Mrs. Stormont felt that all was going well. Philip had not shown any
great degree of gaiety, but he had done his duty like a man. The
countess, after that duty-quadrille, had come and sat down beside her,
and praised her son in words ever pleasant to a mother's ear.
"He did not pretend to like it," she said; "but he did his duty nobly.
Now I hope he will enjoy himself: I have no objection to stand up with
such a nice young fellow, but I think, dear Mrs. Stormont, that in the
country we might dispense with these formal quadrilles that all the
young people hate."
"Perhaps I am an old-fashioned person," said Mrs. Stormont; "but it
could be nothing but a pleasure to Philip."
The countess shook her head, and said he was a fine young fellow that a
mother might well be proud of.
"He is dancing with Ida now, which is more to the purpose," she said.
Now Ida was her ladyship's niece, and for a moment it occurred to
Philip's mother that perhaps she had come to a conclusion too quickly
in respect to Lilias, and that her son, with all his attractions,
might have done better. She had the good sense, however, to perceive
that Lady Ida was altogether too great a personage for the Tower
of Stormont: but this did not lessen her satisfaction in the good
impression produced by her boy. And her confidence increased as the
evening went on. She saw him taking out Lilias, dazzling in her fair
beauty and white robes, and thought with natural pride that they made
a lovely couple: he so dark-haired, brown, and manly, and she so fair.
In all her progresses among her guests, her intimate conversations with
one and another, Mrs. Stormont had always one eye directed towards
Philip. He was very dutiful, and did all that she had pointed out to
him as right and proper to do. And he kept away from the Setons. Her
heart rose. Here it was evident she had succeeded in doing the right
thing at the right time. She had separated him from the manse people,
and that little cutty, and she had put him in the way of better things.
Naturally he would contrast little Katie with Lady Ida, or even with
Lilias, and he would see how he had been taken in. All this went on to
perfection till after supper, when, dancing having begun again with
double energy, the evils above recounted took place quite out of sight
of the anxious mother. Her vigilance had slackened. She had scorned to
fix upon her son that all-seeing regard. She had even begun a little
to enjoy herself among her old friends independent of him, with old
recollections and many a scrap of individual biography. She had seated
herself between Miss Margaret and Miss Jean, and, well-pleased, was
receiving their congratulations upon the success of everything, when
it suddenly occurred to her that amid all the mazes of the dancers
Philip was not anywhere visible. She watched with increased anxiety
for a time: but after all he might have taken down some lady for
refreshments, or to get a breath of fresh air after the dance.
"They will catch their death of cold," she said, "those thoughtless
things! I have little doubt my Philip is away into the moonlight with
some of them, for I cannot see him."
"Bless me! it will be our Lilias," said Miss Margaret.
"Oh, I'll run and see that she has her cloak," cried Miss Jean,
starting to her feet, but both the elder sister and the mother
protested against this extreme care.
"They must just take their chance," said Miss Margaret. "We cannot be
always after her."
"And my Philip will take care of that," said Mrs. Stormont.
But after this alarm, the eyes of all were busy, watching for the
truants. A vague uneasiness was in Mrs. Stormont's mind. If it was
Lilias, as the other ladies said, then all was well: but the mother
of a man recognizes a perversity in that article which is never to
be calculated upon. It was possible they might be mistaken. It was
possible--who can tell what a young lad is not capable of? It was
very consoling, very re-assuring, that Lilias was invisible as well
as Philip, but a hundred terrors shook the anxious mother's bosom
whenever, through the circles of the dancers, she saw a dress more
white than usual, a blonde head, like that of Lilias, reveal itself;
and there were of course many fair-haired girls. At last her suspense
got too much for her. She left the sisters, under pretence of speaking
to another old friend, but once free stole towards the door, and out
upon the wide old staircase, which was full of sitters out. Mrs.
Stormont escaped with difficulty from the too-zealous cavaliers, who
were anxious to take her down for the cup of tea she professed to be in
search of. She could hardly get free from their importunities. The door
was wide open; the chill that comes before dawn was stealing in, but
even when she looked out, shivering, from the threshold some officious
person insisted on talking to her.
"Yes, yes, it is a fine night, and the moon is just beautiful--but,
for my part, I think it's very cold, and I wish those incautious young
creatures would not wander about like that, with nothing on them. If I
could see Philip, I would send him out to beg them to come in."
