DREAMING

DURING the retreat from Moscow a French soldier was mortally wounded.

His comrades tried to lift him into a waggon. ‘No bandages, no brandy!’

he cried; ‘go, you cannot help me.’ They hesitated, but seeing that he

could not recover, and knowing that the enemy was hard upon them in

pursuit, they left him. For half an hour he was alive and alone. The

Emperor, whom he worshipped, was far away; his friends had fled; to

remain would have been folly, and yet! It was late in the afternoon and

bitterly cold. He looked with dim and closing eyes over the vast,

dreary, snowy and silent plain. What were the images which passed before

them? Were they of home, of the Emperor and the retreating army, of the

crucifix and the figure thereon? Who can tell? Death is preceded by

thoughts which life cannot anticipate. Perhaps his herald was a simple

longing to be at rest, joy at his approach blotting out all bitterness

and regret. Who can tell? But I dream and dream; the dying, wintry day,

the dark, heavily-clouded sky, the snow, and the blood. A Cossack came

up and drove his lance through him.

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