YELLOW STOCKINGS ON THE TAPIS
'We school our manners, act our parts,
But He who sees us through and through
Knows that the bent of both our hearts
Was to be gentle, tranquil, true.'
MATTHEW ARNOLD.
Audrey had not forgotten Mollie all this time. She kept her promise, and
wrote to her frequently; and she had long letters from her in return.
Mollie's girlish effusions were very innocent and loving. One day
Michael asked to read one of them. He smiled as he handed it back.
'She is a dear little girl!' he said heartily; 'I do not wonder that you
are so fond of her. She is only an undeveloped child now, but there is
plenty of good raw material. Mollie will make a fine large-hearted woman
one day--like someone else I know,' he finished to himself. 'If I do not
mistake, Mollie is cut after Audrey's pattern.'
Now and then Mrs. Blake wrote also. Her letters were airy and
picturesque, like her talk. Audrey would read them aloud to her mother
and Michael.
'I really feel as though our Richmond dreams had come true,' she wrote
once--'as though our favourite castle in the air were built. "Not
really, mother? you don't think this beautiful house and garden belong
to us really?" asks Mollie, in her stupid way. You know what a literal
little soul she is. "Oh, go away, Mollie!" I exclaim quite crossly. "How
can I help it if you have no imagination?" For all I know, the place is
ours: no one interferes with us; we come and go as we like; the birds
sing to us; the flowers bloom for our pleasure. Sometimes we sit by the
lake, or Mollie paddles me to Deep-water Chine, or we read our history
on that delicious circular seat overlooking the terraces. Then the
silence is invaded: a neat-handed Phyllis--isn't that poetically
expressed?--comes up with a message from that good Mrs. Draper: "Where
would Mrs. Blake and Miss Mollie have their tea?" Oh, you dear,
thoughtful creature, as though I do not know who has prompted Mrs.
Draper! Of course Mollie cries: "The garden, mamma!" and "The garden so
be it," say I. And presently it comes--such a tea! such fruit, such
cream, such cakes! No wonder Mollie is growing fat. And how am I to
thank you and dear Mrs. Ross? I must give it up; words will not express
my sense of your goodness. But before I finish this rigmarole I must
tell you that Mollie practises every day for an hour, and keeps up her
French, and the Roman history progresses well. I am carrying Mollie so
fast over the ground that we shall soon be dragged at Pompey's
chariot-wheels; and as she complains that she forgets what we have read,
I make her take notes and copy them neatly in a book. I know you will be
glad to hear this.'
'Humph!' was Michael's sole observation, when Audrey had finished.
'It is a very interesting letter--very droll and amusing,' remarked Mrs.
Ross, in her kindly way. 'Mrs. Blake is a clever woman; don't you think
so, Michael?'
But Michael could not be induced to hazard an opinion; indeed, his
behaviour was so unsatisfactory that Audrey threatened to keep the next
letter to herself.
But the last week was nearly at an end, and, though everyone loudly
lamented over this fact, it was observed that Mrs. Ross's countenance
grew brighter every day. She never willingly left her beautiful home,
and she always hailed her return to it with joy. Not even her Highland
home, with its heather and long festoons of stag-horn moss, could divert
her affections from her beloved Woodcote; and the young mistress of
Hillside fully echoed these sentiments.
'It has been a lovely time, and has done Percy a world of good,' she
said to her mother, as they were packing up some curiosities together;
'but I can see he is growing a little tired of idleness; and, after all,
there is no place like home.'
'I am sure your father and I feel the same; and really, Geraldine, on a
wet day these rooms are terribly small. I used to take my work upstairs;
one seemed to breathe freer than in that stuffy parlour that Audrey and
Michael think so charming.'
'So our last evening has come,' observed Audrey, in a curious tone, as
she and Michael wandered down to the little bridge they called their
trysting-place. A tiny rivulet of water trickled over the stones, and
two or three ducks were dibbling with yellow bills among the miniature
boulders. Audrey sat down on the low wall, and Michael stooped to pick
up a pebble, an action that excited frantic joy in Booty's breast.
'Ah, to be sure!' he replied, as he sent it skimming along the water,
while Booty pattered after it, barking with glee. 'Don't you remember De
Quincey's observation?' And as Audrey shook her head, for she never
remembered quotations, he went on: 'He declares that it is a true and
feeling remark of Dr. Johnson's, that we never do anything consciously
for the last time (of things, that is to say, which we have long been in
the habit of doing) without sadness of heart.'
