THE FEAR OF IT.

The sea was done with him. He had struggled manfully for his life, but

exhaustion came at last, and, realizing the futility of further

fighting, he gave up the battle. The tallest wave, the king of that

roaring tumultuous procession racing from the wreck to the shore, took

him in its relentless grasp, held him towering for a moment against the

sky, whirled his heels in the air, dashed him senseless on the sand,

and, finally, rolled him over and over, a helpless bundle, high up upon

the sandy beach.

Human life seems of little account when we think of the trifles that

make toward the extinction or the extension of it. If the wave that

bore Stanford had been a little less tall, he would have been drawn

back into the sea by one that followed. If, as a helpless bundle, he

had been turned over one time more or one less, his mouth would have

pressed into the sand, and he would have died. As it was, he lay on his

back with arms outstretched on either side, and a handful of dissolving

sand in one clinched fist. Succeeding waves sometimes touched him, but

he lay there unmolested by the sea with his white face turned to the

sky.

Oblivion has no calendar. A moment or an eternity are the same to it.

When consciousness slowly returned, he neither knew nor cared how time

had fled. He was not quite sure that he was alive, but weakness rather

than fear kept him from opening his eyes to find out whether the world

they would look upon was the world they had last gazed at. His

interest, however, was speedily stimulated by the sound of the English

tongue. He was still too much dazed to wonder at it, and to remember

that he was cast away on some unknown island in the Southern Seas. But

the purport of the words startled him.

"Let us be thankful. He is undoubtedly dead." This was said in a tone

of infinite satisfaction.

There seemed to be a murmur of pleasure at the announcement from those

who were with the speaker. Stanford slowly opened his eyes, wondering

what these savages were who rejoiced in the death of an inoffensive

stranger cast upon their shores. He saw a group standing around him,

but his attention speedily became concentrated on one face. The owner

of it, he judged, was not more than nineteen years of age, and the

face--at least so it seemed to Stanford at the time--was the most

beautiful he had ever beheld. There was an expression of sweet gladness

upon it until her eyes met his, then the joy faded from the face, and a

look of dismay took its place. The girl seemed to catch her breath in

fear, and tears filled her eyes.

"Oh," she cried, "he is going to live."

She covered her face with her hands, and sobbed.

Stanford closed his eyes wearily. "I am evidently insane," he said to

himself. Then, losing faith in the reality of things, he lost

consciousness as well, and when his senses came to him again he found

himself lying on a bed in a clean but scantily furnished room. Through

an open window came the roar of the sea, and the thunderous boom of the

falling waves brought to his mind the experiences through which he had

passed. The wreck and the struggle with the waves he knew to be real,

but the episode on the beach he now believed to have been but a vision

resulting from his condition.

A door opened noiselessly, and, before he knew of anyone's entrance, a

placid-faced nurse stood by his bed and asked him how he was.

"I don't know. I am at least alive."

The nurse sighed, and cast down her eyes. Her lips moved, but she said

nothing. Stanford looked at her curiously. A fear crept over him that

he was hopelessly crippled for life, and that death was considered

preferable to a maimed existence. He felt wearied, though not in pain,

but he knew that sometimes the more desperate the hurt, the less the

victim feels it at first.

"Are--are any of my--my bones broken, do you know?" he asked.

"No. You are bruised, but not badly hurt. You will soon recover."

"Ah!" said Stanford, with a sigh of relief. "By the way," he added,

with sudden interest, "who was that girl who stood near me as I lay on

the beach?"

"There were several."

"No, there was but one. I mean the girl with the beautiful eyes and a

halo of hair like a glorified golden crown on her head."

"We speak not of our women in words like those," said the nurse,

severely; "you mean Ruth, perhaps, whose hair is plentiful and yellow."

Stanford smiled. "Words matter little," he said.

"We must be temperate in speech," replied the nurse.

"We may be temperate without, being teetotal. Plentiful and yellow,

indeed! I have had a bad dream concerning those who found me. I thought

that they--but it does not matter. She at least is not a myth. Do you

happen to know if any others were saved?"

"I am thankful to be able to say that every one was drowned."

Stanford started up with horror in his eyes. The demure nurse, with

sympathetic tones, bade him not excite himself. He sank back on his

pillow.

"Leave the room," he cried, feebly, "Leave me--leave me." He turned his

face toward the wall, while the woman left as silently as she had

entered.

When she was gone Stanford slid from the bed, intending to make his way

to the door and fasten it. He feared that these savages, who wished him

dead, would take measures to kill him when they saw he was going to

recover. As he leaned against the bed, he noticed that the door had no

fastening. There was a rude latch, but neither lock nor bolt. The

furniture of the room was of the most meagre description, clumsily

made. He staggered to the open window, and looked out. The remnants of

the disastrous gale blew in upon him and gave him new life, as it had

formerly threatened him with death. He saw that he was in a village of

small houses, each cottage standing in its own plot of ground. It was

apparently a village of one street, and over the roofs of the houses

opposite he saw in the distance the white waves of the sea. What

astonished him most was a church with its tapering spire at the end of

the street--a wooden church such as he had seen in remote American

settlements. The street was deserted, and there were no signs of life

in the houses.

"I must have fallen in upon some colony of lunatics," he said to

himself. "I wonder to what country these people belong--either to

England or the United States, I imagine--yet in all my travels I never

heard of such a community."

