That evening the three men of us had dinner alone, with racks on the
table, while the _Elsinore_ rolled in the calm that had sent Miss West
to her room.
“You won’t see her for a couple of days,” Captain West told me. “Her
mother was the same way—a born sailor, but always sick at the outset of
a voyage.”
“It’s the shaking down.” Mr. Pike astonished me with the longest
observation I had yet heard him utter at table. “Everybody has to shake
down when they leave the land. We’ve got to forget the good times on
shore, and the good things money’ll buy, and start watch and watch,
four hours on deck and four below. And it comes hard, and all our
tempers are strung until we can make the change. Did it happen that you
heard Caruso and Blanche Arral this winter in New York, Mr. Pathurst?”
I nodded, still marvelling over this spate of speech at table.
“Well, think of hearing them, and Homer, and Witherspoon, and Amato,
every night for nights and nights at the Metropolitan; and then to give
it the go-by, and get to sea and shake down to watch and watch.”
“You don’t like the sea?” I queried.
He sighed.
“I don’t know. But of course the sea is all I know—”
“Except music,” I threw in.
“Yes, but the sea and all the long-voyaging has cheated me out of most
of the music I oughta have had coming to me.”
“I suppose you’ve heard Schumann Heink?”
“Wonderful, wonderful!” he murmured fervently, then regarded me with an
eager wistfulness. “I’ve half-a-dozen of her records, and I’ve got the
second dog-watch below. If Captain West don’t mind . . . ” (Captain
West nodded that he didn’t mind). “And if you’d want to hear them? The
machine is a good one.”
And then, to my amazement, when the steward had cleared the table, this
hoary old relic of man-killing and man-driving days, battered waif of
the sea that he was, carried in from his room a most splendid
collection of phonograph records. These, and the machine, he placed on
the table. The big doors were opened, making the dining-room and the
main cabin into one large room. It was in the cabin that Captain West
and I lolled in big leather chairs while Mr. Pike ran the phonograph.
His face was in a blaze of light from the swinging lamps, and every
shade of expression was visible to me.
In vain I waited for him to start some popular song. His records were
only of the best, and the care he took of them was a revelation. He
handled each one reverently, as a sacred thing, untying and unwrapping
it and brushing it with a fine camel’s hair brush while it revolved and
ere he placed the needle on it. For a time all I could see was the huge
brute hands of a brute-driver, with skin off the knuckles, that
expressed love in their every movement. Each touch on the discs was a
caress, and while the record played he hovered over it and dreamed in
some heaven of music all his own.
During this time Captain West lay back and smoked a cigar. His face was
expressionless, and he seemed very far away, untouched by the music. I
almost doubted that he heard it. He made no remarks between whiles,
betrayed no sign of approbation or displeasure. He seemed
preternaturally serene, preternaturally remote. And while I watched him
I wondered what his duties were. I had not seen him perform any. Mr.
Pike had attended to the loading of the ship. Not until she was ready
for sea had Captain West come on board. I had not seen him give an
order. It looked to me that Mr. Pike and Mr. Mellaire did the work. All
Captain West did was to smoke cigars and keep blissfully oblivious of
the _Elsinore’s_ crew.
When Mr. Pike had played the “Hallelujah Chorus” from the _Messiah_,
and “He Shall Feed His Flock,” he mentioned to me, almost
apologetically, that he liked sacred music, and for the reason,
perhaps, that for a short period, a child ashore in San Francisco, he
had been a choir boy.
“And then I hit the dominie over the head with a baseball bat and
sneaked off to sea again,” he concluded with a harsh laugh.
And thereat he fell to dreaming while he played Meyerbeer’s “King of
Heaven,” and Mendelssohn’s “O Rest in the Lord.”
When one bell struck, at quarter to eight, he carried his music, all
carefully wrapped, back into his room. I lingered with him while he
rolled a cigarette ere eight bells struck.
“I’ve got a lot more good things,” he said confidentially: “Coenen’s
‘Come Unto Me,’ and Faure’s ‘Crucifix’; and there’s ‘O Salutaris,’ and
‘Lead, Kindly Light’ by the Trinity Choir; and ‘Jesu, Lover of My Soul’
would just melt your heart. I’ll play ’em for you some night.”
