet poet, in the bitterness of his spirit,

"Where is the blessedness I knew,

When first I saw the Lord?

Where is the soul-refreshing view

Of Jesus and His word?

"The peaceful hours I once enjoyed

How sweet their memory still!

But they have left an _aching void_

_The world can never fill_."

For the next fortnight the singing class was indefatigable, and owing

to the cultivated taste of Louis and Reginald, and the superior musical

education of one or two others, among whom Mr. Witworth and Frank were

not the least in importance, the members at length considered themselves

competent to exhibit before an audience.

Accordingly, after Dr. Wilkinson had been favored with a specimen

of their skill, his permission was obtained to invite such of their

friends as they chose.

Tickets of admission, which had been prepared before-hand, were then

sent out in various directions, accompanied by notes of invitation.

As soon as Mrs. Paget's arrived at its destination, a most kind answer

was dispatched to Louis as president, adding a request to be allowed

to provide refreshment for the performers; and, as her proposal was

hailed with three cheers, and gracefully accepted by Louis, on the

morning of the eventful day came grapes, peaches, biscuits, and wine,

which were very elegantly set out in the class-room by the committee.

The concert passed off as propitiously as could be wished. Hamilton,

who, from utter want of ear, was totally incapacitated for singing,

acted the part of steward with Trevannion, Meredith, and one or two

others, with great decorum, and actually stood near Mrs. Paget during

part of the performance, listening quietly to Louis' praises with such

evident interest, that a few words of commendation he uttered quite

won the lady's heart, though she had certainly been prejudiced against

him before. It was remarked by some, that the doctor did not seem much

pleased with Louis' manners on this occasion; for, when Mrs. Paget,

between the parts, began to praise Louis' extraordinary musical

talents (as she was pleased to call them), and to relate how much

he pleased the company at her house, Dr. Wilkinson coolly replied,

that he considered he had been well taught, but doubted his having

more than an average good taste and general ability; and as his eye

turned upon Louis, who was moving rather affectedly and conceitedly

from rank to rank on his way to the refreshment-room, his forehead

wrinkled ominously, and his lips became more tightly compressed. He

was observed to watch Louis for a minute, and then turn suddenly away

as if disgusted.

The madrigal concert took place about the end of the quarter, and on the

following Saturday afternoon, the monotony of Ashfield House was varied

by the arrival of a new scholar, in the person of Mr. Henry Norman, who

was placed as a parlor boarder with the doctor.

When Hamilton and Louis returned from the playground together,

they discovered this young gentleman sitting on the table, carefully

balancing the doctor's chair with one of his feet, deeply immersed

in the contents of a new book with only partially cut leaves, left

by accident on the table. His back was turned towards them, and he

was so engrossed in the twofold occupation of reading and keeping the

heavy chair from falling, that he did not notice their entrance, and

Louis, not recognizing his figure at first, nor knowing that he was

expected, left the business of welcoming the stranger to his senior.

"Our new school-fellow, Louis, I suppose," said Hamilton, in a low tone,

as he scrutinized the lengthy figure before him. "I know that fellow,

Louis--he is a friend of yours."

Before Louis had time to answer, the low murmur had disturbed

Norman; and, looking up without altering his position in the least,

he acknowledged his acquaintance with Louis by a nod, and a careless

"How do you do?"

Louis advanced directly with a warm welcome and out-stretched hand

that was met by two fingers of Norman's left hand, tendered in a

manner so offensive to Hamilton that he debated whether he should

turn the intruder out of window, or walk himself out of the door;

and concluded by drawing back in disdainful anger.

Louis was not so ready to take offence, though he was sensitive

enough to feel a little hurt; and, turning round to his friend,

introduced Norman to him.

Norman took a steady quick glance at Hamilton, and, though his lips

were full of propriety, there was something like a sarcastic smile

in his eyes.

"You are not altogether a stranger to me, Mr. Hamilton, though,

I imagine, I am to you," he said, as he allowed the chair to regain

its legs, and got off the table, throwing the book on another,

several yards distant.

"I must confess you have the advantage of me," said Hamilton,

coldly. "I was not aware that I had the honor of being known

to you."