There was no mirror in the room, and it was impossible for him to know

how he looked. His clothes were dry and powdered with salt. He arranged

them as well as he could, and slipped out of the house unnoticed. When

he reached the outskirts of the village he saw that the inhabitants,

both men and women, were working in the fields some distance away.

Coming towards the village was a girl with a water-can in either hand.

She was singing as blithely as a lark until she saw Stanford, whereupon

she paused both in her walk and in her song. Stanford, never a backward

man, advanced, and was about to greet her when she forestalled him by

saying:

"I am grieved, indeed, to see that you have recovered."

The young man's speech was frozen on his lip, and a frown settled off

his brow. Seeing that he was annoyed, though why she could not guess,

Ruth hastened to amend matters by adding:

"Believe me, what I say is true. I am indeed sorry."

"Sorry that I live?"

"Most heartily am I."

"It is hard to credit such a statement from one so--from you."

"Do not say so. Miriam has already charged me with being glad that you

were not drowned. It would pain me deeply if you also believed as she

does."

The girl looked at him with swimming eyes, and the young man knew not

what to answer. Finally he said:

"There is some horrible mistake. I cannot make it out. Perhaps our

words, though apparently the same, have a different meaning. Sit down,

Ruth, I want to ask you some questions."

Ruth cast a timorous glance towards the workers, and murmured something

about not having much time to spare, but she placed the water-cans on

the ground and sank down on the grass. Stanford throwing himself on the

sward at her feet, but, seeing that she shrank back, he drew himself

further from her, resting where he might gaze upon her face.

Ruth's eyes were downcast, which was necessary, for she occupied

herself in pulling blade after blade of grass, sometimes weaving them

together. Stanford had said he wished to question her, but he

apparently forgot his intention, for he seemed wholly satisfied with

merely looking at her. After the silence had lasted for some time, she

lifted her eyes for one brief moment, and then asked the first question

herself.

"From what land do you come?"

"From England."

"Ah! that also is an island, is it not?"

He laughed at the "also," and remembered that he had some questions to

ask.

"Yes, it is an island--also. The sea dashes wrecks on all four sides of

it, but there is no village on its shores so heathenish that if a man

is cast upon the beach the inhabitants do not rejoice because he has

escaped death."

Ruth looked at him with amazement in her eyes.

"Is there, then, no religion in England?"

"Religion? England is the most religious country on the face of the

earth. There are more cathedrals, more churches, more places of worship

in England than in any other State that I know of. We send missionaries

to all heathenish lands. The Government, itself, supports the Church."

"I imagine, then, I mistook your meaning. I thought from what you said

that the people of England feared death, and did not welcome it or

rejoice when one of their number died."

"They do not fear death, and they do not rejoice when it comes. Far from

it. From the peer to the beggar, everyone fights death as long as he

can; the oldest cling to life as eagerly as the youngest. Not a man but

will spend his last gold piece to ward off the inevitable even for an

hour."

"Gold piece--what is that?"

Stanford plunged his hand into his pocket.

"Ah!" he said, "there are some coins left. Here is a gold piece."

The girl took it, and looked at it with keen interest.

"Isn't it pretty?" she said, holding the yellow coin on her pink palm,

and glancing up at him.

"That is the general opinion. To accumulate coins like that, men will

lie, and cheat, and steal--yes, and work. Although they will give their

last sovereign to prolong their lives, yet will they risk life itself

to accumulate gold. Every business in England is formed merely for the

gathering together of bits of metal like that in your hand; huge

companies of men are formed so that it may be piled up in greater

quantities. The man who has most gold has most power, and is generally

the most respected; the company which makes most money is the one

people are most anxious to belong to."

Ruth listened to him with wonder and dismay in her eyes. As he talked

she shuddered, and allowed the yellow coin to slip from her hand to the

ground. "No wonder such a people fears death."

"Do you not fear death?"

"How can we, when we believe in heaven?"

"But would you not be sorry if someone died whom you loved?"

"How could we be so selfish? Would you be sorry if your brother, or

someone you loved, became possessed of whatever you value in England--a

large quantity of this gold, for instance?"

"Certainly not. But then you see--well, it isn't exactly the same

thing. If one you care for dies you are separated from him, and----"

"But only for a short time, and that gives but another reason for

welcoming death. It seems impossible that Christian people should fear

to enter Heaven. Now I begin to understand why our forefathers left

England, and why our teachers will never tell us anything about the

people there. I wonder why missionaries are not sent to England to

teach them the truth, and try to civilize the people?"

"That would, indeed, be coals to Newcastle. But there comes one of the

workers."

"It is my father," cried the girl, rising. "I fear I have been

loitering. I never did such a thing before."

The man who approached was stern of countenance.

"Ruth," he said, "the workers are athirst."

The girl, without reply, picked up her pails and departed.

"I have been receiving," said the young man, coloring slightly, "some

instruction regarding your belief. I had been puzzled by several

remarks I had heard, and wished to make inquiries concerning them."

"It is more fitting," said the man, coldly, "that you should receive

instruction from me or from some of the elders than from one of the

youngest in the community. When you are so far recovered as to be able

to listen to an exposition of our views, I hope to put forth such

arguments as will convince you that they are the true views. If it

should so happen that my arguments are not convincing, then I must

request that you will hold no communication with our younger members.

They must not be contaminated by the heresies of the outside world."

Stanford looked at Ruth standing beside the village well.

"Sir," he said, "you underrate the argumentative powers of the younger

members. There is a text bearing upon the subject which I need not

recall to you. I am already convinced."

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