She stood on the step, drawing her shawl round her, looking out with
great anxiety into the gloom. It was just trembling on the turn
between darkness and light: ten minutes more would have betrayed to
her what was taking place under the shadow of the bushes--the change
of partners once more in the little group at the corner of the house.
But it is impossible to tell what a bound of relief Mrs. Stormont's
sober heart gave when suddenly, coming forward into the light, she
beheld the welcome figure of Lilias, all white and fair, leading rather
than being led by Philip. There was a look which was half-shame and
half-mischief in Lilias' eyes. She was a conscious deceiver, yet
enjoyed the _rôle_. Her eyes were shining, dazzled with the light, as
she came out of the darkness, a blush upon her face, a little shrinking
from the gaze of the happy mother, who was so thankful to make sure
that it was Lilias.
"Oh, my dear child," she cried, "is that you? and what do you mean, you
selfish loon, by keeping her out in the cold?"
As she addressed him with this abusive expression, Mrs. Stormont laid
her hand caressingly upon Philip's other arm. He had not looked so
happy all the evening. She turned and went in with him, ordering her
son to get his bonnie lady something to warm her after stravaighing
like that in the dark. Poor lady! she did not see little Katie, her
heart fluttering in her throat, who stole in after, and hurried off to
her mother, while the mistress of the feast had her back turned. Lewis
took her back to Mrs. Seton very gravely, and Katie was frightened for
once in her life, but presently, finding no harm come of it, shook
herself free of all unnecessary tremors, and was flying over the floor
with Alec Bannerman, who had been looking for her everywhere, as he was
telling her when Mrs. Stormont came into the room radiant. That lady
went back to the sisters, nodding her head with satisfaction.
"It was just as we thought," she said. "They were out for some fresh
air, the monkeys! Fresh air!--it was like December! But I'm glad to
tell you my boy had the sense to put a shawl upon her, and they're safe
now in the tea-room, where I bade him give her some wine or something
to warm her. So now your minds can be at ease."
How much at ease her own was! She left them to seat herself beside
another county lady, whose sons, poor soul, were wild, and gave her a
great deal of trouble: and there discoursed, as women sometimes will,
upon the perfections of her Philip, not without a gratified sense that
the other sighed over the contrast. But Margaret and Jean were not so
much relieved as Mrs. Stormont.
"It is not like our Lilias," Margaret said. "I hope she will not learn
these unwomanly ways. Out in the dark with a long-leggit lad like yon
Philip, that his mother thinks perfection--I am disappointed in her,
Jean."
"It will have been some accident," said Jean, cast down, yet faithful.
"Accident!--how could it be an accident? I hope it is not the
appearance in her of any light-headedness. I would shut her up for the
rest of her life if I thought that."
"How can you think so, Margaret?" cried Jean, indignantly. "There are
no light-headed persons in our family."
"But she is of her mother's family as well as ours," said the elder
sister, seriously. "You can answer for your own blood, but never for
another. Have you been out too, Mr. Murray? There is a breath about you
of the caller air."
"That is a pretty word, the caller air," said Lewis. "It is just upon
dawn, and the birds will soon be singing; but I think it is too cold
for the ladies to go out. They are very brave not to mind."
"Brave!--I call it foolhardy; and, indeed, if it's on the turn of the
dawning, as Mr. Murray says, I think, Jean, we should be making our
way----"
"Margaret," cried Lilias in her ear, "I have got it upon me! Now I am
going to dance every dance. It is just a sort of a fever, and, when you
take it, it must run its course. Was this the dance you asked me for?"
the girl said, turning and holding out her hand to Lewis. Her eyes were
shining, her face full of animation, the thrill of the music in her
frame.
Lewis was so much entranced gazing at her that he scarcely realized the
boon she was offering him. Did she mean to turn his head? She who had
refused half the people in the room, and now gave herself to him with
this sweet cordiality. The sisters sat and looked at each other when
the pair floated away.
"It is because she thinks him a stranger, and a little out of his
element," said Jean, ever ready with an apology.
"A stranger! He is just a beautiful dancer. Very likely he would be
clumsy in a reel; but nobody dances reels nowadays. And as for those
round dances (which I cannot say I approve of), he is just perfect. I
don't wonder Lilias likes to dance with him. But I hope she will not
just put things into his head," Margaret said.