"I assure you, then, that you had that honor.--Dear me!" he

added, as he threw himself into the doctor's chair, stretching

out his legs to their utmost length: "absurd of me to sit on that

table, when I might have initiated myself so admirably into the

art of reading made easy. Comfortable chair this of Fudge's--I beg

his pardon, Dr. Wilkinson's. I am so accustomed to that elegant

_nom du guerre_ that I occasionally forget myself. The old

gentleman knows how to make himself comfortable; I suppose that

book belongs to him. I took the liberty of cutting a few leaves."

"Which will be a peculiar satisfaction to him, doubtless," said

Hamilton; "and perhaps you may have the pleasure of hearing so

from his own lips."

"_Verbum sat_," replied Norman. "It is a peculiar gratification,

Mr. Hamilton, to discover that your natural good sense is overcoming

your usual disinclination to notice those things which are not

_comme il faut_ in your school-fellows, thereby depriving them of the

aid of your countenance and example in their little endeavors; and

I feel peculiar satisfaction in thus early becoming the recipient of

the good services bestowed by the blunt sincerity and kindliness

of your nature."

Hamilton crimsoned and stared; but there was nothing insolent in the

tone; it was inexplicable. That something was meant he could not doubt;

and presently, perceiving that Louis was uncomfortable and embarrassed,

he said haughtily,

"I really am at a loss to understand you, sir; but your manner towards

your friend and mine is particularly unpleasant. What you may have

been used to I cannot pretend to know; but, whatever it be, you will

be kind enough to remember that here we are accustomed to the society

of gentlemen, and to treat each other as such."

"My dear Mr. Hamilton," said Norman, blandly, slightly moving as if to

arrest Hamilton's progress towards the door, "you entirely misunderstand

me. Master Mortimer and I now understand each other better. Indeed, I am

laid under a weighty obligation to Master Louis for my acquaintance with

your royal self and various members of your court; and could not possibly

have any intention of quarrelling with so kind a benefactor. As for you,

I have made up my mind to know and like you. Shake hands, will you?"

Hamilton hesitatingly touched the proffered hand, and looking at his

watch at the same moment, wondered to Louis why tea was not ready.

"There's the bell!" exclaimed Louis; and seizing Hamilton's arm,

he hurried off, leaving Norman to follow at his leisure, as neither

Hamilton nor himself felt at all inclined to be ceremonious.

Louis felt a little afraid of Norman, though he did not exactly

know why.

Norman did not follow them immediately; and Hamilton had nearly

emptied his first cup of tea when he came in, in company with

Trevannion and Frank Digby, the latter of whom had a marvellous

facility for making acquaintances on the shortest notice. They

sat down at the end of one of the three long tables, and continued

laughing and talking the whole of the tea-time, after which Norman

went to his own tea with the doctor.

"So, Louis, Norman's come!" exclaimed Reginald, pouncing upon his

brother just as he reached the school-room door.

"Is he a friend of yours?" asked Trevannion.

"He is, and he is not. Make that riddle out at your leisure,"

replied Reginald, gayly.

"Oh, that settles the matter!" said Trevannion.

"What matter?" asked Louis.

A look of the most withering description was the only answer

Louis received; it was enough, however, to deter him from

repeating his question.

Happily, Reginald did not see it.

"How do you like our new-comer, Trevannion?" asked Hamilton,

linking his arm in his friend's, preparatory to a short, after-tea

turn in the playground. "There is something very peculiar about

him--insolent, I think."

"He's a nice fellow, in my opinion," said Trevannion.

"A very knowing chap," said Salisbury. "Has he been here before?"

"No," said Frank Digby; "but somebody's been kind enough to give

the full particulars, history, and lives, peccadilloes, _et cetera_,

_et cetera_, _et cetera_, of the gentlemen, generally, and individually,

at Ashfield Academy. Why, Hamilton, he called Trevannion and Salisbury

by their names, without any introduction, and is as much up to every

thing here as yourself, I believe."

"I don't much fancy him," said Hamilton; "and strongly suspect he won't

add much to our comfort."

"He doesn't like your pet, I suppose, then," said Trevannion,

marking the slight color that rose in Hamilton's face. "He told

me of your strange rencontre in the class-room; he has taken a

fancy, I am sure, to you."

Hamilton did not look particularly delighted, and changed the subject

to one on which he and Trevannion conversed most amicably till past

their usual time for re-entering the study.

Norman did not come among them that evening till prayer-time; and,

to his great satisfaction, Louis saw very little of him for the next

day or two.