“Do you believe in them?” I was led to ask by his rapt expression and
by the picture of his brute-driving hands which I could not shake from
my consciousness.
He hesitated perceptibly, then replied:
“I do . . . when I’m listening to them.”
* * * * *
My sleep that night was wretched. Short of sleep from the previous
night, I closed my book and turned my light off early. But scarcely had
I dropped into slumber when I was aroused by the recrudescence of my
hives. All day they had not bothered me; yet the instant I put out the
light and slept, the damnable persistent itching set up. Wada had not
yet gone to bed, and from him I got more cream of tartar. It was
useless, however, and at midnight, when I heard the watch changing, I
partially dressed, slipped into my dressing-gown, and went up on to the
poop.
I saw Mr. Mellaire beginning his four hours’ watch, pacing up and down
the port side of the poop; and I slipped away aft, past the man at the
wheel, whom I did not recognize, and took refuge in the lee of the
wheel-house.
Once again I studied the dim loom and tracery of intricate rigging and
lofty, sail-carrying spars, thought of the mad, imbecile crew, and
experienced premonitions of disaster. How could such a voyage be
possible, with such a crew, on the huge _Elsinore_, a cargo-carrier
that was only a steel shell half an inch thick burdened with five
thousand tons of coal? It was appalling to contemplate. The voyage had
gone wrong from the first. In the wretched unbalance that loss of sleep
brings to any good sleeper, I could decide only that the voyage was
doomed. Yet how doomed it was, in truth, neither I nor a madman could
have dreamed.
I thought of the red-blooded Miss West, who had always lived and had no
doubts but what she would always live. I thought of the killing and
driving and music-loving Mr. Pike. Many a haler remnant than he had
gone down on a last voyage. As for Captain West, he did not count. He
was too neutral a being, too far away, a sort of favoured passenger who
had nothing to do but serenely and passively exist in some Nirvana of
his own creating.
Next I remembered the self-wounded Greek, sewed up by Mr. Pike and
lying gibbering between the steel walls of the ’midship-house. This
picture almost decided me, for in my fevered imagination he typified
the whole mad, helpless, idiotic crew. Certainly I could go back to
Baltimore. Thank God I had the money to humour my whims. Had not Mr.
Pike told me, in reply to a question, that he estimated the running
expenses of the _Elsinore_ at two hundred dollars a day? I could afford
to pay two hundred a day, or two thousand, for the several days that
might be necessary to get me back to the land, to a pilot tug, or any
inbound craft to Baltimore.
I was quite wholly of a mind to go down and rout out Captain West to
tell him my decision, when another presented itself: _Then are you_,
_the thinker and philosopher_, _the world-sick one_, _afraid to go
down_, _to cease in the darkness_? Bah! My own pride in my
life-pridelessness saved Captain West’s sleep from interruption. Of
course I would go on with the adventure, if adventure it might be
called, to go sailing around Cape Horn with a shipload of fools and
lunatics—and worse; for I remembered the three Babylonish and Semitic
ones who had aroused Mr. Pike’s ire and who had laughed so terribly and
silently.
Night thoughts! Sleepless thoughts! I dismissed them all and started
below, chilled through by the cold. But at the chart-room door I
encountered Mr. Mellaire.
“A pleasant evening, sir,” he greeted me. “A pity there’s not a little
wind to help us off the land.”
“What do you think of the crew?” I asked, after a moment or so.
Mr. Mellaire shrugged his shoulders.
“I’ve seen many queer crews in my time, Mr. Pathurst. But I never saw
one as queer as this—boys, old men, cripples and—you saw Tony the Greek
go overboard yesterday? Well, that’s only the beginning. He’s a sample.
I’ve got a big Irishman in my watch who’s going bad. Did you notice a
little, dried-up Scotchman?”
“Who looks mean and angry all the time, and who was steering the
evening before last?”
“The very one—Andy Fay. Well, Andy Fay’s just been complaining to me
about O’Sullivan. Says O’Sullivan’s threatened his life. When Andy Fay
went off watch at eight he found O’Sullivan stropping a razor. I’ll
give you the conversation as Andy gave it to me:
“‘Says O’Sullivan to me, “Mr. Fay, I’ll have a word wid yeh?”