'I think he is right;' and Audrey bent over the low parapet to watch a
sudden scrimmage below.
Booty was frisking among the boulders, and the ducks, evidently ruffled
in their feelings, were swimming under the bridge, quacking a loud,
indignant protest. Even ducks lose their tempers sometimes, and the
angry flourish of their tails and the pouting of their soft necks and
their open bills showed keen remonstrance and utter vexation of spirit.
'Booty, come here, and leave those ducks in peace;' and then, while
Michael threw another pebble or two, she sat asking herself if she felt
this sadness. Was she glad or sorry to know that to-morrow they would be
on their way to Rutherford?--would it not be a matter of regret if their
return were to be suddenly postponed? She had been very happy here; she
had seen so much of her father and Michael; but----Here Audrey brought
her inward questioning to an abrupt end.
'It has been a nice time, Michael,' she said gently--'a very nice time
indeed.'
'Look here! I wish you would substitute another adjective,' he
remonstrated, quite seriously. '"Nice" is such an insipid, sugary sort
of word: it has no sort of character about it. Now, if you had said "a
good old time----"'
'And have drawn down a reproof on myself for talking slang.'
'Well, "a glorious time,"' he corrected--'shall we say that instead? You
have enjoyed it, have you not?' with one of his searching looks.
'Oh yes; I have never enjoyed myself more. And, Michael'--her love of
mischief predominating--'I do believe we have not quarrelled once.'
'You have been such a brick, you know, and have given in to me in
everything. Somehow,' continued Michael, throwing up a pebble and
catching it again, 'if people give in to me, I am remarkably
sweet-tempered. We were very near a quarrel once, I remember, but it
never came to anything. It was a hot afternoon, I think, and we were
both sleepy.'
'I cannot say I remember it.'
'Well, let it pass. I am in that sort of magnanimous mood that I am
ready to pronounce absolution on all offences--past, present, and to
come. By the bye, Audrey, I forgot to tell you something. Kester has had
the letter he wanted, and Widow Blake graciously signifies her assent.'
'Michael, let me give you a timely warning. We shall quarrel if you call
my friend by that ridiculous name.'
'A quarrel cannot be carried on by one party alone,' he returned lazily;
'and I absolutely refuse to consider a mere statement of facts in the
light of a grievance. Still, if your feelings are wounded, and you
object to my allusion to your fair friend's bereaved condition----'
'Michael!' with a little stamp, 'will you leave off talking about Mrs.
Blake and tell me what you mean?'
'It is perfectly simple, I assure you. Kester wrote to his mother to ask
if he might go up to town with me, and she said "Yes."'
'Must you really go?' rather regretfully. 'It would be so much nicer if
you came to Rutherford with us. You know,' she continued affectionately,
'I always miss you so much when you are away.'
Michael gave her one of his quick looks, and then he picked up a smooth
white stone that had attracted his attention.
'I shall follow you in ten days--at least, that is my present intention,
unless Stedman's business keeps me.'
'But will not Kester be in your way?'
'Not a bit; he will be a famous companion. He will have the run of my
rooms, and when I am at the club or with the other fellows he will find
a hundred ways of amusing himself.'
'It will be such a treat to him.'
'I want it to be a treat; he has not had much pleasure in his life, poor
fellow! Do you know, Audrey, he has never really seen London. Won't he
enjoy bowling along the Embankment in a hansom, and what do you suppose
he will say to Westminster Abbey and the Houses of Parliament? I mean to
take him to the theatre. Actually he has never seen a play! We will
have dinner at the Criterion, and I will get Fred Somers to join us.
Well, what now?' regarding her with astonishment; for Audrey was looking
at him, and her beautiful gray eyes were full of tears.
'Because you are so kind,' she said a little huskily; 'because no one
else ever did such kind, thoughtful things, and because you never think
of yourself at all.'
'Oh, come, you must not begin praising me after this fashion!' he said
lightly; for he would not show her how much he was touched that there
were actually tears in her eyes for him.
'And I think it no wonder at all that Kester is so devoted to you.'