One day, during the first week of Norman's initiation, at the close

of the morning school, a party similar in size and kind to that which

had the honor of greeting Louis on his arrival the preceding half-year,

was assembled on the raised end of the school-room. Frank and Salisbury

were both of them seated on the top of a desk; the former, generally

silent, relieved himself by sundry twists and contortions, smacking of

the lips, sighs, and turnings of the eyes, varied by a few occasional

thumps administered to Salisbury, who sat by him, apparently unconscious

of the bellicose attitude of his neighbor, listening attentively, with

a mixed expression of concern and anger on his honest countenance, to

Norman, who, on this occasion, was the principal speaker. Louis was

in the room, at his desk, hunting for a top; but too intent upon his

search, and too far off to hear more of the topics that engrossed so

much attention, than a few words that conveyed no impression to him,

being simply, "Ferrers--my aunt--clever--hypocritical."

Just as he had given up all hope of finding his top, Hamilton came up

to him. "Louis," said he, "if Trevannion goes out with me, I shall have

time to hear your Herodotus before afternoon school, directly after

dinner, mind."

"I shan't forget;--oh, Hamilton, you haven't such a thing as another

top, have you? Reginald's broken two of mine, and I can't find my other."

"I do happen to have taken care of yours for you, you careless boy.

Here is my desk-key, you will find it there; you can give me the key

after dinner."

With many thanks, Louis proceeded to Hamilton's desk, and Hamilton went

up to Trevannion, who was one of the party at the upper end of the room.

Louis was now so near the speakers, as to be unavoidably within hearing

of all that passed; and, astonished by the first few words, he proceeded

no further in his errand than putting the key into the lock.

"Are you inclined for a walk, Trevannion?" asked Hamilton, as he

reached him.

Trevannion was leaning against the doctor's desk, in a more perturbed

state than his calm self usually exhibited. As Hamilton spoke, he turned

round, stared, and drew himself proudly up, replying, in a tone of great

bitterness, "Thank you, Mr. Hamilton, but perhaps if you _will_ take the

trouble, you may find some one better suited to you than myself."

"What is the matter?" said Hamilton.

"Some of your friends appear to have better memories than yourself,"

replied Trevannion, folding his arms, and assuming an indifferent air;

"you will, perhaps, not find mine quite so capricious; I am much obliged

for all favors bestowed, Mr. Hamilton. Perhaps you considered me too

lazy to look out for another friend; I am active enough, I assure you,

to provide myself with one, and to release you from the irksome ties

your indolence has imposed upon you."

Hamilton looked, as he was, seriously annoyed. He did not remember the

expression that had given so much offence, and was quite at a loss to

understand the mystery:--he looked from one to the other for explanation;

at one time inclined to walk away as proudly as Trevannion could have

done; at another, his more moderate feelings triumphing, urged him into

an inquiry.

"I really cannot understand you," he said, at length; "do explain

yourself. If I have done any thing to offend you, let me know what

it is, and, if reasonable, I am willing to apologize."

Trevannion sneered. "Apologies can do little good--eh, Norman?"

"If you know what this is, Norman," said Hamilton, "I must beg you

to enlighten me."

"I have no business to interfere," said Norman, carelessly.

"What a tragedy scene! What's the matter?" cried Reginald Mortimer,

who came up at the moment. "You lazy-bones of a Louis! where are you?"

"The matter is simply this," said Frank Digby: "Norman has heard from

a veracious source that Mr. Hamilton once said, in confidence (between

you and me, you know), that the reason he retained Mr. Philip Trevannion

in the rank of first bosom-friend, was because he was too lazy to look

out for one better suited to his tastes: consequently, as Mr. Trevannion

can aver that Mr. Hamilton never confided this matter to him, it is

certain that some one has betrayed confidence reposed in him--oh, yes!

oh, yes!"

"What a fuss about a nonsensical report!" exclaimed Reginald.

"Do you believe it?"

"Does he deny it?" said Trevannion, tuning to Hamilton.

Hamilton's color rose; and, after a little pause, in which he carefully

considered what he had said, he replied, "No, I do not deny having said

something like this one day when Trevannion and I had fallen out; but

how much it was more than a momentary fit of anger our long friendship

ought to decide. Trevannion, we have been friends too long for such a

silly thing as this to separate us. I am very sorry it should ever have

escaped my lips; but if every thing we say in a moment of impatience and

vexation were repeated and minded, there would be very little friendship

in the world. Come, Trevannion, shake hands, and forget it for auld lang

syne, as I will do when any one brings such a tale to me."