"Oh, no," said Jean--"I don't think she will do that."
It was not till two hours later, in the lovely early daylight, that
the Miss Murrays left the Tower. Though there was not much room in the
brougham, they sat close to take Mrs. Seton and her daughter into it,
Katie, much subdued, sitting on Miss Margaret's velvet lap, upon the
point lace which was almost the most valuable thing she possessed. The
elder ladies talked a little, moralizing upon the perversity of human
nature, which sent them home like this in their finery on the bonnie
bright morning, when working folk were going out to their day's darg.
"If they would have the sense to begin early, as you do at your little
tea-parties," Miss Margaret said, graciously.
"But oh! we must make allowances for a ball. Yes, yes, there are so
few of them in the county we may make allowance once in a way for a
ball--and a grand ball, too, we must all admit; and the young people
all enjoyed themselves just uncommonly," cried Mrs. Seton.
When they were in the ferry-boat, Lilias desired to be allowed to get
out of the carriage, and, with their fleecy white wraps about their
heads, the girls went to the bow of the boat and stood in the fresh
light looking out upon the silent river, which lay in that ecstasy of
self-enjoyment, brooding upon all its shadows, and reflecting every
gradation of light, which Nature is possessed by in hours when man is,
so to speak, non-existent. The birds sang as if they had never known
before what delight there was in singing, and were all trying some new
carols in an enthusiasm of pleasure, breaking off and beginning again
as if they had never sung them before this day. And the shadows were
all made of light, as well as the illuminations, and everything was
glorified in the water which reproduced the bank and the foliage and
every sleeping cottage. There was a little awe in it, it was so bright,
so limpid and serene. Lewis, who was crossing with them, leaned over
the side of the boat, and did not even speak when they approached him:
and when Katie began her usual chatter, though even that was subdued,
Lilias stopped her with a movement of her hand.
"They are all at their prayers," said Lilias. She spoke, not quite
knowing what she meant; for it is doubtful whether this is enough to
express that supreme accord and delight of Nature in her awakening,
before she has begun to be troubled by her unruly inmate, man.
But Katie was not to be restrained for long. She acquiesced for the
moment, her little soul being influenced for about that space of time.
Then she got her arm round that of Lilias, and drew her aside.
"It is very bonnie," said Katie, "but I must speak to you. You never
came home from a ball in the morning before, or you would not be so
struck with it. It's always like this except when it is raining.
Lilias, oh! I want to tell you; I will never forget what you did
to-night, nor Philip either. He is just silly about it. He says that's
what a good girl will do for a friend. I was just at the very end of
what I could bear--I would have been hysterical or something. Fancy,
bursting out crying in a ball-room! I believe I would have done it; I
could not have put up with it a moment longer. That was why we went out
upon the grass; it was very damp," said Katie, looking at her slippers.
"I don't know what mamma will say when she sees my shoes."
"I wonder," cried Lilias, half disgusted, "that you can think about
your shoes."
"I am not thinking about them--I am thinking what mamma will think.
But, Lilias, that's not what I was going to speak of. We will never,
never forget it, neither him nor me." (This is perfectly good grammar
in Scotch, which was Katie's language, though she was not aware of it.)
"And, Lilias, do you think you would, just out of kindness, keep it up
for a while, like that?"
"Keep it up?--like what!" Lilias was bewildered, and looked in Katie's
face for an explanation.
"Oh, surely you know what I mean. It would be no harm; I am the only
person it could hurt, and it is I that am asking you to do it. Oh!
Lilias, it is only to make Mrs. Stormont believe that it is you that
Philip is after, and not me."
"Katie, are you crazy? Me that Philip is--after! Oh! how can you say
such vulgar things?"
"Why should it be vulgar?" said Katie, growing pale at this reproach;
"it is true. Philip has been after me as long as I can remember. What
would you have me say--in love? Oh! but to say that just gives you a
red face--it makes your heart jump. It sounds like poetry."
"And so it should, Katie; if it does not sound like poetry, it cannot
be true."
"It is very well for you to say that; in the first place, you have no
one--after you; at least, not as yet. And then you are a grander person
than I am. It might suit you to talk of love, every day, but it would
not suit me--oh, no! But that does not alter the thing; or, if you
like to change the word, I am sure I am not heeding: if you will only,
only---- Oh! Lilias, for the sake of friendship, and because we all
knew each other when we were little things--if you would only let Mrs.