'Booty!' exclaimed Michael sadly; and as the little creature jumped on
his knee, he continued in a melancholy tone: 'Do you know, Booty, you
have a rival? Someone else beside yourself dares to be devoted to your
master. Ah, no wonder you wag your tail so feebly! "The moon loves many
brooks, but the brooks love one moon"--it is an affecting image.'
'Michael, I do wish you would be a little serious this last evening. I
really mean it. Kester thinks more of you than he does of his own
brother.'
'Oh, he will be wiser some day,' returned Michael, with the utmost
cheerfulness. 'You must make allowance for his youth and inexperience.
He is an odd boy, rather precocious for his age, and his weak health has
fostered his little peculiarities.'
'You speak as though some apology were needed. You are very dense this
evening, Michael. I believe I said I was not at all surprised at
Kester's devotion, you have been so good to him.'
'I think the air of this place is enervating,' replied Michael, jumping
up from the parapet. 'I know people do not generally consider moorland
air enervating; but mine is a peculiar constitution, and needs more
bracing than other men's. Shall we walk back, my dear?' But as he gave
her his hand to rise, the gentle melancholy of his smile smote her with
a sudden sense of sadness, for it spoke of some hidden pain that even
her sympathy could not reach; and she knew that his whimsical words only
cloaked some vague uneasiness. 'Come, dear, come,' he continued; 'these
Scotch twilights are somewhat damp and chilly. We will burn that pine
log this evening, and we will sit round it and tell stories--eh,
Audrey?'
But, in spite of these cheerful words, Michael was the quietest of the
group that evening, as he watched from his dusky corner, unperceived
himself, the play of the firelight on one bright, earnest face. Audrey
sat on the rug at her father's feet, with her head against his knee. It
was a favourite position of hers.
'Now, Daddy Glass-Eyes, it is your turn,' she said, using the old
baby-name. 'Michael has turned disagreeable and has gone to sleep, so we
will miss him. Kester, are you thinking of your story? It must be a nice
creepy one, please.'
'I think we ought all to go to bed early, John,' interrupted Mrs. Ross.
'Audrey is in one of her sociable moods; but she forgets we have a long
journey before us. Kester is looking as sleepy as possible.' And as Dr.
Ross always acted on his wife's quiet hints, the fireside circle soon
broke up.
It had been arranged that the whole party should sleep two nights in
town. Geraldine and Audrey had shopping to do, and both Dr. Ross and his
son-in-law had business appointments to detain them. Audrey and her
mother had tea with Michael one evening, and then they bade him and
Kester good-bye.
'You will tell Mollie all about me, will you not, Miss Ross?' Kester
exclaimed excitedly. 'Tell her I am going to St. Paul's, and the
National Gallery, and the British Museum. Fred Somers is going to pilot
me about, as Captain Burnett has so much to do. Do you know Fred Somers,
Miss Ross? He seems a nice sort of fellow.'
Oh yes, Audrey knew all about Fred Somers. He was another _protege_ of
Michael's; indeed, the whole Somers family considered themselves
indebted to Captain Burnett.
Fred's father was only a City clerk, and at one time his head had been
very much below water. He was a good, weak sort of man; but he had not
sufficient backbone, and when the tide sat dead against him he lost
courage.
'The man will die,' said the doctor. 'He has no stamina; he simply
offers no resistance to the disease that is carrying him off. You should
cheer him up a bit, Mrs. Somers--crying never mended a sick man yet.'
For he was the parish doctor, and a little rough in his ways.
'A man has no right to lose courage and to show the white feather when
he has a wife and six children depending on him,' said Michael.
Some chance--or rather say some providential arrangement--had brought
him across their threshold. Michael came across all sorts of people in
his London life, and, though his acquaintance among City clerks was
rather limited, he had known Mr. Somers slightly.
When Michael stepped up to that sick-bed with that wholesome rebuke on
his tongue, but his heart very full of sympathy for the stricken man,
Robert Somers' difficulties were practically over. The debts that were
chafing the life out of him--debts incurred by sickness, by a hundred
little disasters--were paid out of Michael's small means; and, despite
his doctor's prophecy, Robert Somers rose from his bed a braver,
stronger man.