As Hamilton spoke, his eye rested on Norman, fired with indignation,

and lighted a second on the principal offender, but no longer, for he

did not wish to draw Louis into notice.

"It may seem a little nonsensical matter to you, Hamilton," said

Trevannion, putting his hand behind him; "but these little things

exhibit more than the greatest professions. I am not too lazy to

cure myself of old habits, if you are."

"I never make professions," said Hamilton, proudly; "and I have done."

He was turning away, when a sudden motion from Jones arrested him.

Jones had been standing silently by Trevannion, and now, leaping over

a desk, seized Louis, and dragged him in the centre of the group, to

the great astonishment of both himself and his brother, exclaiming:

"Here's the offender, the tell-tale, the hypocrite, the meek good boy,

so anxious of Ferrers' reputation!"

"What do you want with me?" exclaimed Louis angrily, struggling to free

himself from his captor.

"Hands off! Leave him alone, Jones," shouted Reginald. "What's all

this about?"

"Do let him go," said Hamilton. "Can't you let him alone?"

"He's the traitor, Hamilton."

Hamilton could not deny it, for it could have been no one else.

"Well, it is past, and the punishment he has in his own feelings will

be enough," he said. "Let him alone."

"Louis, _you_ haven't been telling tales and making mischief?"

cried Reginald.

"I don't know," said Louis. "I said something to Mrs. Paget, I believe--I

didn't know there was any harm. Hamilton didn't say he didn't want any

thing said about it."

"_Didn't say!_" echoed Jones, scornfully.

Hamilton's look was more in reproach than anger. Louis felt struck to

the heart with shame and anger; but so much had he lately been nursed

in conceit and self-sufficiency, that he drove away the better impulse;

and, instead of at once acknowledging himself in the wrong and begging

pardon, he stood still, endeavoring to look unconcerned, repeating,

"I didn't mean any harm."

"Oh, Louis!" exclaimed Reginald, reproachfully, "I didn't think

you could."

"Let the boy go, Jones," said Hamilton, trying to remove the grasp

from Louis' shoulders.

"Not so fast, an't please your majesty," said Jones: "I like to see

hypocrites unmasked. Here, gentlemen, forsooth, here in this soonified

youth, the anxious warden of Ferrers' reputation, you see the young

gentleman who not only tells the story, but gives the name of the

party concerned to a dear, good, gossiping soul--"

"Gently, gently there, Jones," remarked Norman.

"A gossiping old soul," repeated Jones, "who'd have the greatest

delight in retailing the news, with decorations and additions, all

over the kingdom with the greatest possible speed."

"I don't believe a word of that, Jones," said Reginald.

"It is impossible!"

"What! is it impossible?" asked Jones, giving Louis a shake.

"What business have you to question me?"

"Did you?" repeated Jones, with another shake.

"Fair questioning, Jones," cried Reginald. "No coercion, if you please."

"Hold him back, Mason, if you please. Norman, will you hold him back?

Now, Louis, if you don't answer I'll give you a thrashing."

"You and I are friends, Mortimer," said Salisbury, jumping off the

desk and coming close up to Reginald; "but I mean to have fair play

in this matter. He shan't be hurt--but, if you interfere till they've

done questioning him, I shall help them to hold you back."

"Don't meddle with it, Salisbury," said Hamilton; "it's nobody's affair."

"Nobody's affair, indeed!" exclaimed Frank. "Here we've been making a

_cher ami_, a _rara avis_, or something or other of this boy, because he

professed to be something superior to us all--and now, when we find

he has been telling tales of all of us, we are told it's _nobody's

affair_. He's been obtaining credit upon false pretences. We're the

strongest party, and we'll do what we please."

Reginald restrained himself with a violent effort, and Jones proceeded.

"Now, sir, answer directly--is this impossible?"

Louis felt very much inclined to cry, but he replied without tears

very reluctantly, "Mrs. Paget would make me tell her some things--she

had heard almost all from others. I don't know how the name slipped

out; I didn't mean to tell, I am sure."

"WHAT?" said Hamilton; "you tell _that_ story, Louis!"