“Certainly,” says I; “what can I do for you?” “Sell me your sea-boots,
Mr. Fay,” says O’Sullivan, polite as can be. “But what will you be
wantin’ of them?” says I. “’Twill be a great favour,” says O’Sullivan.
“But it’s my only pair,” says I; “and you have a pair of your own,”
says I. “Mr. Fay, I’ll be needin’ me own in bad weather,” says
O’Sullivan. “Besides,” says I, “you have no money.” “I’ll pay for them
when we pay off in Seattle,” says O’Sullivan. “I’ll not do it,” says I;
“besides, you’re not tellin’ me what you’ll be doin’ with them.” “But I
will tell yeh,” says O’Sullivan; “I’m wantin’ to throw ’em over the
side.” And with that I turns to walk away, but O’Sullivan says, very
polite and seducin’-like, still a-stroppin’ the razor, “Mr. Fay,” says
he, “will you kindly step this way an’ have your throat cut?” And with
that I knew my life was in danger, and I have come to make report to
you, sir, that the man is a violent lunatic.’
“Or soon will be,” I remarked. “I noticed him yesterday, a big man
muttering continually to himself?”
“That’s the man,” Mr. Mellaire said.
“Do you have many such at sea?” I asked.
“More than my share, I do believe, sir.”
He was lighting a cigarette at the moment, and with a quick movement he
pulled off his cap, bent his head forward, and held up the blazing
match that I might see.
I saw a grizzled head, the full crown of which was not entirely bald,
but partially covered with a few sparse long hairs. And full across
this crown, disappearing in the thicker fringe above the ears, ran the
most prodigious scar I had ever seen. Because the vision of it was so
fleeting, ere the match blew out, and because of the scar’s very
prodigiousness, I may possibly exaggerate, but I could have sworn that
I could lay two fingers deep into the horrid cleft and that it was
fully two fingers broad. There seemed no bone at all, just a great
fissure, a deep valley covered with skin; and I was confident that the
brain pulsed immediately under that skin.
He pulled his cap on and laughed in an amused, reassuring way.
“A crazy sea cook did that, Mr. Pathurst, with a meat-axe. We were
thousands of miles from anywhere, in the South Indian Ocean at the
time, running our Easting down, but the cook got the idea into his
addled head that we were lying in Boston Harbour, and that I wouldn’t
let him go ashore. I had my back to him at the time, and I never knew
what struck me.”
“But how could you recover from so fearful an injury?” I questioned.
“There must have been a splendid surgeon on board, and you must have
had wonderful vitality.”
He shook his head.
“It must have been the vitality . . . and the molasses.”
“Molasses!”
“Yes; the captain had old-fashioned prejudices against antiseptics. He
always used molasses for fresh wound-dressings. I lay in my bunk many
weary weeks—we had a long passage—and by the time we reached Hong Kong
the thing was healed, there was no need for a shore surgeon, and I was
standing my third mate’s watch—we carried third mates in those days.”
Not for many a long day was I to realize the dire part that scar in Mr.
Mellaire’s head was to play in his destiny and in the destiny of the
_Elsinore_. Had I known at the time, Captain West would have received
the most unusual awakening from sleep that he ever experienced; for he
would have been routed out by a very determined, partially-dressed
passenger with a proposition capable of going to the extent of buying
the _Elsinore_ outright with all her cargo, so that she might be sailed
straight back to Baltimore.
As it was, I merely thought it a very marvellous thing that Mr.
Mellaire should have lived so many years with such a hole in his head.
We talked on, and he gave me many details of that particular happening,
and of other happenings at sea on the part of the lunatics that seem to
infest the sea.
And yet I could not like the man. In nothing he said, nor in the manner
of saying things, could I find fault. He seemed generous, broad-minded,
and, for a sailor, very much of a man of the world. It was easy for me
to overlook his excessive suavity of speech and super-courtesy of
social mannerism. It was not that. But all the time I was
distressingly, and, I suppose, intuitively aware, though in the
darkness I couldn’t even see his eyes, that there, behind those eyes,
inside that skull, was ambuscaded an alien personality that spied upon
me, measured me, studied me, and that said one thing while it thought
another thing.
When I said good night and went below it was with the feeling that I
had been talking with the one half of some sort of a dual creature. The
other half had not spoken. Yet I sensed it there, fluttering and quick,
behind the mask of words and flesh.