Michael never lost interest in the family. They would always be pinched
and struggling, he knew--a City clerkship is not an El Dorado of riches,
and growing boys and girls have to be clothed and educated. Michael took
the eldest boy, Fred, under his wing--by some means or other he got him
into Christ's Hospital. How Fred's little sisters admired those yellow
stockings!--though it may be doubted whether they were not too warm a
colour for Fred's private taste. Fred was a Grecian by this time--a big
strapping fellow he looked beside Kester--with a freckled, intelligent
face and a mop of dark hair. He was a great favourite of Audrey's, and
she had once induced her mother to let him spend a fortnight at
Woodcote. Dr. Ross also took a kindly interest in him.
'Fred will make his mark one day. You are right, Michael,' he observed.
'He has plenty of brains under that rough thatch of his. He will
shoulder his way through the world. Christ's Hospital has turned out
many a fine scholar, and Fred does not mean to be behind them.'
Audrey bade good-bye to Michael somewhat reluctantly.
'You will follow us in ten days, will you not?' she asked rather
anxiously. 'Remember that London never suits you; you are always better
at Rutherford, and it will be such a pity to lose your good
looks--Scotland has done wonders for you. Percival was only saying so
this morning.'
'I shall be sure to come as soon as I have settled this troublesome
piece of business,' he returned cheerfully. 'Take care of yourself, my
Lady Bountiful, and do not get into mischief during your Mentor's
absence.'
But when the hansom had driven off, Michael did an unusual thing. He
walked to a small oak-framed mirror that hung between the windows, and
regarded himself with earnest scrutiny. He was alone; the two boys had
started off in an omnibus to the National Gallery, and Michael had
promised to lunch with a friend in Lincoln's Inn.
'My good looks,' he soliloquised. 'I wonder if my health has really
improved? She was right. I felt a different man in Scotland. I have not
felt so well and strong since that Zulu slashed me--poor devil! I sent
him to limbo. It is true the doctors were not hopeless; in time and with
care, if I could only keep my nerves in order--that was what they said.
Oh, if I could only believe them--if I could only feel the power for
work--any sort of work--coming back to me, I would--I would----' He
stopped and broke off the thread of his thoughts abruptly. 'What a fool
I am! I will not let this temptation master me. If I were once to
entertain such a hope, to believe it possible, I should work myself into
a restless fever. Avaunt, Satanas! Sweet, subtle, most impossible of
impossibilities--a sane man cannot be deluded. Good God! why must some
men lead such empty lives?' For a moment the firm, resolute mouth
twitched under the reddish-brown moustache, then Michael rang the bell
and ordered a hansom.
It was late on a September evening when Audrey drove through Rutherford.
She leaned forward in the carriage a little eagerly as they passed the
Gray Cottage--surely Mollie would be at the window! But no! the windows
were blank; no girlish face was there to greet her, and with a slight
feeling of disappointment she drew back again. But nothing could long
spoil the joy of returning home.
'Oh, mother, does it not all look lovely?' she exclaimed, later on that
evening. She had been everywhere--to the stables, the poultry-yard, the
dairy, and lastly to Mrs. Draper's room. The twilight was creeping over
the gardens of Woodcote before Audrey had finished her rambles. She had
been down to the lake, she had sat on 'Michael's bench,' she had looked
at her favourite shrubs and flowers, and Dr. Ross smiled as he heard her
gaily singing along the terraces.
'Come in, you madcap!' he said good-humouredly. 'Do you know how heavy
the dews are? There, I told you so; your dress is quite damp.'
'What does it matter?' returned Audrey, with superb disdain. '"The rains
of Marly do not wet!"--do you recollect that exquisite courtier-like
speech?--so, no doubt, Woodcote dews are quite wholesome. Is it not
delicious to be home again? And there is no more "Will you come ben?"
from honest Jean, and "Will you have a sup of porridge, Miss Ross, or a
few broth to keep out the cold?" "Home, home, there is no place like
home!"' And then they heard her singing at the top of her fresh young
voice, as she roamed through the empty rooms, some old ballad Michael
had taught her:
'Oh, there's naebody hears Widow Miller complain,
Oh, there's naebody hears Widow Miller complain;
Though the heart of this world's as hard as a stane,
Yet there's naebody hears Widow Miller complain.'
'Dear child!' observed her mother fondly. 'I do not think anyone ever
was happier than our Audrey. She is like a sunbeam in the house, John;'
and then they both paused to listen:
'Ye wealthy and wise in this fair world of ours,
When your fields wave wi' gowd, your gardens wi' flowers,
When ye bind up the sheaves, leave out a few grains
To the heart-broken widow who never complains.'