Louis felt that Hamilton despised him; and perhaps, had they known

all the circumstances relative to the Heronhurst disclosure, the clamor

would not have been so great; so much evil is done by repeating a small

matter, exaggerated, as these repetitions usually are, according to the

feelings of the speaker. But in every case now bearing so unexpectedly

down upon him, had Louis, thoughtless of himself, been less anxious for

admiration, he would not have committed himself; had he not attracted

Norman's attention by his folly and conceit, the circumstance of his

having disclosed the name of the offender, at Heronhurst, would, most

probably, not only have been unknown to his school-fellows, but to

Norman also.

"Oh, Hamilton, I didn't tell all the story!" he exclaimed.

"No, only just enough to appear magnanimous," said Frank.

"Seeing that such is the case," continued Jones, "it cannot be a

matter of great astonishment, that the same meek crocodile should

also deliver to the same tender mercy various particulars of minor

import respecting sundry others of his school-fellows; among which,

we discover the private conversation of an intimate and too indulgent

friend. Upon my word, young gentleman, I've a great mind to make you

kiss Ferrers' shoes. Where's Ferrers?"

Jones turned round with his victim towards the door, perceiving that

Ferrers was not in the room, but neither Hamilton nor Reginald would

permit matters to proceed further.

"Let him go," said Norman; "it is not worth while taking so much trouble

about it. You know whom you have to deal with, and will be careful."

"Thanks to you," said Hamilton in a tone of the most cutting irony.

He released Louis, and stood still till he saw him safely in the

playground, whither he was followed by the hisses and exclamations

of his inquisitors, and then turned in the opposite direction to

the class-room.

"Mr. Hamilton!" exclaimed Norman, "may I ask what your words meant

just now?"

"You may," said Hamilton, turning round and eyeing the speaker from

head to foot, with the most contemptuous indifference. "You are at

liberty to put whatever construction you please upon them; and perhaps

it will save trouble if I inform you at once that I never fight."

"Then, sir," said Norman, whose anger was rising beyond control,

"you should weigh your words a little more cautiously, if you are

so cowardly."

Hamilton deigned no reply, and proceeded to the class-room, where

he shut himself up, leaving the field clear for Reginald, who,

before long, was engaged in a pitched battle with Norman.

Louis retreated to his play-fellows who were yet unconscious of

his disgrace with the higher powers; and, after playing for a little

while, wandered about by himself, too uneasy and sick at heart to

amuse himself. He found now, alas! that he was alone; that he had

lost all pleasure in holy things; and, conscious of his falling away,

he was now afraid to pray,--foolish boy. And thus it is--Satan tempts

us to do wrong, and then tempts us to doubt God's willingness to

forgive us, in order that, being without grace and strength, we may

fall yet deeper.

As Louis wandered along, he heard sounds familiar enough to him,

which portended a deadly fray, and when he came upon the combatants,

he discovered that one of them was his own brother. He knew it was

useless to attempt to stop the fight, and he wandered away again,

and cried a little, for he thought that something would happen, and

he and Reginald would be placed together in some unpleasant situation;

and he dreaded Dr. Wilkinson's hearing of either affair.

I must be excused for stopping my story to remark here, that in this

world, it is certain that we have great influence on one another, and

that for this influence we are responsible. Had Louis' school-fellows

acted more kindly, endeavoring to set before him the fault of tattling,

the effect would have been to raise a feeling of gratitude in his mind,

which would have been far more effectual in preventing the recurrence

of the fault, than the plan of repudiation they had adopted. Had they,

even after a day or two's penance, given him an opening into their

good graces, he would not have felt, as he did, that he had lost his

character, and it was "no use caring about it," and so gone from bad

to worse, till his name was associated with those of the worst boys

in the school. It may be said, How can school-boys be expected to have

so much consideration? but this a school-boy may do. He may mentally

put himself in the position of the delinquent, and considering how he

would wish to be treated, act accordingly.

Every thing seemed to go wrong with Louis that day. The Herodotus

that Hamilton was to have heard, was scarcely looked at; and Louis

lost two or three places in his class. Hamilton never noticed him,

and even Reginald was offended with him. Louis tried to brave it out,

and sung in a low tone, whistled, and finally, when he was roughly

desired to be quiet, walked into the school-room, and finished his

evening with Casson and Churchill.

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