Stormont think that he was in love with you!"
A flush of somewhat angry pride came over the face of Lilias. She drew
her arm away from Katie's clinging grasp, which scarcely would consent
to be detached.
"I don't know what you mean. I think you must want to insult me," she
cried.
"What good would it do me to insult you?" cried Katie, reproachfully.
"Instead of that I am just on my knees to you. Oh! don't you see what I
mean? We want to gain a little time. If _she_ does not consent, nobody
will consent, nor even mamma, and never, never papa. They will not go
against _his_ mother. And Philip is very dour: he would quarrel with
her, if it came to a struggle. That is what I am frightened for. If
she thinks it is you, she will never stop him from coming. She will be
so pleased, she will do whatever he likes, and we will be able to meet
almost every day, and no suspicion. Oh! Lilias, what harm would it do
you?" cried Katie, clasping her hands.
Lilias was taken entirely by surprise. Her action in the midst of the
dance had been quite unpremeditated. She had been struck by sudden pity
to see Philip so dark and gloomy, and little Katie, in her excitement,
so near to self-betrayal. She looked with dismay now at the little
pleading face, so childish, yet occupied with thoughts so different
from those of a child. To think the elder ladies, Katie's mother, her
own sisters, should be so near and so little aware what was passing.
"How could I pretend anything like that?" she said. "I would be
ashamed. I could not do it. And what would it come to in the end?"
"It would all come right in the end, if we only could have a little
time," said Katie. "Oh, Lilias, here we are at the shore. Just say yes,
or I will break my heart."
"Why should you break your heart?" Lilias said, looking with dismay
and trouble upon the little countenance just ready to dim itself
with weeping, the big tears just gathering, the corners of the mouth
drooping.
But next moment the boat grated on the shore. Lewis came forward to
give them his hand. The brougham, with a little plunge and roll, came
to land, and Mrs. Seton's voice was heard with its habitual liveliness
and continuance.
"No, no, we'll not give you that trouble. We will just run home, Katie
and I; it is no distance. No, no, I could not let you put yourself
about for me, and Lilias in her satin shoes. Katie's are kid, and will
take no harm. We are quite used to it; it is what we always do. Good
night, or, I should say, good morning; and many thanks for bringing us
so far. Katie, gather up your frock, we will be home in a minute," Mrs.
Seton said. "No, no, Mr. Murray, there is no need for you either. In a
minute we will be at our own gate."
Lilias stood in the clear morning light, looking after them as they
hurried away, neglecting the call of her sisters and the attitude of
Lewis, who stood waiting, holding open the door of the brougham. The
still morning, the village street, without a creature moving, the
sleep-bound look of the cottages, and the two figures disappearing like
muffled ghosts into the lane which led to the manse, was like a story
to the girl--a story into which she had stumbled somehow in the middle
of it, but in which she was about to play a part against her will.
She shivered a little with the excitement and bewilderment, and also
because this fresh, clear, silvery air, so still, yet tingling with the
merry twitter of the birds, was a little chill too.
"Lilias, Lilias, do not stand there. And the poor horse just dropping
with sleep, and Sanders too."
"And you will catch your death of cold," added Miss Jean.
But it was Lewis holding out his hand to help her into the carriage
who roused Lilias. He looked at her with an admiring sympathy, so full
of understanding and appreciation of her difficulty, as she thought,
that it brought her back to herself. Had he heard what Katie had been
saying? Did he know the strange proposal that had been made to her? She
looked at him with a question and appeal in her eyes, and she thought
he answered her with a re-assuring look of approval and consolation.
All this was imagination, but it gave her a little comfort in her
bewilderment. He put her into the carriage with a touch of her hand,
which seemed to mean more than the mere little unnecessary help. It
did mean a great deal more, but not what Lilias supposed; and then the
slumberous old horse and old Sanders, scarcely able to keep his eyes
open upon the box, got the old vehicle into motion again, and Lewis,
too, disappeared like a shadow, the only one upon the silent road.
Margaret and Jean looked like two ghosts, pale in the light of morning.
"Well, that is one thing well over--but as for sleeping in one's bed
at this hour, with all the birds singing, it is just impossible," Miss
Margaret said.